It is Sunday. My stress level had reached a reasonably high level. Everything is adding on to my stress level. I am dying in this stressful place. I want to suicide! I really do not know what to do to make it through.

Let me start with something better rather than start rattling my troubles. On Friday, early in the morning, I went to school for MI and ESA only. Early in the morning, I had MI lecture. Things are going so hard. I am feeling more and more stress. Everything is so difficult.

I really wonder what is going on during lesson. I am trying to understand and yes, I am trying so hard. However, I totally catch nothing. Then, it is ESA tutorial. I am just purely copying what the lecturer is writing. I am not even thinking.

Then, it is ESA lecture. That is even of bigger problem. I totally do not know what is going on and what are we learning. I am so lost. Computers are what we are learning now. What makes up the computer and the entire RAM thing? Oh gosh, from the first day when I was born, I know nothing about computer. What more about learning all the RAM and things?

I am listening attentively during lesson already. However, I know nothing and nothing gets inside. I am trying to link everything up. Nothing is getting linked. I am trying so hard. For the past 3 semester that I had been through, I did not listen much during lesson and yes, though I did not do as fantastic as what others are doing, I am still surviving well.

Why this semester, I tried so hard and nothing is getting in? I am trying so hard and totally nothing is in? I am trying and giving my best, and why? Can someone tell me why? I tried so hard to understand, tried so hard to blend in, why is everything so out of my range? WHY?

Ok, enough of rattling on how stupid I am and how hard it is for me to understand what is going on. Then, after lesson, I stayed in the library from about 12.50pm to 5pm. Imagine how cold it is and how torturing it is. I was doing ESA lab 2 and I totally do not know how to do.

I do not know why I am so stupid this semester. Regardless it is lecture, tutorial or practical, I am doing nothing right. Everything seems so wrong. For practical, I am not doing anything right. For lecture, I am listening attentively and yet, nothing seems to be right. And as for tutorial, I am just purely copying what is flash on the transparency.

Then, I went for ECE Annual General Meeting. Though it is rather boring, thanks to Irene, she really made me laugh. At times, she would say some funny thing and make us shocked and laugh. Besides, the part where Wilson participated in the magic show. It is a big laugh too. It had been so long since I last had a hearty laugh. When will that be again?

Then, I went back home after which. It is indeed a tiring day. I drop dead not soon after.

For Saturday, I went to look for my ex working mates at Robinsons. I wanted to visit my little sister, Jessie. However, she had something on and had to go back to Malaysia. So I went to visit my little sister's beloved, Desmond. I really hope they are doing fine. I really wish I can see them get married and give birth to a couple of cute kids.

Today, it is Sunday. Early in the morning, I was pulled out of the bed to go and eat dim sum. It had been so long since I ate dim sum. It is so nice. I went to Fortune Restaurant to eat dim sum. I prefer Crystal Jade though. However, I am not the person who pays, so I am obviously not the one who will choose where to eat.

Then, I came back home. My niece and I start to rot in the aircon room. Then, at about 1 plus pm, I fall asleep and so did my niece. Then, I woke up at about 5pm. By then, it is already mid evening already. I am still so tired. It had been such a hectic week that I did not spend much of my time resting.

During dinner time, I told my family that I am not choosing IAP and they seem to be shocked with my choice. Last week, when I asked them for ideas, they did not tell me much. However, today when I told them about my choice, they all seem to be telling me that choosing IAP is the better choice.

At that point of time, I felt so like crying. I told Wan Sin about what my family said and she asked me to follow what my family asks me to do. I know that I am doing something very bad and adding on to her vex level. However, that is not the ultimate choice. I am still thinking.

I know that I let Wan Sin down and yes, I am utterly disappointed in myself. I do not know why but yes, I felt extreme bad. I know Wan Sin is someone who would keep everything to herself. Frankly, I rather she scolds me or tells me how she feels deeply rather than keeping it to herself. I feel so bad.

Thinking of IAP would directly bring me to think about my clique. I do not know but yes, I feel so vex whenever I think of that. Now that I let Wan Sin down, I really feel that I am of no different to others. We used to be so close. My clique used to be so extreme close.

Now that everyone in my clique had flown their own way, I feel that everything had change drastically.

In Year 1 Semester 1, Wan Sin and Li Chao were in the same class as me. Though Xue Zhen and Subha were of different class, the 5 of us were so close. We were forever together. During break, we would wait for one and another and have our lunch together. Those were the days where I enjoy my lunch break.

