My niece and nephew were here for the whole day. I was playing with them for the whole of today. In the afternoon, I was suffering from headache so I went to sleep. Neither did I know, I slept from 2.30pm to 6.30pm.
I was charging my MP3 and then, I over charge it. When I unplug it, the battery is only 3 bars full. However, initally I saw the word FULL at the battery bar. I am not sure what happen. And then, now I am spamming the battery so I can re-charge and see if it is my MP3 battery problem. I hope it is not.
I love my MP3 a lot and do not wish there is any problem with it. Pray hard!!
Oh yes, Limin bought a digital camera, Fujifilm Z series. She bought it at the IT fair for only $279!! It is a 7.2MP digital camera. She bought the one which I was interested that time when I went for IT fair. However, I do not know if Fujifilm is as stable or not. And it has many colours and Limin bought the RED one!! Oh no, I totally love the red because it is bright red!! ARGH!! Can I have one too?
I saw this jacket selling online. I love it so much. Yes, I said I wanted to quit online shopping. However, it is only US$5.99. So cheap!! It is RED!! And I love the design. However, there is only US size L. there is US size S, which is my size; however, it is in PINK!! Pink jacket are hard to match!! I want the red one so much!! Arh!!
Something is wrong with my Microsoft Words. For some reason, whenever I have a spelling error, it does not get underline red and it states that it is correct. So now I have to do manual spelling check. I hate doing manual spelling checks.
Oh yes, the other day I was reading newspaper, Chinese newspaper. Well, it is free, so I just take it and read. The topic was "Women are Scared of 'Cold'." The writer said that her mother, a Chinese sinseh, will always tell her that woman cannot let themselves be ‘cold’.
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Cold will let one be fat!
For a woman, cold is a very troublesome thing. If you are cold internally, there will be poor blood circulation and thus, hand and feet will be cold and often period cramp.Besides, women's internal are very scared of cold. Once the body becomes cold, it will store up fats to give warmth, and then the body will be filled with fats.
The writer's mother will always tell her that women should not be picky about food and stop eating meat and just eat fruits and vegetable because they are scared of fat. However, fruits and vegetable are "cold" food. Actually, red meat, especially beef and mutton, contain lots of calcium, which is can help prevent low blood pressure.
And, sitting in front of the computer at work everyday, sitting in front of the television after work everyday, can result in blood flowing to the tummy area. If there is a lack of walking around, the blood clot will all accumulate, the pelvic cavity will have problems too.
In an everyday summer Singapore, people tend to drink cold drinks. However, drinking cold drinks for woman is not good at all. Imagine all the cold air from the cold drinks accumulating at your womb, imagine how serious it is. Especially during period, women should even more not take in cold drinks; cold drinks will make the blood clot up and unable to discharge out. Leaving the blood clot in our body is surely unsafe.
Lastly, wearing clothes that will unveil your tummy is no good. If you are usually in aircon room, remember to keep yourself warm. Do not take it as a joke.
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Ok, it is in Chinese initally and I tried my best to translate into English. I know it is terrible. Well, that is the best I can do.
The main thing is I realise that it is very true. When I consume cold drinks, whenever it comes to my period, I will be suffering from unbearable pain. Once, I was working and because it is so cold at my work place and there is hot water cooler at my work place, I drink warm water everyday. And for that month, I did not experience pain at all!
Ok, I need to keep away from cold drinks. However, which girl is not tempted with sweet and cold drinks? Well, a research found that girls love sweet food and guys love salty food. Oh, I have to resist from Coke, Pepsi, Sprite and many more. And the thing is, I cannot drink my bubble tea anymore!! ARHH!!
Oh yes, I was talking to my friend who had a problem and I am so glad that I had make my friend think better and not think of all the bad things. I am so glad that he finally found the goal and path he should take. I am happy for him too. Just remember, regardless what is the outcome, we are all supporting you =D
I am feeling so happy and relax now. Whee~ I am happy, I am glad!
thanks for buying the card; thanks for being persevere; thanks for opening up;
actually u felt like wise;
glad i replied;
MSN PM: i choose to believe you change better.. dejected with results.. ``9 days..
I am very disappointed with my result as seen from my pm. LOL!
I am staying home for the whole of today. Today, my niece and nephew will be coming down. I presume that is true. LOL!
Yesterday, I was online for the whole day. I was working at NUS and then, I had nothing to do. My supervisor is busy with meeting and moving in and out of the place. So I had to rot in front of the computer.
Early in the morning, as usual, I took bus down to NUS and then halfway through, my friend called. I was talking to my friend for the whole journey. My friend seems to be very angry with some matter. I had no idea why. So I talk to my friend and try to clear the misunderstanding my friend had. Finally, the misunderstand is cleared when I reach NUS.
Then, I receive a sms which is my beloved result. I was rather sad with my result. It is mainly disappointment rather than sadness. I was disappointed with my grades. And when I reach my work place, I went online and check out my results. I saw my GPA and seriously, it is the lowest in my 2 years.
I have to accept it. There is nothing I can do about it either.
Then, I was online and talking to Limin for the whole of yesterday. I was so bored! Then I blog and did quizzes online. I was seriously bored!
Yes, I had to kill the bug, however, my supervisor and I presume is software error. So we wanted to try downloading the programme again and see if the bug is still present. If yes, I will have to fix it. If not, I have completed my first objective which is to KILL THE BUG!! LOL!
