If I knew that you can’t make it, I won’t have spend my time waiting for you to do it. I would have done it myself. And now, I am left to clear the mess myself.
I wonder how much effort you put into it. While doing it, you can still go somewhere else to have fun. It meant so much to me and it means nothing to you. I spent hours and days on it but you? Seriously, it really means nothing to you. True enough, you need not do it at all. If only I had done it myself.
Now, it is the same as me doing all the work. I have to re-do every single thing. You are tired, I am tired too. You do it, give it to me and go to bed. I wish I can just give it to someone and go to bed. I thought we can share the work. In the end, it is just one man show.
I am feeling damn mad about it and yet, I cannot say anything. All I can do is keep quiet and swallow the unhappiness. I am damn tired after a long day of mugging. Now at this hour, I have to clear the mess. I also want to sleep. However, how can I?
Now I know, I cannot rely on you. You don’t even bother to ‘accompany’ me while I clear the mess. All you do is give me the mess and tell me you are tired and off to bed. So much for being a partner. Never will I want to entrust the work with you again.
Never rely on others again! Do it yourself!
Do it Yourself
North Face 100 Canvassing
Back from north face 100 canvassing!! Tired and I turn red! OMG! I am going to peal tomorrow. Sadded! Ok, I am going to bed soon!
.Friday, October 16, 2009]]__x
I went for lecture and had a lunch with my tutorial mates. Finally, I get to talk to the people from right hand side. OMG! They are a group of people who LOVES to eat. Next time, we can go on ‘food hunt’! Hunting for super duper uper nice food. No more canteen food!
The first group photo we had! Thanks to beatrice, someone took a photo for us! Love this photo.
.Saturday, October 17, 2009]]__x
Today, I went out and have lunch with joseph. Ok, should be tea break. We met up at around 2pm and head down to bugis. I wanted to go art-friend to get some stuff. So my dear beloved jo accompanied me down to bugis while I get my stuff.
Then we went down to iluma to look-see. It is my first time going iluma. We went to get some dessert and head to the arcade. We went to play the japanese drum game. The only difference is, the songs are all chinese pop songs. We lost during the 4th game.
Super yummy food!
Then I headed home and had the first dinner ever since drew drew book in. It is the first time drew drew book out and we had steamboat! Yummy yummy! I miss drew drew so much! Without him, I feel so bored, lonely and independent. I became the last to sleep every night and have to off the lights, walk in the dark dark house to my room. I don’t like all this.
After which, I started playing with my camera! =)
My super cute nephew. He is getting cuter and cuter, gong-er and gong-er each day. Ah!
Drew drew is now really bo-tak!
.Saturday, October 24, 2009]]__x
Yesterday, I left school at around 4pm, I took train home. The thing is, I doze off when I got up, the train just left kallang. I was damn lost and over shot. In the end, I took train back to raffles place and up to toa payoh. When I reach home at around 6pm, I uploaded the photos and decided to take a nap. In the end, I woke up at 3am.
I am going down to macritchie at 4am. Luckily I woke up automatically. I totally forgotten about it. I took cab down, met up with wanjing and clique, head down and register. Initially, wanjing’s partner is cheng xi. Thanks to cheng xi, I partner with wanjing. Ai si cheng xi le!
We went down to rifle range road and waited for the runners to come. We were busy serving water, directing them and chasing monkey! I am serious about the monkey! There are many monkey coming from MANY directions! We have to keep a look out always.
Thanks to the monkey, we start ‘drafting’ drama. Wanjing, liza, bei shan and I started thinking lines to go along with the actions of the monkey. Isn’t that fun? Boon yang and nelson were busy laughing and laughing.
Then we started pouring tons of water for the runners. They are wasting water and we are on water rationing. We had subway for lunch, 3 inch subway. And we had yogurt and banana for dessert! For breakfast, we ate quite a number of bananas already so we decided to be nice and give the runners the bananas.
At 1 plus pm, we started resting. For some reason, my head got so painful that I feel like vomiting. I think I got heat stroke. So I sat inside the shelter to rest. I doze off and woke up at 3 plus pm. Then the girls got tired and decided to rest. So I continued resting.