In Year 1 Semester 2, there is a change in classes. I was put together with Subha. This semester, H1 had lesser chance of meeting H2 and thus, we usually have break together with Jermaine and guys. I personally feel that at that point of time, it is where everything starts to change.

Then, in Year 2 Semester 1, H1 and H2 seldom meet during break time too. We do not have lesson together before break time. So that means that the percentage of us meeting get so much lesser. During Year 2 Semester 1, I spend most of my break time in the library rotting alone. For some reason, I do not go break as much.

And now, in Year 2 Semester 2, we had more common time together with H2. During Monday, we would have break together as one clique. That is so fun. I though that the memory would come back. Actually, I am wrong. Though we are together, we seem to be separated by some unknown force. For most of the break, we are still going on own ways.

Suddenly, I feel that on the outside, we are a clique. However, when come to free time, we are all going on our own ways. Regardless is combine H class or just H1 alone, I just feel alone. Some people may look like a very good friend on the outside, however, the feeling delivered is different and yes, they just love to neglect you.

In combine H class, my clique has 5 people. Frankly, without one of them, I think I might be feeling so out now. And now, I let her down. I really feel so bad. I feel indifferent from the others. And in H1, I feel so lonely. I hate being alone. However, it seems like everything is going to remain until I graduate from NP.

Now that we are choosing IAP or non-IAP, it is also time for us to think about our project mates. Everyone is going their own way and yes, so is my clique. Most of them got booked by other people of other clique way before Year 2 Semester 2 start. I really wonder why H class people are so serious.

I am so unsure of what is going on. I have a friend who just loves to neglect her own clique people except for someone. I hate it so much! I really wonder why I am still staying there with a fake smile. I hate faking up my feeling. How I wish I can really tell my friends straight what is going on. I really wish I can but, that is something that will not happen.

Why is that so? It is because, I do not want to cause more trouble and problem and now, all I want is to go through Year 2 Semester 2 and yes, simply, get over and done with! I feel that school work is hectic enough and I do not want to add on with relationship with friends.

And of course, speaking of relationship, I like what it is now and have no intention to make it complicated and adding on to my stress. I just wish that some things can keep it this way. Though it is hard, I wish that things can stay like that. For at least, we look happier like this. I hate quarrel and argument. So I rather relationship just stay on this way. And of course, I hope that it can turn better.

I really hate making choices but I do not understand why the others keep making me make decision. I find it so difficult and so tough. I hate making choice! So please for heaven sake, STOP ASKING ME MAKE CHOICES!!

Take care Anne, you will be able to the right choice.

Food left.

My beloved mango sago.

FINISHED +D

My jie fu =D

My mama and my sister. Both are wearing turquoise.

My brother and my niece. My niece and her cute smile.

My brother is drinking barley while my niece is doing something. What is she doing?

Poking the table plastic with my brother.

My daddy. Candid shoot by my niece.

Happy +D

Look at my bored brother playing with the table number plate.

My dad and my niece playing with the music on.

**Stare**

Twist!

She look so cute. =D

My niece with her hair tied and clipped.

Look at the tiny pony.

The little white shimmering thing on her head is the hair clip and her pony is totally dangling in mid air.

Blur look!

ECE Society AGM.

The magician with the cute red bow tie.

It is Thursday. Tomorrow, it is Friday. I love Friday. Friday is the last day of the long week days. Finally, Saturday is coming and I get to rest.

Yesterday, it is Wednesday. It is the day for IS. In the morning, I had CAEM3 lesson. I had CAEM3 tutorial. It is a day where I would sit there and rots like nobody business. During lesson, Jolene and I was chit chatting and talking some crappy thing.

Then, it is break time. During break, I was with Xue Zhen, Li Chao and Chen Dan. I did not eat for break again. I was on diet. Am I? I am not on diet. Just that I do not have the feeling for eating. Recently, I had not been taking my lunch. Why? I do not know either. Just do not have the urge or feel to eat.

Then, we had LSR. It is the only time I really have fun. Without all the stress and pressure that I get from my peers, I felt very crazy during LSR lesson. This time, Timothy got tortured by me again. I was laughing and joking throughout the lesson. Wan Sin could not stand me either.

When lesson ended, all of us left. The lecturer, Vanne, though that there would be another spamming of discussion board again. I told her that we cannot do that every week, if not the fun would be gone by then. So we have done it selectively. Vanne was laughing and joking with us.
After that, I went to help out my friend with his school work. I had to did some work too. I went home after which.