If I complete my first objective already, I can move on to the second objective which is relatively easy. All I have to do is type the codes which I love doing it. I am given one and a half month to KILL the bug. If I complete the task, I have one and a half month more to type the code.
Initally, I am given 2 months to type the code. My supervisor is so nice. He gave me one month to type my final report. Well, as I am working in DSO, my report had to be checked through by my supervisor to see if there are any relevent things which I cannot add into my report.
Seriously, it is so troublesome to work in DSO. However, I love my attachment! As other people tell me about their attachment, I realise that mine is actually very free. Well, my supervisor does not really care about what I am doing because as a research base, I cannot be staring at the computer and all the codes for the whole day.
He says that he himself will turn on MSN and chat when doing codes. He himself will go online and play some games. So he says it is normal. So now, I am chatting and playing games openly. In the past, when my supervisor or other staff comes into the room, I will close my chat and games. LOL!
I am talking online. After lunch, I was messaging the whole day long. I was so bored!
In the night, I reach home, bathe and online. Then I went to eat my dinner. Guess what? After dinner, I was sitting on the sofa to watch television and I fall alseep. At 11 plus pm, I woke up and crawl back into my room. Then I receive a sms and I was replying sms until I sleep. At 12 plus am, I was woken up by Jeremy's call. LOL!
Sorry Jeremy, I did not talk to you. I was really tired.
Sorry Jermine, I said that I did not call you last night. I was really tired that I fall asleep. Sorry about it!
Today morning, I woke up at 7+ am. Then, I was rotting on the bed and thinking through. I thought a lot. Well, I think i am thinking too much. I really hope that things will turn out fine when things go back in place.
I am taking a break now. I hope that this break will turn out well. I hope that this break can help think through both sides. I hope things will turn better.
taking a break;
hope turn out well;
What Your Handwriting Says About You |
 You are highly energetic. You are a passionate, intense, vigorous person. You are somewhat outgoing, but you're not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical. You are very detail oriented and meticulous. You are a careful thinker and a true intellectual. You don't a lot of space, and you prefer to spend time with others. You are a little nosy and intrusive. You sometimes don't give people enough space. You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart. You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous. |
You Are a Pinky |
 You are fiercely independent, and possibly downright weird. A great communicator, you can get along with almost anyone. You are kind and sympathetic. You support all your friends - and love them for who they are. You get along well with: The Ring Finger Stay away from: The Thumb |
You Would Do Most Things For Love |
 You are willing to go pretty far for love - but not far enough to compromise your core values. Love is a priority for you, and you'll go further than most people to hold on to someone you love. But killing for love? Or even taking a bullet? Probably out of the question. No matter what, you love yourself the most! |
You Are Mostly Virtuous |
 You are a good person, or at least as good as you can be. You try to do the right thing, and you have ended up with many virtues. While you are virtuous, you aren't a saint. There's definitely a bit of devilishness deep in your heart! Where You Are Virtuous You have the virtue of Frugality. You spend your money wisely, and you are not wasteful. You have the virtue of Order. You let each thing have it's place, and you keep your life in order. You have the virtue of Justice. You treat other people fairly, even when you don't feel like it. Where You Are Not Virtuous You lack the virtue of Sincerity. You don't tell the truth if it doesn't suit you. You lack the virtue of tranquillity. Your life tends to be eventful and dramatic. |
You Are an "It Girl" |
 You're outgoing, friendly, and charismatic. You are aware of your image, and you are constantly improving yourself. You're definitely the type of girl people love to be around! |
| Your Love is Based on Friendship |
 Companionship and openness are the most important parts of your relationships. Whoever you love should be your best friend. And falling in love with a good friend is never out of the question. Why your love can last: You only fall for people who you truly understand... and who truly understand you Why your love can fail: Sometimes you don't admit how important physical chemistry is to you |
http://www.blogthings.com/whatisyourlovebasedonquiz/">What Is Your Love Based On?
HAPPY WHITE VALENTINES!!
Today is the day where the people give present to those who gave them one month ago.
Initially, the legend was that Women gives guys chocolate on Valentines' Day and one month later, the guys will give white chocolate in return.
Well, now, guys will give girls chocolate, flowers and etc on Valentines' Day. And girls will forget the fact of in return. LOL! So everyone usually forgets about White Valentines' Day.
Well, on Valentines' Day, nobody give me anything, so on White Valentines' Day, I am not giving anything. LOL!
This year's Valentines' Day, I am busy studying ESA at home.
This year's White Valentines' Day, I am busy slacking at work.
This year's Lunar Valentines' Day, lunar 7 month 7th day, which is August 7, I will be counting down to last day of work.