Soon, we start packing the place and waited for the bus to come. Bus bus bus! We were sent back to macritchie and let off there. I took bus home and yes! Home sweet home! Super tired!!
Look at our lethargic face in the early morning 5 plus am.
During our bus ride back to macritchie. Everyone are busy sleeping while the three of us are busy photo taking. Whee!
Top left picture: bo yang, liza, bei shan, wanjing, anne, nelson Bottom right picture: phyllinda, anne, raymond, wanjing, siying
Anyways, I think there is something wrong with me. I fainted/almost fainted twice this week. The first time was on wednesday when I went to visit my granny. And the second time is today.
My granny went to the wash room and I stood next to her bed. Suddenly, my head starts getting heavy and I told my parents that I am going to the wash room. Who knows, by the time I leave the ward and reach the lobby area, I can’t see anything. I just sat down at one of the chair and rested. I am breaking out cold sweats. When I got better, I went back to my granny’s ward.
As for today, I was standing under the sun and my head got painful. I went into the shelter to rest. After awhile, more runner came and I started going out in the sun. When I come back into the shelter, I can’t see anything. I tried resting but for quite some time, I only see ‘white-ness’. Soon, I see colours! Then I decided to rest and I ended up dozing off. Ah!
I really think, there is something wrong with me. Maybe I should visit the doctors soon. However, for what reason? I don’t know. I remember once telling a doctor that I fainted. Then he asked if I woke up on my own or what. I told him I woke up on my own and he said “oh! if you did not wake up on your own, I have to send you to the hospital. Else, it is not much of a problem.” So, don’t know, don’t care, don’t bother! =)
Off to bed!
A18 Monthly Affair
It is going to be 4am soon. You must be thinking, why am I STILL awake. Oh well, I am awake because, I just woke up not long ago. I think most of my friends just went to bed since it is weekend tomorrow! My long awaited weekend is ruined by some stupid, useless, waste of my time canvassing.
Yesterday was a damn fun day! =) Members of A18 celebrated the october babies’ birthday! We had tons of fun laughing and playing around. Thanks them so much for lighting up my day =) How I wish we can stay together next semester, next next semester, next next next semester, next next next next semester and many more other semesters!
Let the photos do the talking!
The girls, the guys and EVERYONE! All of us wore black and we purposely made the birthday boys wear white! Isn’t just so cool? The black and white series! We look like some back ground crew doing the job!
Whoooo!!! Photo taking is always fun when there is mirrors and stairs! =)
There isn’t enough space for 20 of us thus we are separated into two groups. These are the people from table 1 =)
And 2. Haha!
Seriously (reminds me of din. hahaha!), I had a fun time with them. They are a group of fun and funny people. There are more females as compared to my times in poly. I had a bad time with some females in poly and I thought that it will be another history repeat. No, they are damn nice! =) And of course, they are less bitchy **opps** than some I saw in poly.
And, EVERYONE in my class is from JC except samson and I. Sadded! I am the ‘da jie’ among the girls, samson is the ‘da ge’ among the guys. Oh~~~~
To end off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY OCTOBER BABIES!! 3 who are 21 this year and 1 who is 22!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Not only we stone, we pebble, we boulder but we rock too! =)
Helpless and Depress
Ever since the day I step into university, everything seems to be changing. People seems to be leaving, problems seem to start arising. Everything is not as simple as what I used to think. It seems like I am losing people around me.
It started off with my cousin who left singapore for scotland. We were very close, we can spend 5 hours having heart to heart talks. We can bug each other every night. She failed to get a place in singapore university so she went overseas to study. She left and I felt lonely.
Then my maternal grandma left the world for heaven. She was fine, kicking and looking at us kids running around every weekend. All of a sudden, everything seems to come around her and ‘they’ decided to bring her away. I felt helpless but there is nothing I can do.
During the days of my maternal grandma wake, I saw my uncles and aunties. Suddenly, I feel that they had gotten so old. In the past they are the ones who will bring us to the playground and chase us around. Now, they even have a hard time standing and sitting.
Not long after, drew drew left for home for national service. He is someone I can talk to. When I am feeling down, he will entertain and cheer me up. When I am stress, he will treat me food. Then, he left, leaving me home alone for most of the time.