Today, early in the morning, I had ESA practical. Early in the morning, it is Ms. Kanna who is giving us lesson. I really do not like her! I really hate her! I really wish I can kill her!! Can someone teach me how to tolerate her? I really cannot stand her!!

Initially, when I was doing my programme, I forgotten how to change the directory. Last week she wrote it on board and yes, I know that I should remember or not it down, however, I did not and sadly, I forgotten how to do it. I do not mind is her saying me, however, the fact is that she show attitude.

She type on my laptop with such force. For goodness sake, I have never type with such force before ok! Jus a simple spacebar, she slams it! The sound is heard so clearly. What kind of attitude is that? She is a lecturer and what makes her think that she can slam my keyboard with such force? Her attitude totally fails her.

Then, she reprimanded me. Yes, I admit I was at wrong. However, does she need to say it with such sarcastic tone? People would forget things. So why I cannot forget a simple code when it is the first time we are in touch with it? I totally do not understand.

During the lab, we are to open ARM202U programme. However, I do not understand why I have problem with it. When I open and finish with all the editing, when I press Rebuild it, it would pop out a message saying that it have error and I have to close the programme. I really do not know why.

When I asked Ms. Kanna for help, she open the file that I have done and reprimanded me for not doing up the setting as followed. I told her that I do up and show her, she does not care about me and totally ignore me.

Then it is ESA lecture. Oh no, this time I am so dead. I totally do not understand what is going on. I listened in class and yet, everything seems so blur to me. I cannot believe that it is happening. Everything is about what are a computer and all the programming inside a computer. I do not want to know what is happening inside a computer!!

Then, during break time, all of us go our own way. Wan Sin had to stay at HI club booth located at the Atrium. Xue Zhen went to meet her Navigator senior at Canteen 1; Subha is going to help Qi Xiang with Flash. That leaves only Li Chao and I. I wanted to go to the library to do work. So Li Chao accompanied me.

When Li Chao and I were in the library, she went to buy food while I went upstairs to look for sit. I went all the way to level 4 as level 3 was packed. Then, Li Chao stayed at level 2 (I think) and watch video. So today, all of us went separate ways.

Then, it is BSPA lecture. It is Ms. Kanna again! I totally cannot stand her. Someone teach me how! Ok, that is not the main point. During lesson, she was going through like nobody business. Besides, her Indian accent is so strong that it makes it hard for us to understand. We are actually just copying blankly.

I do not even know what I am copying. She made us copy and copy but, she does not give us the time to. Her words are so small and cursive that it made it even harder to copy. Besides, her pronounciations have some error.

When she say "N", she would pronounce it at "YEN". Now people are calling me "YEN". When she says "A", she would say it as "YEA". I am not being bad and joking about it. Just that I find it rather hard to understand. Besides, sometimes it really makes the class laugh.

Speaking of YEN (salt in Chinese), now there are TANG (sugar), YOU (oil), MI (rice), CHU (vinegar), CHA (tea) and many more.

Yen (salt) – Anne
Tang (sugar) – Wan Sin
You (oil) – Stella
Mi (rice) –
Jolene
Chu (vinegar) – Li Chao

I had forgotten what the other 2 are. However, I know that the other two are Subha and Xue Zhen. We were just joking and laughing and laughing. I know it is very lame.

Oh yes, my brother just experiences a car accident yesterday. It is nothing much. My brother did not get injured. The guy wanted my brother to pay for the car maintenance. Well, it is finally settled today. I do not know what is going on, however, I know that my daddy have to send his car for repair. The rest, I am not updated.

Tomorrow, I finally get to end my lesson early at 12pm. However, very sadly, I had to stay in school till 8 plus. The reason is because; I had to attend ECE Annual General Meeting which starts at 6.30pm. Tentatively, it is said to end at 8pm. However, I do not believe it because we are handling the ECE society!

I have to do up the proposal at 5.15pm. Before that, I think I would lock myself up in the library and do some work. Yes, Anne is going to be so hard working. I cannot believe it!!

Long day ahead!!

45 things a girl wants but won't ask for....

