Something is wrong with Cbox.
I cannot see all the tagboards.
Oh yes,
I totally forgotten to blog about my handphone bill.
Guess how much is it?
**drum roll~**
The total bill is $77.
$25 is the default amount.
$5 is for caller ID.
$35 is for overseas messages.
$12 is for overseas call.
Yes,
I am going to pay for myself.
I just spend another $70,
On another phone bill.
I cause the bill to burst up $70.
So I bank transfer the money over.
This month,
My $500 is going down the drain.
$147 on handphone bill already.
$52 on bus concession.
That means I'm left with the pathetic $300.
Then I want to save $100.
Means I'm left with $200.
I am intending to give parents too.
So I think by then,
Not much left.
How am I going to survive this month?
I am broke!
Seriously,
That guy should really be grateful.
Grace say I'm so wei da!!
Well,
I have no choice.
Its ok!
Recently,
I am not eating well,
Sleeping well.
Grace said that it is called
"LOVE SICK!"
She said that this is what happen,
When the guy just left,
She had fever,
Can't eat well,
Can't sleep well.
Maybe she is right.
However,
Mine already one week.
Now I see food,
No interest at all.
Plus sick,
Worst!
Eek!
Today,
Raining.
I was rather emo,
Rather mood-less.
First time going home so early.
And yet,
Sleeping on the bus.
Was quite emo.
Not sure why either.
So I was under the rain,
Walking slowly.
Drench!
I reach home,
Did not bathe or wash up.
Did not dry myself either.
No wonder I will fall ill.
Clever enough!
I want to fall ill too.
So I can go hospital,
And eat hospital food!
LOL!
Regardless the case,
Tomorrow is working day again!
It is another day at work!
Whee!
Cheng Qian says that he want to go back to NP,
To settle something,
Plus a lunch at NP.
I don't mind.
I want to see the teachers.
Miss them.
Will I see him too?
Eek!
Doubt so lah!
Why would he go back school?
People,
I will be extremely glad if all of you,
Don't be a spy and send my entries to other people.
For now,
I will hope that the person do not know about it.
I don't wish to give other people another blow.
Those who are being spies,
They should understand what I meant.
Thanks!
I think for now,
I'd do the "spying" myself.
So please be of great help!
It is greatly appreciated!
Thanks!
Love you people!
Seriously,
I think I'm going to fall ill so soon.
Suffereing from giddy spell.
So pain and giddy can!
My appetite is dropping like nobody business.
From morning until now,
All I ate was less that a bowl of noodle.
Those kind of noodle bought at the hawker.
I ate less than half of the noodle,
And I'm feeling so full,
Feel like vomiting too.
Seriously,
I think I'm falling ill.
Took temperature,
Higher than 37.6 degree.
But not very high.
So should be ok.
Nowadays,
When I am under the sun,
Feel so dizzy.
Soon,
I might just fall ill and die~
LOL!
Sorry!
Don't scold me over my tag board!
LOL!
I was surfing some web online and saw this story. It will help those who are stucked think through..
There was this guy who loved two girls at the same time but he didn't know which one he loved more. Someone taught him.
Ask yourself this question and answer it honestly :
"When you are happy, which girl would you want to share your happiness with?" The one you think of is someone you love.
Ask yourself another question and answer it honestly :
"When you are sad, which girl you want to share your burden with?" The one you think of is also someone you love.
If you think of the same girl when you are happy & sad, that's the most perfect. But if you don't think of the same girl, I would advise you to chose the one you are willing to share your sadness with.
In life, there are more sorrows than happiness. There are too many people that u meet that u can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover.
If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone.
In sadness, however, there are not many people willing to share your burden with you. If you are willing to tell someone your happiness, I am sure that person has got to be someone close & an understanding person to you.
But it shouldn't stop there. If that person only thinks of you when she is happy, but looks for someone else when she is sad, this lover is too unstable, she doesn't treat you as someone she can spend the rest of her life with.
Of course, I will be very happy if I am the first person to share her happiness. But, if she is sad, I will be too willing to stay by her side & ease her pain. Only then, will I believe that I hold a very important position in her heart.
If you are sad, who comes to your mind first?
So when you are sad, who come first? Do you have any idea now?
You taught me how to care;
You taught me how to be kind;
You showed me how to like someone;
You showed me how to love;
But there is 1 thing you didn't teach me and it hurts most
- you didn't teach me how to let go..
it really hurts most..
Loving you secretly is a hard thing for me to do,
hoping,
wondering that you will feel the same way too,
but I can't read your mind if you love me too.
But whatever it is,
I'll still be loving u
meant for u;
This is so sweet...
Girl: Do you really love me?
Boy: Of course I do.
Girl: I wanna hear you say it.
Boy: I don’t have to.
Girl: Why not?
Boy: Because...
Girl: I just want to hear you say it in words.
Boy: I can’t...
The girl started to cry softly and said:
Then you don't love me...
The two continued to walk in silence. They
reached the girls home.
Girl: Why?
Boy: Do you really want to know?
Girl: (hesitantly) Yes.
He hugged her gently, kissed the tip of her nose
and whispered in her ear,
"Because three words are not enough..."
Ok,
I did not read the newspaper at all today.
Usually in the morning,
I will be occupied with the newspaper.
Today,
there is nothing to read on the newspaper.
The news isn't that exciting.
Oh yes,
I was talking to Harry,
I got to know who is the next batch of BME juniors coming in.
Gees!
So excited.
Well,
I'd only see them when I go back to school.
Else I wont even see them at all.
School is starting soon.
The SP interns are leaving soon.
The NUS interns too.
Shucks!
The whole place will be left with Jun Long and I.
We have to stay there until August.
So bored!
Though we interns seldom talk,
I still miss them lots!
I want to cry already!
SOOOOO sad!!
School is start which means,
I have problem finding seats on the bus.
NUS holiday starts in mid April,
And ends in August.
If there is NP students,
There is no NUS students.
If there is NUS students,
There is no NP students.
NP have more students taking 151.
Which means,
I have lower chance of getting a seat!
Shucks!
The good thing is,
I end work at 6pm.
Now that there is no NUS student,
I can get a seat easier on the bus.
And I can skip the crowd in NP.
LOL!
Perfect Idea.
I wonder,
When school reopen,
Will I see him too.
Nah~
Highly doubt so.
I think he will avoid taking 151 ever again.
LOL!
Well,
To go NP,
There is still 154 and 985.
Plus we take bus at different bus stop.
His is one bus stop before me.
So yes,
Perfect.
No no,
The other thing is,
His timetable does not clash with mine.
So yes,
Not like he have 8am lesson,
And Engineering student ends lesson at 5pm latest.
Even so,
He'd not meet me if he don't take the 6.15pm bus from NP.
And even if he take,
Why would he take 151 to go home?
Haha!
He takes other buses to go home.
Need not fear!
If I were to go back to school,
I will most probably meeting Wan Sin and clique.
Why would I see him,
When I'd be hovering at Blk 8?
LOL!
Wa seh!
Anne really think about everything already.
Seriously,
Do you want to not see him that much?
The answer is no.
LOL!
I will think is because,
I wish that I can see him,
So I did plan nicely.
LOL!
Never mind about it.
What can I do about it?
Well,
Life goes on as usual~
Anne will wake up everyday and go to work.
And at work,
She will be online the whole day!
Oh yes,
If she manage to download the programme,
She will start code converting.
It is more fun than killing bug.
I love to type codes.
Though it is very long,
At least is more fun =D
Whee~
Then Anne will start writing her report.
Her 60 pages report.
Wa sick!
She must write her 40 pages report first.
Idiot!
Did I mention?
My LO is coming for visiting on 10th?
At about 2pm.
I must be so good girl at that time.
And pray hard that I don't get kick upstairs.
Please!!
Sign off~
Hey! I just woke up from my beauty sleep. Yawn! So tired. Hehe!!
What should I blog? Seriously I have no inspiration to blog at home. I already do not know what to blog anymore. Shucks! I needed inspiration. LOL!
Guess I'm left with one day to solve the bug that I'm experiencing by downloading Visual Basic 2008. If I don't solve it by then, hmmm, I'm going to be kick up to the forbidden area.
Seeing him online really makes me sad. Shucks! I mean I see him online and yet, he did not talk to me at all. Well, guess it is like this. I mean everyone need some time off. I am given my time off too.
For now, there isn't much things I need to really consider. I mean all had been going fine and well. I am living life per as normal, besides the fact that I will think of him now and then. Even so, I am not emo because I know that he is living well now with his friends. I know that he is living well without me and having pack schedule.
At least he is busy with things so that he can forget me faster. I mean that is how he did it to his ex, bury himself with tons of things so he can gradually give his ex up. Well, I think that is the best way out for him.
Seriously, I hope I'm not forgotten even though I know that the probability is like 1! LOL! Even so, as long as he is happy, I'm glad about it already.
As for the other him, sad to say that I don't really miss him as much. I will still think is he doing fine and handling fine. Yesterday, he really had a lot, so much that he cannot take it already. I really feel bad for him.
Well, now that he don't really see me at all, he can actually give himself time off to think through. And he have a long period of time off. So I hope that by then, he can really move on and think if this path is better for him.
Well, I'm not sure whether is it a good thing or bad thing but yes, I am really happy for him too. I mean he got things straight. I mean he thought through over what actually happen which cause the failure. There bound to be a period where people will think through what went wrong. And yes, I'm happy that he finally found out why.
I don't deny that I'm very touched by what he say. I mean which guy will give you everything and risk whatever he had took back within this short period of time? Which guy will protect you and be there for you when he sees that you are sad? If I'm not touched, seriously I'm not a girl.
However, I'm not sure if I'm worth him sacrificing like this. Of course, I will hope that he will be happy and lead his life happily. I am happy that he is happy with his life. I am happy for him because he got back his friends and family. I am really happy and don't wish to be due to me, tarnish everything he haves.
