I read this novel and there is this sentence which goes like this..

"该放弃的时候放弃是无奈， 不该放弃时候放弃了是无能。"

I was reading this Chinese novel today.
It is super nice!
Super duper uper touching and nice!
Make me cry~
Ahh!!

<<要爱就像他们那样>>

There is a lack of updates lately. Yes, I am super duper uper busy. Lately, I had been busy with my final report. Thanks to Kok Yong, I have to do my report so early. Well, Kok Yong is Jun Long's supervisor. However, we must share the same fate. So Chee Hoong says that I need to give him my report by the Wednesday that just past.

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x__[[Tuesday, July 15, 2008.

I had been rushing report like nobody's business. I tried so hard to think of subheadings and it is killing me like nobody's business. Chee Hoong always complains about how my subheadings are not delivering the content. So yes, I spend super duper uper lots of time on the subheading that my head is going to explode.

After work, I went to meet npy and accompany me home. I know it sounds a little stupid though. We played the game of fate again. Haha! See, Anne always play the game of fate. Npy bought me Maltesers for me. Happy =]

When we are going back, I went to accompany him to get food. This stupid person actually let me walk alone. Ok, I almost cried out on the spot. Idiot! Haha! For once, someone actually did that. Grr! Never mind, for the sake of the chocolate, forgiven. Haha!

When I reach home, I am still doing report. How hardworking I am. See, one whole day gone for report. Idiot! In the night, I got emo again. WA freak! Haha! Getting emo when I am doing report is not a good thing. Nothing can come to your mind and you have totally no mood to do it. And thanks to npy and my tears, my mood got better.

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x__[[Wednesday, July 16, 2008.

I came to work and continue my report! Died-ed! I am left with only the conclusion after lunch. During lunch, Jun Long and I went Megabites and coincidentally, we saw Jolene and Wan Sin there too. After back from lunch, I went to read novel and after that, I continue to edit my report. I left the conclusion to be done back home.

After work, I went to meet npy (again). Npy was doing work so I went to look for him and then went home together. Sounds stupid again! Ahh!

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x__[[Thursday, July 17, 2008.

In the morning, I woke up early to go to SNEC to check up again. Sian~ Oh yes, appointment was push forward due to some reason. I went to SNEC with mummy. We registered and waited. Then I was sent to this room naming, Ophthalmology. I have no idea what kind of room this is.

When I went in, the doctor then asked me to sit down and started checking my vision and all. She kept asking me to read the alphabets and uses this ruler thing. This ruler thing is amazing! When you use it, your eye balls actually focus on the alphabets. Well, I am having squint, so they need to measure what is the distance blah blah.

Then there is this machine, there are 4 circles. Then one of it is shaking. And when you wear the goggles given, the circle is now not shaking and sinks into the screen.

Then there is this thing where she shows me 4 pictures and one of it has a circle. Shucks! I cannot answer it at all. She gave me some weird look and prompts me if I REALLY cannot see the circle. After answering her like 4 times that I cannot see, she decided to give up on that and asked me something else.

After checking the vision and all, I was told to leave the room to wait for consultation with Dr. Chia. While waiting, I went to take my eye pressure and they used the machine that will poof air into your eyes. Waiting and waiting, finally my name is called out.

I went into the consultation room. There is this girl who is on internship I guess. Ok, NOT some polytechnic internship, it is university internship. Dr. Chia was showing her and explaining to her while examining me. Haha! I actually understand what they are talking. See, what a clever girl.

The fact is that I went to research on squint and there are many words which are CHIM. So I went to do some reading up on the CHIM words. Ok, Dr. Chia is super professional. I quite like her. The girl on internship is friendly and pretty. Ahh!

After taking another round of measurement and all, Dr. Chia talked to my mother and me about it.

--What Dr. Chia says--

I have no lazy eyes, so there are no worries about having to treat lazy eyes. The only way for me is to have cosmetic surgery. A human has 6 muscles controlling the eye movement, up, down, left, right and 2 that controls the rotation. For me, I have to surgery on 3 muscles, one that is one is the down, and one is for rotating and one for the side.

There are two ways to have this surgery done. First way, I would be totally asleep, wakes up after the surgery. If the muscles is still out (well, when at rest, your muscles are relaxed), then I will go back to sleep and surgery again. Second way (preferred for adults and older kids), I would be totally asleep. The surgeon will only tackle 2 muscles, leaving 1 muscle alone first (for my case). Then when I am wake, they will do the third muscle AWAKE!

The second way is better because the surgeon can do better adjustment with the muscle instead of stitching and opening and stitching and opening. Yes! And there is a risk for the first way is that if it is too tight, the muscle would wear off after awhile. You cannot do anything to wear off muscle.

Every surgery has risk and everyone knows that. Well, having to have surgery on eyes, the worst case would be blindness. Else, another risk is that the vision will fail you. You can see but your vision would be so bad. And if the muscle wears off, there might be a chance that the squint can get worst. Of course, after surgery, there might be a chance of the squint coming back.

--End of what Dr. Chia says--

Never mind! I am going back for follow up on 9 October. Well, Dr. Chia wants to check if the squint is stable or is it not stable. There might be a chance of squint getting worst so yes.

My mentality is that why not just do the surgery. Yes, I can do it when I get older and/or the squint gets worst. However, by then, I would be older and if the squint gets worst, I will have to get more muscles undergoing surgery. And when I get older, it would take longer time to heal.

Mummy says that that is what she thought too. She says that she wants me to do it during a period where I have no school. Mummy says that after surgery, I MUST stay home everyday, cannot leave house. The sun is harmful. So she says that she wants me to stay home and don’t expect going out. Ahh! She says that after surgery, I will have to eat light food everyday. Sick!

Doctor says that after the surgery, my eyes will be red for up to 6 weeks. And the scar will be there (of course) and it will not be obvious and some might seem to fade away. However, there MIGHT be a chance of obvious scar there too. Imagine OBVIOUS scar on the eyes. Eeek! Disgusted. Just hope the scar will go away.

Ok, enough of doctor talks! After the visit to SNEC, I went to meet up with npy at Raffles Place. I was supposed to be late. In the end, I was early and npy was late. Haha! Then we went to do some work and then, we walked around. After which, we took bus down to Wisma to have our lunch.

Wooo! We had lunch at Food Republic. Npy bought chicken chop for me =) the food is nice; however, I think their fries is too salty. Haha! Nevertheless, nice! I used to go Food Republic everyday when I am working in Isetan Wisma. Well, I would always eat the dory fish. NICE!

After that, we walk our way to Takashimaya. I saw the toy fair again!! Ahh! So many toys. And I saw the dog dog that Daryl bought for me last time at $12. Haha! I was telling npy which dog dog that I own. So cute!! Ahh! So many toys~ I feel like getting another BIG stuff toy~ But seems like if I were to do so, I would have to sleep on the floor~

We walk around Takashimaya. Npy was looking for a tie. So we went around looking for ties. Haha! Now I realize, there are so many different colours for ties. I always thought that ties are just the few basics.

After shopping at Takashimaya, we took bus down to Douby Ghaut (see, this is the advantage of bus concession, no walking). We made our way to The Cathay. We catch a movie and I tell you, that movie is nice.

Wedding Daze! (NC16) This movie is super duper nice! It is funny too. Laugh =] It talks about this 2 TOTAL stranger getting married. Well, sounds stupid though. I mean, 2 stranger, all of a sudden the guy ask the girl "Will you marry me?" It is stupid! The ending is not bad! Happily ever after though they all end up in jail. Haha! Watch the movie, it is worth it =D

After the movie, npy and I took bus down to Suntec City. (See, told you it is nice having bus concession) We realize that we are lucky because, the rain stopped after our movie finishes. Perfect! Ok, npy says that it is because of him that is why we are lucky. Grr!

We went to John Little and finally, npy got his tie. A couple of funny things happened at the cashier. I bought npy a tie and yes, he wanted to return the money. So we were bickering all the way. Finally, we close the case by my randomness of wanting to eat cheesecake at Secret Recipe. Then I feel like eating ice cream too.

So in the end, we had ice cream at Changing Appetites. It is nice. We had ice cream mudpies. It is the super first time I am eating at Changing Appetites. The mudpies are not bad. Nice! For once, npy did not say my eating is unglam. Thank God. He always criticize that I am unglam when eating. Grr! If he calls that unglam, he must have never seen anyone eating glam-ly. Haha!