1. Touch her waist.
2. Talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket. **Argh, that is so sweet**
5. Kiss her slowly.
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hang out with her and your friends together.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her. **if u found a gf who LOVE camwhore**
13. Pull her onto your lap. **if she is not heavy =X **
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her. **if u see her 10 times a day then u have to do it 10 times?!?!**
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist. **I wish that happens**
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her. One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her
24. Make her feel loved.
25. kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!! **that is so rude!**
26. don't lie to HER.
27. DON'T cheat on her.
28. take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or
school, and how much you MISS her.
30. be there for her when ever she needs you, even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you. **YES! guys shld like that!**
31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her. **it is so extreme true!**
36. When people TEASE her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you. **ARGH! this is so romantic! When will it happen to me? there are not much stars in SG either**
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night. **not tired meh?!**
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.
45. sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down toher face and kiss her while sitting on her. **seems rather not possible!**

Got this from net again. I posted my comments there. LOL! It is rather true. I really wonder does such guy still exist in this world? If they does, why aren't I meeting any?!?! LOL

-Do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past nor for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days ofyour life.

-Do not give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying. It is a fragile thread that binds us to each other.

-Do not be afraid to encounter risks. It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

-Do not shut love out of your life by saying it is impossible to find. The quickest way to receive love is to give love; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly.

-Do not dismiss your dreams. To be without dreams is to be without hope; to be without hope is to be without purpose.

-Do not undermine your work by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special.

-Do not set your goals by what other people do important. Only you know what is best for you.

-Do not run through life so fast that you forget not only where you have been, but also where you are going.

-Life is not a race, but a journey to be savoured each step of the way.

Extract from the internet.

I'm the guy who will text you every single morning and tell you good morning, and every single night to tell you sweet dreams.

I'm the guy who will hold you when you're crying and wipe away your tears.

I'm the guy who still thinks you're beautiful with no make-up on, wearing your most torn up jeans and a plain tee-shirt.

I'm the guy who won't pressure you to do things that you don't want to do.

I'm the guy who kisses you on the forehead; it doesn't always have to be on the mouth.

I'm the guy who doesn't kiss and tell.

I'm the guy who actually listens to you when you talk.

I'm the guy who's excited all day because I'm looking forward to our date that night.

I'm the guy who is content to just be able to hold you and wants nothing more.

I'm the guy who can't help but smile when you walk into the room.

I'm the guy who's perfectly content with staying in and watching movies and cuddling.

I'm the guy who won't lie to you about where he's going or where he's been, or who he's been with.

I'm the guy who gets butterflies when I hear your name.

I'm the guy who's not afraid to tell my friends that I love you.

I'm the guy who doesn't mess with other girls when I have you; you're the only one that I need.

I'm the guy who doesn't care about your imperfections, and loves you more for them; who wants a perfect girl? that'sjust boring.

I'm the guy who will hold you while we watch the sun set.

I'M THE GUY WHO REALLY WANTS TO MAKE YOU THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD.

I want a guy like that! Ok, I am being a little stupid =X

It is Tuesday! Yesterday was a long long day in school. In the morning, I was late for lesson. I woke up late in the morning and in the end, I was late for MI lesson.

As I was complaining, early in the morning, I had MI lesson. I totally do not understand what is going on in the class. So I am trying my best to listen and trying to absorb.

After which, it is FCS lesson. We are having lesson with Xiao Qi again. I do not understand why, my concentration span is so short for Monday. I am so not listening to what Xiao Qi is teaching and I am happily doing what I am doing.

Then, it is my favourite time of the day. BREAK TIME! I had break with my clique again. We do not get to have break time that often together as a whole group in Year 1 sem 2 and Year 2 sem 1. For this semester, we are having lunch as a whole group at least once a week. That is so cool!

After break, it is 4 hours of PDPr. What we did for PDPr on yesterday was that we are suppose to do up Eagles and draw up our circuit. I helped my classmates with their Eagles too. I felt so guilty making Rebecca redo for nothing. I felt so guilty.

At about 2.00pm, lesson ended and I decided to head home. I was suffering from pain so I decided to just go home and rest. I had dinner outside even though I am not feeling well. How good is that?

Today, early in the morning, I had CAEM3 lesson. Firstly, I was late. I was 10 minutes late for lesson. Then, I totally do not understand what is going on during lesson. Everything seems so confusing. I really do not know if I can pass CAEM3. Or am I going to waste my effort for nothing? It is all up to fate!

After which, it is PDPr lesson again. Today, we did point to point soldering for a given PCB board. Yes, as seen on my tag board, I burnt my fringe by accident! I was doing the board and my fringe got so close to the solder that it start to Q up and then, I smell some smelly smell. I BURNT MY FRINGE!!

Then, I completed soldering my board. I find it so ugly. However, the teacher finds that it is nice. I cannot believe that we have totally different expectation. It is just so extreme ugly.

