It is your duty to ask and not my duty to prompt!
Late Night Supper
It seems like things have been ‘clarified’ after that incident. Thanks to that incident, I even wrote an entry to make known some things. And thanks to that incident, a couple of us have finally know how important effective communication is.
Seriously, it is the first time something like that happen. The other day, I was chatting with drew drew and yes, we start ‘discussing’. I totally agree with what drew drew say. He is right and I totally agree to it. He can’t believe that such things will happen when it is only the 6th week of school. Neither can I.
There are many points which I totally agree with drew drew. Love him totally! Our mentality are sooooo linked! =x *omg, so scandalous*
Finally! After 7 weeks of school, there is a public holiday! Finally! Totally loved! Monday is public holiday, I went to school on tuesday and wednesday is no-school-day. Slacker!! However, tomorrow will be so dead! I am having make up tutorial lesson at 7pm to 8pm. And my lesson starts at 8.30am on friday. Damn!
On the happy side, it is RECESS WEEK next week. I have to pia and chiong my lectures. I am way behind, ok, I don’t even think ‘lecture’ have started for me. In 1 week, I must do miracle. The sad thing is, I am packed on wednesday, thursday and friday night.
I’ve signed up to be a programmer for next year’s insinyur. To be a programmer, we need to do canvassing to pay for our enrolment. I heard, to be a programmer, you need to pay $100. Last year, I paid $50 to attend the camp. If I were to provide ‘service’, I need to pay $100. Isn’t that odd?
Ok, on wednesday, thursday and friday, I have oktoberfest canvassing. The job scope is either be waitress or beer girl (girls who sell german beer). The main programmer have yet to even inform us if we are down for duty. Hmm! Those from A are all going down to do canvassing on wed, thurs, fri. Yay~
.Sunday, September 20, 2009]]__x
On sunday night, I went out and meet py and jo for supper at toa payoh. It had been a long time since we met up late in the night, gossip and chat. The last time was with limin and that is seriously long ago, march 2008.
We went to toa payoh sensory park after supper. It is our first time there. We had lots of fun laughing, taking photos and screaming when we saw a qiang qiang. LOL!
Introducing toa payoh sensory park! =)
These are photos taking at the ‘smell’ area. It is flowers, herbals and other plants!
This is from the hear and see. I think the face is so cute!
Last but not least, it is us!!
Ok! It is time to study! I hate studying~ And I mean it.
Effective Communication?
Yesterday, 16 September 09, I received a called from one of my orientation mate. She was telling me that one of my og mate is super pissed off after reading my blog. So, I went to clarify things with that super pissed og mate of mine. To some, there is not a point to clarify. To some, there is no harm clarifying. Everyone got different perspective.
So, the reason that super pissed og mate is pissed about is because, I classify them under those who “spoiled my plan”. With reference from my previous post, “Planning for the Surprise!”, I said about the pathetic turn out rate. I also commented about people not putting in the effort to come down for the outing I planned.
After reading my post, some people start to classify themselves, I did not classify anyone specifically. The super pissed og mate of mine feels that I SHOULD have mention that some are unable to make it because they have gl meeting. So, to make things super duper uper clear, I decided to post this entry.
So, on the day of celebration, I got only 9 people from gargoyle attended. Initially, there are 22 people who said they can make it. In the end, 4 have GL meeting, 2 have lesson till late, 1 has ministerial forum, 1 has band practice, 1 has tuition, 2 can’t attend because of outside commitment and the last 2 did not even reply my message. I feel that those who can’t go without a bo-bian reason (for example, GL meeting) did not put in the effort to try to attend the gathering.I was told to be specific with what I write on my blog. Especially when come to such sensitive matter. My bad. I should have specifically name out the reason why they couldn’t make it to prevent such misunderstanding. I shouldn’t have stated something so generalize. I caused the misinterpretation.
Another reason why my that super pissed og mate is pissed is because, she feels that I am blaming her for all that happened. Actually, I don’t blame her. I don’t blame anyone for what has happened, or rather, I blame myself. I blame myself for planning this whole thing which result in a misunderstanding. If I know that it will end up like that, I will stop myself from continue planning the whole thing.
The name appearing on your taskbar when you open my blog is “Unsweeten Seduction”. I never said that my blog is “sweet”. So if one day, you read something which is so “unsweet” in my blog, look at the taskbar. The name states so. I should have wrote it in caps. So other’s will not come to my blog and start pin-pointing how unsweet my blog is.
Sometimes, my mind and heart doesn’t link together. However, I know when to use my brain and when to use my heart. Like when I use my brain to tell someone something, I will always use my brain to update my blog about that matter. I will not stupidly use my heart to blog and contradict myself. It is stupid to do so. And yes, it is so hypocritical.
Seriously, I never know that planning an event will cause myself to get into a conflict. I have learn a couple of great lessons from here. Now I FINALLY understand why we learn effective communication. People have different perspective. Right! That is totally true.
I also learnt that it is hard to plan a gathering. It is even harder to write my own opinion. I cannot generalize the whole situation and I need to specifically state the reasons. Else I will get myself into another round of trouble. Now I know, so next time, expect a longer blog post from me. I need to specifically state every thing that happen. It is like a recount, specific recount.
Endless Birthday
I got a big big helium balloon in my house! =) And it says “Princess”. Whee! Love love love helium balloon~ Float, float, float! Happy floating princess! =)
Wan jing bought this balloon for me. Seriously touched by her actions! It is meant to be my belated birthday present. Well, during my birthday celebration the other day, she had something on and she did not attend. So, yesterday, after seeing me being sooo into raymond’s helium balloon, she went to get one for me! =)
Anyways, ever since the day of my ah ma’s funeral, my emotion and time haven’t been adjusted back. For the whole of this week, I did not do a single tutorial at all. I don’t know why. It is like, I don’t wish to do my tutorial and all I want to do is to look at the photos in my harddisk. I don’t feel like studying at all. Every time I start taking out my school work, regardless is notes or tutorial, I felt a total sian-ness. And I will start thinking of ah ma.
For the past 2 days, I ended up in tears in the morning. I guess it is because I have been keeping the tears inside during the 5 days of wake. On monday morning, I don’t know why, I feel super unhappy. When I got into the lt and sat down, my nose got red and I ran to the wash room to cry. I don’t know what I am crying about. I just feel super upset within. I felt terrible.
On tuesday morning, while on the train to school, tears actually rolled down again. I am not thinking of anything but it just started to roll. I am losing control of my emotions. I always thought I can control my emotions and everything will be ok. I am wrong, I failed to control my emotions. Everything have been quite messy for me. I am trying very hard too.