After which, we walked around Marina Square. At 6 plus, we decided to leave Marina because, npy did not bring his keys so he need to get home early else he will sleep on the street. Haha! While on the bus, I was telling npy about the surgery thing. I was telling npy that I will go into hibernation if the worst is expected. Ahh~ Lots of talking blah blah.

I guess npy is worried about me. =X Npy's face shows it. Maybe I think too much too. Ahh~ never mind! I just love what npy says to me. Well, I do not know why but that person seems to have a big problem saying out face to face. What is wrong with this person?! I just reach home; he calls me and tell me tons of thing. Ahh!

In the night, for today, we did not talk on the phone. Npy is too tired already. Well, I guess I am very tired too.

Oh yes, Jolene message me and I went to check my deployment. I got deployed to Kheng Cheng Primary School. Whoo whoo! Near! It is going via train. I am taking express train! Cool! However, I am getting up at Braddell and getting off at Raffles Place. How stupid can that be? There is a school getting up at Newton and getting down at Raffles Place. Ahh! So stupid can!

Never mind, it is the express train that is fun. Going to Kheng Cheng means I will be able to get home early =D Whoo whoo!

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x__[[Friday, July 18, 2008.

It is Friday again! Ahh! Fast! Today, I came to work and tell you, I have nothing to do. I do not want to do anything either. I do not know why but my eyes are dry. I did not charge my MP3 so now, I am MP3-less. Perfect!

Tonight, there is a 4E1 gathering and I am not going =X Well, I have no idea about that gathering, all I know is that there is a gathering. Perfect. Never mind. Don’t bother anyways.

Tomorrow, I am going for the third NE Show. I wonder how the fireworks would be. Last week, the fireworks are super! Love it so much! This week, I am going to sit by the blue sector. Just hope the fireworks are nice. I do not think that will be watching with npy this week anyways. Busy you see! Haha!!

Oh yes, this year, the NDP theme song is sang by Cai Chun Jia Joi and Hady Mirza. The thing is, they did not come and sing it on NE show 1 and NE show 2. I thought they are supposed to? Haha! I do not know either. I heard the Chinese version of the song and seriously, I think the English version one is nicer.

Actually, when I hear the chores, I feel a little stirred feeling inside. My heart seems a little tight, as if I am going to cry. I do not know if it is the rhythm or is it me. Haha!

Among the National Day theme songs, Shine on Me, Together We Make a Difference and Shine for Singapore are 3 songs which I will feel like crying upon hearing it. These 3 songs are also the songs which will stir my feelings. Haha! Emo kid~

"Because in Singapore, Singapore, our hearts are big and wide you find. Because in Singapore, Singapore, you’ll find happiness, for everyone~"

Enough of NDP! Haha! All that can come to my mind when speaking of NDP is the FIREWORKS, FIREWORKS and more FIREWORKS. Haha!! If not because I am on duty, I will bring a camcorder and record the whole fireworks and watch it again and again and again! Crazy girl!

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x__[[Reflections.

Sometimes, one should think simple and easy, letting it goes naturally. Working too hard would sometimes make things get worst. Being happy is more than enough. Complex and complicated thinking is stress and taxing.

Expectation leads to disappointment. So why not lower your expectation to lower your disappointment? You have a choice. Sometimes, simple thinking leads to great life. What has to come will come. Sometimes what you see might be coming, is not coming. Do not be bothered about things which have yet to come.

Let the past go with the past, let the present enjoy the present and let the future worries for the future.

Do not use the past to enjoy the present (what past has past, no point holding on), the present to worry for the future (over worrying leads no where) and the future to go like the past (history repeats).

What has to come will come, what has to go will go. There is nothing one can do about it. If one has to go, regardless how you pursue, it will go. If one will come, regardless how you hide, they can still find you. So yes, be happy that at least the one has to go has came and be brave to face what has to come. This is all about adaptability!

Oh oh! Anne is so deep in thoughts! The light of enlightenment has just struck upon the emo bitch of Stella. LOL! I was bored and start to think like some enlighted girl. Ok, so not enlighted though. HAHA!

no idea what is wrong..
seriously no idea what is wrong..

report is wrong..
decision is wrong..
feeling is wrong..
mood is wrong..
emotion is wrong..
'tap' is wrong..
song is wrong..
whatever rubbish is wrong!
TOTALLY UTTERLY WRONG!!

Forget about whatever it is thought initially.
Forget it.

Media Player Now Playing: Wish~

Doing report whole day.
Nothing coming into my mind.

I want to SCREAM SHOUT CRY over so many things!!
AHHH!!

For once feel so friend!
!@#!&*($*^!@#&!*
For once being thrown to walk behind!
#$%^&*&^%$%^&*
For once want to cry over it!
$%&(*&$%^&*$&$&
For once wanted to do something and keep secret!
@#$%&^%@#^$%#
For once throwing temper to cover the aching!
%*!&*#$(^!&$%*^*
For once wanted to do something surprising!
$%&^*%!^&$^&$&
For once decided to just forget about it!
&^@#(*&@!($^!#!&
For once feel like dying!
%^*&^*(!&#*!!#^&!
For once I feel like every doing is wrong!
^@!*#&!)*$!#^!$*&
For once it is like independent!
&@#!(^!&@#^!&^!
FOR JUST DAMN ONCE!
$%$&^@!^#(*!&^*

Please kill me right in the heart.

You won't feel the pain when the heart don't beat
--- this is what I learnt in bio~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI CHAO! :)

Today is ri chao's birthday! It had been ages since I saw her and yes, I miss her~ Ahhh! I know she misses me too. LOL! Ri Chao's 'darling' will be so jealous~ *Laugh*

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I spend the whole of today doing my final report! Yawn! Long day and yet all I was final report. Thanks to final report, time is ticking fast! Whoo!

Left work early again today. I left work at about 5.11pm. I know that is super early! I have to hand in my report by Wednesday to Chee Hoong. That means, I might have to stay awake the whole of Tuesday or Wednesday night. Yawn! And on Thursday, I am not going down to work in the morning.

I feel like taking a day off on Thursday! However, if I were to take off, I would need to tell Mr. Goh, and state the reason and blah blah. Ah~ Irritating procedure. So yes, I am going to work late! I have YET to tell Chee Hoong about it. I shall email him later or tomorrow.

I got all emo while on the trip back home. Perfect~ That is super duper uper perfect! And thanks to my emo-ness, I threw temper at someone. Fine~ I hate myself SO SO SO much! Grr!

Just because I waited and got nothing, I actually got all disappointed, emo and start to think like nobody business. What the hack! I know xxx is busy busy busy and yet, I cannot help but my imagination ran wild, so wild that I cannot control. I shouldn't be like that. Seriously, I should not be and I know, I MUST not. That is one of the criteria, one of the rule, one of the policy. This is the start and there will be more to come. I must understand that.

Talking, I actually flare up or should I say, I actually became so impatient to talk. I replied late not because I sleep, it is because I do not feel like replying and show my unhappiness. I tried to sound ok via sms but I failed terribly. I did not pick up not because I did not feel it but it is because I do not know how to face it. I rather act ignorant and run away from it. Reason? I do not want xxx to know.

Many times, I kept telling xxx "I'm ok!" However, sometimes I am really not ok at all. Not a single bit. I want to be ok, I want to sound ok, I want to act ok but seriously, sometimes I am really not ok. I choose to hibernate than telling. I choose to run than facing it. Not that I do not want to tell xxx but it is that I do not know how.

I do not want to be a burden. I do not want to add on to xxx worries. I do not want to be the one who mess up xxx schedule. I do not want to take up xxx brain cells. I do not want to be the one who make xxx squeeze time just for personal use.

Ask me anything about xxx and my answer would be "I don't know". And yet, xxx remember whatever I say and about me. I feel so useless. It is the first time, first time I know nothing about it. Why is that so? Why I do not remember or know anything? Am I doing my 'job'? I feel so failed! Super duper uper failed!

I do not want to flare up or be impatient. I seriously do not want! I regret! Super duper uper regret! I wanted to spend every single seconds worthwhile because I know I do not have all the time in the world. I know that this is not like before, they are waiting for me to spare an empty time for them. This time, I am waiting to have time spared. Every seconds is like hard to get.