Two guys, One girl;
I wish the two guys are happy. Well, there is 4 different probability in the end. Let me state.
- Both guys want me.
- Both guys don't want me.
- Guy A wants me and Guy B don't.
- Guy B wants me and Guy A don't.
Simple permutation and combination thing. So yes, let time decided. I don't know what is the end too. Why think until so complicated? It will only make my life worst isn't it? Just let time decide on what to do.
Later in the end, both guys don't want me. LOL! I over here think so much for what. Well, it can be a new drama ending isn't it? Hehee! It will be interesting ending.
I am still pondering over something. I know what is that but I'm not going to say. Will it happen the way I wanted? I'm unsure.
Never mind! Tomorrow is another day! A brand new day! And tomorrow is April's Fool Day!!
Beware~
Ok, the mood is so different to blog at home. By right, I should be at work now trying to download the programme yet, I'm home.
It feels so odd to be home this early and alone. Usually at work, there are company and there are people to talk to. At home, it is all so bored!! I have nothing to do except staring at the ceiling. LOL!
So tired! I don't know why. I saw him online and so wanted to talk to him but yes, I cannot. It is a simple promise I made. I wanted to ask him about the 2 guys and 1 girl thing. Well, never mind about that. I should stop implicating people into the picture.
I mean, just my friends and cousin alone, there are 5 people who know it already. Amazing! There will be more as time goes by. Well, I should stop implicating people into the situation. I should just go ahead and do whatever I like.
I chose this path myself.
There sure to be spikes and grass patches.
Since I choose it,
Be prepared to face the consequence.
You'd never know what is at the ending point,
If you never finish walking the road.
So yes, I have chosen the path and I will walk to the end of it. Regardless what is at the ending point, I should be happy because I finish walking the path. Though at many times, there will be crossroad and all, I will make my choice and yes, walk all the way to the end.
Anne, I know you can do it. I have faith in you =D
Ok, I should go and sleep already. Too tired~
Shucks!!
Ending work today at 12pm.
whoosh!!
There is a company event thus, we are all given half day off.
Our supervisor came and tell us,
You can go home at 12pm today.
We are having a company event.
A meeting from 1pm to 6pm.
We are all leaving at 11.30am.
Whoosh!!
However,
I have no where to go.
Going home is bored.
I always kill time at work.
Yes, though I can sleep at home,
Work place have people to talk to.
At home,
All I have is television with nothing to watch.
Eeeek!
Going home soon.
Where should I go?
Nobody is free to ask me out.
My friends are doing their project in school,
Some are having attachment.
Some stays very far.
I want to watch movie.
But I hate watching movie alone.
Shucks!!
Where should I go?
I'm bored!!
Jun Long says that he will be going home.
LOL!
He is such a good kid.
He say his entertainment starts at night.
Ok,
Fine~
As for Anne,
It had been a long time since she went shopping and all.
She had been working,
And staying home.
Usually,
MOnday to Friday,
I will be going to work and coming home from work.
Unless somebody's birthday go their place celebrate.
Saturaday and Sunday,
I will be at home rotting.
Anne, seriously you have no life!!
Good thing about having to go home early,
Don't need to worry about what to write in my report.
Hehe!!
I can just say downloading programme takes a long time.
Muahaha!
Sneaky!
Looking at the number of people online,
Shucks!
None of them are free to go out.
Argh~
They are all practically working/project.
I think I'd just go home.
No activities going on.
Sian sian~
This is life!!
Staring at the name,
Will talk to me?
Highly doubt so.
So why think so much?
August,
A lot of events going on.
Birthdays,
Guy A coming back,
My birthday,
Final presentation,
Last month at work.
Shucks!!
So many things to do.
Wonder,
Will I stop being ignored in August too?
Geees~
Don't be stupid.
Now is last day of March.
Which means,
That leaves 4 months and 1 day to August.
Time flies very fast.
When the time is right,
Everything will get in place.
This drama will end too.
Time flies so fast that I'm working in DSO for the 5th week already.
So fast!
Next week is the last week of SP interns.
They are leaving soon.
Shucks!
I miss them so much.
I am starting to miss them now already.
Grrr!!
A short period of time together yet,
Memorable.
Sob sob!!
I better don't cry.
Why do my mind always get occupied with something?
Whatever I do,
There bound to be something which I can think of.
Crumpler,
August,
Phone,
Wallet,
Bus ride,
MP3,
Friends leaving,
Crying.
I sure got something to link it up.
Idiot!
Why is my life so poor thing?~
The drama continues on.....
When will it ever end?
No one knows....
Today, all the staff are going for meeting which starts at 1pm to 6pm. The labs are all close. They are forbidden for the whole of today because there are no staff to be there. However, computer lab is not forbidden. Shucks!
All the staff will be gone from here at about 11.30am and yes, they say that we can actually go home early. Gees~ It will be like whoo~ Going home at 11.30am. Imagine, it is already 9.30am and I can actually run away at about 11.30am.
The IA students were saying that they are going home early. That does not include Jun Long of course. Jun Long and I usually do not know about all this staff meeting things. Usually it is Lilian and Pei Jun who tells me.
Well, if everyone were to leave, the whole place will be so empty.
I am still searching for a way out for my Visual Basic. I mean before I get thrown up to the FORBIDDEN level 14, where it is RESTRICTED area. It is said to be the place where all the CONFIDENTIAL things and all the LIFE animals are. Shucks!
My supervisor still says that seldom people will go up to the RESTRICTED area, so I can have a lot of privacy. Idiot! Why will I want so much privacy for? It will be damn bored can! Yecks! I better be hardworking and stop slacking!!
Oh yes, I miss 235 today and in the end, I had to take another bus to interchange and run for the 145 and then luckily in time for the 151. LOL! Then I slept on the bus again. It had became part of me to sleep on 151 early in the morning.
Actually all I wanted was to sit there and rest. In the end, I will doze off. Hehe!
Oh yes, this morning, I woke up on my own. The alarm did not ring. What is the reason that I woke up on my own is because of my dreams again.
I woke up twice. The first time, I dreamt of Guy B. The second time, I dreamt of Guy A. Shucks!! Idiot~ I tried my best not to think about all this already. I mean I should really rest and take a deep breathe and give myself a break.
Well, I shall let things take a step at a time. I mean, I cannot force things into what I don't want at all. All I can do is to accept it. So yes, I must accept it. Well, yesterday night, there is a continuation of the drama and yes, WOW! LOL!
Joseph, you have yet to think of a name for the drama. Haha! I think I'd break down soon from filming this drama. Seriously, I'm squash between two guys.
Joseph suggest that I should introduce Guy A to Guy B and vice versa. And then let them fight over it. LOL! I tell you that Guy B will not fight for it at all. He will just let pass. I don't know why but that is how I feel.
I told my brother about it and he said that it is better to choose someone who loves u more than you love him. Even though I like the other one, nobody will want to suffer at all. Then I told him that I should really just wait as time goes by. I mean Guy A still have 5 months and why should I decide now?
Yesterday night, Limin called me and then the both of us kept singing the song, Qi Dai~ The two of us were so high!!
Qi Dai~ Qi Dai Ni Fa Xian Wo De Ai~~~ LOL!
Ok, I should start working if I want to go home early =D
waiting for the day;
Just finish report writing. Finally! I realise that I had blog so much that I had nothing to write in my report. I mean, you don't expect me to write what I've been doing at work? You don't expect me to write how free I am that I blog on an average of 11 post a day. Don't you? LOL!
Hai! I talk to Grace just now. Well, she know about what is happening too. Another person knowing it. Well, I had been confining in her anyway. So it should not matter too.
Now the situation machiam like taiwan drama can! I mean, typical drama can! One guy is you used to loved, and to date, he is still pinning hope on you. He still likes you and hope to be with you. However, the other guy you like him and yet, he is treating you so coldly. I really do not know why!
I mean, I can film my story into a taiwan drama where things gets turning around the two guys and one girl.
When Guy A and I broke off, Guy B appear. When Guy B and I broke off, Guy A appear. When Guy A's matter gets quiet down, Guy B appear. When I broke off with Guy B recently, Guy A appear and bomb me with all that! I mean why is the two guys doing with my life?
I really do not know at all. I really do not know why is that so! I always wanted things to go the way I wanted. I never had been troubled with two guys you see. I have never been troubled over guys.
The guy who I hope have reciprocal love is now avoiding me like I'm a SARS patient. The guy who I've disappoint, I hope that he live on well and find a girl more worth it, he is pinning tons of hope. Why is it like that?
Guy A's friend caught me and Guy B dating redhanded. They told him and yet, Guy A was trying to convince himself that we are just bro-sis relationship. Until one day, he caught Guy B and I redhanded and yet, he act as if he did not know anything and continue to be there for me. Guy A had been secretly suffering from behind. Even though his friends help him through, he did not walk out at all.
Guy B still have feelings for me and vice versa. However, he is so fearful and stressful of me. He is avoiding me like nobody business. When I need him, I'm thrown alone here now.
I mean it is like I have Qing for Guy B and Yi for Guy A. One is love, one is gratitude. I really do not know! I am really confuse over all this turning here and there. I am so tired and so stress.
If I were to choose Guy A, I can find someone who loves me more than I love him. I can find someone who wants to be with me. I can find someone who loves me dearly. However, I'd be unfair to him.
If I were to choose Guy B, I have to wait. When will I stop waiting? I do not know at all. By the time the waiting time is up, will he still have feeling for me? I highly doubt so. I mean, he best way to give up the fear and stress is to stop loving the person. And yes, I think he will resort to that. Even so, I'd be guilty towards Guy A.
Seriously, why is my love life so stucked now? I'm really stress. I wanted to talk to him so much. And yet? Forget about it. I am really stress. I really needed someone here now. I really needed someone who accompany me and hear me pour out everything. I really needed someone to dry my tears and tell me that everything is ok.