In the past, we will always go down ah ma place during the weekend. It is a compulsory thing. Slowly, we stop going because we have our own entertainment. The thought of going ah ma house and not seeing my ah ma sitting next to the sofa looking at us playing and running around makes me feel terrible. The thought of changes that happened now makes me feel upset. I wonder how is ah ma doing now?
I guess I need more time.
Ok, let’s talk about happy things! I realise I haven’t been updating blog. There are many photos in my computer. LOL!
.Friday, September 04, 2009]]__x
Joseph’s Last Book Out!
In the evening, I went to meet up with jo, py and cl for dinner. We are celebrating jo’s last book out! =) We celebrated jo’s first book out with him. Unknowingly, we are celebrating his last book out. Time really fly fast.
We went down to city hall for dinner. Py is working down at city hall until 8.30pm. So we met up for late dinner. We went to xin wang for dinner. Yummy! We kept laughing and talking at xin wang. It had been ages since I saw cl. She had been sick for the past few days.
After dinner, we went to marina square to walk around. We wanted to play pool but by the time we finish playing will be very late. So we went to some place, sat down and start talking. We were busy photo taking. LOL! After talking, we took the last train back home. Tired!! =x
The yummy yummy food! See, we spent $55.55 on the food~ Aw~
We took individual photos (again). Ah! Cl purposely took a super close shot of my face. So big!!
That is us And of course, I kept asking them to take photo. So end up, my head is very big! Ah!
.Saturday, September 05, 2009]]__x
Justin’s Birthday Celebration!
I went out with justin to celebrate his birthday with him. During my birthday, he celebrated with me, so this time, I went to celebrate with him. See, what a nice partner! =) We went to lao pa sa for dinner. He have been telling me that he want to go there for dinner. So I accompanied him down to lao pa sa for dinner. Food~
After dinner, we went to one fullerton and esplanade. The night is still young. We start taking tons of photo. I think he is so entertaining me.
Food!! These are what we ordered. I love the you tiao!! =x
I like the blue ball thing on the water. I remember before justin change his phone, his handphone wall paper was that blue ball on the water. I don’t know that it was from esplanade and I asked him if he took it from newton. There is this lighted ball floating on water at newton too!
We attempted to take photo with the flyer using timer. For some reason, my useless camera is really useless. Haha! Sometimes, the timer doesn’t work at all. It is just useless! =x
.Tuesday, September 08, 2009]]__x
Beatrice’s Birthday Surprise!
My tutorial mate’s birthday! Her jc mate decided to give her a surprise. So we went to have lunch with her. It was meant to be a surprise. And it really is. She was shocked by it. She really thought we are not doing anything for her birthday. In the end, we got a cake.
After school, as daniel, samson and I don’t have physics tutorial, we went to collect the cake. After collecting, we went to place it at The Pallette. Then we went to meet up with them. We were waiting for 1.30pm. Samson left first as he have a date with his girlfriend.
At 1.30pm, we went to prepare and ‘set up’ the venue. When beatrice came, she was surprised with the cake. I guess she really didn’t expect it to happen =) Her birthday is 09 september. She can’t stop telling us that though. LOL!
The birthday girl! =)
Top left hand corner, clockwise: random, beatrice, yiwen, germaine, bernard, daniel, group photo, charmaine, chia weei, elisa, anne, deen.
She took photo with everyone present. I think she is shocked with the photo taking as, she can’t stop complaining about her hair. LOL! Hope she enjoyed her birthday! =)
.Tuesday, September 15, 2009]]__x
Raymond’s Birthday Surprise!
Yes, I guess raymond knows that we are going to celebrate his birthday. Even so, we wanted to do something for him. During break, wan jing, georgina and I went to georgina’s hall to get the card for raymond. We are “SUPPOSED” to go back for lecture. In the end, due to some problem, we did not go. We were nua-ing and talking in georgina’s hall.
At 4pm, we took cab down to jurong point. We were late. Haha! We went to collect the cake. After collecting the cake, we went to NTUC to get a drink. We got this vitaminsed water. While queuing, there is this uncle who asked us what drink is that. He told us that the mineral water that he is buying is 45 cents and the drink we are getting is $1. Before he left, he even told us “see you!”. Funny!
We saw this balloon shop while wanjing is withdrawing money. So I suggested to get a balloon for raymond. We bought this super cute balloon from the store. We wanted to get a girly one so we can sabo him. In the end, we decided to be an angel and not bully him. The aunty kept laughing when we say we want to sabo him and get something girly. Haha!
After having the balloon sent for making, we went down and put the cake with them. After which, we went to ‘collect’ the balloon. Everything was placed in new york new york. We went to the wash room and waited for them to come. We were watching wolverine outside some shop. Finally, they came.
We went to have our dinner. The food is nice! =) After food, we had the cake. We asked them for the cake~ Ah! The balloon and the card came in too. Thanks so much for their help. Raymond got chocolate on his whole face. Poor raymond!
After singing birthday song for raymond, the table behind us sang birthday song too. It is little jason’s birthday. We made raymond give jason a slice of the cake and shake hands with him. After raymond come back to our table, little jason came and shyly give his a scoop of his ice cream. Aw! Isn’t he so cute, I mean little jason.
When we are about to foot the bill, alvin came. He is late! However, he came just in time to write a message for raymond. Then we were chatting and chatting while raymond went to get his face chocolate-less. After paying, we left new york new york. Chian shieh and jing jing came. We were talking to them. So sorry that they can’t make it in time.
We were outside waiting for wan jing and elieen. They went to the balloon shop. Wan jing said that she wanted to get a balloon for her friend. Her friend’s birthday is coming too. We were waiting and chatting. We went down to the mrt station to meet up with them. While waiting, I saw stella and zhiyuan.
When wan jing and elieen came, wan jing just put the balloon strip on my bag. OMG! She said that the balloon is for me. It is a total shock! I didn’t know that she went to get a balloon for me. And the balloon inside says “Princess”. Aw!
She got a princess word inside because the other day, I was telling her that my cousin called my nephew to call me gong zhu. Well, actually, it is because since young, my ah ma calls me gong zhu. So everyone from my mother side will call me gong zhu. Don’t ask me why, I have been trying to them why too. I guess only ah ma knows why.
But yes, I am damn shocked and happy! I love helium balloon. I always find it sooo cute and lovely! Though it have short lifespan, I still love playing with it =) To me, releasing a bunch of helium balloon together and seeing it fly up to the sky is one of the most romantic thing~
Helium balloon reminded me of that time, when bff wanted to ask R to be his girlfriend, he went to get this super big tortoise and many helium balloon. He put everything into the boot of his car. When he reach the top of this multi storey carpark, he open the boot and the helium balloons float up and the tortoise is in the centre of the boot. It is super romantic!