Mummy's girl. This cannot, that cannot. Work work work! I do not have much time either. And yet, I choose to be impatient. What are you thinking? Seriously, Anne, what are you thinking? Can I just hibernate and not face anything? Slap myself so hard!

i miss u.. do u? can u just hug me so tight and tell me that everythings ok?~ can u?
doubt so.... for now.....

THE END =D
Thanks for scrolling down for nothing. Haha!

Finally, it is Sunday once again. Sian! So fast, the week has ended again. Time really flies! Unknowningly, I am left with 4 days for my report. Grr! Work hard Anne! Haha!!

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x__[[Friday, July 11, 2008.

Friday! Whoo! Thank God is Friday!! Today is the last day of my week 19 in DSO. So fast! Ahh! I miss DSO so much.

Now that I am level 10, I must say, the aircon is damn COLD! I think DSO has too much money to spare. They are so willing to pay for the aircon fee. The aircon is super cold can! When I was at level 11, I already find level 11 cold. However, Jun Long do not find level 11 cold at all. Now in level 10, I find it SUPER cold while Jun Long finds it cold that he will wear his jacket! See, how cold it is!!

I always hate to leave the room after staying in there. The reason is because once I leave the room and my body will adapt to the outside temperature, after I enter the room again, I will be freezing~ Ahh!

I had been printing screen for the whole day! I am starting to print the codes so I can put it into my report *ding ding*.

I fall asleep on the bus again! I am always sleeping! ZzZzZzZz

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x__[[Saturday, July 12, 2008.

Early morning, I met up with npy for breakfast down at Toa Payoh. We are supposed to meet 9.30am at Toa Payoh interchange. However, due to some reasons, I reach at about 8.50am.

Npy and I went to have subway for breakfast. It is the first time I had subway for breakfast. Having to stay home practically every morning on Saturday and Sunday, mummy would buy breakfast for me. Not many times I will leave house specially for a meal.

After eating, I accompanied npy to get things and then we left Toa Payoh and headed home. I reach home at nearly 10.30am. On our way back, npy was claiming that he don have a photo of us in his phone. Fine, I took a photo with him using his phone. It had been AGES since I took photo using handphone. I feel super out of place. Haha! Super no experience already.

I waited for Drew Drew to bathe finish and I went to bathe. I was waiting for my hair to dry while talking to npy and Jolene.

Jolene and I were not able to meet today because of our deployment. Sadded! While talking to Jolene, someone messaged me. It is Pang Ngee, he said that he is going to be my partner for today at Ai Tong Primary. I was lost who he is.

While talking to Jolene and npy, I went to tie my hair. I was telling Jolene that my hair do not wish to be tied.

A, as Anne
J, as Jolene

J: then you need to go prepare now?
A: i preparing but my stupid hair does not want to be tied
J: you talk to your hair?
A: bu guai, so don wanna be tied
J: i want to tie my hair but... cannt
A: mine can be tied but don wan to be tied
J: communicate well
A: trying.. worst come to worst, force it!

See how crappy we can get. Npy was saying that we sound so crappy! LOL! Sound a little retard though. Haha!

After tying my hair, I prepared to leave the house. It was nearly 1.20pm at that time. I am supposed to reach Ai Tong Primary at about 2.20pm. Before I left the house, I took two piece of bread out with me. I was eating and walking at the same time.

I super regretful that I took the bread. The bread is spicy! And the next thing is that I did not bring water out with me. So I have to tahan the spicy-ness.

I went to take 57 and I missed the bus. So I spent nearly 15 minutes waiting for bus 57. Then I alighted at Bishan St 11 and change to either 52 or 410. However, the moment I got down 57, just when I wanted to cross the road, 52 came and by the time I cross the road, 52 left.

Shucks! I told Pang Ngee that I will be there at nearly 2pm, in the end, I reach at nearly 2.15pm. Npy is being nice to keep messaging me throughout the trip. Yes, I have totally no sense of direction. When I saw an Ai Tong Girl getting up the bus, I just 'followed' her when she get down. LOL!

Finally, I reach Ai Tong and went to meet up with Wei Sheng (my Army Liaising Personnel, also known as ALP). Pang Ngee has yet to reach. So Wei Sheng brief me first. Then Pang Ngee came and Wei Sheng brief the both of us.

Wei Sheng is from ITE and he is 19 this year! OMG! Pang Ngee is from E2. I see him before during training. And I remember during interview, he is in the same group as me. I remember him! Pang Ngee is from ECE and the amazing thing is, we have a number of common friends. WOW!

While waiting, Wei Sheng was telling us his army life. At about 3.20pm, the 10 buses supposed to come. However, the bus is not here YET. Wei Sheng got so kan jiong. Well, this is the first time he is being ALP for bus deployment. Last week he got the train deployment.

Finally, 5 minutes before the departure time, the 10 buses came. Wei Sheng then brief the bus uncles and then Pang Ngee and I help ushered the kids up the bus. Wei Sheng took the first bus, I took the 5th bus and Pang Ngee took the 10th bus. Finally, we reached the place we are supposed to go.

On our way there, the bus will drive pass many places. The kids on the same bus as me got SO high upon seeing one of the road sign. The teachers started questioning them why are they so noisy and their reply was, "We saw Geylang!!" -.-

I accompanied the kids to walk all the way to the seating gallery. They were complaining to me about how HIGH they have to climb. In the end, they still climbed up. Haha! Then Wei Sheng, Pang Ngee and I went to collect buns for them. After which, I sat there with the kids and watch the parade!

Finally, I get to watch the planes! Ahh! It is super duper nice. The heart shape they made is super nice ok! Ahh! No doubt is the Black Knights. Ahh! Now I know why npy tell me that I should have watch it. Haha! Whee whee!

After watching the plane flights, I went for dinner. The dinner is not that fantastic though. After dinner, I went to the wash room. I am like 'fighting' with the kids for the toilet. After going to the washroom, I wanted to look for npy. However, it is like looking for a needle in a haystack. Everyone is wearing red and white~ *faint*

In the end, I met npy by the stairwells and went to my sector with me. Npy is being nicestupid to come from stairs 1 to stairs 11 just to accompany me watch fireworks. (Now I know why people say "Love is being stupid together.") However, halfway through, npy got to go. Nevertheless, very thankful about it. Happy =D

After fireworks, blah blah blah. Having to sit all the way at the bottom left hand corner (facing the stage), we are the last school to leave. I interact with the kids more after the parade. They are more hyper.

They do not know what is the meaning of Usher! I have totally no idea how to explain to them. And they were asking me if I am paid to do this job. LOL! How I wish I am paid. Sadly, I am not paid. Then the kids were like "why you so free? not paid also want to do." They are so practical!

I walked them and get up the bus. Pang Ngee is on the first bus, I am on the 5th bus and Wei Sheng on the last bus. While on the bus, the kids were all doing cheer. For the whole 20 minutes ride, they are all doing the same old cheer! They just went for a 3D2N camp and they learnt many cheers.

I asked the kids to do other cheers, in the end, same old cheer again~ Super no creativity can! I mean for 20 whole minutes, they are doing the same old cheer again and again! Super bored! The boy sitting behind me was crapping with me about pokemon. He say he is Ash Ketchum, in the end, I call him Ash Ketchup. LOL!

When I reach the school, mine is the first bus to reach. Ok, that is stupid~ I am supposed to be the 5th bus to reach. In the end, I am the first bus to reach. I am supposed to make sure all 400 students are back before releasing them. However, the teacher-in-charge said that for as long as each class is all back, they can leave.

Fine~ LOL! So in the end, they are allowed to leave. I am like some teacher over there, asking them to gather at the canteen, queue up and all. Whenever a particular bus reaches the school, all the parents will swarm to the door and 'welcome' their children. Oh please!

Many kids ran away so I had to keep chasing them back, shouting across the canteen to make sure they are back. Grrr!

In the end, the bus Pang Ngee is, is the 6th to arrive. I am so pathetic. I am all alone there, chasing the kids like nobody business!! Ahh! Then Wei Sheng's is the 8th bus to arrive. Ahh! It is such a torture to bring the kids.

Some kids are seriously funny! Got this boy, he was asking me, "I though I saw you at Marina?" I was like "ya, I saw you this afternoon also." then he actually said "why are you here? you teleport here arh?" -.-

There is this girl who actually asked, "jie jie, you follow us back arh?" Then I replied "yes, I am supposed to follow." then the girl said "wa! jie jie, you so wei da!" ok, what so wei da about this? LOL!