However, all this are not happening. The person I needed here is not here. The person I don't wish to let him down is here and trying to console me. Why is it like that?
Seriously, it is love triangle. Why is it so? I admit I all along wanted a fairy tale to happen to me. I admit that ever since this matter, I hope that my story will go on like Yumei's where she was with the guy, broke off however still having feeling, and two years later, they are together again.
I really hope. However, I highly doubt this kind of fairy tale will happen to me. It is like we are transforming into strangers and yes, totally strangers. One day, I'll be forgotten.
I always envy those kind of girl who is deeply loved by someone in those taiwan drama. I always envy and hope that I'm such female lead. Now that it is happening to me, I must say that the feeling is not good at all. It is like the person you like is avoiding you and yet, another guy is over there drying your tears.
I really feel very stress!! I mean I really do not know what is going on in my life already. I really do not know why is happening already. I'm losing track of what is going on already. I'm being tear apart.
Seriously, I already don't know what it is already. I need confirmation from you. I'm already falling apart.
Breakdown!
I was talking to someone just now and yes, I felt so bad. I did not know that I did something so bad. I feel so guilty within. I mean yes, damn guilty. I wish you were here to hear my out. However, I know you are not.
Yes, I was talking to someone. Ask me on MSN and I'd tell you. I am seriously sorry to that someone. I did not know that you knew about all this from the start. I really understand what it is like to see someone you love dating on the street with another guy. I know the pain.
I know that your friends are helping you through all the problems. I know that you are trying to convince yourself that it is not the way you hear until you see it.
Practically, it is all because of me. The first time you club, the reason you club, is practically because of me and maybe other factors. You knew it long ago and yet, you are still showing care and concern to me.
That night where we talk, I know that I gave you hope. I know that perfectly, however, blame me for being unable to take up the challenge or what, I find the strings attached far too much. I know that readers who read my blog did think who was the male lead.
I know that what it is like to feel so. I mean, I've been through before. You tried to catch up with my life, end up, I played you like a fool.
I was scared too. I had fear. There are many things. You yourself knows the stress behind it. Your friends are pulling you through and yet, if they realise that you did not move on, how would they feel too? You understand that. I fear that.
Finally, we both manage to talk things through. I mean you understand why your mom get into the picture too. We both understand.
I know that up to date, you are still having hopes on me. I gladly know that. I mean I'm not stupid either. I know who is there for me and who is not. I feel so troubled.
I feel that I'm like so stucked with two guys. I feel so troubled between two guys. It is like asking me who to choose. I really do not know. I feel so troubled. When I was asked the question I have feelings for who, I was so scared. I really do not know what to answer at all.
I feel that I'm playing the game of love. Finally one goes away, the other came. And when the other goes away, you came. I really do not know what to do anymore. I really do not know. Now the situation is like so triangle.
I am so stucked right smack in the middle. The one that I wish to have feelings for me is now avoiding me. The one that I wish he can find someone better is having feelings for me. Why is it like that? What is the game planned? I really don't dare to play this game anymore. I'm so scared. I am really scared.
I really wanted to talk to you. However, you wasn't there. I really wish to talk to you and confine in you. However, you are avoiding me like nobody's business. Why is it like that? When I wanted to find someone to talk about my love problem, I confine in another guy. Why Why Why!!!
I am so stucked!! Someone save me please! Please help me..
I really don't know what to do anymore. I really really don't know. Why is everything playing with me?! WHY!!
Are you really in love? Or do you think that you are in love?
There is a big difference between Love and infatuation. Some people can't tell the difference, thinking they are in love but really it is a deep infatuation. Infatuation is instant desire - one set of glands calling to another.
Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows, one day at a time.
Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine too closely. It might spoil the dream.
Love is the quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by their presence, even when they are away.
Miles do not separate you. You have so many wonderful little films in your head that you keep replaying. But near or far, you know they are yours, and you can wait.
Infatuation says, "We must get married right away. I can't risk losing them."
Love says, "Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence."
Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are together, you hope it will end in intimacy.
Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship, which makes sex so much sweeter. You must be friends before you can be lovers.
Infatuation lacks confidence. When they're away, you wonder if they're cheating. Sometimes, you check.
Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. They feel your trust, and it makes them even more trustworthy.
Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret, but love never steers you in the wrong direction.
Love is an upper. It makes you feel whole. It completes the circle. It fills the empty space in your heart.
Love is elevating. It lifts you up. It makes you look up. It makes you think up.
It makes you a better person than you were before. If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you don't have. If there is no love in your life, whatever else there is has a lot less meaning. The secret of our being is not only to live but to have something to live for.
INFATUATION
Infatuation is a feeling; real love involves a commitment also. Infatuation is just love of emotion. Real love, though, is love of devotion. Only the emotions are affected in infatuation, but in real love both the emotions and the will are involved. Next, a person "fall into" infatuation, but "grows into" real love.
Guys, have you ever seen a girl who was so beautiful that you thought you'd faint?
This is infatuation! It is based totally on physical attraction. often you don't know much in-depth about the person you so-called love. Thus, infatuation is mostly biological. Also remember, never tell a girl you love her, unless you are willing to marry her.
Then, infatuation is basically selfish where real love is basically selfless.Infatuation is more interested in satisfying yourself and the feeling than it is in the other person.
Real love is primarily interested in the other person. It seeks to give instead of get.. Love unselfishly seeks the highest good for the other person.
Lastly, infatuation is weakened by time and separation where real love is strengthened by time and separation.
This does not mean that there will be no pain in separation. On the contrary, there is great pain in separation if you are truly in love.
LOVE
Now you know what is infatuation, we will go on to discuss about the details of a true love. Love is patient. The word translated "patient" means to wait patiently for the fulfilment of expectations.
When you have difficulty dating this girl and she does not want to come out, if you truly love her, you will not complain and blame her, you must look at the situation from her point of view - maybe she is having some problems which prevented her from coming out. You must react to it with patience and understanding.
Next, have you ever met someone you liked so much that you wanted to push the relationship and make it progress faster? Sure you have! Love, however, is willing to give a relationship time to grow at a natural pace.
It does not push but is willing to wait for the relationship to grow at a rate that is satisfactory to both parties.
Love is Kind Love seeks to encourage and build up others. It respects the feelings and emotions of others..
It finds its greatest satisfaction in making others happy.
You can do the following:
1. Give one another things such as gifts and encouragement cards.
2. Compliment one another. Magnify the other party's strength.
3. Listen to one another. Pay close attention to what each of you has to say and make each other feel that what each says is important.
4. Treat one another special in public. Compliment and encourage one another sincerely in the presence of others.
5. Love is Not Jealous. Jealousy usually indicates an insecure and immature heart. Love wants the best for others, but jealousy is possessive. Jealous is reflected in the childish statement, "If he is going to talk to her, then he can just forget
about me!" Often, one person wants to totally possess the other and to restrict her relationships with others.
6. Love is not about bragging. Love is not a windbag and is not anxious to impress. Often a guy will brag to a girl, trying to impress her so that she will like him. A truly great person, however, does not need to exalt himself! Others will exalt him.
7. Love is Not Arrogant. Love is not conceited, boastful,cocky, or stuck-up. Love, instead, is humble and has a servant attitude. Sometimes, a guy may come across to a girl with an "I can take you or leave you" attitude. His demeanour implies, "You ought to be thankful that somebody as neat as me is dating you." Of course, this is not love.
8. Love always covers. This word cover means to pass over in silence, to keep confidential.
9. Love is patient with the faults of others. It doesn't criticise and broadcast to the world the faults of others. Love is there even when it knows the other is not perfect.
10. Love always Perseveres. Love always stands its ground and hold out. It will outlast anything. It will even love in the face of unrequited love. Real love will last though all sorts of trials, tribulations and stresses.
11. Love is Not Provoked. This means that love has a long fuse. It does not become irritated and angry. It is not easily offended.
12. Love does not seek its own. This is the heart of love. Love is other-centred rather than self- centred. Love says, "I love you, I want to give to you." Selfishness says, "I love you, I want you!"
13. Love does not act unbecomingly. This means that love does not behave disgracefully, dishonourably or indecently. It does not embarrass others by its action. It is characterised by tact and sensitivity. This also means that love should have good manner. Be sure to do little things like opening doors for your girl, or offering her your arm when you walk together.
14. Lastly, Love is forgiving. This is a MUST for a successful love story. If a guy is not willing to forgive and forget when his girlfriend is one hour late, he is not exhibiting love. Love doesn't hold grudges when it has been wronged. It doesn't remain resentful.
** Remember this: Love forgets past failures and sins. **
Shit!
I'm falling sick soon..
No temptation for food at all..
Not interested in food at all..
Die die die!!
Something is wrong with me.
Someone make me get back my appetite,
Before I go hospital and stay..
+ had been feeling rather weak lately.
Giddy spell..
Weak!
Die..
I think soon..
I will meet most of you again..
In hospital..
Looking forward to see my friends again..
But not in hospital..
I think I'd go NUH..
Near DSO..
Like that I can still go work..
Provided nurses let me out..
Hehe!
I miss my friends..
So yes,
Better get into hospital.
Gives me a chance to meet my friend..
Good idea!
Ok, I wanted to blog something and then, I started talking to people and now, I forgotten what I want to blog about. Hmmm!
Oh yes, I am looking forward to everyday life now! I love my life. I have something to look forward to everyday now. Instead of boring life from now on, I have something to look forward to. You want to know what is it?
I am looking forward to the day where all the fear and stress is eliminated.
I know that it is something not good at all. I know the best way to eliminate the fear and the stress is to give this stupid girl up. I know that that is the best of all way to do it. I know that by then, I'm not going to get reciprocal love or what so ever. Even so, I rather have something to look forward too.