Yesterday, I had a long talk with my beloved cousin, Kah Wai. So these are what she said about it. Direct extract from her blog. http://www.dignity-xwithlove.blogspot.com/
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lols. dun people always say girls think a lot? :) talking to someone close to me on the phone. she's telling me about her love relationship experience. After knowing her for so long, she did not tell me abt the guys who had cheated on her. yes. she's my cousin :)
can u believe, she was with a guy for 2 years, and he was also in a relationship with 7 other girls? Then she was with another guy, and realize that he loved someone else more than her?
she came up with a concept of falling into a well.
relationship 1:
she looked in the well, and the well was functioning properly. She thought it was safe to fall into it. But when she fall, thinking that it was safe, thinking there would be slopes to support her, there was nth. nth was there for her. therefore, she ended up hurting herself.
relationship 2:
She looked knew there was smth wrong with the well. so she did not step inside. but after further checking, she realized the well did not have any support at all.
relationship 3:
She looked into the well, and the well was functioning properly. She knew it would be save to fall. So she did. When she fell, there were others living in the well too. They were pushing her up the well.. and so she got away from the well, eventually.
After listening to her stories. She is not the only one who feels scared abt new wells. I mean, life is so scary. Humans can do anything they desire. They can be like angels to you, the next minute, behind ur back, they could stab u like Hades of the Underworld.
So i looked back on my past serious relationships..
relationship a:
i looked into the well, and i knew it was safe. i fell in it, and there were slopes to support me. however, theres was smth about the water in it i did not like. So i climbed back up.
relationship b:
I looked into the well, i knew it would be a dangerous fall. But i still fell in it. There were thorns and stones along the way that gave me scars. when i touched the water, i was not the only one in the well too. There was other people, pushing me up the well. And then i realize, not only are they pushing me up, there was no bucket for me to support my fall. So i just climb back up :)
Although, i have not experience a major cheating experience as what the person close to me have experience, her stories scares me. you never know what the next relationship is like, and there is no assurance. You can never know if the guy would love you wholeheartedly, or if in his heart, there is someone else better. Something that no actions and words can prove.
Every girl wants to be a guy's only love. and of course. the best. if she's not the best, she might as well forget about it. Its because of all these factors, my cousin and i suddenly freaked out over the phone just now. Is it safe to get in a relationship now? or.. be single so no one can hurt you?
I'm so afraid i cannot cope with relationships after i had the phone call with her. I had a really long thinking. Am i able to fall into a well that will support me? Suddenly i had all these questions in my mind. Or maybe, i really don't have the confidence to be someone's other half. I mean, like what normal girls like me and my cousins, we dun want to be 2nd best.
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After reading it, I am unsure why I felt so like crying and yes, I had to bear with it because I am at my work place. I felt such sadness in my heart. I did not know that my love life had such impact on her too.
Seriously, I am scared. I am scared of getting into relationships. I am scared that I will get cheated again regardless in what way. Now that as I walk, whenever I see a well which attract me, I'd just stand by the well and look. I do not dare to step into the well.
I am scared. And because I am scared, I had did something which is out of my mind. So what I know the truth? So what I get to dig out the past? So what that it is a different script now and the past? I am scared that my side of script is the same, CHEATING.
Jeremy said before, it is scary to realise that someone does not have bad points when together. The reason are simple.
(a) The person is really like that when he/she is with you. He/She is actually showing the right side of themselves and thus, their partner find them perfect.
(b) The person is hiding something from you and thus, as time goes pass, he/she gets what they wanted, they will show their bad points. Then, they are not being truthful.
I am scared about these. I had been picking up the wrong well to enter always. Well, never judge a book by its cover, never judge a well by its look. It may seem save to enter, the water may seem safe to consume, however, you will never know what it is like until you really enter it.
If there are not only one person in the well, why not just get out of it? If there are already someone in the well, why not close the opening so others will not fall into it? I don't wish to fall into one, and then realise that there are more than me alone.
Looks can be deceiving, Hearts can be deceiving too. Now that I had trepidation over relationship, I am scared. I am scared that I cannot cope in relationship. I am scared that I will become very sensitive, I am scared that I will yi shen yi gui. I am really scared.
Like what my cousin said, I, or should I say we, am just an ordinary girl who wish to be loved and supported. I wish to be other people's one and only too. I wish to be their best too. I don't wish to be placed second. I don't wish to fall into it and thus, I get all hurt!
meant for u;
understand pls;
I gotten my results and seriously, I am very disappointed.
If you read my one of my post in the past about MI project thus affecting my BSPA, that is the reason why I am so depress about it.
My BSPA got B+ and yes, I must admit that if not for MI project and Mr. Foo who made my mood totally bad and cry over it, I will not get just a B+. I am sure that I will not just get a B+ in my case.
The questions are similar to those that appear in my lecture notes and I studied so hard for it. Thanks to MI, which cause my feelings to go down and down, I had totally no mood for BSPA. I am very angry about it.
Now that I get a C+ for MI only, I really wish to curse and swear! I did not do the project for MI and if I get a C+, it is already far too good than what I expected. I thought that I will get a C- or below.
If not for my MI and BSPA, my grades should be higher. Way higher. If not for idiotic Foo and his idiotic help, I won't be so depress with a C+. If not for his idiot attention, I won't get depress and thus, break down.
If not because I broke down, I would be able to attend BSPA paper with FULL attention and FULL focus. It is all MI fault!!!
I am really bu fu over my BSPA. So is it my fault for having to be too emotional and thus, bringing the mood forward? That day, my period came too and it was unbearable.
So is it my fault? Am I pushing the blame away to other things? Am I suppose to be contented with what result I've gotten?
Seriously this is the first time I get such low grades. I am utterly depress! Someone help me!!
i choose to believe..
u've change.