After making sure all the kids are back and all, we are allowed to leave. Finally! Go home! Pang Ngee and I took the same bus back. He stays in Toa Payoh too! Wow! He alighted before me. Then I walk all the way home! After I reach home, npy called me, we chatted for awhile and went to bathe.

This time, I remember to blow dry my hair. Then, I chatted with npy. I was hungry! I do not know why, I am hungry! I went to cook cup noodles and eat. Sadded! Super sinful!! Not long ago, I just eaten all the chocolate that npy bought for me and now, I eat cup noodles at 12mn.

Shit!! Ahh! Kill me! Hai!!!

NDP NE Show 2!!

Today, I am being deployed to Ai Tong Primary School. The stupid thing is, Pei Chun Primary School, First Toa Payoh Primary School, GuangYang Primary School are all going for NE show too. However, I am not deployed there! Yes, Ai Tong is relatively near to Toa Payoh but need to change bus~

Besides, I do not really know where is Ai Tong Primary. Haha! I shall find my way later on~ Whee!

I am going to see fireworks AGAIN! Oh my God!! Haha! Excited excited excited. I am scared later the Primary 5 kids bully me =X haha! I so friendly, later they bully me how?~ I will cry one~ LOL!

Yesterday is another long day at work. I shall blog about it like... tonight (if I am not dead) Haha! That means, another LONG post will be up. Whooo!!! Please do not kill me =X

Meeting npy for breakfast! Haha! Got to leave house~ Enjoy reading =D

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x__[[Wednesday, July 09, 2008.

It rained this morning! Woo~ the bus ride was longer and I saw ambulance. I was along the stretch of road opposite Ngee Ann Poly. Then, an ambulance, with siren on, was on the road going to save some injured people. There is a jam over at the road. The ambulance is on the lane 1.

Usually, in order to U-turn to NP, one needs to travel on the lane 1. So there are a lot of cars on the lane 1. The thing is, thanks to the ambulance, the cars in front of the ambulance need to all turn to the lane 2 to let the ambulance pass. However, after going to the lane 2, they need to turn back to the lane 1. The cars behind the ambulance managed to turn to the lane 1.

Singaporeans are not that friendly to let other cars cut in front. So many cars just speed up and did not let the cars divert back to lane 1. As a result, there is super slow traffic on lane 2. Singaporeans are like that. No choice then~

Due to traffic jam, I managed to sleep LONGER on the bus. Practically, I slept throughout the bus ride. Now now, after 4 months and 6 days at DSO, I do not have the tendency to wake up when the bus reaches NP. Shucks! Next time, if I am late for lesson, there might be a high chance that I overslept and wakes up at NUS. Die!

When I reach the lab, there is still NO internet connection. Thus once again, I continue typing my blog. Now, it has reaches MORE pages. I was telling npy about it and I think, people will complain even having to scroll. Haha! Npy begs me to stop blogging already before complain starts coming in. Haha!! Npy will be the first to complain! Haha!

During lunch time, Jun Long and I went to MacDonald for lunch. Well, now that we cannot pack the food and eat at student room, we can only go to the place and have lunch. Sian~ we stayed there for quite some time though. Then we came back to the lab and I started blogging again!

In the afternoon, Chee Hoong came and started packing the whole place as there is photo taking session. Jun Long and I were the photographer =D There is many funny things which happened while taking photo. Haha! Chee Hoong is seriously a joker! Haha!

Chee Hoong was taking photo, trying to see if it can see his own tummy. Then Serena came in, she is pregnant, and Chee Hoong asked Serena to take photo doing the same action. LOL! Obviously Serena's tummy can be seen. Haha!!

After their photo taking session, they were having meeting. Jun Long and I were using the computer. I am super duper tired and yet, I cannot sleep. I wanted to go to the toilet so much but if I were to walk to the door and open it, they will all look at me. Fine~ So I stayed in front of the computer.

I got so bored, so I decided to draw some stupid drawings. Eventually, I doze off. Haha! I slept for nearly 1 hour!! And when I wake up, they are still having meeting. Not long after, we are ALL looking for markers. I remember that the markers were placed in one of the drawer so we all started to look at all the drawers. Haha!

Then, Kok Yong decided that they shall just go and get it from Aileng. And when he went to get it, I found the markers. Haha! Then Serena and I started cleaning the white board. She did not know that using non-permanent marker can erase away permanent marker marks. Haha!! So we started to draw on the permanent marks to clean it.

At about 5pm, there is internet (finally). Then the few of us started surfing the net. I am being good girl. I downloaded my report so I can start editing. Haha! Though in the end, I did not edit at all. Bleh~

Joseph came IMRE today. We were SUPPOSED to go home together. In the end, he PS me. Haha! This guy, always say me when I PS him. Now I realize, it had been him who kept PS me over other friends. Grr! I PS him, he say I zsqy. He PS me he have nothing to say! Grr! Unfair~

Npy asked me to help do something after work. Npy gave me 10 minutes to reach the 151 bus stop from DSO at 5.30pm. Crazy! Haha! I missed the A1 shuttle bus so I had to wait~ In the end, I took C and ran all the way to the 151 bus stop. This is the second time npy made me ran from one place to another. Haha.

Npy came and meet me to accompany me home. Touched!

P.S. Joseph, that does not gives you an excuse to cover the fact that you PS me. LOL!

Npy came and meet up with me. Then we waited for 151 to get home. The 151 is packed at 6 plus pm. It is normal~ Haha! I saw Yew Huat at the bus stop. Did I mention before that Yew Huat is working at DSI? Haha! So occasionally, I do see Yew Huat. He is not as aunty as before already.

Npy and I took 154 home after changing bus here and there.

P.S. Npy, thanks for accompanying me home =D

When I reach home, I am totally tired. I had my dinner. While eating my dinner, I went to see my email inbox. Amazingly, the deployment list is not out yet. Shucks! However, I receive and email from Jolene. She was telling me about the Master Budget Form. As expected, it got rejected.

I seriously feel super lousy! I see no reason in putting Jolene in such a spot! I seriously see no point. I feel so mad over some other things too. Well, what can I say about it? When I first receive the Master Budget form from Jolene, I went to see it. I wanted to tell her so much that it is over budget, the events cannot be written and all the errors here and there. However, she told me that she already sent it to the ECE side. So seriously, I did not tell her at all. In the end, it really got rejected.

Never mind about it. I do not want to be bothered but I can't! If the person who is handling it is not a relatively close friend of mine, I cannot be bothered to entertain that person either. If not because the person is someone who I pulled in, someone I feel guilty towards, I seriously will just pass everything to Irene and ask her to settle.

If not because Harry does not give me an answer, I would have settle it once and for all. I mean, now that I do not know what is the answer, every time I have to call Irene now and then, telling her I do not know, telling her I should not make the decision. If not, if not! When will the 'if not' end?

3 words: Cannot be bothered.

I continue eating my dinner. Wan Rong came asking me if I want to go and help out for GB Fortnight. I seriously do not mind but I was told that I need to wear my full uniform. Grr! It had been like one year since I wore it. I grew fatter already! Ahh! I better start starving so I can fit into my uniform. Haha!

Wan Rong was drawing lollipop for me. It is SO cute! Ahh! Love her so much. Haha! She is so sweet! Ahh! Dote her! LOL!

Npy went to bathe, so I waited in front of the computer and at the same time, I was reading online novels. Then, I actually doze off. My hand was numb, so is my leg. In the end, I went to my room and sleep. At 11 plus pm, npy called me. I did not open my eyes at all. I am still on sleeping mode. I feel as if I am dreaming. So I actually asked some embarrassing questions and said embarrassing things. Stupid~

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x__[[Thursday, July 10, 2008.

Today, I am going out with Joseph. Joseph asked me to accompany him to get shirt as his shirt is torn. Such nice friend I am =D Initially, I am supposed to go out with npy on Thursday. In the end, due to some forgetfulness of mine, I changed appointment time with npy.

P.S. Joseph, so please, do not say I zsqy. I where got zsqy always? Do you know I feel very bad about it sometimes? However, I have no choice about it. Sometimes it is very hard to accommodate de~ so please understand too =D In any case, I do not wish to zsqy or zyqs. And sometimes is really first come first serve basis ok~

Once again, it rained this morning again. I wanted to sleep this morning on the bus but I am taking the NTU 151 again. Npy was telling me to not sleep so much. Npy theory: sleep too much, brain will rust. Haha! Never mind, I am retard and not very brilliant to npy anyways. So sleeping a little more makes no difference.