Why keep thinking about when will he eliminate the fear? Why keep thinking if he will get back? Why keep thinking do he still love me? I will only make myself more emotional. I mean the sun still rise and fall as usual.
I felt so bad making a guy so scared and fearful and stress of me. Well, all I hope is that he can eliminate the fear and stress from me. Even if in the end, couple isn't the choice, I'm happy that I have earn myself a friend than a stranger.
Now I totally understand how Grace is feeling. Having something to look forward everyday is nice. Finally, having something that is like a goal. When you reaches your goal, who won't feel happy about it? And what is my goal? Now, my goal is for him to eliminate his fear and stress of me. Afterwhich? Well, regardless is friend or lover, at least I am not scary anymore.
Yes, looking forward to that day. The day where everything start again. Looking forward to the continuation of me and him. LOL! Well, being friends again is also a continuation. People leave a chapter in you and yes, they might have gone but they will come back one day and continue writing the story. Like Grace said, Friends are forever there.
Life is recorded in a book. Every book have chapters. And yes, everything that happen, every event, every person who been into your life before, they are a whole new chapters. Yes, I had a chapter with him before and now it ended already. Soon, I don't know how long it will be, 1 month, 10 months, 1 year, 10 years, regardless what, there bound to be a continuation. So yes, look forward to the continuation
One must understand that these stories cannot be repeated. Once gone, they are gone. I mean, you can read back and smile to yourself of whatever had happen. However, understand that they are gone. I am not longing that they come back and repeat, yet, I just love this particular chapter and reading it.
He created one chapter in me, I like reading this chapter, and yes, I am still reading it. I don't know when I'll get bored of this chapter, but for now, I still like to read this chapter. The story stopped half way, and what is going to happen after which I'm not sure either. So yea! Look forward to it.
Daryl had a chapter in my life too. When we were friends and gradually becoming couple, all those are one chapter of my life. The chapter stop when we broke off. And after some time, he came back and we became friends again. The chapter continues from there. Well, I don't know how the chapter will end, I don't know when it will end, but it is recorded in me. I'd remember.
There is this person, I really do not wish to start a chapter with her. However, I have no choice. Even so, I will always remember this chapter and all the torturing I had experience. Even so, it is still in me. Though I want to forget this person, I can never forget because it is already in me.
I believe all of you have some chapters in life which you love and some which you totally don't. There are some which will let you remember and want to read through and some which you just want to throw it aside.
So as to say, regardless what is the outcome, what is the final decision, how the story will go on, how long I will continue reading this chapter, I am happy with my choice.
For at least, I won't get emo because I'm out of love. Instead, I'm happy because I have something to look forward to.
Thanks everyone!
Thanks daryl for talking to me and "enlightening" me with all the verses.
Thanks han song for letting me learn all this. I have rather good memory ok. When come to this kind of things, I remember what we said compromise ok.
Thanks grace for teaching me all this. I know, if I need anything a call and you'd fly over.. I'd remember that!
Thanks kah wai for being there even though you are busy pa tuo -ing. In some cases, cousins come first, but don't neglect him wor..
Thanks jeremy for the powerful words. Though you are busy, I know that a call and you will forever be there to talk to me.
Thanks joseph for the overwhelming concern. I know you are very free, so free that we talk on the phone everyday. LOL! I know when I bored, I can yue you out de.
Thanks limin for taking out time even though you are busy. You are busy moving house, and yet you take your time out for this out of love friend. 15 years of friendship =D
Thanks subha for talking to me and cheering me up with cute emoticons. And don't spam me so many songs. Later I spam my blog with many song lyrics! LOL!
Thanks wan sin for non-stop crazy-ing with me. Remember, I keep chat log. So you cannot deny being my darling. LOL!
I love my darlings~ I love my dears~ I love my beloved~
Suddenly, I feel loved. Love is in the air~
Shit!
He read it already.
Died-ed!
I wanted to delete it but in the end?!
He read already.
Shucks!!
Read already still no reply.
Worst of the worst.
Anyway,
Does not matter.
Expected it =x
Shucks! I receive a lot more junk mail in my mailbox. If I were to accumulate the amount of money via the junk mail, I'd be the next Bill Gate already. Shucks~! Why aren't them true? I want to earn money. Money is what I wanted now.
Why? If I have enough money, next time when I go dating, I need not worry about spending so much money already. I can get what I want. I can go as many places as I want. And I can take Singapore Flyer in the morning and night. I can sit on the DHL hot air balloon.
Ok, if you realise, I have a nuffnang advertisement. Which means, for every person who come to my blog, I get money!! So ask your friend, friend's friend, friend's friend's friend and go on, to come to my blog! Oh yes, yesterday alone i got 45 different people who visited my blog. Amazing! However, my tag board only have 1~3 people tagging. Shucks!
And from 12am until now, there are a total of 10 different viewers. And out of the 10 viewers, there is one from US and the rest from Singapore. Wow! I have US reader. Or maybe by coincidence, he came to my blog. LOL!
I want to earn money. Now that I don't have commitment, I want to earn a lot of money. Well, that is the only thing I can do now. Have fun, enjoy single hood, enjoy the feeling of an lian someone. Haha! At least now, I can go dating with any guys. LOL! Provided there is a guy who ask me out. (though I only hope one guy will do so)
Why did I wake up so early today? I was sleeping, then I had this very nice dream. And of course, nice dream will make me wake up crying. Well, I'm ok people. All of you need not worry about me. I am perfectly ok. Well, now that I cannot see him, I can only dream of him. Isn't that prefect too? Hehe!
He is damn idiot. Yesterday I message him regarding the phone bill he is going to experience. Well, he went overseas and then called and message using the phone, so the bill is going to be BOOM! I suggested to pay part of it because the high bill is partially because of me too. And that idiot did not reply my message. Fine~ Idiot!
anne, you know it's not the end of the world right?
always look forward to the day,
when you can be yourself again.
i trust that you can do it.
and i know you won't let me down.
better days ahead!
take care girl! be strong yoextract from grace's blog;
Grace, I know that losing a guy is not the end of the world. I have been out of love a couple of times. LOL! I will always look forward to the day!! The day where Anne stand up and be strong like she has always been. I will not let you down. I will not those who are worried about me down.
Oh yes, remember last year, I went Vietnam for community service? I saw this kid coming online and yes, Tracy! She is my favourite girl at Vietnam, Hue. It had been a long time since I last talk to her. So we chatted.
She already started working already. In Vietnam, when you reach the age of 18, you can get boyfriend, get married, out of parents control, finish school, start working. Wow! All are the things that happen to our 21st birthday. Yes, she is working now already.
She is currently working as a supervisor in a restaurant in Hanoi. WOW!! So powerful. Young age and a supervisor. She must be so clever. Well, all along I think she is very clever and pretty. I like to hang around with her a lot. She is very knowledgeable.
Last year when I talk to her, she had a Singapore boyfriend. Her boyfriend was from the group of students who went there before mine. He is from Ngee Ann Poly too. She loves him and he loves her.
This time when I'm talking to her, she told me that her boyfriend is from Vietnam. She said that she knows the guy in Singapore loves her however, Singapore is VERY far! So yes, they broke off. And this time, her boyfriend is from Hanoi and yes, this year, the students from Ngee Ann Poly went to Hanoi and her boyfriend knows them. So coincident!!
Well, currently Ngee Ann have no intention to send students to the shelter which I went. So sad!! I miss them so much. I miss the times together with them and playing with them. They are all so guai and cute. I still remember a boy, same age as me, his name is Hung. Well, the shelter have 2 levels. The upper level is for the boys.
So when he was upstairs, he shouted for me and confess! Oh no!! He said, "Anne, I like you a lot. You must write to me ok?" Starting I was blur because the whole place was very noisy. Then he repeated and repeated. LOL! So cute! And I only talk to him for the first day and he confess already. So cute. Even though in the end I did not write to them because of time.
Just now, I was talking to Wan Sin and then, I told her that I'm out of love.
(8:33 AM) anne__+ There is: i si lian leI know that I can count on my darlings~ hehe! Darling Wan Sin, ai si ni le!! haha!! Well, all this does remind me about him. However, I'm not sad. I find it very happy thinking back on what happened. Relax, Anne is ok. =D
(8:33 AM) anne__+ There is: ~~
(8:33 AM) I need the best: why?
(8:33 AM) anne__+ There is: tat idiot don wan me
(8:33 AM) anne__+ There is: =x
(8:36 AM) I need the best: nvm
(8:36 AM) anne__+ There is: i know u want me rite
(8:36 AM) anne__+ There is: lol
(8:37 AM) I need the best: hahaha
(8:37 AM) I need the best: ya la ya la.
(8:37 AM) I need the best: heeheeconversation between wan sin and i;
Last time, he will always say that I have many wai yu. I have tons of darling and dears~ He will always get so jealous and start joking with me. In return, I'd joke him too. However, our wai yu are always same gender. For him, the 5 wai yu that I concluded were all guys. As for me, the couple of wai yu that he concluded were girls. Haha!
Everytime I talk to my ex, he will so damn jealous. And then, he will start throwing temper. And sometimes, I purposely make him jealous. His reaction is ubber cute!! It is like a small boy throwing temper. When he is jealous, I can never fail to laugh within me. Too cute already.
Whenever I say that I want to go some place, he will never fail to bring me. He will always try his best to bring to to places where I want to go. He always try to give me what I want. And when someone else fulfil my wish list, he will start to emo at one corner. Well, sometimes I find it unreasonable, yet I'd try to talk to him about it.
Whenever he flare up and throw temper at me without noticing about his bad mood, I will throw temper back at him. However, whenever he tells me sorry, and the reason he threw temper at me, I will cool down already. However, I will want to poke him for some time and let him worry. Geees~
I love to see him pout. He is so cute. The first time I see him pout and I made a huge commotion about it. He was so embarass and I find it so cute. So everytime I will try to catch him pouting. Haha! I will remember that cute face =x
Actually, I do miss him a lot. Hope he is doing well too.