Anyways, back to the point. Wanjing gave me a helium balloon! Love her so much =) After which, I went to took train with stella, zhiyuan, siyu, phyllinda and chen yi. I kept playing with the balloon. At toa payoh central, many girls kept looking at the balloon. Haha! The balloon is envied by many.
Did I mention? My camera died on me again! It is the second time. Damn it! I took photos with siyu’s omina phone. So now I am waiting for siyu to send me the photos before uploading. Whee! I shall a couple of photos first.
Yummy food!!!
Wanjing, georgina and I in the toilet. We are waiting for others to come. Look at the balloon, it is bigger than my face!! =x Isn’t that balloon so cute?
Look at his super happy and contented face~ =)
Top left to right: gidman, siyu, georgina . Middle left to right: chen yi, phyllinda, elieen, gerald, anne. Bottom left to right: raymond, wanjing.
Happy 21st birthday raymond!! =) I know you are damn touched! Haha!
This is my pink princess balloon! =) I know it looks like raymond’s birthday balloon. LOL! It is the same design anyways~~ =)
I know it looks stupid! LOL! Love my balloon~~~
Planning for the Surprise!
A group of us have been planning for an outing with my orientation group people about 1 month ago. The planning started 1 day after my birthday celebration with them. Ok, it is super obvious that my whole og is separated into two different groups. The group I am in is bigger and to a certain extend, more bonded. At least after 6 weeks of school, we still go for lunch and sit together during lecture.
The night of my birthday, I thought that it might be a good idea if we were to celebrate their birthday together since melissa and raymond is obviously from two different clique. We can take this chance to gather both cliques together.
3 weeks ago, I started discussing with siying, wanjing and georgina about this gathering I intended to have. After discussing with siying about our timetable, we came up with a day, tuesday. After coming up with the day and date, I start to plan the venue and surprise. 2 weeks ago, I sent out an sms asking if they are free on 15 september. I already ‘booked’ them on this day. I told them to reserve and keep this day free. 22 people told me that they are free.
Initially, we wanted a mcdonald birthday party celebration. Raymond is coming 21st, we wanted to celebrate his ‘last’ few days before going adult hood. Just when everything is more or less done, only leaving with the call to book, felicia told me that melissa hates mcdonald.
That totally turn us off. We had been planning for about 1 week, I research and went to look up on venues and even asked them for more details about it, we have to cancel the plan. So after cancelling, even though we are totally turn off, we continued to plan the gathering. There are many things we need to plan.
Planning was super difficult. It is because, we are holding it on a weekday and ntu is super far from town. It is practically impossible to ask them to travel down to town for celebration. I kept thinking of a place to accommodate 22 people. It is difficult! We wanted bbq but there is no place for us to hold bbq. We wanted this, wanted that.
Just when I am still busy cracking my brain and killing my brain cells, my ah ma condition got worst. I start running from school to hospital. I hardly have time to do my tutorials, what more about thinking of the celebration. So in the end, I decided to just have a simple dinner at jurong point.
So, after coming with a final decision of going new york new york and getting a cake for them, we decided to do a card to make it less ‘anti climax’. Ok, after all this planning, I got a news that melissa’s clique is not coming down at all. Fine~ What a turn off.
I got the news during the period of my ah ma’s wake. I don’t even want to think anymore. Imagine I am doing all my studying on the train everyday. Do you even think I have time to entertain them? Moreover, I have been changing the plans again and again, again and again. I am too tired to think of another plan.
And so, after asking a couple of them, we decided to just carry on with raymond’s surprise. I manage to squeeze some time off to go down to jurong point to reserve a cake for raymond and book the place. And for the card, I told georgina and siying to be in charge of it. I have enough brain cells killed.
So, on the actual day, I got only 9 people from gargoyle attending. What a turn off rate! Initally, 22 people said that they can make it, they will keep it free. In the end, only 9 attended. Like what others tell me, if they want to attend, they will keep the date free, even if they have appointment, they will reject it. And not last minute tell me that they have something on. So that “something” which comes later is overrides the 3 weeks of booking?
Imagine, gerald have interblock games and because we are celebrating raymond’s birthday, he rather rush back to school in cab than giving it a skip. And for raymond, he rather come down to have a dinner with us though he so wanted to go for vollyball game. Alvin, chian shieh and jing jing even rush down (though they are very late) to wish raymond a happy happy birthday. This is what I call effort.
If I know it will end up being a clique gathering, I wouldn’t have killed so much brain cells. Neither will I keep calling wanjing and bug her about it. I will not plan so much and keep thinking, “Will the other clique like it? Will they enjoy it?”
Actually, the whole thing is quite disheartening. However, I don’t care ever since the day I got the news that my ah ma pass away. When people tell me they can’t make it, I will just ‘hack care’. I can’t be bothered with the gathering. The reason is simple, I know that people from my clique will definitely go down. And I rather spend time with my ah ma than spending time complaining about people who don’t even care about making an effort.
So in the end, wanjing, georgina and I spent a great time looking for balloon for raymond. At least, we spent the time skipping lecture, running around jurong point and killing brain cells for raymond happily. The reason is because, we are doing it for someone who puts in effort in coming for the gathering.
Oh well, I should be neutral to such thing. I should have seen something like this many million, billion times during my time as bme president. Planning a big event is like this. I shouldn’t compare with the whole BME event, because it is for nearly 300 people. I should compare with my class gathering. When a class gathering is planned, at least 3/4 of the class is present. There is even once where only 1 or 2 isn’t.
As for my og, I think it is near impossible to have a gathering in which everyone is present. Out of the few gathering together, there isn’t a time in which 1/2 of the other clique is present. My side alone has about 9 people already. My whole has 18 people. Isn’t that just so pathetic?
Oh well, that is my og! =x
Goodbye Grandma
It is the first time I put something on the “what’s on your mind?” in facebook. And it states “tonight will be the last night…” Yes, the last night has gone already. Hope she found her way to where she is supposed to go.
.Wednesday, September 09, 2009]]__x
Ah ma passed away on this very special and memorable day at TTSH at 04:57 am. She left peacefully.
Early morning at around 10am, mummy and daddy came home with some food and clothes. They are coming home to change and proceed down to ah ma house to ‘welcome’ her back. I accompanied them down to ah ma house. Drew drew and angie did not come down with us, they are going down later.