I reach work and then, on my computer and start checking my email. Ai, no new mail for me to read~ Haha! I am still waiting for deployment. LOL! I have my reasons for wanting to know the deployment. Blah blah~

I updated part of my long entry in my blog. Finally! Npy asked me to email my whole entry BUT I am so not going to do so. Npy got to do assignment! LOL! I am nice to not distract npy about it. See, angel~

I got so bored and decided to surf the net. I went to research on my all-time favourite food, chocolate, Maltesers chocolate. I must say, THIS CHOCOLATE IS FREAKING NICE! It is a chocolate that you can get from NP Co-op though. It is a chocolate that you can get from NTUC. It is about $1+ per pack (about 16 chocolate balls). Even so, it is freaking nice! Must try~

However, it contains hydrogenated fats. This is a big NO-NO. Do you know, hydrogenated fats is NO good for body, it is something like Trans fats~ Ahh! I love Maltesers~ I miss eating Maltesers. Well, I used to get it when I go NP Co-op. Now, no-no~ I am not that crazy to travel down to NP Co-op just to get Maltesers, though I do not mind. Haha!

I was printing screen for the whole afternoon! Ok, I am doing up my final report and the thing is, I am not that crazy to write the codes out. Since I am to explain on the selective codes written by yours truly (which is me), I just print screen the specific parts and take picture of the form layout.

Jun Long was puzzled with all the pictures; I told him that my report is deriving of words! He read my report and was totally sian~ His report is filled with words while mine, picture speaks a thousand words. It is like; I can print a whole chunk of code, box it up and just write 1 sentence of explanation for it. How great?

Initially, Chee Hoong wanted me to write the comment and print screen. However, if I were to do that, my report is seriously word-less. Haha! Now, there are 50 pictures for my interim report. A picture speaks a thousand words. This means that my report has 50,000 words! Haha! Crap~

In the evening, I left DSO at nearly 5.50pm. I am going down to Vivocity to meet up with Joseph. Joseph ends his school at 6pm and he will travel via train from Dover. See, the thing is, it only takes me 20 minutes to reach Vivocity. Thus, obviously, I reach Vivocity early.

Npy was talking to me all the way from I get up the bus to the time Joseph came. I walked many rounds around Candy Empire. Haha! They sell LOTS of Maltesers. Ahh! I am so crazy over it! I wanted it SOOO much but still, no-no! I do not want to get fat! Later npy do not want me. LOL!

Finally, Joseph came. We headed to look for POSB for I want to withdraw money. I only have $5.05 on me. I had forgotten to withdraw money. So we headed for POSB.

On our way up the escalator to POSB, Joseph and I discussed what to eat. The amazing thing was both of us suggest Carl's Junior. WOW! Joseph was saying that in school, he was pondering if I want to have CJ. And for me, when I am at work, I was thinking that I shall suggest eating CJ later. No doubt we are good friends =D LOL!

We figure our way to CJ and then obviously, FOOD! I had Mushroom burger. Then Joseph and I started to talk about the first time we had CJ. The first time I had CJ, I had mushroom burger too. From then, I fall in love with the mushroom burger. Well, I always like mushroom~ Haha!

The first time I had CJ was with Daryl, Joseph and Grace. We went to the branch at City Hall to have dinner after ice skating in the early afternoon. That day was January 2, 2006. At that time, Daryl and I were still friends. We had dinner at CJ, Daryl suggested it. And that night, we became couple.

Subsequently, we visited CJ with Joseph a couple of times. I always wanted to eat the mushroom burger but seems like it is not a permanent burger on the menu. So I had fish burger. The fish burger is nice too. Haha!

After dinner, we realize that the cinema area is super crowded for a Thursday night. As typical Singaporean, we went to check it out. We saw the place being fenced up and we saw red carpet on the floor. They are actually having movie premiere for 赤壁 (red cliff).

As we are relatively early, we managed to get a good view. We stood there from 7 plus pm and waited like every other people. We did not bring camera so we just intended to go and see only. Haha!

At about 8.15pm, the emcee for the event, Lin Pei Fen, came. I remembered listening to 933 this morning about this event. Haha! Well, it totally slips off my mind. As she was talking, Mediacorp artists start to arrive and walk down the red carpet.

The first two who came were 2 guys from star search 2007. I have totally no idea who they are and they are not good looking at all. Ok~ Haha! So by-pass them. Then, Chen Diya and Carrie Yeo came. Well, ever since a particular show, my impression of Carrie is not that good. After seeing her today, I feel that she is a not-bad person. =)

After that, came two super good looking guys, Nat Ho and Jiang Cheng Xi. Good looking, good looking, good looking!! Ahh! I think Jiang Cheng Xi more good looking than his twin brother, so much more! Nat Ho is good looking too. Ahh!

Then, here came Pan Ling Ling and her husband, Huang Shi Nan. Whoo, she has short hair! I think she long hair prettier. They are indeed very loving. Cheers!

After awhile, Qi Yu Wu came. He is all dress in white and Pei Fen known him as prince charming (bai ma wang zi). His hair does not fit his face. Well, no comment about it! Haha! Later my blog got spammed.

Whoo whoo! The flash lights started flashing; it is our Mediacorp Ah Jie, Zoe Tay, walking down the red carpet. Ahh! This particular guy in front of me shook hands with her!! AHH!! Fortunate, fortunate, fortunate!! Ok, she is all dress in black. Her shoes are very HIGH! LOL!

The emcee starts talking and talking. Then, someone came stage, Xie Jia Fa! He just got here from Plaza Singapura as there is movie premiere at PS. See, I remember hearing that he has another event at town. Haha!!

Jia Fa and Pei Fen were chatting and then we heard the crowd! FELICIA CHIN!! Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh! She is PRETTY one!! SUPER pretty~ she wore a coat which looks like lab coat from the back. Nevertheless, she is super pretty~ Ahh!

Then, another super good looking guy came, Elvin Ng. He is good looking! Really!! He some more quite friendly! Ahh! Shuai!

The emcees started chatting and talking. Ok, soon, at about 9pm, we heard screaming, the television crew started running to the escalator, all the cameras held up high.

Guess who is the first person we saw?

LIN ZHI LING!! Taiwan first top model! Oh my goodness! She is super duper pretty! Lin Zhi Ling is said to have the flawless look among so many models. Her face proportion is perfect and the left and right side of her face is almost identical. You can draw a line of symmetry down. WOW! She is pretty and tall. She is also very sweet!! Ahh!!

After that, it is Chang Chen, Zhang Feng Yi and lastly, the director, Mr. John Woo and his wife. Chang Chen and Zhang Feng Yi is good looking one! Haha! Ok, maybe not my age of super duper good looking. Even so, they are good looking =D

Then they started talking and talking. Before they leave the stage, they were asked to take group photos. I must say, Lin Zhi Ling really professional! No doubt she is a top model. The way she smiles at every angle, the amount of time looking at the position blah blah, all is so professional!

Seeing so many good looking guys and super pretty ladies, I can faint~ LOL!

In the end, Joseph and I did not shop at all. We spent 1 hour plus waiting to see the artist. Crazy~ Haha! We took 143 home and on the bus, Joseph was exploring my MP3. Haha!

Joseph got the sudden craze of classic 90s songs. After exploring my MP3, he found many potential songs which will appear on his blog as time to come. LOL! I sound super old! Wan Sin and clique cannot stand the songs in my MP3. It is a little (ok, maybe very) old. Haha!

While waiting for 235, something stupid happened. I seriously feel stupid and bimbo (without looks). Haha! This is what happened.

At 7 plus pm, I messaged npy, telling npy what I am doing and all. From 7 plus pm all the way to 10pm, npy did not reply me at all. I got so fed up with npy and started complaining to Joseph about npy not replying me. I even tell Joseph how I am deciding to block npy, not talk to npy and all.

Then, Joseph asked me a very good question, "Are you sure you sent out the message?" I was telling him I am sure I did, and at the same time, I went to check my messages outbox. Ok, I did not send the message. I had been complaining and complaining for 2 hours and it is not because npy did not reply me, it is because I did not message him!