Whatever happen, is already past. Now, all I have is the happy memories of him. The sad one? I am forgetting it. Anne is very forgetful. She will forget things fast. However, it is up to her to choose if she wants to forget it or not. I don't wish to forget the happy moments with him =D
P.S. people, I can do that right? It is ok one right?
Well, I told him that we will be friends. Even so, I told him that I'd delete him on MSN, stop messaging him or call him first. Well, that is the least I can do. I don't want to be the one looking for him and making myself so desperate. I will wait patiently. Someday, the feeling will fade away.
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah yeah yeah yeah!!
That someday will come =D
Looking forward to whatever is going to happen in future.
missing u;
Oh yes, today, during dinner, my sister asked me who is the male lead in my post. My sister and jie fu were guess who is the male lead. Well, I decided to keep it a secret.
Well, there is not a need to expose the male lead anymore. I mean, it is over already. So yes, what is the point of exposing it? I know that you people are curious but sorry, I really don't wish to tell you people who is he.
Unless things go well, like I said, I will expose who is the male lead. Well, since it is negative, then forget it.
They said that God answers prayer. I tried praying for help. In the end, He did not answer my prayer either. I am not discriminating it. However, that really happened. Its ok anyway. Since it is over.
Anne, Jia You!!!
I was bored so went to read up on horoscope. Why must Virgo be so dumb and always try to take first on the list? Virgo, virgo, when come to love, you don't dare to say. When come to giving someone up, you came in first.
Why is Virgo so poor thing?!
I must admit that it is quite true for me. I never dare to tell someone I love him unless he tells me first. I always hint him but I'd never tell. I always want to wait for him to tell me. I don't understand why either.
For the giving up part, I'm unsure. Well, currently, this is the first time I cannot give someone up. It just started. I'm unsure when I'd give up too. Haha! So yes, we'd see about it.
There is this friend of mine, she is also a Virgo. She like this guy so much. They were together once and then, she loves him a lot. Two years later, the guy finally realise that she had always been there and tada~ They are together. So nice right?!
LOL! Like fairy tale. LOL! Will this kind of story happen on me too? Haha!! Aiya, Anne where got such good life to experience all this? Sure won't one lah. Anne's love life is pathetic. Hehe!
Well, I'm so tired. I want to go to bed already. It had been a long day today. And I mean really long~
fairy tales;
will it happen to me?
处女座爱情缺点 (Constellation virgo love shortcoming)
无法拯救的无助感 (Ultimate insecurity)
根据观察，百分之99.9的处女座女子是随时随地都处在“害怕失恋”的状态，缺乏安全感、患得患失、强烈的自我保护是她们在爱情中的通病，所以即使全世界的人都认为她们已经够幸福了，她们还是坚持要找出自己不够幸福的蛛丝马迹为想找好男人，因为你的人生没有安全感。有了好男人之后，又害怕失去好男人，你的人生更充满无助感。女人最大的敌人，我想，就是无助感吧！
According to observes, 99.9% constellation virgos females' are always occupy with "being out of love" condition, lacks the security sense, is swayed by personal gains and losses, intense protecting oneself is they in the love common failing, therefore even if the world people all thought they are already sufficed happily, they will still persisted to discover oneself insufficiently happy sign to want to find the man, because your life did not have the security sense. After having the good man, also is afraid loses the man, your life fills not helps the feeling. The woman biggest enemy, I thought that, is the helpless feeling!
爱对某些人来说，简单而容易。而对另一些人来说，却包含太多。物质、精神、尊严……如果不能真的确定那是自己想要的爱，就绝难说出口。即使心中爱意深切，却依然含泪沉默……这些，会是那些星座的行为？参考太阳和金星星座。
Likes saying to certain people that, simple and is easy. But said to another some people that, actually contains too many. Matter, spirit, dignity... ... If cannot real determination that be the love which oneself wants, certainly is difficult to say the exportation. Even if in the heart likes Italy being sincere, actually still with tears in one's eyes silences... ... These, can be these constellations behaviors? Refers to the sun and the Venus constellation.
First：处女座 (virgo)
爱本来是羞涩的，处女座代表的爱更是跟深沉、内敛、羞涩连在一起，即使爱意明确，却依然在内心犹豫不决，只等待对方表达。就像最珍稀的东西最难露 面，藏在处女心底的爱紧张而脆弱，仿佛是一不小心就会撕破的纸，任他辩论时候再能说，任伴侣如何暗示和要挟，他们也无法开启金口……
Loves originally is shy, the constellation virgo representative's love is with deep, in collects, the shy company in the same place, even if likes Italy being clear about, still is actually indecisive in the innermost feelings, only waited for opposite party expresses. Likes the rarest most and precious thing to be most difficult to make an appearance, Tibet in maiden moral nature love anxious and frail, is the paper as if which one is not careful can tear to pieces, no matter what he debated time again can say, how lets the companion to suggest and to coerce, they also are unable to open the precious words... ...
什么时候会说出来：当验证了伴侣对自己确是死心塌地的爱之后（问爱我吗？说嗯，爱的）；或者当发觉自己爱意减淡时（也不过说一句，是的，我爱过你）。
When can say: After has confirmed the companion the love which really is be dead set ons to oneself (asked loves me? Said mmm, loves); Or when detected oneself likes Italy reduces palely when (also only saying, yes, I have loved you).
Second：巨蟹座 (cancer)
巨蟹更喜欢用体贴来表达爱，他们的爱从心疼、关怀开始。这个时候他们明白那还不是爱，自然也不会伪装地说出来。但直到双方确立了关系，“爱”这个字 也让巨蟹犹豫彷徨不已，说出这个字就表示要为爱负责任，要死心塌地，那等于给自己预约了未来受伤的机会。怕受伤害，所以绝口不提。 The great crab likes with sympathizing expresses the love, their love from loves dearly, the concern start. This time they understood that is not a love, naturally cannot camouflage says. But has established the relations until both sides, "the love" this character also lets the great crab hesitation not pace back and forth already, says this character to have for to love responsible on the expression, must be dead set on, that was equal to has made an appointment the opportunity for oneself which the future will be injured. Feared is injured, therefore stops talking does not raise.
什么时候会说出来：结婚的时候，或者当爱遭到挑战而为之拼搏的时候。
When can say: Marries, or when likes encountering the challenge but the time which strives for success for it.
Third: 摩羯座 (capricon)
因为摩羯的务实和对爱情的不习惯，他们也是和处女座一样把感受藏的很深很深，他说出那个字会觉得很做作、很不舒服。但他们会努力地表示，用各种可能的方法和帮助，艰难地表达。对他们来说更重要的是我们如何在一起，如何考虑当下和未来，而不是如何相爱。
Because Capricon's practical and is not familiar with to the love, they also are and the constellation virgo equally feel Tibet very deeply to be very deep, he says that character to be able to think very artificial, is very uncomfortable. But they can diligently indicate that, with each possibility method and the help, difficultly expresses. To them said how more importantly we in the same place, how will consider immediately with the future, how but is will fall in love.
什么时候会说出来：被逼急了会不自然地说，或者反倒在不爱的时候才说。
When can say: Is anxiously compelled anxiously to meet not naturally said, or on the contrary in the time which does not love only then said.
Fourth: 金牛座 (taurus)
对金牛座来说，说出“爱”是根本不必要的事情，因为在表达之前，金牛早已施展所有的眉目、肢体语言象你暧昧地征服中了，这可是比爱更强烈生动的表现 了，在你需要他们说这个字之前已经那么爱了，还说它干嘛？但对金牛来说，除非他是个诗人，不然他说爱你时一定要在环境物质条件一切都妥妥帖帖的时候才说。
To Taurus said that, says "the love" is simply the nonessential matter, because before expression, the golden cow already displayed all features, the body language looks like you ambiguous to conquer, this but a love was more intense than vivid performance, has needed them in you to say in front of this character that has already loved, added it did? But said to Jin Niu, only if he is a poet, otherwise he said loves when you certainly must at environment physical conditions all proper and that is the time only then said.
什么时候会说出来：唱歌的时候，或者做梦的时候吧……
When can say: Sings, or has a dream time... ...
Fifth: 天蝎座 (scorpio)
没有比天蝎藏的更深的爱情了，生怕一个秘密被泄露似的，可以变着任何法去表达追求你，却就不愿意直白地用“我爱你”来表达。但并不是这句话难以说出，而是如果真的爱上你，这句话远不足以表达其内心复杂而深沉的爱意，所以说出来，是一种误会。
Compared to Scorpio's deeper love, for fear that a secret has not been revealed resembles, may change any law to express pursues you, actually is not willing straightforwardly to use "me to like you" expressing. But certainly is not this speech says with difficulty, but is if really falls in love with you, this speech far is insufficient to express its innermost feelings complex and deep love Italy, therefore says, is one kind of misunderstanding.
什么时候会说出来：玩笑挑逗你的时候，或者你让他（她）泪流满面时候……
When can say: The joke teases your time, or you let him (she) have tears streaming down the face the time... ...
最容易把“爱”挂在嘴边的星座：
The constellation which mentions "the love" easily:
双子座：不说爱你怎么追的上你？双子最怕被误会了。不过勤于说不爱你的也是双子。
Gemini: Did not say loves on you which how you pursues? Gemini most feared is misunderstood. But is industrious to saying does not love you also is the pair.
双鱼座：说爱你的时候那感觉最浪漫了，绝不能错过表达机会。
Pisces: Said liked your time that feeling to be most romantic, could not miss the expression opportunity.
射手座：想快点确定彼此的爱情，爱上就说，但绝不多说。
Sagittarius: Wants a bit faster to determine each other the love, falls in love said, but not at all said.
对此无所谓的星座：
Regarding this indifferent constellation:
白羊座：只要时机一到，该说则说。
Aries: As long as there is opportunity, should say said.
