My Life, My Blog

I was emo-ing on the bus just now.
My thoughts got further and further.
And then, unknowningly,
I cried again!
Idiot!
When will I stop crying?
Shucks!
Then when I look out of the window,
Rain came!
Made me more emo!
Idiot~
Why can't it be sunshine when I'm emo?
Grrr!
Tried to think for the better.
Tried to think if I'd see some people to talk.
Tried to look around for familiar faces.
Shucks!
Why aren't any?!
#$%^&*^%$#@$%
Never mind.

Mood got a LITTLE better when spamming Shalala Lala on the bus.
Then my phone rang.
Oh Gosh!
I don't know what to say.
Starting was one day.
Then became two days.
Then became four days.
Piang eh!
Machiam totally no days left.
What can I do?
People have their plan this way.
All I can do is follow.
Well, when was two days,
I expected the fact that totally no days.

Then...
Four days.
Though I expected it,
Still feel very sad.
Machiam my heart kanna squeeze like sponge.
Cried rather hard.
What to do?
Follow la!
People no intention then what can you do?
By force?
Crazy la!

Well,
No choice means no choice.
Seems hopeless.
Pulling down my hopes.
Xiong Duo Ji Shao!
No choice.
Since the plan is like that,
Follow ba!

Who am I to force too?
Like I said,
TEMP/ACTING have no obligation.
People tell TEMP already very good.
Don't expect too much.
People are busy too.
Moreover, do you think a TEMP is PERM?
No obviously.
So..
Face the fact.
Mian qiang shi mei you xing fu de!

I've learnt that.
Now..
Let it go naturally.
Sooner or later.
We'd know the answer.
Though I roughly know the answer now.
Trying to do something about myself.
How I wish I can knock my head!

Grace, use wine bottle to hit my head please!!
Please hit the back of my head.
Hit it hard!
Like that,
Back head more fragile.

If you do not know what is Selective Memory Loss, definition as followed.
A form of amnesia, selective memory loss is a rare side effect of head injuries when the victim loses certain parts of his/her memory. Not much is known because this only results when certain areas of the head are traumatized. Common elements that may be forgotten: relationships, special talents (eg: juggling, whistling, instrumental talents, etc.), living area, abilities in certain areas (eg: a new gymnast forgetting she can not cartwheel yet), and events such as concerts, shows, traumatic events (eg: a death/suicide of a loved one or attempt on ones own life). More research is being done into elements that are forgotten and what areas of the skull must be traumatized to cause SML.

Yes,
So..
Grace, I'd research on which area to hit.
You'd do the hitting.
Ok,
If you don't dare,
Lend me the bottle.
I'd hit myself.

ARgh!!
I don't know what is going on now.
Seriously!
Want to enjoy but..
Difficult too.
Shucks~