On the bus home, I was feeling so bad about it. I mean, how I can not message npy for the whole damn night. If npy does not even send me a single message for the whole night out, I might die man~ Now, I did not send npy a single message. Shucks! Joseph says that it is ok~ Ai ai~

When I reach home, I went to bathe and came online immediately and look for npy. Shit! I do not know what to say about it. Ahh! Please kill me ok! This is like the do-not-know-how-many-times this week I did something wrong again. Ahh!

At night, I was talking to npy. As usual, I talk with my eyes closed. Occasionally, I really fall asleep but I did not tell npy. I tried to stay awake, I really tried. Haha! In the end, I stood up and talk on the phone. LOL!

I went to check my NPmail and I saw this super stupid mail from Mr. Foo.

Dear students,
This is a call for you to start preparing yourself for NAPFA (National Physical Fitness Award scheme. It is a test of physical fitness for ALL students (Singaporeans and PR's, ALL, must take the test). Your test date is scheduled to be on 17 & 18 Sept 2008.

I suggest that you start preparing ASAP by exercising a minimum of once every week. Once you come back from IAP for your VPP (Vacation Project Programme) we will embark on a twice weekly exercise programme. We will be sending you the project title list soon.

Meanwhile, have you found a project partner?

:-)

sincerely,

Foo Wan Juang

Oh please for goodness sake, NAPFA has never been something that is bothering me. The reason is simple, I do not run 2.4km, I HATE running 2.4km, I never jump on the standing board jump, asking me to do sit ups will kill me and incline pull up, I will just do enough to pass. The only thing which I can get A is sit and reach. Having to grow old, forget it~

The damn rubbish is that they will embark on a twice weekly exercise program. Oh crap! Please do not tell me that he is making us go back to NP for VPP 1 week before simulated date is due to this. I tell you, Mr. Foo sucks!

The most disgusting thing is that he even put a smiley face at the bottom of the mail. Please! Grr! Since when is he so amiable? It must be that he do not have PMS the day he type the mail.

I will go and take the damn NAPFA test and be prepared to see me walk throughout my 2.4km. All my secondary school friends know that I have NEVER run 2.4km in my 4 years in secondary school. All my primary school friends know that I have NEVER dun 1.6km in my 6 years in primary school.

The only time I run is because I am needed to run. Example, chasing after bus or in a rush. See, what a GOOD history I have. Ask me to train running for NAPFA, kill me seriously! Grr! Hate running for NAPFA. Why not ask me swim? I rather do that, at least one will not sweat and be all smelly. Haha!

Lazy bum! Should I really train for NAPFA? Ahh~ I hate it but still, should I? Well, see about it~ Haha!

Yesterday is another fun fun day! However, I shall continue blogging from where I left off yesterday! Shucks, at this rate, I think my blog will have time laps~ Haha!!

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x__[[Sunday, July 06, 2008.

Today, I woke up at 8 plus am. I am super tired though. I had to help Drew Drew with his report. I am supposed to finish doing it on Saturday night and email him. Thanks to NDP, I am super tired that I did not even do it and I fall asleep. So, I had to rush it out for him today.

I woke up at 8 plus am, feeling so tired, so I kept dozing off, wake up, doze off. At about 10.30am, I woke up and called npy. After which, I went to get going with the report. I spend the whole day doing report for Drew Drew. I feel so nice~ Haha!

At about 11am, I watched my show and edit at the same time. Kaiden was left with me. Mummy was washing fish while Drew Drew is sleeping. I played with Kaiden, edited report and watch television program. Multi tasking! Then, Kaiden was left to play alone on the mattress. Then daddy came home and played with Kaiden.

Kaiden was eating something. After forcing to take it out, it was some shell of the melon seeds. I got scolding for neglecting Kaiden and did not take good care of him. Shucks! Mummy vacuum the floor already, I thought it was clean. Neither did I expect~ Ai~ Scolding.

Then Anna, Jonathan and Kaitlyn came home. I continue editing the report. Then, my dear cousin, Kah Yern, came asking me to help her with an essay on Great Life. Shucks! She needs 500 words and only managed to get 100+. After guiding her with some points, she only managed to write 200 words. So in the end, I started add on more rubbish to the essay for her.

I managed to get 500+ words. Then I show npy my 'work'. I know my English sucks~ so npy helped me to edit. In the end, there are 600 words~ I sent it to Kah Yern. Thanks npy =D

At about 5pm, I went to bathe and prepare to leave house for dinner at Carlton Hotel. I was thinking what to wear seriously. Mummy cannot be bothered with me. So I had no choice but to just blindly pick. Mummy says wear anything. Shucks! Haha!!

In the end, I wore my top from Old Navy. Drew Drew saw and was like commenting "you wear until so nice for what? You going for wedding dinner hur?" haha! I know it sounds stupid. Then, we watch magic show on television while waiting for A & J family.

We went down to their place and meet up with them. Jonathan went to drive the car to down while Anna was still packing her bag. She needs to bring things for Kaiden. You see, this is for bringing a toddler out.

-On our way to Carlton Hotel-

My niece wore a hair band but when she was on the car, she did not want to wear it. So I wore it. Haha! Some kiddy girl~ Haha!

When we reach Carlton Hotel, we sat there, order food and waited. The food was nice. As usual, I took photos of the food~ Whoo! When I am busy taking photo and messaging npy, Drew Drew got food for me.

Drew Drew took tons of photos with me, this is for sitting on my left. Haha! We joked, eat and chatted. We had dessert. Yummy! Once again, I got my favourite SAGO!! Ahh! Love love love!! I still love the sago eaten at Fortune Hotel. I do not know why~ Haha!

Drew Drew got fried ice cream, AJ shared almond cream, mummy got sago too, and daddy got almond cream (is it?). Kaitlyn shared fried ice cream with Drew Drew. I wanted to try the fried ice cream, so Drew Drew fed me. This is when the 'feeding' starts. Drew Drew said "take one photo that I feed you lah." Ok, I tried taking but failed.

So Jonathan helped take the photo. We were told HOW to look scandal-ous. Haha! The instruction was to look at each other with 'passion' and 'love' and then feed me. Ok, I tried SO hard but, all that happened was Drew Drew and I kept giggling. Haha!! Then Anna showed us how to be 'scandal-ous' by feeding Jonathan. Haha!

After which, I managed to get daddy and mummy to take a photo. And I realize that daddy eyes are not that big. Drew Drew then commented, "I must have inherited the genes from you (daddy)." Then we realize that the 4 females in the family, Mummy, Anna, Angie and Anne have relatively big eyes. Daddy and Drew Drew have relatively small eyes. Haha!

Then Drew Drew and I continued to take photos. There is this photo, in order to look scandal-ous again, Jonathan asked me to show pose of kissing Drew Drew. I tried my best but all it turns out was my going-to-burst-laughter. Haha!!

-On the way home-

We reached home, and I am tired again! Haha! I have work the following morning. In the end, I was talking to npy the whole night. Npy was supposed to do presentation slides, in the end, not done~ I am super duper uper bad!

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x__[[Monday, July 07, 2008.

HAPPY YOUTH DAY! :)

It is youth day but I do not get holiday for it! I am still a youth ok! LOL!

In the morning, daddy woke mummy and I up. We were not awake by the time of 6.30am. As usual, I bathe and all. Once again, I ran for the bus. I saw Jia Yan on the way. Then I headed off to work.

On my way to work, while on the bus, I kept messaging. I was messaging Wan Sin and Jolene on the BME things. I called Harry about it. I totally forgotten that Harry project work starts at 1pm. This is what happened..

Richard (ECE Treasurer) wanted the Master Budget form by last Friday. Jolene only gets to know it on Thursday when Richard messages her. Jolene and I met up on Thursday and Harry told her to inform me about it. Well, she did inform me about it.

Previously, there is this conflict between BME juniors and me. Thus, I must say that I might be quitting BME committee, pushing Irene up to President post. Previously, Harry and I did mention about the Master Budget Form in early May. Then this conflict pops out and we decided to talk about next year event AFTER Harry consults the juniors.

Fine then, it is now July and I did not hear from Harry about the conclusion to the conflict. Now that Jolene wants to do up the Master Budget Form, I have to seriously ask Harry about it. I hate to ask but no choice! I mean, if I am really quitting and passing down to Irene, what is the point of asking me to plan the event?