狮子座：虽然觉得很肉麻，但是你若需要，他们乐意努力说出来。
Leo: Although thinks very disgusting, but you if the need, they are glad diligently to say.
水瓶座：觉得多说无益，但会用其他甜蜜的话来代替。
Aquarius: Thought said uselessly, but can use other happy speeches to replace.
天秤座：犹豫了大半天，说完爱你马上解释一下。
Libra: Hesitated the most of the day, said likes you explaining immediately.
12星座男生最害怕女生说的一句话
(12 constellations male most are afraid a speech which the female said)
1.你在哪里(查勤状)：天秤座。 (Where are you? (to check attendance shape) : Libra)
天秤座虽然平常是好好先生，但是如果另一半查勤时，他一定不会说实话，因为他脑中会千回百转的想对方为什么会查勤，然后要怎样回答对方，回答了之后另一半又会怀疑什么.....等等，对天秤座来说变成十分困扰的事情，久而久之他就会觉得对方是一个麻烦。
The libra although usually is good guy, but if another one partly checks attendance time, he certainly cannot tell the truth, because in his brain meets thousand hundred revolutions to think why opposite party can check attendance, how then has to reply opposite party, after replied another one half can suspect any.... To the libra said turns matter which extremely puzzles, gradually he can think opposite party is a trouble.
2.你爱不爱我？有多爱？：双子座、魔羯座。(Do you love me? How much? : Gemini, Capricon)
双子座会认为问这个问题的女生很笨，是一个不值得爱的对象，而魔羯座则会认为这是一个蠢极了的问题，因为魔羯不喜欢人家问重复性的问题，他喜欢对方可以跟他聊更知性的话题。
Gemini can think asked this question the female student is very stupid, is object which is unworthy loves, but Capricon can think this was a stupid extremely question, because the evil Capricon did not like others asking the duplicated question, he liked opposite party being allowed to chat the knowing topic with him
3.人家好想要这个东西喔！(暗示男人送礼物)：金牛座、天蝎座。 (Others good want this thing oh! (Suggested man gives gift): Taurus, Scorpio.)
金牛座不喜欢人家开口跟他要东西，他喜欢自己送东西给人家，而且他也不想当只会付款的傻瓜，天蝎座则会考虑对方跟自己的关系如何，又或者对方对自己够不够好......等等，对人性的怀疑就会使得天蝎座对对方的爱意减少好几分。
Taurus does not like others opening the mouth to want the thing with him, he likes oneself delivering the thing to others, moreover he does not want to work as only can pay money the fool, how can Scorpio consider opposite party with own relations, also or opposite party suffices insufficiently well to oneself..... Can cause Scorpio to the human nature suspicion love Italy to reduce the quite for several minute to opposite party
4.你看我有哪里不一样：牡羊座。(You looked where I do have not to be dissimilar: Aries.)
牡羊座是非常大而化之的，对于对方外表的变化常常会无法分辨，而且他认为他喜欢的是对方的气质以及内在，就算对方细节上有变化，只要本质上没有变他还是一样的爱。
Aries is extremely is careless, frequently can be unable regarding opposite party semblance change to distinguish, moreover he thought he likes is opposite party makings as well as intrinsic, calculated in opposite party detail has the change, so long as essentially has not changed him or the same love.
5.我“那个”来了，今天不行：巨蟹座。(I "that" has come, not today: Cancer.)
巨蟹座凡事都想的比较多，他的脑筋是九弯十八拐，他会认为对方是不是找借口来拒绝自己，然后不安全感就开始了，因此平常就要跟他分享自己生活上的事情让他安心。
Cancer everything all thinks quite much, his brain is nine curved 18 turns, he can think opposite party is looks for the excuse to reject oneself, then did not start, therefore usually must share with him oneself lives on matter to let him be relieved.
6.我们分手吧！狮子座、处女座。(Lets break up!: Leo, Virgo.)
狮子座的男生如果跟对方交往时，对方在完全没有预兆的状况下跟狮子座提分手，对狮子座而言是对他的人格、男性自尊以及男子形象是一件极大的污辱以及彻 底的否定，处女座则是会慌了手脚，他会不断反省自己到底是哪里做错，然后会想尽办法挽回对方，甚至做出很多不可思议的行为。
Leo male if in relationship, opposite party completely is not having the omen under the condition to raise with Lep bids good-bye, speaking of Leo is to his personality, the masculine self-respect as well as the male image is enormous insults as well as the thorough denial, Virgo is can fluster the hands and feet, where could he unceasingly engage in introspection oneself is does wrong, then could do everything possible recalls opposite party, even made very many inconceivable behaviors.
7.该是定下来的时候了吧！水瓶座。(This is the time which settles!: Aquarius)
水瓶座的人其实是很慎选另一半的，可是在他找到命中的真命天女之前的对象，他都只是抱着试试的心态，而这些未被他列入考虑的对象对他要求承诺时，水瓶座就会很快的闪人了。
Aquarius actually is very cautious elects another one half, but in front of mandate of heaven day female's object which in him found the hit, he all only is holding the point of view which tries, when these have not been included by him the consideration the object requests to him the pledge, Aquarius can very quick dodge the person.
8.我怀孕了，你要当爸爸了！射手座、双鱼座。 (I'm pregnant, you are going to be a daddy!: Sagittarius, Pisces)
射手座的人认为对方是故意用这种手段来绑住他，他会强力的要求对方自己处理掉，而且甚至于会翻脸无情，双鱼座认为婚姻是人生中一件很重要的大事，对方却用这种方法来要挟他，他认为如果不逃跑，前途就从此被毁了。
Sagittarius thought opposite party is intentionally uses this method to tie up him, he meets the force request opposite party to process, moreover even can have a falling out, Pisces thought the marriage is in the life a very important important matter, opposite party actually uses this method to coerce him, he thought if does not escape, the future henceforth is destroyed.
当昔日的甜蜜爱情成为过往，当曾经是自己生命一部分的人要成为最熟悉的陌生人，你会痛苦、绝望、不甘，还是勇敢面对，潇洒地转身呢？
(When the former days happy love became passing, when once was oneself life part of people must become the most familiar stranger, you will be pain, despair, are unwilling, or bravely faced, natural turned around?)
TOP1: 处女座 (virgo)
处女座一旦受到爱情的伤害是最难恢复、治愈时间最久的。你如此谨慎挑选的对象，如此小心翼翼维护的感情，可是最终的结果却是以分手告终，怎能甘心？ 但是为了顾及工作的完美，却又无法任自己的情绪尽情释放发泄，于是伤口在心里慢慢发炎，总是隐隐作痛，往往有好长一段时间，会带着无心的躯壳，如同行尸走 肉般的生活。
(The constellation virgo once receives the love the injury is most difficult to restore, the cure time takes a long time. Your so discrete choice object, so cautiously maintains sentiment, but the final result actually is by bids good-bye comes to an end, how can be resigned to? But in order to take into consideration the work perfect, you are actually unable no matter what own mood heartily release gives vent, thereupon the wound slowly becomes inflamed in the heart, always faintly aches, often has long period of time, can bring the unintentionally body, is similar to good-for-nothing's life.)
情伤疗法 (Sentiment wound therapy)：
远离一切可以勾起回忆的地方或情景，搬家或离开这座城市，来个眼不见为净，全新的环境可以让自己有全新的开始。
(Is far away all may cancel the recollection the place or the scene, moves or leaves this city, comes an eye not to see for only, the brand-new environment may let oneself have the brand-new start.)
TOP2: 天秤座 (libra)
天秤座一投入感情便会有极强烈的爱意，当忠贞不渝的爱情憧憬变为泡影时，你将无法忘记这惨痛经历。‘一朝被蛇咬，十年怕草绳’，那道伤痕会影响往后 的恋爱态度，不再轻信异性的承诺，不再轻信爱情的永恒。即便后来接受新的恋情，心底的阴影也会长年挥之不去，有时候在不经意间触景生情，在心底黯然神伤。
(A libra investment sentiment then can have extremely intense love Italy, when is unswerving in loyalty the love looked forward to when becomes the bubble, you will be unable to forget this deeply grieved experiences. ' As soon as faces by the snake is nipped, ten years feared the grass rope ', that scar will be able to affect in the future love manner, no longer readily believed the opposite sex pledge, no longer will readily believe the love the eternal. Even if afterwards accepted the new affection, the moral nature shadow also meets the elder to motion a person to not go, some times in carelessly 触景生情, felt dejected in the moral nature.)
情伤疗法 (Sentiment wound therapy)：
给自己放段长假去远行，到大自然里，放松放松心情，别让悲伤压得自己喘不过气。
(Puts the section long vacation for oneself to take a long journey, to the nature in, relaxes the mood, do not let sad pressure own not gasp for breath.)
TOP3: 巨蟹座 (cancer)
巨蟹座一失恋会顷刻间感觉一无所有。时间、金钱、精力都随着爱情的结束而付诸东流，甚至连朋友也因自己之前对友情的忽略，而冷漠以对。因为不想让家 人担心，只好一个人背负所有的痛。你依然笑着，可是心却牢牢关上了门。为成全家人的期望，你会接受他人的爱，但却永远不会主动付出爱。
(Cancer as soon as is lovelorn can feel in a little while does not have a thing in the world. The time, the money, the energy all 付诸东流 along with the love conclusion, even links the friend also because in front of own to friendship neglecting, but by is indifferently right. Because did not think the transferor person worried, has a person to shoulder all pains. You still are smiling, but the heart actually firmly pass visited. In order to help the family member the expectation, you can accept other people's love, but actually never can pay the love on own initiative.)
