So many things had been happening recently. Yesterday I just blogged about a problem of mine and today, it is resolved. Though the way it is solved is quite ridiculous, it has finally ended. Yes, it really implicated many people into the picture and that was unexpected.

After trying to explain face to face, I really hope that he would understand. Though I still have doubt to whether if he really wants me as a friend because he wants, hope that things can turn alright. He said that he wanted to solve this conflict and become friends again is because of everyone around us.

He is not doing it because he wants. I am really disappointed in him for saying that. He gave me a chance to explain but he does not believe at all. Regardless what, the problem is resolve and I do not wish to dwell on it any further. In simple words, the problem is resolved and the feeling is still odd.

Thanks so much my friends. Thank so much for being there. Now I know that actually, in NP, I am not alone. I have friends with me and by me. Now I get to know that some friends are really there and lending a listening ear while some are doing things behind. Regardless which it is, I still want to thank them!

Though one problem is over, another one came. Currently, I am facing quite a problem with Daryl over this problem. He said that all he feel when he see me is unhappiness, guiltiness and insecurity. I think this problem with friends really bring him an impact. I do not know how to handle either.

Well, one problem solved, another come again. He is totally depressed over this matter. He is not happy at all. And of course, I am feeling terrible now too. Initially, I was saying that we would be grouping together with my friends. When this problem occurred, he started being guilty and reprimanding himself for agreeing onto going with me.

Now, he is feeling so terrible and keeps saying that he does not want to go. He say that he rather keep himself with his friends than to be in the same group. I do not know what is happening. I felt so terrible and guilty for making him feel that way. I really hope that the problem can be solved.

The biggest problem that I worried it would happen have happen. I really hope that things can turn out well. Yes, I know that Jermaine and Nicholas cannot accept that Daryl is my boyfriend and he is going and I want him to be on the same group as me. This is one big problem and thus, I do not know how to settle at all.

Oh God! Can someone help me through and stop having problems after problems. I do not wish to come to the extend of choosing friends or boyfriend. I really do not wish this to happen and now, what can I do besides waiting for him to reconsider everything and make me feel secure? Life is cruel.

It had been near half a month since I last blogged. Not knowing what to do, I decided to come and blog again. On Thursday, it is the start of open house. Thursday is the last day I am going to have my CMB practical. And this is also going to the last time I am going to wear my lab coat. Yes, indeed it is kind of the sad. So I decided to start taking photos with some of my friends in lab coat.

It all started out with taking photos with Timothy as he was just sitting next to me. Then, I wanted to take with Subha. However, Subha does not like to be on picture. Afterwhich, Jermaine walk past and I pulled to take picture with him and Cheng Qian. Then, Jermaine offered to take picture with Mr Chang which was the personal H class family photo. Then, I offered to take a H1 Class photo with the peeps in our lab coat.

Actually, we took 2. However the second one was blur and not clear. It is a pity that Rebacca was not there. If not, it would be even more complete. Speaking of H1, though I was in there for near a year, I did not really talk to all of them before. However, for this semester, there is quite a number if change in the class grouping.

At first, at the start of this semester, I thought that I am stranded in H1 alone without Wan Sin, Xue Zhen, Li Chao and Subha. Later I get to know that I still had Subha in the class with me. Then, Subha and I got even closer. After which, I got closer to Cheng Qian, Nicholas, Jermaine and Timothy. Then, we became a family like thing. Cheng Qian is my daddy (which I only get to know it on Friday night), Subha, Xue Zhen and Li Chao as my sisters, Nicholas as my newphew. Quite of the complicated though.

I had been through many up and down in this semester. There are many exam and papers waiting for me to go and attend to it. Life in this semester is much more stressful than in semester 1. However, as this semester is coming to an end, I would do my best! I do not wish to repeat any module anyway. Neither do I want to join the G class. I do not have a problem with the G class. However, I do not really

I really hope that Subha, Li Chao, Xue Zhen and of course Wan Sin can be in the same class as me. I really hope so. And I do not wish like what Jermaine said! He said that all the EM3A students for this semester would go to H2 and leaving the EG2 students in H1. Never in my life man!