Then, BREAK TIME again. I did not eat during break. I went to the library to pass my friend something. Then, I was rather late for lesson, BSPA. I rush all the way from the library to block 8 level 6. Then, I realize that I did not bring my lab notes so, I run the stairs down from level 6 and back to the library to photocopy.

I was so tired after all the running and rushing. Then, I started my practical. Upon rushing, I finally get to complete it. So I am happy that I completed it fast and understand what is going on.

As we ended our BSPA practical rather fast, we headed down to the library to do snack. We were looking and talking about the cars going in and out of NP. What a nice thing to do while snacking!

Then, it is FCS practical. I was doing circuit connection and then doing up all the voltage reading. I do not know why but there is not enough power supply that we can only share. So we had to take turns to use the power supply.

After which, I went to do my MI lab. Wen Bin requested to do it today, so I just accommodate and do it today too. Upon completion, it is already 6 plus pm. Then, I helped here and there, a little for each other, finally! All of us finish the lab except the theory questions.

Mr. Foo came and then gives us some enlightenment. By the time we finish, it is already 8.15pm. I accompanied Subha to the overhead bridge and went back to the bus stop. I was waited for bus and then headed home.

While walking down the stair from block 4 to the atrium, I fell down again. This time, I landed on my butt! That is so idiotic! I had been so clumsy lately. Now, my butt HURTS!

Now, here I am blogging. I am so hungry! I did not eat my dinner at all.

Tomorrow, I am having CAEM3 tutorial and LSR. I am so looking forward to LSR, hopping that some new things would pop up and we would have fun again. As for CAEM3, I really do not know what is going on. I hope that things would turn out well.

HOPE!

s It is Sunday! Finally, a day for rest! It is the first Sunday that I am experiencing since Year 2 Semester 2 starts. Now I know how important Saturday and Sunday is to working adults. It is a day for rest and a day for dating =X

I know I did not blog for one whole week. Finally, I have the time and energy to blog. I am so extreme happy. This is the only time that I do not have to crack my brain. Well, besides the fact that I must think hard to remember what happen throughout the week, the rest is rather ok.

[15th October 2007, Monday]
It is the first day of school. It had been so extreme long since I last woke up at 6.30am. I had to wake up at that time for I am going to leave house at about 7.20am. My brother fetches me to school as he starts school at 8.00am too.

Early in the morning, I had to drag my feet down to block 4. For the start, I am supposed to attend one of the hardest modules I am getting in semester 2, Medical Instrumentation (MI).

Many people had a new hair-do. For the girls, Li Chao, Xue Zhen, Yang Fang, Chit Su all cut their fringe. They cut their fringe short. Except for Chit Su, the rest had their fringe cut to the length before their eyebrow.

The other time, I wanted to cut my fringe short too. I also had the intention of cutting straight cut for my fringe like Audre. Luckily, I did not cut bangs. The reason is because, Xue Zhen cut bangs too. Many people already said that we look alike. If both of us really had bangs, then it would be like, oh gosh!

For once, I had total concentration on a Monday.

After which, I attend Fundamentals of Control System (FCS). It is a module where my aunty is the module leader. Our teacher is Zhang Xiao Qi. She is a very soft spoken.

Then, it is 4 hours of Project Design Practice (PDPr). We are attending lesson on Eagles which I did in Year 1 Semester 2. So, it is quite easy though. However, it is quite stupid and complicating because they do not give you the picture to how to do up the board. So we have to try it ourselves.

Finally, the day ended. I spent such long time in school. 8am to 5pm. And by the time I reach home is already 6 plus 7. I am totally worn out and so tired. When I reach home, I am so tired. I did my board at home and finally, I manage to complete it.

[16th October 2007, Tuesday]
It is practical day! I am having practical for the whole of today!

Early in the morning, I went school for CAEM3 lesson. Finally, I have pass and now, I am taking CAEM3. It is quite stress and taxing. I scared I cannot commit to it. I am scared I cannot make it.

It is PDPr lesson again. I continued with my board. Finally, it is completed. However, just 10 minutes before the lesson end, some error pop out and that means, I have to re-do my whole board. I almost cry out. I spent so much time and effort on doing it and now, just a simple key, Delete; I have to re-draw my board.

Then, it is Biomedical Signal Processing (BSPA) practical. It is the first time we are seeing Ms Kanna. Her Indian accent is so strong. It is a stupid module. She does not explain to us on what is happening. She just throws everything to us and then, we have to do ourselves. She should at least explain something.