情伤疗法 (Sentiment wound therapy)：
把思念和悲伤尽情爆发、释放，肆意碰触那些可勾起回忆、触动情绪的物品或情境，终有一天会伤无可伤，泪无可流。倦了、累了，便也麻木了。
(And sad heartily erupts missing, the release, recklessly bumps touches these to be possible to cancel the recollection, to touch the mood the goods or the situation, will happen one day can injury does not have may injury, the tear does not have may flow. Tired, tired, also was then numb.)
TOP4: 天蝎座 (scorpio)
天蝎座面对失恋打击时，不会愿意向别人诉苦，却会把埋藏在心底深处的创伤报复到自己身上。会用工作，学习来逃避一切，甚至会用嘲讽冷淡的态度来对待新的爱情。那样刻骨铭心的伤痛，极易让你心理发生扭曲，越陷越深，愈演愈烈，最终走向无法自拔的地步。
(Scorpion facing when is lovelorn the attack, cannot be willing to the others to complain, actually can bury retaliates in the moral nature deep place wound on own body. Can use the work, studies evades all, even can use the taunt desolate manner to treat the new love. Such remembers with eternal gratitude the grief, is extremely easy to let your psychology have the distortion, gets deeper and deeper, increasingly fierce, the final trend is unable the situation which extricates oneself.)
情伤疗法 (Sentiment wound therapy)：
学着用另一个角度来看待爱情吧。其实所有的关系，只是让我们更了解自己，并从生命中获得学习跟成长。痛苦使人成长，当你真正觉醒爱的真谛以后，就能不再为情所伤。
(Learn to look at love from another angle. Actually all relations, only are let us understand oneself, and obtains the study from the life with the growth. The pain causes the person to grow, when you truly awaken after the true meaning which loves, can no longer injury for the sentiment.)
TOP5: 牡羊座 (aries)
热情开朗的牡羊表面上与情伤无缘，但当一片执着信任惨遭对方背叛后，会长时间陷入悲痛和愤恨之中。你无法接受背叛，更加无法接受被别人打败。即使一 切不能挽回，也会处处想胜过竞争者，以此来挑衅对方的选择有多差劲。这种强烈的求胜企图心，只会让你更加难以走出被击败的阴影。
(On the warm open and bright ram surface does not have the good fortune with the sentiment wound, but after a piece of rigid trust suffers opposite party to betray, the association president time falls into sorrowful and during resenting. You are unable to accept the betrayal, even more is unable to accept is been defeated by the others. Even if all cannot recall, also can everywhere want to exceed the competitor, provokes opposite party choice by this to have disappointingly. This kind intense strives for victory business center of figure, only can let you go out even more with difficulty the shadow which defeats.)
情伤疗法 (Sentiment wound therapy)：
感情本身出了状况，第三者只是一块试金石，你应该庆幸及早分手，让你拥有一段珍贵的感情财富，并拥有下一个，寻找更适合自己伴侣的机会。祝福对方，将目标转向下一段感情旅程。
(Sentimental itself left the condition, the third party is only touchstone, you should rejoice early bid good-bye, let you have section of precious sentimental wealths, and has next, seeks suits the oneself companion's opportunity. Blessing opposite party, changes the goal the next section of sentimental journey.)
TOP6: 金牛座 (taurus)
当恋人离开金牛时，带走的不仅是你的爱，还有多年的记忆和未来的计划。生根在你内心的固执，怎会让你轻易改变曾经和对方的习惯，重新
拟订并适应没有那人存在的人生？可是若不改变，代价就会是伴着那些记忆和习惯无数次地重复揭开旧伤。
(When the lover leaves Jin Niushi, carries off not only is your love, but also will have many years memory and the future plan. Takes root in your innermost feelings tenacity, how could let you easily change once with opposite party custom, redrafted the life which and adaption that person has not existed? But if does not change, the price can accompany these memories and the custom innumerable inferior places duplicates opened the old wound.)
情伤疗法 (Sentiment wound therapy)：
固执是金牛最大的致命伤。明明不合适，也知道走到尽头了，却无论如何都不肯放手。放下执着的信念，未来的路，其实无限宽广。
(Tenacious is taurus the big mortal wound. Is obviously inappropriate, also knew to the terminus, all has actually not been willing to drop in any event. Will lay down the rigid faith, the future road, infinite will be actually broad.)
TOP7: 狮子座 (leo)
狮子座最不能容忍的就是自己被甩，爱情丢掉了，可是面子更丢不起。你的骄傲不允许自己表现出没了对方就活不下去的惨状，自尊心也在提醒你不要忘记那个甩掉你，践踏你尊严的人，即便多年之后重遇，你仍会怀恨在心，不会给对方好脸色。
(Leo most cannot tolerate is oneself is flung, the love has discarded, but the face cannot lose. You were arrogant do not allow oneself to display appeared and disappeared opposite party could not live the pitiful condition, the self-respect also in reminded you do not forget that threw off you, trampled your dignity person, after even if many years again met, you still could harbor resentment in the heart, could not give the opposite party good complexion.)
情伤疗法 (Sentiment wound therapy)：
骄傲的狮子需要了解的是，爱情跟对错无关，跟失败也无关。并不是争到了就是胜利。重点在于，透过爱情，你更了解对自我的评价是什么。当你真正爱自己时，情伤根本不算什么！
(The arrogant lion needs to understand, the love with to is wrong irrelevant, also has nothing to do with with the defeat. Certainly was not struggles is the victory. Key lies in, the penetration love, you understood to the self- appraisal is any. When you truly love oneself, the sentiment wound simply does not calculate any!)
三个月之内可走出情伤的星座：
(Within three months may go out the sentiment wound the constellation:)
魔羯座 (capricon)
魔羯座对于破灭的感情存有哀愁是在所难免，但现实的他们了解，即使没有爱情，还是要继续生活。所以他们会加倍努力工作，从工作中平衡感情受到的伤害。他们相信，未来的生活仍要继续，成功的喜悦会掩盖伤痛，唯一能做的，仅仅是在往后的日子里，一个人稍稍思念对方。
(Capricon regarding the sentiment which is disillusioned has sorrowfully is unavoidable, but reality they understood, even if does not have the love, or must continue to live. Therefore they can redouble one's efforts the work, the balance sentiment receives the injury from the work. They believed that, future life still will have to continue, the success was joyful can cover the grief, only could do, merely was in the future day, a person slightly missed opposite party.)
双鱼座 (pisces)
双鱼座恋爱失败后会有短暂的伤心失意，不断的自伤、自怜、自怨，完全沉沦在伤感的深渊中。但只要看到迷人的异性，就可以忘掉一切，重新又投入新的恋爱中。
(After Pisces the love defeat can have short sadly is frustrated, the unceasing self-inflicted injury, from pity, from the resentment, completely perishes in the moved abyss. But so long as saw the enchanting opposite sex, may forget all, again invests in the new love.)
双子座 (gemini)
当爱情不再有激情时，双子会认为分手是无奈却又是理智的选择，虽然会伤感一阵子，可是繁忙的工作、愉快的社交，能很快驱散他们的烦恼。
(When the love no longer has the fervor, double sub- can think bids good-bye is helpless actually also is the reason choice, although can the moved period of time, but the busy work, the happy public relations, can very quickly scatter their worry.)
射手座 (sagittarius)
当射手座遭遇爱情的背叛时，愤怒会如火山爆发般激烈。当他们彻底发泄后，会立刻寻找新的恋情，觉得这样才对得起自己。甚至还能反过来祝福曾经的恋人。
(When sagittarius bitter experience love betrayal, the angry meeting like volcanic eruption is intense. After they thoroughly give vent, can seek the new affection immediately, thought like this only then to results in own. Even also could in turn the blessing once lover.)
水瓶座 (aquarius)
水瓶座遇到情变是最容易走出情伤的人，理智的他们，会认为失恋不过是人生的一部分。理性客观的他们，会认为如果自己站在对方的立场，可能也会这么做。如果分手的时后没有彼此伤害，甚至还能和对方保持朋友关系
(Aquarius runs into the person which the sentiment changes is easiest to go out the sentiment wound, reason they, can think is lovelorn is only a life part. Rational objective they, can think if own stand in opposite party standpoint, possibly also can such do. After if bids good-bye time not each other injury, even also can maintain the friend with opposite party to relate)
Please pardon the english. It is directly translated using online translator. LOL!
What the hack. Virgo is first in line. Idiot! If that is the only way out, I think I'd never put that guy down. It is because, even going to work only will remind me of him. Idiot! Unless I get kick out of attachment. LOL!
My brother's classmates, they are very nice!
They bought a crumpler bag for him as birthday present!
Idiot!
Why I don't have such good friends?! LOL!
Crumpler..
Reminds me of him..
Sighs~~
We said to get one together when he comes back.
Sighs..
Never mind!
Anne will be fine =D
i rmb the promises;
waiting for it to be fulfilled.
Failed!
Its ok, Anne is strong. She will walk out of it soon. She is very strong. Well, she expected it anyway. I mean, from the start, she already know that it is negative. She tried her best already, so all she can do is now, walk out of it.
Well, Anne still misses him. It ok, she will be ok. She will be fine. She know this outcome, she will face it. Well, she did something she regreted, so face it. Once done is already done. She cannot blame anyone for it except herself. All she can do now is to not repeat the mistakes.
Anne, be strong ok? I know you can do it. You can live on your own. You will be very strong. If you really thinks that it is hard, you have friends around you. They will stand by you. Well, if you cannot let him go, it is not your fault at all. It is Mr. Cupid doing all the naughty things. So don't be sad ok?
Anne, you already done your best. At least you did not cry just now. You are terrific already. You are doing very well. I am so proud of you. You manage to surpress your feelings. You are good. Anne, you need not worry about it ok? Take it as a time for you to rest.
I know that you are sad inside, its ok. The world does not stop revolving for you. You must move on. Cry as much as you want. Once you finish crying, move on. You have the right to cry. Yes, everyone is asking you to relax and not cry. However, I know that it is hard for you to surpress inside. Cry everything out.
