Common tesst is coming soo soon.
Yet, totally no mood to study at all.
No sense of urgency! Haha!!
Poor motivation skills!
I shall start camping at home for goodness sake!
有人说：“期望越大，失望越大”I have learnt to reject the source of hope.
People says, "The greater the expectation, the greater the disappointment"
从中我了解了，“期望越多，失望越多”
From there, I have understand, "The larger the amount of expectation, the more disappointment experienced."
因此，“越大的期望越多，越大的失望越多”
Therefore, "The larger the amount of great expecation, the larger the amount of great disappointment experienced."
当人一而再，再而三的受到期望带来的失望，
The moment one experience repeated times of disappointment,
他渐渐的会对此事感到绝望。
they will feel that things are getting meaningless.
期望是因希望而产生的。
The start of expectation is hope.
没希望，就不会有期望。
Without hope, one won't expect for more.
总而言之，
In conclusion,
没希望就没期望。
Without hope, there won't be expectation.
没期望就没失望。
Without expectation, there won't be disappointment.
没失望就不绝望。
Without disappointment, it won't be meaningless.
Well, this will eliminate the fear of being disappoint by the expectations.
I want any hope no more.
I know that the easier way is to stop having expectation.
I think it is easier to not have any hope.
Hope is the start of all problem.
And I don't wish to start any problem.
Suddenly, I realise that aren't feeling ready.
Now that I realise.
I though it was only me.
So in the end, it was all a kind of lie from the start.
Or may be it is due to my own thinking and all.
Well, at least I know the truth now.
Don't think it will ever be ready.
Talked things about it and yes.
Trust is all that I have get.
It is like a vicious cycle.
Again and again.
It is not the first time already.
The other time, it is the same reply.
"Trust".
In the end, I did and ok, things were well.
For the start.
And after which, another 1 week or less.
Things slowly got back to square one.
Talk about it again.
And yes, 1 week or less again.
And things go back to square one.
It is not the first time or second time.
It had always been happening.
Was listening to a story on radio today.
Suddenly, I got so envious of everything.
The story goes this way.
A couple, very sweet being together.
For months, they had been spending tons of time together.
It is very sweet of them.
They go out always and very often.
Their honeymoon period lasted for like don't-know-how-many months.
Well, just very long.
Then things started changing as time goes by.
Both of them got very busy and start seeing lesser.
And gradually, both of them broke up.
It is a very sad story isn't it?
Well, they are so sweet together and in the end, things change.
So sad of them.
I think this story is somewhat like mine.
Just that the story had a so much nicer plot.
Then the story ended in a very sad way.
Well, at least the female and male lead is once very fortunate.
And for my story, I don't experience the honeymoon for don't-know-how-many months.
Mine ended in days~ Haha!
And I experience the end of the story every single day.
Well, not everyone gets so fortunate isn't it?
And as for now, even if it is once a year, I am ok with it already.
I don't wish to ask for any much more.
Accept the fact and not tolerate it.
This is what I've learnt from WISP.
Tolerating will bring us no where far.
We must learn to accept it.
And yes, I am learning to accept.
And because of this acceptance, I believe that things will get better.
你是我的幸福吗~