Then, it is FCS practical. My brain is totally dead. I am so not thinking what I am doing. So I just sit there and browse through what is going on.

Finally, the day ended again. Once again, it is another 8am to 5pm. It is going to be a long day tomorrow.

[17th October 2007, Wednesday]
It is Wednesday! I am starting school at 10am. I am so happy. I finally get to start lesson later. However, due to the fact that I have to go school myself, I woke up at about 7.30am. I had to go school myself. I am so sad!

In the morning, I had CAEM3 tutorial lesson from 10am to 12pm. Then, I went for my first Life Science Revolution (LSR) IS lesson. It is fun. I do not know why, but I am laughing non-stop. I guess the other people were all sian diao! I kept laughing and kept spelling the words wrong.

Then, we spam the discussion board after the lesson. It is quite fun.

Though I end my lesson at 5pm again, I love Wednesday. It is a nice and enjoying day!

[18th October 2007, Thursday]
Sian! I am starting lesson at 8am to 5pm again. I am so sad! Early in the morning, I started with Embedded System Arm (ESA) practical. Ms Kanna is our lecturer again. She was saying that she see us 3 times a week. That is so sad!

After practical, it is ESA lecture. We are learning on what are computer and all. I am dying. I know that I do not know what is going on. However, I do not know what I am unsure. Oh Gosh!

Then, it is BSPA lecture. Ms Kanna was our lecturer. She was clear with the house rules. When she gave us a break, she said that we are not allowed to sleep during break. What is with that rule?! That is so idiotic!

After BSPA lecture, H1 had one hour break. We were roaming about in the library. Then, we went for FCS tutorial. I do not know, however, the answer that Xiao Qi gave us seems to be wrong. We checked with H2 and realize that there are some differ.

Another 8am to 5pm today. I am so tired! Oh help!

[19th October 2007, Friday]
TGIF! Thank God is Friday. I am going to survive with ESA and MI for the whole of today. ESA and MI is the 2 hardest modules. That is what the seniors tell us.

Today, lesson starts at 9am. YAY! However, due to some very idiotic and stupid reason, I woke up at 7am. Yesterday, when I reach home, I doze off at about 8 plus 9pm. Then, at about 3am, I woke up due to tummy ache. So I am stucked in the toilet for some time.

Then, at 4am, I woke up and visit the toilet again. And at 5am, I woke up and visited the toilet. At 6am, I woke up and visited the toilet. Finally, at 7am, I woke up and visit the toilet and decided not to sleep already.

At 9am, I had MI lecture for one hour. Then, I had ESA tutorial. Kanna was just teaching us on the lab commands. Then, it is ESA lecture.

Now, I had 2 hour break. Wan Sin and Li Chao accompanied me to block 8 to download software for my ESA practical. We had our lunch at block 8 too. After which, I went to the library while Wan Sin and Li Chao went to attend their lesson. I went to look for Subha and Timothy.

Then, I had MI lab. We were separated into groups of 2. Unfortunately, I am the odd one out. H1 had 17 students for MI. Mr. Foo (the MI lab lecturer), said that I can choose to do with any group in the class. Actually, I wanted to do with Subha, due to some reason, I am doing with Wen Bin.

P.S. Wen Bin, I scarifice doing with Subha ok! So you should treat me better instead of bullying me lo! #@^*(^&#%$

We are supposed to have tutorial after the lab. However, after some talking through, the tutorial is cancel and then, we pushed the tutorial timing to Thursday 3pm to 4pm. Finally, I get to end lesson one day early!

When I completed the part I know on the lab, it is already about 7.30pm. So I went back home at about 7.30pm.

YAWN! Tired!

[20th October 2007, Saturday]
I went out today. Do I have anything to add? Nothing much.

[21st October 2007, Sunday]
Today, I am staying home. I had to stay home to touch up with some work.

I want to get myself an organizer. I saw one very nice at AMK hub. Should I get it?

I am going to start another week of marathon next week. Next Friday, I still have to attend ECE Annual General Meeting. I do not want to go because the ECE society is a drag. They love to drag their time. I hate attending their meeting!

Busy busy busy!

KILL!!

Guess what is that. 杀死他! 44 times of it. I am too angry over something.

My ah jie! I wanted to have the same hair cut as her. Luckily I did not. If not, we would look more alike.

Can you believe what day is it tomorrow??

SCHOOL IS GOING TO OPEN!!

I hate school reopen. I hate it when this happens. I am happily enjoying my holiday and now, school is reopen-ing. I did not enhoy my holiday at all. I did not go on dates and to places I planned to go.