Then lately, my paternal grandma was hospitalise. She fell down and knock her head. Nothing serious happened but that is when I realise why my grandma always come crying to me in the past. I finally understand why she will cry when we wanted her to move back to her house due to space problem. Nobody wants to take care of her.
Today, I went to visit my paternal grandma. The moment she saw me, she cried. She start asking me why I did not go and stay with her during my holidays? She held onto my hands and talking and wiping her tears. I can’t do anything at all. She says that she doesn’t want to have a maid but nobody is free or want to take care of her. I felt damn helpless.
I was talking to someone close to me . I don’t know where I get the feeling from, but I had a strong feeling that she will leave for something else. It is just how she will leave. So today, I had a talk with her and we ended up on so-called cold war. I don’t know what happened to me. I think, after this cold war, she will leave too.
Soon, everyone will leave for a place they should be at. I felt helpless but there is really nothing I can do besides crying. My tears are worthless. Everyone tells me that.
tell me what to do.
Maths Make Me Mad
I am having a hard time doing maths tutorial. It is just like caem in the past. Die, dying, died! I wonder how did I pass my caem in the past. It suddenly feel so miracle to me!!
Ok, university maths is tough. Right~ I should have known that when I am in poly, mugging for my caem and get 15/100 for my mid semester test. Opps! Haha!
I got so damn bored staring at university maths and I decided to go and look for PSLE maths to do! =x I heard that many parents are complaining about how difficult the paper is. There are many complains. I start wondering, why do parents ALWAYS complain about PSLE maths and not other subjects? It is always maths.
I remember there was a complain about this particular maths question for the 1988 kids.
What is the result for 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + … … + 47 + 48 + 49 + 50?Many parents start complaining that it is too difficult for PSLE standard. So when come to my year being a primary 6 student, our teachers kept giving us tricky and challenging maths questions. These maths questions make us go gaga! LOL!
This year, it is the first year PSLE students can use calculator (hello! We only start using calculator in secondary school ok!). This year, the questions are tricky too. I heard that there are MANY! The most classic example they kept giving was.
Jim bought some chocolates and gave half of it to Ken. Ken bought some sweets and gave half of it to Jim. Jim ate 12 sweets and Ken ate 18 chocolates. The ratio of Jim's sweets to chocolates became 1 : 7 and the ratio of Ken's sweets to chocolates became 1:4. How many sweets did Ken buy?. Ans: 68 sweetsCan you solve the above question using models? Oh well, mathematics is getting harder every single year. One day, you will see the kids going around bald. I realise that mathematician or mathematics lectures are usually bald =x Maybe they think too much and kill too much brain cells.
One simple question before I end my post.
Curry puff shop sells puffs at $0.80 each. Offer:Buy 3 get 4th half price. If customer has $50, how many puffs can he buy if he buys as many as he can. Ans: 71 puffCrazy! Who will buy so many puff? Haha!
Tell me, why is my life so screwed up?
For some I don’t know what reason, I have no mood to study, watch drama, surf the net, check up stomp and laugh about the stupid news or any other thing. I don’t know why. I hate school, I hate myself. Why aren’t I working hard and trying my best? Why am I slacking and lagging?
Tell me, why I am not doing anything?
I kept telling myself “work hard, exams are coming.”, “read your notes, you know nothing!”. However, nothing! Nothing productive is out. At this rate, I wonder how to become a university grad.
Tell me, why am I so moodless?
I was telling geor geor, I am feeling damn moodless. I don’t have the mood to do any thing at all. I just want to sit there and rot. I know I can’t. I know I have to buck up. I know that things aren’t going well yet at the same time, I have to do something about it. What should I do?
Tell me how!! =(
Quiz Week Is Coming
Super busy life leads to letting my blog grow webs!
My week is going to be super busy!! Busy with studying for quizzes, quizzes and more quizzes.
Thursday – Make up physicsJust the stupid economics quiz is enough to kill! *died!* Another round of chemistry quiz! Die, dying, died! I scored 2/10 previously. I wonder how much will I get now?
