My Life, My Blog

Number 12 Post

Well, I went for lunch just now.
I was talking to Joseph over the phone.
Just as I was feeling very lost and depress..
The dark clouds take over the sky.
Then water droplet drop down from the sky,
Just like water droplet roll down my cheeks.

I realise.
Yesterday in the morning,
When I was feeling well,
But unsure and nervous,
The sky was shinning bright,
Bringing sunshine to me.
After talking over the phone,
I felt more and more depress.
The dark clouds got over the sky.
I started to tear like the rain.
Then,
Tears were overflowing,
Like the sky is raining.

At the bus stop,
When I saw Ivan,
Yes, the guy who I like in primary school for so long
And when he ask me to be his girlfriend,
I rejected him.
Yes, that is the Ivan I am talking about.
I saw Ivan and we chatted.
Indeed it does cheer me up a little.
The rain stop too.
Everything turn out fine~

Today,
In the morning,
I was feeling rather glad.
Well,
Though it did not turn out well,
I was happy that I wasn't dreaming.
The sun was shinning bright.
Just like my mood.
Then, I was talking to my friend.
I felt very depress.
Dark clouds slowly take over the sky.
While talking to Joseph,
Tears roll down like water droplet fall from the sky.
It is exactly the way I am feeling!
I saw Chin Swee and went to get some food.
As I was eating,
I saw the cheerful birds cheeping.
I suddenly feel that,
The world is filled with hope.
(I know, it sounds drama)
Well,
There are people out there suffering too.
Mine is not much worst.
However, mine can be settled by time.
I cannot force time to move fast.
I only can follow for Time always move at constant speed.
Regardless how I complain that time is flying slowly,
It will never motivate TIME to move fast.
So why be depress?

Giving the same amount of time,
Regardless how I feel,
I can never change the outcome.
Since that is the case,
Happy also pass like that,
Sad also pass like that,
Why not enjoy it?
Think on the bright side.
Even if it turn out to be a failure,
At least I really enjoyed this period of time.
I don't want to turn out regreting that I did not spend it well.
So hold on to the time I have and yes.

What lost is lost.
I cannot force love to turn back.
Like stock market,
There is up and downs.
Now that it is dropping,
I will of course hope that it will jump up one day.
And on the day of the highest,
I'll sell away all.
Now that it is the lowest, I'd buy as must lot as possible.
Like that I can help pull up the stock too.
Yes, I do not know how much I can buy.
But if I try, it will be ok.
When it reaches the highest,
I shall sell all my lot and maintain at the reasonable amount.
When it drop again, I will top up again.
At this rate,
I can help the market too.
Isn't Love this way?

There are up and downs.
At times,
You need to give so much that you can substain?
At times,
You need to take some so that it can substain yourself too?
Love is giving and taking.
I do not know how much I can give and how much I can take.
I do not know if I can give anymore and I can take from it anymore.
But now that it is so low that I cannot do anything.
I dump in the amount I can already.
Now,
I must wait for it to jump up.
And when it jump up,
Things will be fine.
If the stock continue to drop,
Until the market decided to close it,
There is nothing I can do.
I've done my best in helping the stock pull up.
So yes!
Anne, pray that the stock will jump up again!
That is all I can say!