Whitney Houston (feat. Deborah Cox) - Same Script Different Cast Lyrics
[SPOKEN]
[Whitney:] Um? Hey Deb.
[Deborah Cox:] Mmm hmm?
[WH:] Thank you for being woman enough to come.
[DC:] Whitney, what's this about?
[SUNG]
[WH:] I know he's leaving me for you.
[DC:] Who said that? Who told you that it's true?
[WH:]What is he tellin' you?
Could it be the same things that he told me?
[DC:] He told me that he loved me.
[WH:] I heard that.
[DC:] He told me I was (harmony) beautiful. How did you know? How did you know?
[WH:] Because I played that scene before.
[CHORUS:]
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.
[DC:]What you're saying could be true.
But how can I take advice from you?
[WH:]I'm not hating,
But I wish the one before me
Would have warned me too babe.
[DC:] Don't say no more. La La La La La La La La La
[WH:] Uncover your ears, girl.
[DC:] I'm not listening. La La La La La La La La La
[WH:]But I know you hear me.
Maybe my reasons are wrong,
But I know that you believe me.
[CHORUS:]
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.
[DC] It's your fault you didn't love him enough.
[WH:]That's the problem.
I loved him too much.
And when you love him
He becomes unattracted to you.
[DC:] Oh no, he's changed and I'll prove you wrong.
[WH:] No you won't.
[DC:] So go away. Leave us the hell alone! He loves me.
[WH:] He'll hurt you.
[DC:] He'll stay with me.
[WH:] He'll leave you.
[WH and DC:] For sure! For sure!
[CHORUS:]
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.
[DC:]This is a retake of my life.
You were his star for many nights.
But now the roles have changed.
I'm the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause this will last.
I'm the future, you're his past.
[WH:]This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
[WH and DC:]Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
[WH:] Enjoy it now.
[DC:] Enjoy just now.
[WH:] It won't last.
[DC:] I know it will last.
[WH and DC:] Same script, different cast.
Die Die Die!!
Tomorrow!!
17 more hours!!
My phone will ring with a sms.
NPal will be updated with latest news.
My school email will receive an email.
At night, my hotmail will receive a notification.
My blog will be updated.
My carving will change.
The day after tomorrow..
I will receive a letter to my house.
Die Die Die!!
You people must be blur.
Tomorrow is my result day.
9.00am is the time!!
Results will be sent via sms to my phone.
NPal will be updated with my current result.
School will send mail to our school mail.
My hotmail will get a notice that I have mail in my school mail.
I will update my results to my blog.
My carving of 3.4 gpa for yr2 sem2 will be either fulfil or fail.
Serious Serious Serious!!
Give me a buddha leg to hug now!!
I am blogging during work again. I know I am so free. I am suppose to find the bug and KILL it. However, I had problem using the programme and seriously, my supervisor isn't free. So I just come online and blog =D
About the post on the HIGH CLASS GUY who is going to make me spend $150+ on phone bill, everyone says that it is rather funny to read it. I wonder why? I admit that I was getting more and more furious when I was typing the post. Well, I wonder why too.
I am eating bread everyday just to save as much money as possible. I am surviving on bread for the past few days. On Monday and Tuesday, there are people to treat me. Yesterday, I had bread for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Mummy did not cook and I did not want to spend money.
Do you know pathetic I am now? I am working and yet, I have to survive on BREAD alone. Seriously, people who pity me, please treat me a good meal!! I am seriously dying on bread and bread alone!!
Oh yes, I got to know that the HIGH CLASS GUY did not get to read my blog because blogger is not accessable in China. Initially, I thought that he read it and then, he did not catch the meaning behind it. I was telling another friend of mine, is it that I did not deliver it well or is it that it sounds too retarded to be believe?
Well, seems like it is neither. LOL! I got to know that there is someone behind the picture who is delivering it to the guy. I shall keep the person's particular a secret. The person don't wish to have his/her name appearing here on my blog. So I shall keep it to myself.
It is 2pm!! In another 4 hours time, I am going home from work. Whee! That is the best time of life! End of work. Seriously, I think that work is quite relax though. However, imagine having to sit in front of the computer the whole day. Well, who to blame when I wanted to choose programming over biology experiment?
I got to know that my blog entries had been sent over to other people. And yes, what will be that person's reaction when he read it? Will he cry? Will he be very sad? Will I hurt him again? Or he will not feel anything because he is "enlightened"? I really don't know.
It is all because of guiltness, I had done some people wrong and I had did many grave mistakes. Am I too soft hearted or is it normal to have such reaction? I really do not know. I am scared that I will hurt people again.
Seriously, Anne, you are contridicting yourself!!
Regardless what, I have made the decision and yes, I will try to fulfil it!! I cannot afford to have another history repeating and turns out to be wrong wrong wrong! I don't wish to be hurt or hurting others. So lets be cruel now than later.
Oh yes, I am messaging Limin now and she randomly sent me a message about my post on Sex can lower cholesterol level and I randomly replied her that Sex can reduce stress. Suddenly, a news report came accross my mind. I remember once, someone told me about this girl who had sex with many guys.
Her view was that she was being bored and she wanted to try to break the World Guiness Record. I could not find the news online and I will post the news when I found it. She was a top scorer and went overseas to study via scholarship. She had multiple sex with many different guys in a very short period.