Friday – Maths quiz, birthday celebration, lunching with friend
Saturday – Dumb north face canvassing
Monday – Physics quiz
Friday – Economics quiz
Tuesday – Chemistry quiz
I am having north face canvassing on saturday! Stupidly, I have to reach macritchie by 4.30am. Crazy timing isn’t it. I think everyone should be busy sleeping at that time. Oh well, I know I SHOULD be sleeping at that time. I don’t even know how to get out of the house at that time. You know, I have curfew. I wonder how am I going to tell my dad that I am going out at 4am? Die!
Last friday, I attended the programmer’s day. It is not a programmer’s day at all. We reached there at 7pm (it states that it starts at 7) and we sat there for about 20 minutes before chian shieh comes. I saw cheng xi and his group sitting at the table behind us. Their group already started discussing like nobody business. We are just sitting and slacking around like nobody business.
In general, I am damn disappointed with whatever is happening. I shall stop expecting better skills and just do whatever is given. What is the point of expecting it when nothing is going to come out? Oh yes, chian shieh was saying that IF we did not do canvassing, the penalty for last year was $20 per canvassing. Since that is the case, why waste my time and do canvassing? Just by doing 1 canvassing is enough to cover the cost of 2 canvassing.
If so many canvassing is done last year and the things we got during the camp sucks, don’t expect too much for the up coming camp. I think we are going to expect MORE golden spoon un-edible food.
I wonder why they get golden spoon food. The food is pathetic and worst of all, the day we need to ‘earn’ our ingredients. They give us plain WHITE and DRY rice, we are to earn the ingredients for our lunch. For every single meal, the plain white and dry rice is one full pack while the dishes did not even fill 1/3 of the lunch box. Imagine for one of the days, we had white rice, one chicken wing and one seaweed chicken. That is the NICEST meal we had -.-
I think they should provide better accommodation. For the 09/10 camp, the place we stayed in is pathetic! I hate mobile camps. It is a waste of time when you have to end your night or start your day by packing your bag so we can carry to our next destination. We spent so much on booking chalet rooms when we don’t even get to spend quality time in there.
I remember they told us to get credits. In the end, we get the credits for no reason. It is not like a competition or what so ever, we are just getting because our leader told us to. No wonder we aren’t enthusiastic about getting those credits and signature from our seniors. For all the games, there is no point system or what so ever. So we are playing for the sake of playing. It is ok, my group is never enthusiastic in the first place. We are the slacker group.
In conclusion, nothing nice about the camp I will remember except for the fun that we (no names said) had. The zi high, sing-a-long session and of course the fu yan -ing time we had. So fun! =)
Tomorrow is another day! I should really start studying and mugging! Exams are near. I hate exams!!!!!
Mugging
School.
= Mugging.
Public holiday.
= More mugging.
Exam.
= Even more mugging.
Holiday.
= No more mugging!
Year 1 Semester 1
Another week has gone. School is still a torture! Nothing interesting happened in my life besides school, school, school and more school! =( Seriously, I have nothing much to blog about. Ah! My blog is dying. I am dying.
October 06, 2009. The very day drew drew left home to serve the nation. I miss him like nuts! Now that he is not at home, I became the last to sleep every night. I don’t like being the last to sleep because I have to off the lights and walk in the dark dark house. Shucks!
On monday, I had computing quiz. Amazingly, I don’t know how to do. Right! I am serious about it. I did something wrongly. One of my answer is totally different from others. Sadded!
On tuesday, I had chemistry quiz. I spent the whole night studying, I spend few days studying it. In the end, I got only 2/10. Some more, it is MCQ. I guess some of my answers and I only get 2. How bad my luck is! I am damn tired so in the end, I skip chemistry lecture and headed home to sleep. Damn tired!
On wednesday, I spent the whole afternoon doing my lab report. Finally it is done =) At 9 plus pm, I went out to find a place to bind my report. Damn it, I can’t find any where to print it. In the end, I went to school to bind it.
On thursday, I headed home early. Ok, not very early but after my effective communication tutorial. My period came today and I suffered from the stupid cramp while in school. After economics lecture, I was with daniel and samson. Then it start hurting like crap and I almost fainted (again). Thanks to the two guys for accompanying and ‘taking care’ of me. Else I think I would have died there.