I accompanied daddy and mummy down to ah ma house. Some of my aunts, uncles and cousins are already there waiting for my ah ma’s body. We spent about 1 and half hour waiting for the casket van to come. During that 1 and half hour, the workers are busy setting up the venue, my aunts and uncles making the necessary stuff such as the incense papers, name list for the obituaries and other small stuffs.
Finally, the casket van arrived. We were told not to cry. They say that if we cry, ah ma will feel very sad and don’t come. We kneel down at the straw mat while they carry ah ma’s body in. We had to shout for ah ma and ask her to come back to have coffee with us. Then, they carried the coffin in.
Soon, my aunts, uncles and my parents went to look at my ah ma. Then the younger generation (which is us, cousins) went to look at ah ma too. My uncle’s wife helped my ah ma comb her hair and make her look pretty. She had make up on her. My ah ma look pretty.
Then we kneel down while they put ah ma into the coffin and close the coffin. We are not allowed to look when the coffin is closed. It is because our ba zi might clashes with ah ma’s. So we did not look. After which, we sat there and did nothing.
Ding lun and I started studying. I was studying mathematics. After doing some of the tutorial, I realise I did not bring my calculator. So in the end, my answers are all in complete. LOL! In evening, we start folding incense paper. It is just the start. So we did it slowly and taking our time. “We talk about quality, not quantity.”
Then we had dinner. There is catering for the dinner. The food is nice. We had duck soup, vegetables, sweet and sour pork, spicy prawn and fish. Not bad right? The chef is daddy’s friend. So if it is not nice, we can feedback anytime. LOL!
After dinner, we start folding incense paper again. Then my sister had to go home and fetch the kids, so drew drew, angie and I went home together with them. I reach home at around 9pm. I have school the following day.
.Thursday, September 10, 2009]]__x
In the morning, I took train down to school. I am busy studying in the train. I am super tired! I need sleep~ I went for lab early today. We did some equipotential thingy. It is quite pathetic though. It is individual lab however, I did it with beatrice. It is because, I am register number 20 in the class and there is only 19 sets of machine. Shucks! This always happen during poly.
After lab, we went for lunch together. We bought mcdonald again. We ended quite late so we were rushing to finish our meals. After meal, we went for economics lesson. It is so boring. Wan jing and I were talking and talking non-stop. We were talking about some stuff.
Then we went for effective communication lesson. I always dislike this lesson. It is so stressful. Every week before lesson, I need to memorise so many things in case she ask question. Then ‘fight’ for participation points. It is so torturing.
We did some group work and yes, group work. After effective communication lesson, I waited for daniel and samson to photocopy my tutorial. Then I left the school with charmaine. I found another toa payoh kaki again! Haha!
From toa payoh, I headed down to ah ma house. Before going to toa payoh, I went to get some food. I am super hungry. Need to fill a little before my tummy starts making tons of noise in the bus. I waited for quite long before the come. The bus is always so long.
When I reach ah ma house, most of them already started eating their dinner. Hmm, by the time I reach, it is already 6 plus going 7pm. Hungry hungry! Today’s dinner is eh! I only remember lotus soup. I can’t remember the rest. My aunt made nor-hiang.
After dinner, at 7.30, we start chanting session. It lasted for about 1 and half hour. We were given a book and they will chant according to the book. There is even han yu pin ying for the chinese words. After chanting session, we went to fold incense paper again. Then we left and headed home. By the time we reach home, it is already 10pm.
.Friday, September 11, 2009]]__x
In the morning, I am damn tired. I woke up quite late. I went to school alone again. I wanted to study on the train so yes, I went alone. I took out my notes, fool scape paper, pencil, eraser, file, tutorial paper while on the train. OMG right? I think other passengers must be thinking “why this person treat the train like her study table?”
On my way to school, it start raining heavily. I don’t know why, I actually start to cry. As the rain gets bigger, more tears start rolling down unknowingly. When the sun is out, I don’t know why but stop crying. Seriously, ever since the wake start, I have been trying my best to control my emotions. I really think that my emotions go with the weather.
I went to school for lecture. During lecture, I am busy studying for maths quiz. Then during maths tutorial, we had maths quiz. Stupid, I forgotten how to do. Idiot! Damn! After lesson, we had economics tutorial. Another round of I-don’t-know lesson. Er xin!
After lesson, I went to meet up with gidman. We were supposed to go canteen a for lunch. In the end, georgina and wanjing are still at their hall. And the thing is that, they say they are not hungry, so we will just eat. In the end, we went to canteen 14 again for lunch. We met up with siying for lunch too.
Then we went for maths lecture. Initially we wanted to pon maths lecture, in the end, we still went. I was listening in class. See, I am a good kid =) When the lesson ended, we went down to jurong point to make reservation for the dinner on tuesday. Wanjing said that she wanted to go for dinner.
I did not join them for dinner though. Something quite awkward happened.
Gidman: Anne, where is your grandma house?Hmm! Oh well! I went back with georgina. She took train down to sambawang while I continue the ride to toa payoh. I took bus down to ah ma house again. When I reach there, I start folding incense paper. Dua kim was saying that we don’t have enough time to finish folding all the incense paper. So we started “mass folding”.
Anne: Hmm, near boon keng (I always think it is near boon keng since kenneth always say his house near boon keng)
Gidman: Oh! Then we can take circle line together.
Anne: But I going toa payoh and take bus down to my grandma house.
Gidman: Why? Take train together la!
Anne: I don’t know how to go there from boon keng. From last time is go down from toa payoh one.
Gidman: Aiya! Call your grandma and ask her how to go la!
Anne: ehh!!!
At night, I got pulled into doing the chanting again. We had the book to follow them through again. The chanting started at around 8.45pm. It lasted for another 1 hour plus. The book is 67 pages ok! Not everyone is involved. By right, the grand daughters don’t need to go. We are supposed to serve the guest. In the end, kah yern and I were ‘asked’ to go over.
During this chanting, there are many kneeling. For many parts, we were to kneel for about 15 minutes. After chanting session, jo and py came. I thank them so much for coming. As it is very late, cailin did not come. However, I thank them for the intention. =)
Tonight, I stayed over with my group of cousins, ding lun, benjamine, kenneth, drew drew. We were busy folding incense paper. From 11 plus pm, we started folding incense paper. We folded non-stop! I really mean non-stop! We were so tired! However, we continued to fold. In the end, it became “quantity and not quality!”
While folding, we were chatting and laughing. It is fun doing that with my cousins, I mean the chatting and laughing. There are quite many of us tonight. Besides our group, the other cousins (ah leong, ah yun, ah wye, terence) are all busy gambling. Shucks! They are not helping at all. They left at around 4am.
During the night, we made tea to drink, ate fried bee hoon and spam music.