Why did I think of that? It is because I was thinking that she must be so stress up and have sex so many times in such short period of time. She is seriously too stress up! LOL!
Instead of the news about the girl, I found this report saying that Young Girls, Older Boyfriend, More Sex. How true is it? It is quite lengthy, however, do have read it. It is quite all rounded report. http://www.webmd.com/sex-relationships/guide/20061101/young-girls-older-boyfriends
I am bored and yes, very bored. Sorry to those who read my blog! I had been posting about SEX ISSUE this 2 days. LOL! I will stop! LOL! Though it is enriching~ Haha!!
Time to go back to work =D whee~
Today is another boring day at work. In the morning, I was listening to radio. I did not do anything at all. Until 10+ am, my supervisor shows me the BUG I need to get rid off, I had to do some research. I was surfing net the WHOLE day looking for some clue to get rid of the BUG.
I wanted to try out my programme; however, my supervisor is using the computer. I have a computer to use myself. Why do I have to use my supervisor's computer? The reason is because my supervisor's computer has the newest programme which appears to be where the bug is.
My supervisor is currently doing his project too. So we are "sharing" the computer. Therefore, for the WHOLE of today, I did not use my supervisor’s computer and yet, I was staring at the computer for the whole day surfing the same thing over and over again.
As I was saying, I was listening to radio in the morning. The DJ said that if you do not have time for morning exercise, wake up earlier and have sex. The bottom is an extract of it. Due to the fact that it is very long, I took the main parts out. You may visit the website to read the whole report. http://www.neilbaum.com/articles/ah_sex_benefits.html
Sexual intimacy is a form of exercise. Each time that you engage in the sex act you burn approximately 100 calories. Of course, if you have sex like Lady Chatterly's Lover, then it's a lot more. Now 100 calories a pop doesn't sound like much, but if you engage in sex 2-3 times a week, that's 5000-7500 calories a year.
Another advantage of regular sex is that it can actually lower your total cholesterol level, and increase the high-density lipoproteins (HDL) or the good cholesterol. So if you indulge yourself in an extra steak with butter, indulge yourself in extra sex and you'll be calorically even.
Regular sex increases the level of estrogen in women which results in an increase in the blood supply to the vagina keeping the vaginal tissues young, supple and moist. There is even evidence that sex prior to or at the time of the menstrual period may relieve the symptoms of premenstrual syndrome (PMS). (In that case, there is no mood swing. LOL!)
Sexual intimacy also results in the release of endorphins which is the ultimate painkiller or analgesic. Endorphins are many times more potent that morphine, the most powerful man-made analgesic in use for the relief of pain. So the next time you have a headache, don't turn down sex but turn on and your relief is just a ? away.
Sex is good for stress. Never let the sun set on an argument. Having sex is an effective method of reducing the tensions that exist between partners. You can't be arguing when you are having good sex.
Ok, that is roughly it. So that means, when you grow up, have sex often. LOL! That you cannot say that you are too busy to exercise, unless you say that you are so busy to even have sex. LOL!
Next time, when you are having a headache, backache or whatever aches, stop popping the dangerous panadol and have sex. It can help you more efficiently than panadol. Besides, everyone should know about the danger of panadol. If you do not know, ask me to forward you the mail.
I suddenly fall in love so much with the song Same Script Different Cast. I know it is rather old song. I fall in love totally! I had been spamming it these days.
Oh yes, I was being bored and then, I was thinking about my past relationship. And I found a common point.
The first guy, Guy A, his surname is Ng, 黄. I had a very huge crush on him. However, I did not have the intention to be together with him either. I do not know why but I kept rejecting him. I had a very huge crush on him and then, I always look out for him. In the end, regardless how many times he asks, I reject him. Why? I totally do not know.
The second guy, Guy B, his surname is Ong, 王. I was with him and yes, I did fall for him. I loved him before. It was rather a sweet relationship at the middle part. As time goes by, he starts to want me to change to suit him. He wants me to change into the way he wanted. We had a tiff and yes, the criteria for us to get back together are to change my character and temper to the way he wanted.
When I was trying to change, he is actually behind my back wooing another girl. I asked him many times and he said that I am over sensitive and ask me to change this and that. I was foolish enough to try to change. However, as time flies, I get to know that he did not have only one girlfriend, he cheated me again and again. Seriously, it is the same situation Jolin Tsai was in before.
Jolin Tsai recently told the news about Jay Zhou and her. Jay Zhou had an affair and when the gossip start to fly, Jolin did confront Jay about it and he said that they are just friends. When things get very obvious, he still lie to Jolin and say that they are just friends. Then, she finally gets to know about it and best of all was that she is the last to know.
That is the same situation I was in before. Guy B cheated me and then, everytime I question him, he will say that they are just friends. When things get very obvious and everyone is talking about it, he still says that other people are just being gossipy and they are innocent. When I get to know about it, it was already over. I am already the last person to know about it.
I totally understand the feeling that Jolin Tsai was in before. I am the last person to know and in school, I still have to face him like nothing happened at all. I had to show a happy face to prevent others from asking and questioning. I had to act brave front.
Then the third is Guy C, his surname is Ng, 黄, too. I had no intention to be with him either. I had no feelings for him and yes, I totally have not a single tiny winy little bit interest in being with him. However, I agree to it unintentionally. Thus, it drags into many things.