Some problem occurred in school on Friday. It is not a small problem but yet, quite a big one. I shall not say the names but just to name the person, I shall call the main male character J and the female character, A. And the story goes like this... ... ...

J and A were good friends in school. On one of the day, they decided to go for a trip to Vietnam with other good friends of theirs. Everything was going quite peacefully. A had a boyfriend and of course, her boyfriend knows about it. Going for the trip can make them skip one module next semester.

And of course, A would hope that her boyfriend can go join her too. A did asked her friends before, which includes J. Then, A asked the lecturer in charge about it and gets to know that her boyfriend can go too. And of course, the lecturer asked her boyfriend to get more friends from LSCT too. A told her boy friend to get one friend will do in case he feel left out. However, neither did anyone know, his friend went to get another couple and a friend.

On Friday early morning, A told J about it. As A knows that J would mind about the matter, she hopes to explain to J about it instead of leaving him the last one to know. However, neither did she expect, J totally ignored her and said that if that is the case, he would go and call his entire secondary school friend to come. It was quite hurting though.

After COMPRO lesson, J asked A how many vacancies are there left in front of one of their friend, N. And A asked J why he asked. And J said that he want to go and call all his friends to come. Then N said that why are there so many people going and ask straight at the face “Can you ask your boyfriend and friends all not go to?” At the point of time, A was utterly hurt. She did not know what to reply and just left the room.

A skipped break with S and X. The 3 of them went to SIM to have their break with other people. And of course, A had fun with them rather than thinking of the problem that is presence. After which, the 3 of them went to the library to study. A and J did not talk at all. When N comes in, N still asked A to teach him Maths.

After which, each of them left for lessons. After lesson, A was waiting for her boyfriend and his friends to come. They went into the classroom and started the meeting. J was totally ignoring A and A felt kind of the sad. At the end of everything, A had some talk with her friends without the presence of J. The talk is quite fun and funny.

On Saturday, which is today, A had forgotten about it and face the fact that she is going to lose a friend. At night, S persuades J to call. Yes, J called and talk to A about it. However, he defeated the whole purpose of talking at his very first sentence, "I do not want to make this call. I feel that it does not make a difference if I have or do not have you as a friend. I do not want people to say that I do not give you a chance to explain." So he is implying that he did not call because he want to keep this friendship but yet, he call just not want others to say that he does not give A a chance to explain.

Throughout the whole conversation, he is being unreasonable. Even so, A does not really care either. As he said, he is just utterly disappointed in A. Neither did any of J friend though, he wanted to go is to foster stronger bonds between us rather than the fact of skipping a module next semester. And J is totally disappointed in A because A called other people. If that is the case, A does not want that to happen too.

To J, he just thinks that A would leave them alone and not foster bonding with them and regardless how much A tries to explain that that would not happen, he just kept believing in what he thinks. And he also reprimanded A for telling her boyfriend. Is that A's fault for telling her boyfriend? Or should A not tell her boyfriend at all and suddenly disappear for 2 weeks? That is ridiculous.

Though the friendship between A and J is ok now, the feeling is different already. To J, he is still disappointed in A and to A, their friendship is something that is not worthy anymore. To A, their friendship is something like a hi-bye friend because as what J said, it does not make a difference if A is his friend. Regardless how close they can be, it would never be the same... ...

Pictures taken during CMB Practical in CMB Lab.
Please see from bottom up.

My H1 Family! Don't we look cool in our lab coat! A pity that Rebacca is not here.

My personal H class family. It is short of nicholas and xue zhen.

This is Nicholas, Mr Chang and Jermaine. They did that pose on purpose.

This is Jermaine and me.

This is nicholas, aka fishy, nicky, small fish, nicola.

This is Timothy and me. He is very tall and thin. He is one head and a neck longer than me.