.Saturday, September 12, 2009]]__x
We were supposed to change shift at 6am. In the end, they came at about 8am. We were tired! We folded incense paper from 11pm all the way to 8am. Aren’t we so great?! We left with about 1/4 of what we are given. Tired!!
Ding lun sent us home. We are all tired! Drew drew and I went to bathe and doze off. We slept from around 9am all the way to 4pm. Yawn! When we wake up, we had kfc for supposed-to-be-lunch. Full!! Then angie came home and around 7pm, we headed down to ah ma place. We are having chanting again.
This is the last chanting before the funeral. The thing is, we have 2 breaks interval. Isn’t that cool? After the first set of chanting, we had 20 minutes break. We started folding incense paper. After which, we had second round of chanting and had another 20 minutes break. After the last round, we went to burn the house and incense paper.
According to my aunt, at buddhist funeral we don’t burn incense paper. However, my aunts and uncles scared that my ah ma has no house to stay, so we decided to burn a house and money for her. Ok, now I understand why there is incense paper when we are doing a buddhist funeral.
After everything,we sat there and had curry chicken for supper. Daddy’s group of friends came and gave ah ma a bow. It is very spectacular. I really meant it. Imagine when all of them went over to the front, it is like, those movie secret society kind, one very big group. Then someone stood in front as ‘representative’ and the rest bow to ah ma. The group is super big! I think got about 50 people? Or even more! OMG! They came by bus ok! We all were shocked when we saw it.
When we finish eating curry, we start taking care of all the necessary things. We start clearing the place up. We had to move the tables, chairs and remove the plastic sheets. After clearing, we had to clean the table, pack everything. We were told to decorate ah ma’s coffin.
Alice, anna and I made a bouquet of flower for ah ma. We went around picking flowers from the flowers the florist sent to us. I went to put it at ah ma’s coffin. Then we went to take a look at ah ma for the last night, for the last time. We will all miss her.
At around 1.30am, we left the place. I was supposed to go back with drew drew to stay over the night again with my cousins. In the end, mummy asked me to stay home and let the guys stay. So I stayed home and sleep.
.Sunday, September 13, 2009]]__x
Today is the last day and the last time I see ah ma.
In the morning, we went down at around 8.30am. We had curry for breakfast. After breakfast, I was helping the aunts doing all the necessary things. I think they are all so kan chiong. Chiong-ing for the last minute.
Once again, we were told that we cannot cry. I asked them and they tell me that it is because if we cry, ah ma don’t bare to leave us. If that happens, her spirit will not leave. So for her, we cannot cry!
I went to look at ah ma for the last time. I “finally” lost control and went away. I went to where my cousins are. The band start playing “shi shang zhi you ma ma hao” and tears just start rolling. I need to do some emotions control.
Ah bee kept telling me jokes to prevent me from crying. We wore the socks and chanting start again. We walk around ah ma coffin again. During the first round, I saw my aunts using their hands to rub their eyes. Then I feel like crying so much but I know I can’t. We walk around for about 4 rounds. Imagine I had to ren ren ren! Starting, my nose is red. Then my whole face is super red!
After the ceremony, I saw juan juan crying. I almost burst into tears. I know I can’t because, it may cause others to start crying too. You know, when one cry, it is like a ‘virus’, it will spread. So my cousins are distracting me again =)
We had to return bow to our relative’s relatives. Ok, I almost cry again. Damn! After which, we had to ‘send’ ah ma off. Every thing is not that sad after which. We cousins just walk far back. We walk about 1 bus stop length and before the hump, we stop and boarded the bus.
Before the hump, my uncles are supposed to call ah ma to cross “the bridge”. This is to tell my ah ma to walk the bridge to ‘ji le shi jie’, aka heaven. This is also to tell my ah ma that she has pass away and it is time for her to go. We had to send her off “happily” so she will leave without worries.
We took bus down to guan ming shang. Then we had the last round of chanting and praying. Soon, the coffin was sent to the incinerator. The whole thing is very turn off. It is like, chanting, walk around the table, put the incense stick, kneel down, stand up, incinerator door open, the coffin went in, door close, wear shoes and leave -.- It is really turn off. I always thought cremation is some very sad process.
After which, we went for vegetarian lunch. While having lunch, we start discussing what is going to happen next. We said that we have to go back to ah ma’s house. My 2 aunts are staying over at that house now. However, we realise it is hard for us to change. Instead of 7th aunt house or 5th aunt house, we kept calling ah ma house. It is very odd. Then we took bus down to a temple near ah ma’s house.
Ah ma’s children and her son’s son went to the temple while the rest of us went back to the void deck and wait. At 2 plus pm, we came home while ah ma’s children went to pick the bone fragments.
When we came home, we doze off and went to sleep. I am super tired! I have yet to done my tutorials though.
.Reflections.
During this period, I realise that my uncles and aunts are all old already. During the first day, my uncle actually suffered from cramps. During the chanting period, some of my aunts and uncles can’t kneel and stand on their own without support from the floor or wall. We have to help them up.
My ah ma’s departure is really sudden. I think the hospitalization is sudden. She is still healthy. All of a sudden, she got pneumonia and got hospitalise for 1 month and 3 days. The next thing we know is, she pass away unknowingly. I believe many of us did not expect it. I mean, we know that every day is a blessing for her during the days in hospital. However, we did not expect her to pass away so fast. We thought she will live longer.
She has given me a very big family with many close cousins. She has given me a very sweet and memorable childhood life with my aunts, uncles and cousins. She has given me many unspoken memories. If not for her, there won’t be poo poo club, there won’t be kway company. Without her, I don’t think I will be aunty of 5 kids at this age. It is all because of her, I am dote and well taken care when I am young.
I think ah ma has changed, in the sense of looks. She don’t look like the ah ma before the hospital visit. It is saddening to see her. It reminds me of the pain she has gone through. It is like torture. All the needles and medication. Even her mouth got bigger and expended. You can hardly see her nose as she has become so puffy.
However, according to my aunts and uncles, my ah ma made the decision of leaving instead of making her children make the tough decision. My ah ma knows that we are feeling hard so she decided to depart on her own will. I really think ah ma is very understanding. She knows that we find it hard to see her being tortured and decided to leave when we are deciding to end her torturing. During the period of time where we are fighting to keep her alive, she is fighting every second.
I think, ah ma’s departure actually brought us cousins together. After 10+ years, it is the first time we see ah boy again. If not for ah ma’s departure, we cousins will not gather together and laugh, joke and gossip. It is only during ah ma’s birthday, we will get together. And this time, during ah ma’s departure, we all get together again. I wonder when will be the next time we all come together and meet up. I wonder will we all attend should there be a gathering?