The fourth is Guy D, his surname is Ong, 王. I did fall for him before and yes, I had a very sweet time with him. I admit that the time we used to have been very memoriable. Due to some reason, we had drifted far away and yes, we had finally broken off.
Then, something happened again and yes, there is hope for getting back. However, the criteria for him to accept me again are for me to change to the way he wanted. He wanted me to change my character and my attitude and etc. Now that I have seen the world more, I did not try to change for him.
If someone wants to accept another person, they will accept willingly. Besides, I believe that with my calibre, I can find someone who can accept me true heartly. =D Suddenly I feel that I am so confident! LOL!
Ok, that is my life with Ng, Ong, Ng, Ong. LOL! I love heard this song on radio and it is very meaningful. The lyrics are posted below.
Don Henley & Patti Symth - Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough
Now, I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.
Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.
And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No
Oh yes, I forgotten to say. I am rather furious that this month, my bill is going to be very high. Thanks to someone who did not tell me that his phone auto-roaming is two way charge. And when he called me for about 2 and half hours, his bill is $300+.
He then told someone and that someone tell me that my bill is going to be about half of the amount he paid, which means $150+. Very nice of him! I have to pay it myself.
And the best of all is that I am getting allowance for this month only because I get pay during work. And that means, my 4 weeks of $50 each, has now resort to $50 for 4 weeks. It is so nice of the guy to do something so harsh to me.
He knows that his bill is two way charge and yet, he talk to me for so long. He called me to chat and yes, I am being VERY NICE to chat with him. Yet, he did something like that to me. That is for being NICE to him!
You people may say that I'm foolish to not know that it is a two-way charge or something like that. However, the last time my friend called from overseas to my phone, which has free incoming, it was totally free for me. My friend need to pay and I do not have to.
If I know that I have to pay $150+, I would not have talk to him for so long! Does that guy know how much $150 is to me? I have to pocket out the money MYSELF and pay it. A rich guy like him will never know how precious $150 is to me. I had to work and save up just to get $150.
I am not like you (the guy). You need not work because your parents thinks you are HIGH CLASS and my part time job is meant for LOW CLASS. So someone so LOW CLASS like me have to do up this kind of jobs to serve you this HIGH CLASS people.
As a LOW CLASS citizen, I am not like the HIGH CLASS person who spend money without thinking. Neither am I like the HIGH CLASS person who have his parents to pay his bills for him. Why would a LOW CLASS citizen spend money on phone calls?
LOW CLASS people like me will spend my money WISELY and not on something which is useless. Even if I am going to spend $150 talking on the phone, I rather spend it on someone worthwhile. I would rather use this $150 to buy somethings I like, like crumpler bag!
Seriously, this guy is not worth me forking out $150 just to chat. This conversation is far too expensive.
Wait till my bill comes which is the end of the month. At that time, HIGH CLASS guy, you watch out that I will start ranting here!
To the guy:Well, I am already very nice not to make you pay part of the money. Besides, how are you going to pay either. I know that you are going to say that I enjoy talking to you SO much. Seriously, I talk to all my friends and yes, to tell you the truth, I will not pay that much just to have a no-conclusion talk.
Stop making me pay more!
Whee~ making my post during my attachment time. Whee~
[Saturday, March 8, 2008]
I was out since morning. I went out and had a whole lot of fun. Who did I go out with? I went out with a couple of friends of mine. We were just playing and hovering around. I had dinner and we chit chatted and then, we went back home.
It is a long day out and I am all worn out when I reach home. I tried making mango pudding, not using the pudding but totally with mangoes. I failed. The pudding did not turn out well and bouncy. It was still liquid. I drank the liquid and it is yummy! It is filled with mango taste. Hmmm~
I give away my "first time" today. Don't think dirty or what. LOL! I am seriously not going to tell others what is my "first time" which I had given away. It is for me to know and for you to find out. Whee~
[Sunday, March 9, 2008]
Early morning, I woke up fine and was about to have fun. Then, I realise that I am having my period today! It is a Sunday and I thought that I can have fun FINALLY and I had my period. I was suffering from severe cramps and I had to lie on bed.
My brother knew that I was feeling unwell, not knowing why, I did not entertain him either, so when my sister wanted to feed Kaeden, my brother gave up his room so I can rest in daddy's room.
That is so nice of my brother. I love you kor~
I fall asleep at 12+ pm. And by the time I woke up, it is 2.06pm. At that time, I felt so sad and my emotion started to stir. I was late, late by a few seconds. I did not expect myself to be late by just few seconds. I felt so dejected and tears roll down unknowingly.
I hate cramps! I hate painkillers! I hate sleeping! It is all their fault which made me missed something. I am so sad! I want to kill someone!!
Then in the night, I played with Kaitlyn and had to type my weekly report. A friend of mine called me to talk about his A levels. He is unhappy with his A level result. I tried to help him by consoling him. It was no use. I really hope he can find the way he wanted. I hope that he can get what he wants.
After that, another friend of mine (I know I have many friends~ LOL!) called me and told me a shocking news. I tried to help him. I told him what he can do about it, what he can say and all. We were hopping that things will not turn out so worst. We talk quite long and look for all the means we can.
Then, another friend of mine called me to have a slight chat. We chatted for awhile and then, I went to sleep. I was tired. My friend was bored and sorry that I cannot entertain you long because I am having work the following day. Sorry.