On friday, I was all alone during lunch. I went to wan jing’s hall to meet up with wan jing. Then, georgina came to join us. We start nua-ing in her room until 2 plus pm. Elizabeth, wan jing’s neighbour, had her father to fetch us down to jurong point. Wan jing and I had our lunch at ding tai feng at 3 plus pm. After lunch, we took train back home! I went to sister’s house. Tired!
On saturday, I went out in the afternoon. I went to meet up with justin. We went down to marina square for lunch. We had long john silver. OMG! It had been a long time since I had long john silver. After which, we went to walk around. I saw many new watches at swatch. OMG! Tempted again. Then we went down to douby ghaut. We wanted to catch a movie in the end, there isn’t suitable timing. We went to soup spoon for dinner. Eeek! The soup is not nice. We went to some place near national library to chat and went home. Tired!
On sunday, I am busy with school work. Another week is starting. I am damn tired! I officially hate school. Damn damn damn it!
Oh yes, I am having oral presentation for effective communication and I can’t find a topic. I hate presentation. I hate oral presentation. It sucks! I am someone with stage fright. I hate hate hate presentation. Er er er er xin!!
Farewell For Jonathan & Oktoberfest
A chop chop update before school starts for me. I hate school. I am dying, dying, dying! I hardly have time for my own entertainment this holiday. Damn! It is all thanks to the time spent on canvassing at oktoberfest.
Jonathan have left for egypt again. After staying in singapore for so long, he has left. That is so sad! He will be back in november. Poor anna have to take care of the kids alone again.
My dear beloved drew drew is going ns on tuesday. Sadded! I will miss him so much. For 2 weeks, there will not be anyone at home spamming music. When I am home from school, no more dota sound. No one to zhi high with. So sad! He is going soooooonnnn!!
Everyone is leaving =(
During my recess week, I am supposed to be studying. In the end, I have too many things to do.
On sunday, I went out with my family for a farewell lunch. Jonathan is leaving that evening and we had a farewell lunch. =)
Food!
Kaiden!!! Aren’t he sooo cute! =)
Kaitlyn girl! Her cap is worn like pooh.
On monday, I was busy doing my brochure for effective communication. I have to research for so many things and research for the backgrounds. It is just so tiring to research for suitable backgrounds.
On tuesday, I started studying. I studied chemistry and yes, finally I know how to do tutorial 1. Hello! I have 5 tutorials and I only know how to do tutorial 1. How dumb of me. This shows that my chemistry sucks! And I really study from the first page of the lecture notes all the way to the end. I am no where near one quarter of it.
On wednesday, in the morning, I went to help my sister to take care of the kids. It is children’s day celebration in their school. I met up with sister and went to send the kids to school. Then we went for breakfast. We had yakun tea from j8 and it is seriously disgusting! Feel like vomiting after drinking. After picking the kids, I went to sis’s place to wait for time to pass.
Then I went to toa payoh central to get a pair of black shoes and get my lunch. I bought lunch, came home and went to bathe. I am damn lazy! I don’t feel like going canvassing at all. At 3 plus pm, I left home and headed down to clementi to meet up with others. I am on time.
We took 154 down to somewhere and took a van into swiss club. We were TOLD that transportation is provided. Yes, it is provided. And that provided transportation is the stupid small van which brought us up to swiss club. After bringing us up, we went to change and waited for time to pass.
We had our dinner and then head for duty. There are so little people today. We are to clean the tables, help take orders, serve them beer and beverages. There are girls in german attire, also known as the beer girls. Most of them are from TP and they are there working part time. Casually, I asked one of the girl how much she is paid. She said that for her, she is paid $10/hr and for waitress is $8/hr. Hmm! Cheated!
We did not work OT. OT is until 2am and nobody told us. So we just left and headed home. The damn bloody idiotic thing is, we are to WALK from swiss club down to the main road. The whole journey is pitch dark and there isn’t any taxi which want to pick us. Another thing is, it took us about 30 minutes to figure our way down to the main road. Damn it! Luckily I am not alone.
We got to the main road and took cab home. Gidman, georgina and I shared a cab. I reach home at 12 plus am. I am damn tired! My legs are aching and so is my arm.