I had so many place which I planned to go. I have yet to go. Oh God, give me few more weeks please!

I do not want school to open! I DON'T WANT!!

Tomorrow it is the start of my half a year torture! Everyday, from 8am to 5pm. Oh no, I am dying.

Someone, KILL me and get me out of TORTURE!!

Yesterday, I finally see my 2 cute little sisters after 1 week. I shall start the story from the start.

In the morning, I met up with Han Song. The two of us do not have work so we met up and went down walk around Toa Payoh Central. Then, we went down to Cineleisure for a movie.

We watch Resident Evil: Extinction. It is quite nice. Though it is gross and quite frightening at times, it is a nice movie and really worth the money. Then, we went to John Little to look for my beloved Xiao Xiao Mei Mei, Audre. It had been so long since I last see her. It is straight 1 week since I last see her. Miss her lots!

Then, we went for break together. Then, a guy passes her a bottle of HOMEMAKE BARLEY. The guy COOKED the barley himself. It is rather sweet of the guy. Xiao Xiao Mei Mei had sore throat and I hope she is better now. The guy is really really sweet to cook barley for Xiao Xiao Mei Mei. When will I get my chance?

P.S. Audre, take care of yourself. You just lost your voice not long ago and now, you are suffering from sore throat again.

Then, Xiao Xiao Mei Mei went back to work. Han Song and I went down to shop at Heeren. After walking at Heeren, our tummies start to make a lot of noise and we went to eat at Pastamania. It is the first time I am eating at Pastamania. The food there is not bad.

At 8.15pm, Han Song and I went back to John Little to meet up with Xiao Xiao Mei Mei. 8.30pm, Xiao Xiao Mei Mei end her work and then, we meet her and go down to Robinson to meet up with Mei Mei, Jessie, and Mei Fu, Desmond.

Then, at 9.15pm, the 3 of us left and went to meet them. then, Xiao Xiao Mei Mei and I start taking picture while waiting for them.

Mei Mei and Mei Fu came down and then, we went to S11 to have a drink and chit chat together. It had been 1 week since we last met. We chat quite a lot and of course, this time, the focal point is on Xiao Xiao Mei Mei and the sweet guy who cook barley for her.

Will I have a Xiao Xiao Mei Fu soon?!?! That is unsure.

Today had a small gathering with the current BME Committee members. Out of 12 members in total, 7 people attended. So it is relatively a pass =D

We are supposed to meet at 1.30pm. however, due to rainy season, Jermaine and I were late and then, this made Irene late too. Jermaine was with me and then, we meet Irene at the bus stop. by the time we reach Ang Mo Kio Hub, it is already 2pm. At that time, only Wilson was there.

After some time, it is about 2.30pm. This time, Yet Wei, Wei Pei and Yao Ming came. We were deciding on what to eat. Then we went to Nebo. After hovering outside for some time, we decided to go in. After about 10 minutes, we decided to leave and head for Pepper Lunch.

It is the first time I am eating at Pepper Lunch. I feel so insecure and unsure about eating it. however, I still give it a go. It is quite nice though. I do not really like the food but it is still passable.

Then, we went to the arcade to play. We start off with Jermaine dancing the machine like DDR however; it is diagonal instead of Up Down Left Right. Then, Wilson and Irene played House of the Dead IV. After which, we played Hyper Bishi Bashi. Then, the 6 of them played Daytona.

Jermaine came in first, followed by Wilson and then Yao Ming. The guys rule over!

Then, we went to play basketball. Wilson and Wei Pei as one team, Yet Wei and Jermaine one team, Irene and I as one team. Irene and I got the highest score among the few. YAY! Girl Power!

And lastly, we played drum. Can you believe, 5 people playing the drum machine at the arcade and the score is only D, E, and F? That is rather stupid though. 5 people playing the drum together and yet, we still get such low score.

So we hover around these few games and then, we left at about 5.30pm. I hover at AMK Hub. When I was about to leave the place, I got stopped by a guy telling me about some financial banking plan. I listen to him obediently and 1 hour past.

Finally I get to leave. Then I head back home. I went to take bus 88. While waiting for the bus, there is this crazy aunty who keep asking me for money and touching me. I felt so eeek! She keeps following me around the bus stop. Finally the bus came and then she left me alone.

By the time I reach home it is already about 9.00pm. And here I am blogging. I am waiting for Yet Wei to send me the pictures taken today. I will upload it again ok.

