PM: ps i love u =D ``depress + depress + more depress.. nt in the mood for anything..
Today is a long day. I had many things to hand in today, MI mini project due today, MI mini project report, BSPA lab test, BSPA Final Test. I felt very unwell too. I was suffering the whole time in school, suffering from the pain of stomach cramp. So there are so many things on.
Early in the morning, I went to school to do MI mini project. After so many millions of hours I spent on my mini project, nothing had come out. There are 3 parts to my project, IA, HPF and LPF. Yes, on the first day of the project, I manage to get my LPF out and finally, one out of 3 is done.
On my second week of my project, I tried to get HPF and yes, after millions of try, nothing came out. So Wen Bin and I decided to separate job and I will do the IA. Finally, IA is done! So happy! Many weeks, the circuit come and goes. I did not get a result as expected.
At this very last week, my IA is working perfectly, my LPF too. I am so happy that both of it works. Well, stucked with HPF for millions of weeks and seriously, it is getting no where far. And then, it reaches the stage where Mr. Foo asked me to give up on my HPF and fine, I shall just give up on it. I really had no idea how to go about doing it already.
Today, early morning, I went to do MI mini project. I wanted to study BSPA however; MI project needed more attention at that time. Fine, I got along doing it. Everything was fine and going well. Then, it was BSPA lab test. I manage to get it all right and done. So happy and glad.
I was suffering from the painful stomach cramp and thus, my moral and mood was very low. I went to do MI lab. I tried to combine the IA and LPF. By right it suppose to work. However, it did not. So I tested the IA alone and I think it is the machine problem, the answer it gave me was totally diffferent from what I got in the morning.
I change from machine to machine and yes, I got it again. Time was ticking and I wanted to study BSPA as I am having my final paper later. Just then, when I wanted to show Mr. Foo my circuit (which was working at individual parts) it fails me again. Seriously, what is wrong?
Time was flying pass and seriously, I felt damn stress up and damn depress. Finally, I broke down in front of Wan Sin and Li Chao. It is the second time I broke down in class due breadboarding circuit.
For this two times it was when I tried many times on the same circuit, connecting it again and again; I finally did not get it. I was depressed and all stress up, and finally leading to break down.
After MI lab was BSPA final test. Yes, I had my mood brought forward to BSPA and I did not even have last min reading before I start my BSPA paper. Wen Bin sat in front of me and asked me what happen and how was MI lab. I told him and then, I was in tears. Seriously, I need to control my tears.
When I am given the paper, I started writing UNWILLINGLY. My penmanship was totally like rubbish. I flip open the cover page and yes; nothing came into my filled-with-MI mind. 4 simple questions which are exactly similar to our lecture notes which I studied so hard since last night till then. I did all the questions found in the lecture notes again and again. End up; when I receive the paper, all that was flowing in my mind was MI, MI and more MI!
I wanted to hand in blank paper however; I cannot let Raj or Kanna down. So I tried to scribble some not really readable and small words. I know for sure it is wrong, however, I was totally in a wrong mood to do anything. Half way through the paper, I was in tears again. All I wanted was to just leave the place and go home.
Very soon, I left the room and I saw Justin. He asked me about the paper and yes, I talk to him until I tears again. I know it is like tap water running non-stop. I wanted to stop but I cannot. Then, I went to the library and visited the toilet and start crying like nobody business. All the tears drop and roll down.
Yes, I know I should control and control. However, I could not. I saw Han Song and friends, told them what happen and yes, cried again! (I wonder where I get so many tears) I went to the bus stop with them, took the same bus as Han Song and then cried on the bus again. if I were to accumulate, I think I can get fill more than a 500ml bottle.
I went to eat with Han Song at Toa Payoh and then, we went back home respectively. Subha talked to me and then, I was crying again. I decided to give up on MI mini project. 12% gone for nothing. Yes, I still have tomorrow, however; it is too depressing for me to do anymore on MI already. it had already cause my BSPA to drop grade.
I was pinning hope on BSPA to pull up my grade. End up; it is just some wishful thinking of mine. BSPA is another borderline pass module already. It is finalise already. No more A for BSPA. Fantastic! A more depressing matter for me to cry on. There goes my grade. Well done Anne!
Despress + depress. Seriously I will suffer from depression.
P.S. Justin, thanks for the heart-warming message, it was really sweet of you. I will take care =D
P.S. Han Song, thanks for accompanying me. Thanks for cheering me up too. Thanks a lot. Really needed all that at that time. Thanks =D
P.S. Subha, thanks for the talk with me. Though it did not lead far, I still want to thank you so much for listening to my complains.
P.S. Wen Bin, I am ubber sorry for giving up hope on MI mini project. It is my fault for making you lose 12% of overall. Ubber sorry!
P.S. Jolene, thanks for your listening ear. I am thankful. Thanks so much.
P.S. Xue Zhen, Li Chao, Stella, Jolene, thanks for helping me pack my bag just now. Did not want to enter the room with tears. Thanks!!
So tired to blog yet, so much to say.