Super blur pictures thanks to my stupid dumb phone. I seriously hate my phone! When I am using my nokia 6131, after using for 2 years, I still treat it like treasure. I don’t throw it around or what so ever. However, for this dumb phone, After about 6 months, I already hack care the phone. What more, the whole phone sucks. The camera sucks, the phone lag like crap, the whole thing is not nice =(
On thursday, we went down for canvassing. Actually all of us didn’t want to go. In the end, we still went down because we are under chian shieh’s group. If not for that, we would have stayed home and do whatever we want. We are all unwilling to go down.
Instead of reaching clementi by 4pm, I reach toa payoh interchange at 4pm. I met up with geor geor and we took train down to raffles place to meet wanjing. By the time we reach clementi, it is already 5 plus pm. Then we got some food and travel down to the place where we supposed to take the van.
We walk up to swiss club. As usual, we are a little lost. And we are damn tired after walking. Along the way, we were commenting on other people’s house. There are a couple of houses which is damn super nice! I really think we are strolling up the hill. We are damn tired after the walk.
Ok, by the time we reach there is already 6+ pm. We went for duty and start slacking. I was playing with wanjing. As usual, serving and serving. I want to try their sparkling water~~
At 11 plus pm, we left. Thanks to zi rui, we don’t have to spend 30 minutes walking down the damn dark and ulu place. Geor geor, chen yi, da melissa and I shared a cab home. Finally home!
On friday, I stayed home and study! Mugging session! Once again, nothing fruitful. Thanks to canvassing, I have been waking up at 12pm. After canvassing on wednesday, I slept at 1am and KO all the way to 12pm. This happened on thursday night too. I can’t believe it! So half of my friday is gone thanks to sleeping!
Anyways, all of us who went for the first day regretted SO MUCH. It is really a waste of our time to do such canvassing. Seriously, I rather pay the $100 to be a programmer than working this dumb oktoberfest. Let’s do some mathematics.
Without canvassing:Just by doing 3 canvassing, my $100 is covered and I still help the camp earn another $44. However, I still have to cover another 2 canvassing. Theoretically, we are cheated into doing canvassing. Isn’t it dumb?
Amount paid = $100
With canvassing:
Oktoberfest waitress pay = $8/hr
Working hours = 5pm to 11pm = 6 hours
Money earned: $8 x 6 = $48
Working for 3 days = 48 x 3 = $144
Amount due = $100 - $144 = -$44
Number of canvassing left = 2
Besides having to do FREE LABOUR, we aren’t paid for all the other transportation fee. I spend money to go for canvassing. My transportation fee, my attire and my time. Let’s do mathematics again.
Black shoes = $20.00Hmm! Besides not earning a single cent, having to do free labour, we have to spend money. We provide service and give the money. So it is not worth it. I think I am too free. I actually went to do all these calculations.
Travelling to swiss club = $0.69 + $1.60 + $0.91 = $3.20
Cabbing from main road to toa payoh = $9.00
Total = $9.00 + $3.20 + $20.00 = $32.20
Oh well! School is starting but everything is NOT done! Damn damn damn it! I still got lab report, brochure and studying yet to be done =( Can I finish by sunday?
Speechless
Speechless.
Some are total a turn off.
Some are bad examples.
Some have only crosses for the x-factor.
Some are just too dumb to do it.
Some are hopeless for change.
Some don’t even realise their problem after so long.
Some are just total gone cases.
I’ve never seen people like you.
I’ve never seen actions like that.
I’ve never experience something like that.
I’ve never thought of you like that.
I’ve never imagine you acting the way others are saying.
It is just beyond imagination.
For a moment, I thought something changed.
Nothing changed. Nothing will change.
For a moment, I thought it is being reflected.
Nothing change. Nothing will change.
For a moment, I thought it is nice to hear it from them.
Nothing changed. Nothing will change.
For a moment, I thought I expected something.
Nothing changed. Nothing will change.
I really can’t take it.
I really can’t stand it.
I really can’t accept it.
I really can’t stop talking about it.
It has always been you, you, you.
You never put yourself into our shoes.
You never tried to make convenient.
You never offer to help.
You never wait patiently.
Everything is done to your convenience.
Everything is simple.
Everything need to be asked and not prompted.
Everything must be done before you.
You are no different from a MCP.
If you are a MCP, every single one in the world will be female.
Speechless!