Seriously, after this whole thing, I realise that there are many things which cannot be explained. Many things are done because of belief. And many are not scientifically proven yet, it is practiced. I’ve learnt a lot about customs from here. All the “why” factors.
.Word of Thanks.
I thanks all my friends for being supportive and telling me encouraging words. I am really ok, don’t worry so much. I will be strong. And I want to thank those who came down. I know that you made and effort in coming. Thank so much.
And I really think those caretakers are great! They took care of my ah ma’s wake cum funeral very well. Really thankful to them. I know they are paid to do it but still, I really think without their help, I think all my aunts and uncles will be so lost. They had helped us in many ways. And of course, they helped in reducing the burden we have. Thankful!
Of course, I think the casket company did a wonderful job in making my ah ma look beautiful. At least, she looks wound-less. They also decorated ah ma’s coffin beautifully. They put our bouquet of flower together with ah ma coffin. I hope ah ma received it. I hope ah ma like it too.
I want to thank God that ah ma is blessed. And ah ma can finally be with ah gong now. She is finally enjoying her life after 1 month and 3 days of torturing. She need not worry about the kids anymore. Best of all, I want to thank God for giving ah ma many filial children and grandchildren. God has also given ah ma a chance of 4 generations together. Thank you!
Ah ma will always be remembered. We love you. You have missed ah gong for 14 years, it is time you enjoy your life with ah gong.
- departed on 090909, 0458 @ ttsh.
Tiring Week
Home, school, wake. Home, school, wake. This is the routine for the past few days and I am super tired! =( Finally, it is weekend! All that is going to happen is – home, wake. Home, wake.
Will be back after sunday. I have to stay there tonight again. I just stayed last night.
Tonight will be the last night…… =(
Just for Grandma
090909. Today is supposed to be a happy day. It is a wonderful date. Everything that happen today supposed to be wonderful. Today should be a happy day. It should be…
On this special day, most of my friends who already entered NS are having their passing out parade. Some of them are joseph, zhiyuan, wen bin, jun yuan, wen yi and etc. It is a special day for them. Many couples are going ROM today to get themselves registered as husband and wife.
Today morning, at around 6.45am, it had been made as a special day for me too, a very special one. Early in the morning, my dad called my sister to ask her to take leave. The reason is very simple, my grandma just left. I wish I visited her yesterday.
Yesterday, for some reason I don’t know why, I am suffering from headache again. So when I come home, I rested and I am super tired. I decided to go bed and I did not visit my grandma with my dad. We were told to visit grandma for the so-called last time today. They are going to remove the tube that is pumping oxygen to her lungs. My aunts and uncles want my grandma to pass away ‘beautifully’. They want to remove most the tubings and drips. So we were told to go and see her before 10am, the time the doctors are going to remove the tube.
However, this morning when I was woken up by my sister, my brother said that my parents wanted to stay at the hospital last night. For some reason, they did not. At around 4+ 5am, my dad got a call from hospital and they rush down to the hospital immediately. Something is wrong.
I don’t know what the details were but at 6 plus am, my sister got a call and all of us woke up. We are told to go down to my grandma’s place in the afternoon.
Kah wai is right by saying, “When a person pass away, the pitiful ones are the ones still living on the planet earth. Not the ones that have passed on.” Every time I visit the hospital, I will end up in tears, so are my aunts and uncles. When we talk to her, she aren’t replying or opening her eyes. We called her and called her. There is not reaction at all.
Looking at all the needles on grandma and all the medication that is fed into her, it is like a torture. She is coming 83 this december. At such age, she have to undergo such physical pain. And we, as children and grandchildren, we have to suffer from the emotional pain. Every time when we see the doctor, the doctors are always telling us “her condition got worst.” It is like using a knife and stabbing. Pain!
After my grandma is gone, there isn’t anymore birthday gatherings for us. When we (cousins) were young, we are always together playing and running around. As we get older, we start to separate one by one. However, one day, during my grandma’s 81’s birthday, we are all gathered together at this restaurant in chinatown. Now that grandma is gone, there isn’t going to be anymore birthday gathering to bring us all together.
Grandma’s place has always been a place for the KWAY to hold our gathering. Tampines is too far, my house isn’t convenient, so our only resort is grandma place. Every time we have kway gathering, we will end up sleeping at 5+ am. And at around 5am, grandma will wake up and go for morning walk and exercise. When she comes home, which is around 6am, she will start asking us to wake up.
She will bug kenneth to wake up. For some reason, she won’t bug kah wai and I. Poor kenneth’s sleep is always disturbed. Come to think of kenneth’s expression, it is so funny. Grandma will bug kenneth from 6+ am all the way to 9+ am. Then we will run to my aunt’s room to sleep. That is my grandma.
And in the morning, we will fight for the television. However, we will always let our grandma watch some taiwan long long long drama. In the end, we doze off watching the show. Sometimes, we play mahjong with grandma when my aunts doesn’t want to play with us. See, we don’t have much generation gap.
Now that grandma is gone, we are going to have lesser gatherings, kenneth is not going to be disturbed anyone, no one is going to play mahjong with us when we are short of players, no more watching taiwan long long long drama.
Yes, though all this is gone, I am happy for grandma too. She finally get to meet up with grandpa. They had parted for 14 years. Every time when grandma sit on the sofa with the photo album, she will sob when she sees grandpa’s picture. She misses grandpa a lot. Now that she has gone to heaven, she can finally be with grandpa.
Not only that, her misery has now all gone. She don’t need to go through the needle pain. She can get rid of all the medication and drips. No more machines on her. No more puffiness due to water retention. Her kidney malfunction few days ago. So the doctors have to inject more needles to remove water from her body. Every single day, they take her blood to test for glucose level. Now no more procedure poking of needle.
Come to think of it, at least she pass away before the tube is removed. By removing the tube, it is like cutting off her oxygen supply. Then she will start grasping for air and gradually she might die due to insufficient air. Dying due to the lack of air is a very pathetic thing. It is totally torture, your face will slowly turn purple and suffocate and pass away. I don’t want her to die that way.
I really look up to my grandma. She brought up 7 daughters and 3 sons. Though some are not earning much, they never fail to help out one another in time of trouble. They are very bonded and their characters are good. And they are very filial. They visit the hospital practically every day.
Oh well, just take a look at grandma’s grandchildren (which is us! (= ), you will know how great my grandma did in teaching her children so they can teach their children well too. Seriously, my grandma is really great in giving birth and teaching them. I look up to her!
If not for school, I wish to stay with my grandma for the last few days before being cremated.
I love you grandma.