Anne (DA JIE) & Audre (XIAO XIAO MEI MEI) & Jessie (MEI MEI) =D My sisters in Robinson Centrepoint. I really miss them lots! LOVE THEM +D

Han Song & Anne & Audre. While waiting for Jessie and Desmond (MEI FU) to end their work. So we start cam-whoring.

Anne & Audre. The "A"s. Will I have a XIAO XIAO MEI FU soon? hmmm..

[[ GIRLS LANGUAGE ]]

if i dont call you
[ Its because im waiting for you to call me ]

When i walk away from you
[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth
[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you
[ Grab me and dont let go ]

When i start cursing at you
[ Kiss me and tell me you love me ]

When im quiet
[ Ask me whats wrong ]

When i ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away
[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst
[ Tell me i am beautiful ]

When you see me start crying
[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When im scared
[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i dont answer for a long time
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i like you
[ I really do more than you could understand ]

When i grab at your hands
[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i bump into you
[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until i do ]

When i miss you
[ i am hurting inside ]

When you break my heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over
[ i still want you to be mine ]

Finally, I am free! Besides the fact that I have CAEM summer school, I am rather free next week. WHEE~

In simple words, I am going to blog what it had been for the past few days.

For the last week, I attended my few 3 lessons of CAEM Summer School. There are only 5 people including me. It is rather tiring. For the first few days, it is hard to cope as it had been so long since I last wake up.

Then, on Friday, Saturday and Sunday, I went to work at Bishan Seiyu BHG. I was so reluctant to wake up every morning. Though I admit that I reach there later and leave home earlier, I did my work well!

I was helping practically all the brands. The place I am standing is where all the customers would come and ask me for shoes. BHG had 15% storewide sales. I am so sad that I did not buy anything. I am so sad!

Then, from Monday onwards of this week, I had been over from home to school in the morning, and then in the afternoon, I go over Tampines for tuition. Then in the night 7 plus 8pm, I would go home from Tampines. By the time I reach home, it is already 10 plus pm.

Until Friday, I finally get to rest. I had my CAEM common test on Thursday. And on Wednesday, I was having tuition with my cousin. I am teaching her Primary 6 Mathematics. Can you believe? I did not study CAEM and yet I am studying Primary 6 Mathematics!

Then on Thursday, I had my common test in the morning. Before that, I was reading through my notes and doing some CAEM in the car. Then, something bad happen. It is so bad! I FELL DOWN ON THE FLOOR NEAR CANTEEN 2! What a start for the morning.

How did I fell?

I was walking out of the car and then, I was walking on the rough flooring pathway between canteen 2 and the car park. Then I trip over the drain thing. I though that after some steps, I would become batter and maintain my balance. However, that did not happen. Instead, I went falling down.

My elbow hurts so much now. I cannot put it straight. It is rather swollen. I hope it gets better soon. It looks so disgusting. I hate it!

Friday, I got back my results for my Common Test. Though I did not study, I got the highest in class (according to Jermaine). I got 84/100. After Summer School, I went down to Bugis. I did some shopping. Though in the end, I did not get anything from there; it is rather a nice shopping and trip. I finally get to let my hair down for a day and relax.

Today, I went out for tuition. It is the last day of tuition. I went down to help my cousin with Science as she is having PSLE Science on Monday. So I went down to help her with some queries.

Then, I went shopping at Tampines area. I bought a pair of shoes from there. I came home for dinner. I bought dinner for my brother.

My parents went overseas. So now, the house is rather empty. So I had to buy dinner for my brother. That is so stupid!

Tomorrow, I am going down Robinsons to meet my working mates. I totally miss them. It had been more than one week when I last see them. I miss Jessie Mei Mei and of course, Desmond, my Mei Fu!

I am going out tomorrow! Whee~

My wound taken on the night I fell down in school.

The wound on my knee. Imagine I am wearing jeans and yet, I can get wounded. What if I've worn shorts?

Close up on the wound on my elbow. It is still bleeding red.

The shoes that I bought the other day because the shoes I just bought not long ago spoilt.

The side view. I know, it looks like BurBerry's shoes.

Pink and Black!

My new shoes. I just bought it today. I love the colour. If it is red, it is better.

The sport shoes that I got from my sister.

Side view.

Han Song and I. Finally got this picture from him. This picture is taken by Jessie and Audre. I miss them lots!

My tuition kid! My cousin!

Look, aren't she hard working?

ARGH! My cute little niece is wearing my socks! Don't she look so cute?