Firstly,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JIUNN YUAN!!
Today, I went out with SOMEONE (shall not reveal unless approved) to get Chinese New Year clothes down at Bugis. It was a fruitful buy! I bought many things while SOMEONE did not buy anything at all! This is the first time I bought so many things and yet, SOMEONE did not get a SINGLE thing. My first buying-things-shopping experience.
It is so tiring to be a woman! I really wonder how did they shop so much and yet, they are not tired at all. My leg is now rather broken from all the walking. It needs a good massage~
I met SOMEONE at about 1.30pm at Toa Payoh Interchange and then, we headed down to Bugis to shop. The train was filled with people on a Saturday afternoon. Do not really like going out on a Saturday as the street is filled with people. However, I can only go out on Saturday as Sunday is the day for homework.
Ok, I was walking around and first, I headed down to Bugis Street, trying my luck to get some jeans. I walk practically EVERY shop trying to find suitable jeans. Seriously, Bugis Street sell jeans and pants for people who are damn skinny and slim. Their jeans are all skinnies and the best of all, they are damn low!
I tried a couple of jeans however, they are mostly too low and because I am not skinny and slim, I look fat in those! I found this jeans which is so nice in colour and design. However, the size is too big for me. (argh! shucks!!)
In the end, I bought a cargo pants down at Bugis Street. Yes, it is my second cargo pants. The first one was my working pants. I just realise it was men's cutting with size 30. The last time, I went to buy it with Daryl, it was a last minute buy. I just took any black colour pants and went to try. There was only 24 and 30. Hello, LOOK at me! How is it ever possible for me to fit into a 24?! So I just make do with the 30.
Yes, I kept complaing I look extremely fat in that 30 when I came out to of the fitting room. I kept complaining to Daryl about it. Yes, he was damn pissed off. Seriously, I think he is practically fu yang-ing me. He kept saying "no no no, I don't look fat." After asking a couple of friends, they said I indeed look fat in that! %^&*^%$& Liar~
Fine, enough of it. I bought a light beige cargo pants. Sweet!! I love it =D I was pondering over which to get and end up, SOMONE and I came to a conclusion to get the beige one. Yes~ Nice =D While walking to Bugis Junction, I saw this Zinc shop and went shopping inside. I wanted to get a backpack to replace my current one. So I bought one backpack at Zinc. After walking so much, we went back to Bugis and then we started shopping again.
We wanted to go Samuel and Kelvin however, before walking to Samuel and Kelvin, we walk pass IP Zone. I went into IP Zone and yes, saw this ubber nice cargo pants again (argh!!) I tried and yes, I love it! So, there goes MORE money for pants which is not the main motive of going out today. Then we went to Samuel and Kelvin, SOMONE went to try some cargo pants which SOMEONE wanted to get. However, it was skinny pants and I find that it is odd wearing it! Drop the idea~
Then we went to eat at Aijisan. Yummy! Nice food~! After eating, we went to get drinks and went to the toilet. Yes, the most disgusting thing that happen!! I just visited the toilet and wanted to wash my hands. The taps are more high-end at Bugis Junction, the taps are automated and there are no sink holes like before. It is just a BIG opening just some where below the tap, the sink is black marbled too.
Then, taking for granted, I just place my hands at the tap. And when I look down, water was splashing at some brown coloured thing with feelers. And when I look hard, it was beloved XIAO QIANG!! (omg omg OMG!!!!) The next thing that happen was to keep myself shut and move to the next sink. I did not want to make a commotion and start scream as xiao qiang was pathetically being splash by tap water.
Then we went to Kinokuniya to read some books. SOMEONE's sister called and wanted SOMEONE to go and help carry the new CPU for their desktop. So I accompanied over as we are suppose to continue shopping after carrying it. We cab down to SOMEONE's place to put the CPU down and I went to borrow a formal top from SOMEONE's sister. I had one however, it was rather transparent and easily crumpled so I found one formal top from her and borrowed. Thanks SOMEONE's sister (well, I know she don't read this)
And Next we went to Sengkang Giordano to get jeans. After going so many place, I still end up buying at Giordano. Seriously! I bought this Mid Rise Boot Cut jeans at $32 after discount =D Cheaper than what I saw 4 weeks ago, $69 before discount =D Sweet~ I had been eyeing on this jeans since 4 weeks ago and finally, I bought it!! YAY!! Finally I got my jeans. I saw this grey coloured jeans which is straight cut. Felt like trying out, however, time was running late. SI i decided to let fate decide if I am going to get it.
Fruitful day =D
I went home after which. I took a 1 hour bus ride and finally, I reach home and yawn! Here I am blogging. In total, I bought 2 cargo pants, 1 jeans, 1 bag. YAY!!! What a day! Tired from walking. Tired from carrying items. Tired from spending money!!
This is the first time I bought my CNY clothings without mummy. Sense of satisfaction. I am starting to grow up =p Jeans and shirt for CNY this year. I'd find a chance to take picture of it.
Thanks SOMEONE for accompanying me today.
Fruitful yet tiring day!
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