Side note: TTSH is a lousy and crap hospital. They do nothing to help my grandma and all they do is eat people’s money. The primary doctor is an idiot. The stupid primary doctor says that they will contact my aunts and uncles last week to talk about my grandma’s condition. In the end, after 1 week past, they did not contact them at all. Idiot!
And I realise, anyone can be a doctor. All those on-call doctors do are to go to the patient room, take the file, read and tell you what is going on with the patient. Then they will say “oh, we will try our best.” I can be a doctor too! Idiot!
What more stupid thing is, the doctors just use bombastic words. Hello! What is the point of telling us super duper long medical names when we don’t even study those? Can’t you people talk in layman term? If we understand your super duper long medical names, we can be doctors too, why do we still send patients to hospital? Idiot!
I really think the doctors are trying to ‘eat’ our money. When grandma just got into icu, the doctors told us to be mentally prepared for the worst. Ok, we told the doctors to try their best and do whatever they can. When grandma condition got worst, we were quite dishearten and the doctors told us not to give up hope. Then the doctor tell us to put the tube and grandma will get well. In the end, after operation, her condition got worst. Still tell me get well, get well his head la! Idiot!
In general, TTSH IS RUBBISH!
Drawing Lab
Let me show you some master piece drew during lab today! We drew a cupboard using two point perspective method. Everyone have different perspective, thus, every master piece is unique, one and only one! =) *that is what I wrote for my opinion on perspective. LOL!*
We went for lab today. The purpose of the lab is to learn how to draw images using two point perspective. We are supposed to learn 1 point first, however, that lab is postpone to week 11. The lecturer want us to draw a shelf and the rest is up to us. We can decorate and design the way we want it. Unlike my other friends, we are given a choice to show our creativity.
This is my special master piece! =) Look, I was the first in my class to draw with the drawer open. All thanks to zhihui. Initally, I was asking her what should I draw. She said “I dare you to draw an open drawer.” And all for her, I sketch and drew out the open drawer. She was super shocked!
It is SUPPOSED to be a tv console. And all because of the open drawer, I can’t let it be a console anymore. So now, it became a cupboard for putting anything. I drew some boxes so the whole drawing won’t be so plain. I drew an open box with the lid. I dare zhihui to draw that but she say “don’t want, you draw it yourself.” And yes, I drew it! LOL!
The top two pictures are from daniel’s and the bottom two are samson’s drawing. Isn’t it cool, there is a dvd player with the thing ejected. If you realise, there is an open drawer and cd, the idea is copied from mine! LOL! The amazing thing is, Samson actually added fine details such as the cupboard is chipped! OMG! So detailed.
Looking at the pictures, don’t you feel that it looks similar? LOL! The two of them sat next to each other, that explains the similarity of the pictures. The difference is, daniel’s drawing is made of glass by the side, so you can see the back view of the object, whereas for samson’s it is solid box.
When zhihui draw, everything goes by feeling. As for me, I measure every single details. That is the difference between our drawing. However, her drawing seems more proportional as compared to mine. Her drawing is really nice.
Ok, I have to go and do my stupid econs tutorial. The thing is, I know my econs but for some reason, I don’t know how to apply. So, it is as good as not knowing it. What is the point, right?~
I love my blog when it is filled with pictures~ =)
Anne's Birthday
Ok, I am having some time off so I decided to dust off the cobwebs accumulated by my blog.
Life haven’t been easy for me. School is stressful. I am breaking down thanks to all the tutorials. Thank goodness, I have friends who are previously from jc and they are being bugged by me. Even so, I cannot depend on them always isn’t it? I should really understand the topic before I can start doing my tutorials. Yes, I said so but the fact is, I don’t understand a single thing.
I know I don’t know, but I don’t know what I don’t know.
On a happier side, I am 20 now! The big 2 on the front, no more 1. I don’t feel any difference seriously. Just that the number of candles decreases on the cake. Other than that, nothing seems different. I remember uncle kept telling me that when I reach the big 2 in front, I will feel old. Haha! Uncle, I felt nothing eh!
I celebrate my birthday with 4 different group of people. One on the actual day itself, the others are all belated. I was busy the week before. Ah~
.Tuesday, August 25, 2009]]__x
Right, I have school until 4.30pm today. I celebrated my birthday with my orientation clique. It was meant to be a surprise for me but for some reason, I knew it. LOL! The organiser, wan jing, left us for some other things~ Ah~ So the dinner went on without an organiser =x
We went fish and co @ jurong point for dinner. I was told that in jurong point, there is something super embarrassing that will happen. Oh well, I think I should expect it. We went for dinner, chit chat, photo taking and many other stuff.
Then I was invited to stand on a chair with two other belated and be-early birthday boys from jjc. Thank goodness they are with me, else I will be super embarrassed with everyone looking at me. We are given an ice cream each. My friends got me a slice of cake. Thank you! The cake is super chocolate-y.
Now, let the pictures talk =)
Right, their unglam shots are taken by me =)
Candid!
They are all playing with the board. LOL!
I took a photo with everyone.
Top left hand corner, anti clockwise: group photo, anne, georgina, siyu, gidman, felicia, group photo, gerald, chen yi, phyllinda, siying, raymond.
I don’t know why, I am starting to take a photo of every individual when I go out. LOL!
The whole dinner was fun. I know it is a little rush but still, I am happy with the celebration. Though we did not know each other for long, all of you still organise a birthday for me. I really appreciate the effort and time taken. And of course, the money spent. Thanks for the meal and everything. Thanks so much.
.Wednesday, August 26, 2009]]__x
I don’t have school today. So in the evening, I went out and celebrated my birthday with justin. We went to city hall for dinner. Before dinner, we went some where so he can pass me my present. After which, we went to new york new york for dinner. Yummy! The food is nice.
I had a new york new york cup. The cup is super duper big! After dinner, we went to john little. I saw something super duper cute. It is a 3d-puzzle. OMG! It is super cute. I bought one small one and tried doing it. It is tough. Now I have a super cute apple. Haha!
The big nyny cup =)
Look at my super cute apple. Aw~
Thanks so much for taking time out to celebrate my birthday with me. You are really good. =) Looking at the present you gave me, I think you spent a lot of effort in putting the candies, cookie, chocolate and jellies that I love soo much!. I think you wasted so much money. Haha! Even so, the dinner is super nice. Thanks so much.
.Friday, August 28, 2009]]__x
I had school in the morning again. I hate school. During my 2 hours break, I went to hall 3 to look for georgina. We had our lunch together and we took bus down to LKC for lecture. We almost got into an accident, thanks to jaywalking. Haha!
