I finally understand.
Regardless how much A, B, C, D, E
I have..
F is forever there.
P.S A is for achievement. B is for Boyfriend. C is for Cash. D is for Depression. E is for Education. F is for Friends!
A is never ending. You need to earn it.
B comes only one at a time or none.
C comes and go as they like.
D comes and haunt on you.
E is everlasting.
F is forever there regardless you see it or not.
Yes!
This is what I got it from my cousin's blog.
Been reading my cousin's blog these few days, and she has been rather emo lately. But the more i read her blog, the more i worry for her! Anne! don't think so much! I may not be free these few days with my internship keeping me away, but two months later when my internship is over, i really hope to see a happy and cheerful anne !
Then I realise,
I am only making everyone worry.
I am not doing any good either.
Others are worried about me.
I was once happy and cheerful.
I was once independent and strong.
I was once bubbly and hopping around.
I was once putting a smile on my face always.
I was once a big sister with my cousins.
I was once bringing joy to others.
I was once decisive.
I was once doing the right things.
I was once following what I've planned.
I was once a very concentrating girl.
I was once a optismistic.
I was once thinking for others.
I was once loving myself.
I was once someone people can turn to.
Now..
I am emo and sad.
I am dependent and weak.
I am sitting and rotting always.
I am putting up a false smile.
I am a problematic girl in front of my cousin.
I am bringing worries to others.
I am indecisive and always thinking a lot.
I am doing the wrong things thanks to thinking so much.
I am not planning what is going on next.
I am totally lossing focus.
I am pessimistic.
I am selfish and only thinking for myself.
I am hating myself for the lousy decisions.
I am someone who is turning to others.
Yes, that is the difference!
I was everything I wanted.
I am everything I don't want.
I want to be everything I wanted again!
This time,
For the better.
Better that the way I was!
This time,
Everyone is worried for me.
I am making lousy thoughts
Causing worries.
Looking at my tagboard.
It is obvious enough that,
EVERYONE is worried.
Yes,
I should not be selfish.
Why make everyone worry for me?
I should not be doing such things!
Where is the bubbly fun anne?
Where have she been?
I am tired of living the dark side.
I want to be fun again.
I want the rain to cry for my joy.
I want the sun to shine with me.
I want to be the person I used to be.
I want to be once again independent and strong.
I want to be able to think wisely.
I want to be able to be the backbone of KWAY Company.
I want to be someone who brings joy.
I want to get crazy and have fun.
Yes! That is what I want to do!
Regardless how I ponder,
The problem is still there.
Why not move on?
Does being emo help in solving it?
No!
So move on!
Like I say.
F are forever there.
Yes, I did not realise it.
In the past,
mine are all just hi and bye.
When this problem arrise,
I realise that they are by me.
They are supporting me.
They are helping me.
Thanks people!
I want to thanks..
Daryl: Though I did not talk to you about the matter, I know that you are very concern about it. I know that in China, you are trying to get more information about how am I doing. I will update you. I know that you are dying to know. LOL! (SPIES, you can send him this. He can't read it in China~ LOL!)
Grace: Don't be so touched your name appear here! LOL! I know that you are really concern and trying to cheer me up at the same time. I know personally that you are in such tangle too. Even so, you are trying to help me through. Well, we'd work hard =D
Han Song: I know I know, you are going to say that you did nothing. However, you really taught me alot and really, you helped me through it. How should I say. Without you, I doubt I'll realise that the world is not revolving around me alone. Without you, I doubt I'll understand so much things.
Joseph: for being emo together with me. LOL! Though it is not encouraging, yet you are feeling the way I am. I am thankful that you kept accompanying me for lunch, home, and to work to help stop me from thinking so much. Million thanks!
Kah Wai: sorry for making you worry. I know that you miss the anne in the past. I know that! Relax, 2 months later when you come back from intern, I am going to tear down your house again =D Be prepared.
Limin: yes, though she do not know what is really going on, she always help my lending her listening ear to me regardless how busy she is. She is still showering her concerns even though she is busy finding her cheque~ min, you should understand =X
Sandi: thanks my dear. Your words really did enlighten me. Yes, I know that God sent an angel like you down to help others. And really, I am helped by His words. Thanks!
Subha: I know you want to smack me! But I will want to thank you so much for being a good listener over MSN. Thanks for encouragement always. Thanks for giving me a push. I know what you want to smack me and yes, I really deserve a smack! =D
Wan Sin: Darling~ touched that your name is here? LOL! Yes, she is there and I know that though she is so busy with her schedule, she is still there trying to find sometime to talk to me. She always try to cheer me up. She will pop up with some out of the mind things and say. LOL!
Wei Hao: Though you did not say much except for a take care, at least I know that you are concern too. You are sparing PART of your worry for me. LOL! Thanks!
Thanks everyone! Thanks those whose name is not up there too. Maybe I am too tired. However, you are not forgotten. Remember that! I love all of you! **huggies**
Please do not be jealous if your name does not appear here. Anne loves you too. **huggies**
I love those who I hated too. If not for them once causing such impact, I won't hate them. Thus, I will say that they helped transform me into a stronger girl. Without them being sarcastic and scolding me, I think I am still the weak and useless anne who is alway being pampered.
Thanks everyone!
LOVE!