Amazingly, Harry asked the juniors about it last time (I have no idea when is the last time) and then he did not inform me or do anything at all. How great! He says that he will talk about it when he is having meeting again this week.

In the end, Irene and I discussed about the events and I managed to give Jolene an answer. I feel seriously bad about throwing Jolene alone to die. I pulled her into the committee and now, this is the rubbish she has to clear alone. The rest of the committee knows nothing at all.

I seriously hate myself! Yet Wei taught us so many things and I have been the assistant treasurer and now, I cannot do anything to help Jolene. I am deadly serious that if not for Wan Sin, I might breakdown and kill myself for putting Jolene in such a spot. I seriously wanted to cry!

Looking at the state of problems and rubbish leftover, I see that it does not really matter to me whether I am in the committee or not. I told Irene that I do not feel sad even if I have to quit. Seriously, I do not feel sad about having to quit. However, I feel irresponsible and bad. I pulled Jolene in, and now, she have to face all these alone. Yet Wei entrusted me and yet, I have to let her down.

Seriously, I do not know what the hell is wrong with the juniors (selective). I have not done a single thing to them and they are making a fuss about it. They make it such that I have done something wrong can. Please, they mind me being part of the committee, did they even wonder whether I mind some of them being in the committee too? Self centered!

Wan Sin was saying that regardless they like it or not, just continue to be in the committee and lead. Teams consist of people working together, whether they like or not. Yes, she also did mention that it is not easy to control opposition party.

A team is a team. It does not make up of 'u' or 'I'. A team cannot survive alone with just you or I. One can hate someone in the team so much and yet, they can be productive. Someone can like the person so much and yet, they come up with nothing. Big picture or small picture? Which do they see? Personal interest is all they see isn’t it?

Now one have to see that BME committee is not a team at all. All the members have their own way of doing things. All the members have their own mentality and own power of influence. I do not want to influence them, I do not want to make them come and make a din about it. Neither do I want them to join and not even come for meeting. If they were to make noise and not come for meeting blah blah, some people will come and interfere again.

I can be so firm to them to say that whether they like or not, I am still going to lead them. I can be so firm and not follow what they want. I can actually hack care about what they say. I mean, they did not pass down the committee to me; it is the seniors who entrusted me with the post. It is the seniors who voted who to take over the committee. I can actually hack care the juniors, whether they like it or not, I am going to retain the post I am in.

They say they do not like the way I handle things. Did they work with me before? Obviously not. So what make them says so? I can actually totally hack care about what they say and continue to lead the committee. They do not like the way I handle things, did they question themselves, and how are they handling things now? Overthrowing people. That is what they want.

Why am I so not firm then? I have totally no idea. I guess, I do not wish to handle the opposition party anyways. I am so sick and tired of having juniors that are being 'brain-washed'. I am just so sick and tired of it already.

Harry says that he is going to settle it. Fine with me then. If by the time the next BME event comes, he does not settle or give me an answer, I shall just quit from the committee. I do not want to stay on and tolerate the nonsense anymore. And here comes the big problem!

I am so bad to throw all the nonsense to Irene. I feel so bad! And if I were to quit, Wan Sin will follow me too. And then, initially, I put Stella as Publicity Head, now that I am out, I do not know if she wants to continue to be in the committee.

I guess, I shall give Irene do up the committee position with reference to her preferences. That is the best way out.

There goes my whole trip from home to work. Haha! When I reach work, as usual, I am surfing the net. At about 10.30am, Jian Zhong came and we started to move house! Haha! Firstly, we had to off all our computers. Then we started to dismantle everything. Thanks for being a useless girl who do not exercise at all; I cannot carry the computer parts. So all I did was to dismantle while Jun Long helped me move.

The contractors came and moved the tables down to level 10. Initially, we were at level 11. Then now, we are moving to level 10. Jian Zhong and Chen Hua moved the items down. When another trolley is available, Jun Long helped out too. All I did was to sit there and hold the door while other people move things.

The only thing that I helped to move was the chair. We kept going up and down, up and down. When we finally moved the things down to level 10, we waited for the tables to be made properly. Then we started to connect back our computer.

This is when I feel so useless. Chen Hua asked me if I know how to connect up, I said no. So he helped me to do up my computer. He asked me for this wire that wire, I have no idea which wire he is talking about. Jian Zhong and Jun Long were busy connecting the computers too. We had 7 computers to connect up.

All I did was to stand there and see for I have totally no idea how to do it. See, how great I am.

By lunch, all the computers that we use were already set up properly. Jun Long and my card do not have access to level 10. So when I go for lunch, Jun Long has to stay in here to open the door for me. Haha!

I met up with npy for lunch. I think this is the first time npy comes here. Haha! After eating, I accompanied npy to take 151. After which, I came back and start using the computer. I kept dozing off. Not long after, Jian Zhong came and asked us to help move the chairs down.

Chee Hoong was packing the papers with Jian Zhong. Jun Long and I sat there and waited for them. I doze off. Haha! Then we start to help move the things. We went to the HFE lab to move the things too. It is the first time entering the HFE lab. I must say, it is super BIG!

There is this guy; his computer screen is SUPER big. It is about the size of the screen in the renovated SSIC or a little bigger than that. The big thing is, he has 2 screens, means that he is using 2 monitor which is SUPER big! And their computers there are better. Their smallest monitor is the same size as our biggest monitor. Disgraceful!

I love the HFE lab! It is nice nice nice!

By the time we finish moving most of the items, it is nearly 5.30pm. So we left DSO and then headed home. I am super duper uper tired! I wanted to sleep on 151 but the NTU 151 came. That means, I cannot sleep on the bus. The chairs are not sleeping-friendly. So I tried to stay awake in order not to end up lying on people.

When I reach home, I on my computer and loaded Fated to Love You and went to sleep. Yawn! Then npy called me and I woke up and watch FTLY. Whoo~ It is so sad that I wanted to cry~ Ok, maybe it is not that sad but I still feel so emotional after watching it.

I was talking to Joseph online. In the morning, I told him some news which he expected it and I know he will not kill me for waking up his sleep. I did not tell him many details because I was busy moving lab.

We were talking and I was trying to think of a term for it. Joseph gave me a number of ideas to it. Well, in the end, I came up with the term 'npy'. Haha! When I first told Joseph, he was like saying he only knows nyp, he have no idea what is npy. Haha!

Now, only 2 people know what 'npy' is. One is Joseph Seow Wei Tat and the other is Justin Seow Wei Qing. Haha! I just love to type their full name when they are both mentioned. The two of them have name which seriously looks like brother!! Ahh! Some more, only these 2 knows about 'npy'. Haha!

I realize that I have very close relationship with both Joseph Seow Wei Tat and Justin Seow Wei Qing. Haha! So coincident!! Ahh! Now I understand what Justin and I can click so well. Joseph and I can click super well too. Haha! (crapping)

I feel so stucked between Joseph and Justin~ Ahh! Neither of them I want to hurt! Who should I choose? Ahh! (even more crapping)

P.S. the above paragraph is just some rubbish where the reliability is equals to none!

P.S. Joseph, you wanted to read about npy but what is there to write? I have no idea what to write about npy. Haha!

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x__[[Tuesday, July 08, 2008.

Today marks the day that I am left with exactly 1 month before I end my attachment. So fast! Time really flies, unknowingly; I have spent 4 months and 5 days at DSO. This is like my second home. I mean, everyday, I spend from 8.15am (I come early) to 5.30pm (I leave early) at DSO. I nap here, eat here, chat online here, do my blogging here and etc. I will miss here.

Early morning, I started blogging this super long entry and it is killing people if they were to read it. I think it might take like super long to finish reading it. I am a little crazy. I wonder how many people will actually read it. I think just by scrolling alone, it will kill already. Muahaha! If I have time, I will do the HTML then~

I went for lunch with Jun Long, Wan Sin and Jolene. Yesterday night, I was super tired that I reach home and fall asleep. Jolene messaged me but I did not reply as I am happily enjoying my beauty sleep. Jolene told me that one of the cook from Megabites is the contestant for the show on Channel 8 last night.

So when we were at Megabites, I tried to look out for the guy to double check if we are talking about the right guy. The funny thing is that Jolene and the guy do not have fate. Initially, Jolene and I were standing there queuing up. The food is done and then Jolene took it back to the table first. Then the guy came out from the room.