After lecture, we are supposed to go home. However, georgina don’t remember if she off the aircon. So we walk from LKC down to hall 3 again. And went to the bus stop and took bus home. Yawn! We are tired and worn off. We kept laughing and laughing in during the train ride, thanks to crappy me =x **kbox become kcircle! LOL!**
I came home, change and then went to meet up with bff and jp. They came to fetch me. We went down to vivocity and had dinner at bakerzin. It is my first time having dinner at bakerzin. We waited for quite some time before it is our turn to go in. It is super packed.
We ordered food and while waiting, we start taking photos. Today, jp brought her camera too. Next time, I shall spam my camera when I am with them. Actually, I don’t really dare to take photos when I am out with them because, I don’t know if they like it. So considerate of me =x
After dinner, we went to watch final destination. We were late for the movie. When it is time for movie, we are still waiting for our dessert to come. Damn! We were like ‘swallowing’ the food. I did not really appreciate the desserts. Eeek! I prefer the desserts. Haha!
We were 20 minutes late and the show have yet to start. The show is alright, besides being disgusting, nothing much. I got scare a couple of times and suay suay got saw by jp. She saw me jump~ After dinner, we headed home. Tired!
All time favourite picture. Picture of fooooodddd!
The cake! It is nice ok! Super chocolate-y. With one scoop, bff finish his portion of the cake -.- Shouldn’t he appreciate the cake? Haha!
It is all about us! =)
I think we seldom take a group photo together. And yes, if you realise, the both of them wore red! Damn! I look like some odd one out. And, after taking a photo outside bakerzin, bff kept saying that he is one head taller than me. Now, this explains why every time when they talk, I need to stand in the middle, else I can’t hear them. Haha!
This is the present that they gave me.
Thanks so much for the present. The colour is super nice. And of course, thanks for the dinner and movie. Every time when we go out, the two of you never fail to bring me to some places that I have never been before. I spent many “first time” with the two of you. (aw~ aren’t you honoured?! Haha!) BFF, you better remember to ask us out when you book out. Else jp will strangle you (on my behalf) =)
.Saturday, August 29, 2009]]__x
It is saturday again! In the afternoon, I went out with jo and py for lunch at suki sushi @ somerset. Jo have been urging to go for sushi buffet. Cl was supposed to join us but she fall ill. Eek! So bad! Of all time, she fall ill this time.
We were talking, laughing and crapping. After the meal, I can only conclude, py is a huge eater and she doesn’t get fat! Damn! After eating, we went to orchard ion. Jo did not go there before so we decided to go there and walk around. We took the long long escalator and went some place to rest.
Jo suggested to go starbucks for coffee break. ok, we went there and we can’t find any seats. After waiting for some time, we decided to go coffee club. While going there, we realise that none of us have money to spare -.- We went to the atm to withdraw money and went coffee bean. It is my first time there. I had hazelnut ice blended! =)
Then, at around 5.40pm, we left and headed home. Py went to meet her friends at douby ghaut. Jo and I went home.
Right, it had been a long time since we took neoprint. I know, the top few aren’t really decorated. I don’t have the time to. Haha! When I was in secondary school, you can spend up to 2 hours to decorate the pictures. Now, we have only about 20 minutes or less. I feel so foreign to the machine. Yes, I suggested neoprint! Haha!
That is us down to orchard ion. We were sitting there and too bored~ Nothing for us to do! Haha!
MRT craze! This is what we do while waiting for the train to come. Haha! Py look super pretty in the second picture on the right.
I realise, every year, during my birthday, jo sure suggest going sushi buffet together. Haha! I don’t understand why. It had been like that for years already. I think ever since I am in poly year 1, we had been going sushi buffet for my birthday celebration.
We are going to meet up again for jo’s last book out! We have known each other for a very long time. Thanks for listening to my problem always. Py, stop working so much! Every time, you are busy with work. I miss the times where we will meet downstairs and start crapping all night. Let’s do it again when lunar 7th month is over ok!
P.S. Ms Lee, can you please stop falling ill? Take good care of yourself! We are all missing you!!!
Other birthday presents! =)
The chopstick is given by gerald, the pooh is by chen yi. The card is from uncle. Thanks to the fact that uncle is in NS, he mailed the card to me =) that is so sweet of him~
Just some random-ness, part 1
I was studying for chemistry the other day and I saw this formula, pV=nRT. Suddenly, it reminded me of a
neoprint that I took with daryl and joseph in year 2006 december! And the most amazing thing was, we spent nearly 30 minutes just to write the inverted pV=nRT on the table.Isn’t that amazing? Initially, when we took this photo, we were thinking to ‘put’ or write something on the table. We thought of many equations and finally, jo suggested pV=nRT. At that time, I only know it is some gas law. And now, I still only know that it is some gas law. How pathetic!
This photo is really ancient and it reminded me of the times where we will meet up every friday and go for dinner and pool at toa payoh. That was in the past, 2006.
3 years later, every thing changed.Or should I say, everything changed 1 year later. Thank goodness, we are still friends. Even so, it was never like before. I remember what limin use to say whenever there is a reverse process, “we were once so close”. Yes, she is right.
We were once so close, some chemical reaction happened. The result wasn’t what we wanted. We reverse the reaction but it will never go back to what it was previously.It takes a lot of energy and courage to initiate for a chemical reaction. Whether the reaction is as desired, besides concentration, temperature, number of moles, it takes many other factors to make it happen. However, regardless did chemical reaction take place, when you try to reverse the reactant to back to where they used to be, it will never be the same.
Just some random-ness, part 2
Having to go through school for 4 weeks, I suddenly miss my time in poly and attachment. I love the period of time where I go work, do some programming and computing and go home. I am given a super thick book on visual studio and told to read up myself. I am supposed to read and try to do some programming from one platform to another using programming.Writing, debugging, solving errors, drawing, doing up user interface – these are all within my job scope.
.c file, .dll file, .exe file – I learn to write code with all these kind of file extention.
C++, C#, XML, HTML – I learn to write and read too.
I miss the times where work is OTOT. Chee hoong doesn’t care about what I do, all he wants is final product. He doesn’t restrict the sources I use and he will give me full support. I’ve learn to write many more codes after attachment.
When I can’t think of the code to write, I will rest and relax, let my brain turn off and go read some online romance novel and cry whole day long. Such life is good and relax. I blog up to 18 times a day and I still continue blogging.
On top of all these, I met people I don’t like, ahem, I met new friends from sp, peijun and lilian, I get to know people from the g class, junlong, andrew, jolyn and I met super nice supervisor who gets suan by me always, chee hoong.
I am missing my time in poly~ I don’t like university~
I want to have fun~ =(
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