Now that I realise, I have many "friends of mine". LOL!
[Monday, March 10, 2008]
I am so bored. I have nothing to do seriously. I had been reading and reading for the past week.
My supervisor and Jun Long's supervisor bought us to have lunch as "welcoming" lunch. We went to a particular cafe at NUS and the food was super! It is so nice. I will visit it again. I had chicken pasta and the sauce is yummy~
For the whole of today, I had been listening to MP3. I wanted to listen to the horoscope thing on Yes 933. However, they just change their timing this week. So yes, I am spamming music. Seriously, my MP3 battery is going to die soon.
After work, I meet up with Joseph and we went home together. I saw Yew Huat on the bus. It was totally a coincidence. I did not know that he work in NUS either. LOL!
When we reach Toa Payoh, we took 235 home together. On the bus we saw Pei Yu. Well, we are of different class so we are not really close. We chat a little and then, I got down the bus and went home.
Mummy did not cook and that means, I had to eat cup noodle for dinner. Sweet~ I was watching television and eating cup noodle at the same time. Then I went to type my weekly report which I had yet to submit.
Updates on one of my friend's matter. Well, it is a serious case and I thought it will turn out fine. However, neither did I expect the outcome is like that. All I can do now is hope his/her appeal will pass and need not suffer from such torture. That punishment is really too harsh. I hope the school can do something about it.
[Tuesday, March 11, 2008]
This morning, I came school with Joseph. I left house late because of tummy ache. I was camping in the toilet for the WHOLE morning. I had to leave house late. Then, I met up with Joseph as he is going at that time too. We were waiting for bus and yes, 151e came and we had no choice but to take it.
We were talking on the bus when we said that we wanted to sleep. We chatted until I reach my stop and I get down. I thought I will be late, however, I was early and I still can get coffee. LOL!
I had been chit chatting on the phone with Joseph and Jeremy today to pass my time. I had lunch with Cheng Qian and Jolene and of course, Jun Long. After which, Jun Long and I had to go back to NUS in the rain. We did not have umbrella and it was raining quite heavily.
Now, I am so bored. I want to sleep so much. My MP3 had been accompanying me since last week and I kept listening to MP3. Well, my supervisor don't care either. So yes, I am stuck with my MP3 for days. Jun Long is playing game as usual. LOL!
Soon, I am going to go home soon. I wonder how are my friends doing? I wanted to plan a mini gathering for my poly friends, however there are people who cannot and thus, I give up. I will think of another day which can accomodate everyone. LOL!!
Good Friday!! Looking forward to it because we have no work. I need not attend work. Whee~
This friday, 14th March, I am going to get my results. I am utterly nervous. I am scared I did not do well for my exams and thus pulling my overall GPA down. Seriously all I can do now is hug buddha's leg. I am going to hug it to sleep for these few nights. LOL!
Oh yes, I had a very deep secret which not many people know. I am scared to let people know too. I am scared of how people will look at it. I am very scared. Is it normal or is it because I am abnormal?
Ok, out of the point!! I have finally decide what I want to do with my heart and my feelings. I felt so nice having to choose that choice and yes, those that I have told them about it knows that. After reading my post on the boy asking the teacher what is true love, I have come to a conclusion myself.
I decided that I will not turn back and pick up the grass which I had already abandon. Well, regardless how I find, the grass will forever never be found. Even if it is found, it will never be the same for it had gone through rain and shine and now, it became "stranger" to me.
I will look forward move on in the field and not turn back. Once I find a good grass, I am going to keep it save and fine. Nobody is perfect, I am not perfect either. If the grass is now in my shoes chosen me, I should be glad that I am chosen.
I do not know when I will pick another grass and when I will go back to my "teacher" (which are my friends) and show them the grass I pick. I shall just walk on and when I think it is time to head back, I will announce to all. So stay tune =D
Ok, here comes my supervisor. LOL! Time to act hardworking. Blink blink *.*
For the whole of this week, I was camping in NUS from 8.30am to 6.00pm just to read on visual basic 2006. I am seriously bored!
On Wednesday, I went out with Joseph, Li Min and Jeremy. We went to eat dinner together. It had been a long time since we last met up.
Today, they get their A level results. Hope the best for them~
Whee~
Extract from my cousin, Kah Wai's blog. It is seriously true and seriously touching. Take a look.
A teacher and his student were sitting under the big tree near the school field. The student suddenly asked his teacher a question.
'Cher, I'm confused. How can we find the perfect soul mate? Can you please help me?'
Silent for a few seconds, the teacher answered,
'Well, it’s a question that is both difficult and at the same time easy to answer. Let me try to elaborate. You see the field over there? There is a lot of grass there, why don’t you walk there and try to find a beautiful grass, pick it up and bring it back to me. The only condition is that you must never turn back, just walk straight ahead.
'Well, that should be easy.'
The student then walked towards the field.
A few minutes later.
'I'm back.'
'Emm, well I don’t see any beautiful grass in your hand.'
'On my journey through the field, I did find a few beautiful grass but I thought that I would find a better one later, so I didn't pick them up. Then I realise that I've reached the end of the field and I haven’t pick any. Since you told me that I could not walk back so I didn't turn back to pick any of the earlier ones.'