When Jolene came back to wait for another tray of food to be ready, the guy went back into the room. Then Jolene says that she go and pay first. Not long after, the guy came out again and when I wanted to call Jolene, she is already at the cashier. When she turns over and see me, I signal to her and then, the guy is gone~

Jolene went over to Wan Sin and the guy came out again! When Jolene is on the way back, the guy was behind the counter doing something. I though Jolene is going to meet up with the guy already. Then she d-tour and went to see what drinks are there. The guy was at the counter!! And when Jolene came over, the guy is gone again. Finally, I managed to stop Jolene from going anywhere and the guy came out!! FINALLY!

As usual, the staffs there were super friendly and kept smiling at me. I think they can recognize me so well already. After eating, Jun Long and I came back to the lab. Once again, I continued to blog like nobody business. Haha!

There is still NO internet. Then, Jun Long went to help Jian Zhong move one of the CPU up to level 14. As for me, I am left alone in this eerie lab.

This lab is super eerie. There is strong wind from the corridor. The door has a lever that it will close automatically. However, the wind is so big that the door will not close. And if it is not close properly, the wind will all come in and blow at the blinder that it makes LOTS of noise. However, if you close properly, you will hear the 'woo woo' sound. (You know, the sound when it is super windy and you open a small hole at the window)

Johnny (the mannequin) is standing by the corner of the room, facing the balcony. Johnny has white face, white body and wearing army uniform number 4. And there is a skeleton head just by my computer. Chee Hoong placed it there. That is not only all, as we have moved all the items up, the place is still messy. So here and there, one will see human skeleton parts. You can see a leg lying around, hand, fingers, whatever body parts a human has.

Now, how eerie can this whole place be? Super duper uper eerie. And best of all, I am stranded here alone. Ahh!

Then, Chee Hoong and Douglas came. They were taking picture of Chee Hoong's leg. Haha! I know you must be super curious why, they are not sick but Chee Hoong was wearing the knee brace and they were taking photos of it. Haha!

I was helping out with taking the photo because, I think Douglas do not have the habit of taking photos, so he do not really know how to operate digital camera. Haha! So I helped him with operating it, adjusting and all.

Then I continued to type my blog. Haha! At about 4.30pm, Jun Long came back with Jian Zhong. They changed the parts and fixed the CPU. WOW! If it is me, I will be like lost~ Haha! Then Jian Zhong, Jun Long and Chen Hua were doing up, connecting and setting up the computer while I stand there and give eye power. Haha!

The contractors who had been working here lately say that Jun Long and I look like siblings. Haha! They say that we are close and we look a little alike. Jun Long and I were totally speechless. Ok, I must say that we are close. Haha! For at least, we knock off together. Haha!

After work, I went down to meet npy at the 151 bus stop. When I reach the bus stop opposite, I need to cross via underpass. And that stupid npy tells me that I have 5 seconds to appear. That means I have to run down the stairs and the underpass. And stupidly, I really ran. Haha!

I met up with npy and then we took bus down to Marina Square. Jackie messaged me to ask me how to get to Novena from Jalan Toa Payoh. Haha! He asked the wrong person. I only know what bus and where to alight. I have no idea where the bus stop is.

Besides, I seldom go to Novena. I only had been there a couple of times. I went there with Kah Wai once via train from Tampines. Kah Wai's attachment company is at Novena, so that time; I accompanied her down to the company to get her things. The rest of the time, I go down Novena to have Japanese buffet at the Revenue House with Kenneth and aunts. I will travel down to my grandma place and meet up with them and then, travel down.

So seriously, I have never been to Novena Square. Neither did I travel down to Novena from Toa Payoh. Haha! What a Singaporean.

Npy and I took bus down to Marina Square and then, I got kind of lost. Haha! I have never walked the area near Pan Pacific Hotel. So all I did was just to follow npy. So in any case, if npy decides to throw me alone there, I might get lost. Haha!

We walked around John Little in search of tie. I did not know that there is a John Little at Marina Square. Well, every time I go Marina Square, I do not shop. Usually we will just walk our way to the MacDonald and then exit and proceed to the long stairs.

Then we went to have dinner at KFC. I know it sounds a little stupid to travel down to Marina Square to have KFC. Ok, for at least Joseph says that it is stupid. Haha!

After dinner, npy and I walked all the way from Marina Square down to the Singapore Flyer. Obviously, I have no idea how to proceed there. Haha! We had to walk pass the place where NDP is held. I see so many people there. I think they are rehearsing for NDP. They are super hard working.

Then we walk and walk and finally, I saw the flyer! It is the first time I am seeing the flyer from such a near view. It is beautiful. I wonder if the flyer will fall. Haha! Now that I realize, from there, you can see the F1 race course and the floating gallery. Woo~ That is something I do not know at all. (Ok, I sound super idiot)

At 8 plus pm, npy and I left the flyer area and headed home. Haha! We took 56 and amazingly, the bus is totally empty! Woo~ 56 went pass Bugis and this is the first time I know it. I just know it like yesterday! Oh gosh! I took many times home from Esplanade and I have no idea about it.

Then reach Toa Payoh and took 235 home. Haha! Usual procedure. I reach home and then at 10 plus, I went to bathe. I got myself all emo again. Ok, I cried when bathing. Ahh! Anne is thinking so much again! Then when I came online, Uncle Zhi Yuan was trying to cheer me up. Thanks uncle!

We were talking about project work and then, he was saying that I should choose slowly as I have time. Then that leads to talking about Mr. Foo. Speaking of Mr. Foo, it will lead to Panda. They call Mr. Foo, Panda Foo. Then it leads to Kung Fu Panda~ I was telling Zhi Yuan that Mr. Foo do not know Kung Fu. I highly doubt Mr. Foo can even touch his feet with his knee locked. Haha!

Then Zhi Yuan was saying that we should ask him try. So that leads to talking about NAPFA sit and reach. Then, Zhi Yuan says that Panda Foo will not pass a single station. Then I said that if he roll, he MIGHT pass his 2.4km run, and I mean MIGHT pass. See, we are so bad~ Anne, you are a super baddie.

I realize that whenever I am emo, I will tend to on Wish and listen. And upon hearing that song, it reminds me of Zhi Yuan's friend who got all emotional when she broke off with her ex. It reminds me of what his friend wrote in her blog. I feel so heartache for her.

Zhi Yuan was telling me to delete that stupid emo song of mine. I guess this is one reason why Wan Sin had SO MANY doubts when I wanted her to send me the song. Haha! This song is going to stay with me!

When I am emo, I will listen to Wish. And when I am high, I will listen to Y.M.C.A. And when I am bored, I will on my media player with these two songs on the play list. Mixed feelings~

At about 12mn, I off my computer and chatted with npy. When chatting, I cried again. Ahh! I think I should save some water. I am wasting water so much. Haha! I think one third of the water input comes out as tears and the rest comes out as wee wee. Sounds stupid though~

I was telling npy about some hidden codes (ok, not really code or hidden). Ok, npy got it. It is not fun at all! Grr! I think, in order to write hidden code next time, I should encrypt first. I did learn how to do auto and manual encrypting when I am learning how to use Visual Basic. Else I can write in jumble words. If not, I can write using ASCII codes. Worst comes to worst, I shall write using binary form. (the 100011 thingy)

I went to sleep at nearly 1am. I had been sleeping at this time lately. And the thing is that I will wake up at 6.30am every morning. I am sleeping like 5 and half hours everyday. Last time, I will sleep like nobody’s business and usually it is up to 10 hours a day. Haha!

Now that there is no more student room, no more napping from 1pm to 3pm. It is ok then, I still have the toilet! Haha!! Now that I am at level 10, there are 2 toilets! One inside and one outside. The toilet on the inside is super big too. However, comparing the toilets, I prefer the toilets at level 11. The toilet at level 11 is brighter, cozier and the feel is better.

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Another 13 pages gone like this! Wow!! Another few more pages~~ Haha!!

No internet to read online novel, this is what I get in the end. Blogging like nobody business!! Haha!! o(>.<)o

I think....
. now this post got mention u alrdy.. don sian over dis kind of things ok.
. u know that even if i did not mention, i still got rmb you one.
. don wish to see u sian sian because i will be lost.
. believe me, i have reasons for doing some things.
. next time, when u nt happy over smth, tell me.. don keep it from me. i will worry..
it feel more like reading a not-interesting novel in my blog. Haha!