'That's what happened in real life.'
What is the message of this story?
* Grass –> People around you
* Beautiful Grass –> people that attracts you
* Field –> Time
In looking for our soul mate, we tend to compare and hope that there will be a better one.
Nobody is perfect yet very often we want to look for the prefect soul mate and in the process misses out on those less than perfect ones.
By doing that, we are actually wasting our time and may even end up feeling miserable and lonely. We should always try to accept the less than perfect ones for what he/she is and be glad that he/she is also willing to accept us for what we are.
[Saturday, March 1, 2008]
Today, I stayed home for the whole of today. In the late evening, after dinner, I went down to Kah Wai house. Today, we had a mini gathering at Kah Wai house. We chat a lot and finally, all of us are feeling so shiok!
Thanks to them, I felt so relieve. It is the feeling I did not have! Suddenly, I felt that the big rock had been thrown away. I am so extreme happy! Whee~ thanks to my cousins!!
At midnight, Jia Xin, Kah Wai friend, came and pass her 6 donuts. For what reason? I do not know either. Just when she went down, we were looking for food! We were looking for supper! In the end, we had donuts for supper! This time, we did not cook~
We chatted for long and finally, all of us decided to lights off at 3 odd am. I toss and turn and finally, I fall asleep at 5am.
[Sunday, March 2, 2008]
Today I woke up very early. Wai, Yern and my aunt went yoga lesson and then, they reach home at 12+ pm. We ate our lunch and went to NTUC to get ingredients. Wai wanted to GIVE Jia Xin something in return of the donut.
So I suggested to her to make JellyHearts Cheezecake. We bought the ingredients and then we reach home and we started doing. As there is no ONE big tin, we bought 3 small tins. Therefore, Kenneth, Wai and I each made one portion. And we started making at 2 odd 3pm. So by then it finish, it is very late.
So I took a cab home~ Sian! However, lucky the uncle drives very fast. So I reach home earlier than expected.
[Monday, March 3, 2008]
Today is the first day of attachment. Early in the morning, I took a bus down to DSO @ Science Park. I reach that at 8.40am. So we waited. The HR in charge of us was on MC. So we had to wait for the other HR personnel who are told to stand in for her. We are supposed to start at 9am however, we waited and waited and we only get to meet the HR personnel at 9.20am.
We went into the meeting room and yes, we had to wait again. EVENTUALLY, the briefing started at 10am. The guy from security gave us a briefing which we already had heard it MILLION of times. So I was seriously dozing off here and there.
Then, we waited for about 15 minutes and the HR personnel came again to let us sign 5 different kinds of forms. Seriously, just for an attachment, I had already signed so MANY forms. She gave us some briefing and then, we are supposed to go to DSO @ NUS to report. So we waited from 10.55am to 11.20am to get up the shuttle bus.
Then, we reach DSO @ NUS and look for the HR personnel, Alice. Then, she gave us some briefing again. And then she told us to check this and that. Seriously, I hate briefing so much. After looking for Alice, we are supposed to wait for our pass to get back. We waited until 12 plus pm.
We went for lunch and at 1pm; we went to look for Aileng, the HR in charge of my IAP. We went up to look for her and she did not pick up the call. So Jun Long and I went to the lobby and waited for her until 1.30pm and we called her again.
Finally she picks up and she brought us from places to places. We tried to access many areas to test out our pass. I was so tired. Then we went to look for our supervisor and then, we had briefing again. My supervisor told me what I am supposed to do and ask me to read on it.
He gave me a book which is thicker than my CAEM book! Or should I say two books which are both thicker than my CAEM book. He read the two books to learn how to use Visual Basic 2006. He said he took 1 month to master just the basics. And he tell me that he want me to master it in 2 weeks or less.
So from 2 plus pm, I read the book to 6pm. I was so tired. I doze off at times. I was too tired. Imagine I still have to continue to read it tomorrow. I am so tired!!!!
In another 2 days, I will be heading down to NUS every morning. In another 2 days, I will be starting attachment. In another 2 days, I will have to work everyday from 8.30am to 6pm. In another 2 days, it will become something like school again. In another 2 days.. In another 2 days..
Today is 1st March. Yes! It is the start of March. Whee~ What do I have for this March? Looking at my plan, I have NOTHING on this March. Not like other Febuaray, my organiser is already filled with what to do and where to go. This March, I have nothing planned.
Yes, this year, it is the leap year. That means, there is 29th Feb yesterday. How did everyone spend this significant 29th Feb?
I stayed home the whole day. I became bored and vacuum the WHOLE house and clean my table AGAIN! My brother was online and then, he told me a joke. He said that he was talking to his friend and either of them said it is the best to ask someone for relationship or marriage. Reason being, you can be budget and celebrate once in every four months. Budget!!
LOL! I told Joseph about it he totally agree with it. Well, what is with guys lately? Since when they became so budget. But true la, you need not think about how to spend the anniversary EVERY year. LOL!
For the first time, Jun Yuan and I talk a lot online. And of course, we exchanged some information. For once we talk so much. And he was showing his photo gallary via display picture. LOL! I will not leak it out~ Wheee~
Yesterday night, Daryl called me from China. Well, we are just plain talking. Once again, our talk drifted far far away! LOL! As for the content, I shall not say much. However, what I can say is Jia You! LOL!
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