Don't make yourself busy. Yes, it will stop you from thinking at that moment, when you stop, you will still think of it. So yes, don't stop yourself from thinking. However, remember, thinking does not help in anything. The more you force yourself to stop thinking, the more you will think.
Anne, I'm so proud that at that point, you can still teach him how to woo a girl, how to treat a girl. You are doing fine.
If he is meant to be yours, he will be with you. If he really wants to be with you next time, he will be back. So look forward to that. If he is really not meant to be with you, regardless how you force, it will be the same. There will not be any changes at all. So don't grieve over it. If he is really not meant to be, might as well end it once and for all.
He don't want you, it is his lost. With your calibre, you can surely find someone better. (That two sentence is so erm.. so proud! eek!)
Now, take a rest, charge up and when go into university, be prepared to zap the guys. LOL! Make them go gaga over you. There is surely someone out there who is going to take care of you for life.
Just now, you were brave. You already said what you wanted. He is old enough to take care of himself already. You don't be worried ok. As for you, please take care of yourself.
If you need me, just tell me and then, I'd always be there.
Well, those are the words which I know everyone will tell me. Relax, I'm ok. I'd take care of myself. I know all of you are interested in what actually happen just now. I shall say it.
I went mac and then, met him. He came down from work and he had to go back to work. So he used his break time to come down to meet me. I am very touched with that. Thanks. We started talking, the talk did not drift far.
As usual, he said many "I don't know". Well, I expected it anyway. Then I did most of the talking. I told him about how I feel, I told him how to woo a girl, I told him how to treat a girl, how to give me up, how to forget me, how that we will be good friends. Occasionally, I almost broke into tears. I had to take many deep breathe so I can take back my tears.
Something for sure, I'm still loved by him. Even though it did not turn out well, I'm glad that I'm loved before. Well, he said that he is so scared that upon thinking, he is already so scared and stress up. I have nothing to say. I cause it.
Sorry I did not have the strength to eliminate the fear. It is all up to him. He himself knows that. I really hope that miracle can happen. Even so, face it.
Then I accompany him to the MRT station and then, I know it is disgraceful thing to do, I asked for a "goodbye forever" hug. LOL! I miss him so much. Upon hugging, I miss him even more. Tears roll down more unexpectedly.
Well, the time goes on. Good luck!
I'm not sure if you read this, most probably not. Like I said, we'd be good friends like last time. Though we will not meet again in poly, I really hope that we can meet again. I wish that we can meet again as friends like last time. Friends forever.
I'd be strong, you need not worry. I'm sorry to disgrace myself just now. I said that I won't message you, won't msn you. However, I really hope you will do so. Well, I think by the time you eliminate the fear, I'm already forgotten by you. The best way to stop the stress and fear is to not have feelings for me anymore.
Sorry Limin, I let you down already. I said I'd try to give up, but I really don't wish to give up. Maybe one day, I'd be able to let him go. I mean you should understand what it is like. Now is roughly the same situation between you and your ex. You can't let him go yet. Still having feelings for him, still missing him. Maybe one day, the feeling will go away.
I will live strong! Relax everyone!! I'd jia you!!! Thanks for the extreme concern!!
waiting;
be strong;
People are saying that they finally see pictures in my blog! LOL! So bad of them. Who ask me to work in a company where you are forbidden from camera? LOL! If not, you will see my blog full of my self picture. LOL! At that time, all of you will hope that I am forbid from bring capturing device.
Muahaha!!
Oh yes, I was bored and thus, I went to calculate the number of post I posted recently.
Saturday, March 22, 2008 - 6
Sunday, March 23, 2008 - 2
Monday, March 24, 2008 - 5
Tuesday, March 25, 2008 - 18
Wednesday, March 26, 2008 - 12
Thursday, March 27, 2008 - 8
Friday, March 28, 2008 - 12
And amazingly, they are all words. And these post are very long. None of it is pictures. Wow!! I cannot believe that all this is happening. I mean, look, the number of post are wow! And the most WOW thing is that they are words.
Monday to Friday, average of 11 post per day. Imagine anne is having her beloved attachment at DSO and then, I manage to post 11 posts a day. Can you believe how free I am? Can you imagine it? Anne is earning $500 a month to post 11 posts a day. LOL!
I am sent to work to post on blog. Limin asked if my attachment is to catch bug or is it to blog. Well, I guess I spent more time on blogging than on catching the bug. LOL!
Perfect. If my supervisor sends me up to level 14, there is no internet access, means that I cannot blog nor msn. Shucks! I better be good on Monday and Tuesday to try and download the programme successfully. Else, I'd be derive from internet~!
Subha suggested to change my HTML so that my blog only shows what I posted for the day. She complain that it is loading too long. Well, I'd see about it. If I am kick up to level 14, I'd not change it. I mean, you need not worry that I'm going to spam my blog. LOL! If I'm staying at level 11, I'd change. OK? Deal? Hehee!
Going to rain. Sad!
Should I learn piano again? I don't know!
Good morning everyone! Ok, I know that it is going to be afternoon soon. Relax, I woke up long ago and finish bathing already. Hehe! I have yet to eat my breakfast or lunch yet. I am not hungry. Shucks!
I am on diet? No, I am not on diet. Yet I am slimming down. Amazing. The other day, I was so bored that I read my blog archives at work. I read about a part where I say that I am going to go on diet. Wow! That was when I was with Daryl. I aim to slim down.
In the end, I did not slim down at all. And yet I grew fatter and fatter. Well, I'm not sure why either. Then when I start working at Robinsons, in order to save money (not that you don't know that eating at orchard is costly) I started bring donuts to work and eat.
The amount of money I spent was just on a cup of hot tea. The hot tea is meant to heat up the donut with the steam and to warm myself up. Robinson is extremely cold. I have to warm myself during break too. In order to keep myself occupied for one whole hour alone, I had to eat slowly and drink slowly to occupy the space.
In the end, I got thinner and thinner. Whee! Slim down! Even so, I still feel fat. =X I want to go exercise. I love swimming but I'm scared of getting dark. I want to go gym but I cannot survive long and there are a lot of people. I want to go running but I can't run. I want to play basketball but I'm scared of ball.
Shucks! No choice. All I can do is rot at home. Whee!
Today, I am staying home for the whole day. Yong Hui is back to Singapore. Early in the morning, sister and jie fu brought Kaiden to see doctor. He is sick. My niece went along too. So the morning is rather bored.
Later, mummy is going Jessica aunt's hair salon to cut and colour her hair. The other time I went Jessica aunt's hair salon, that was the year after O level, in Jan. I told her to cut one inch and in the end, she chop off about 5 to 6 inch. At that time, my hair was longer than the current length I have. She chop off until nearly shoulder length.
She cut my fringe so short that when I walk, it will all stand up. Well, as it is side fringe, the length is the shortest at my parting area. And the length is only about 1 inch. Idiot! I swear that I'll never go there again.
I am going to chop off my hair. Well, I thinking if I should chop off my hair. I am thinking! If I were to chop off, I think I'd not meet any of my friends for long. That time, Jessica aunt cut my hair until nearly shoulder length, it took me more than 2 weeks to take it. Imagine now, I want to chop it up to my shoulder length or even shorter.
Don't ask me what I want to chop it off. Well, usually people will say when they out of love, they will want to cut their hair short, new hair style, new start. LOL! Treat it that way. I will not stop you people from doing so. Anne is out of love. LOL!
Finally, after so long, there is picture in my blog. LOL! And after so long, I finally get to write my post in paragraph. At least it looks neater in a way. Anyway, I read my cousin's post. LOL! I realise that I had been reading her and she had been reading mine recently. And due to my problem, she had been posting so much.
This is what she wrote in her post.
I was just talking to my cousin just now. And she was really depressed. But part of her is trying to look on the bright side of life. Its actually a good sign. But deep inside.. she wants to be with the guy.
I'm glad that she has found someone who has a way with her. When she told me about him, i was more than happy to know she has found someone she can depend on. However, because of one mistake she made, the guy is now having second thoughts?
Although i know this guy is not a bad guy, but i am very tempted to scold him. I want him to stop treating anne so coldly and be a man, face the problem. if not, it will keep my cousin waiting.. and its not a good feeling. When i asked him, "do you still love anne?" he said yes, but he was scared. Although i don't see why will he be scared, or even start having second thoughts, i just hope he would try his best to resolve the matter.
My cousin has always been a strong girl. Seeing her like that, really makes me feel very uncomfortable, and angry. Not angry with her, but angry with the guy. I don't know why. perhaps i have my limits when i see a girl suffering for a guy.
Tmr is the day they meet to talk about their problem. Although i am very disappointted with that guy, i really hope he would give the relationship another shot..
Someone told me, to have mutual feelings for each other is something very special, and must be treasured to the very end, cause not everyone can experience that. Or even, its not every time we share mutual feelings with another person.
From then on, i really treasure those feelings, and i also don't want my cousin to miss out on this heavenly emotion.
She said love can do wonders. That i agree. I just hope now, the guy will really think through and hope his decision will be the right one..
anne! jia you!
Wow! Like what she said, deep inside me, I want to be with him. Even so, I know that it will most probably be negative. I had been rather depress and yet, I am trying to stay happy too. Joseph should know it very well, not many guys can actually take me in hand. Finally, there is this guy who can take me in hand.
In the past, whenever I wanted things to be my way, I will just throw temper and yes, my boyfriend will give in to me, regardless is good or bad. However, this time, this guy have a way with me. Whenever I want something, if it is a good choice, regardless how I throw temper, he will never give in to me. And yet, he will find a way to make to listen to him.
Like she said, due to a mistake I made, he is having second thoughts. Well, my cousin is a more agitated girl. When she sees someone treating girls the bad way, she will want to scold him so badly. Well, I don't. Ha!
As I said, to my cousins, I am forever the Strong, Powerful Career Woman kind of girl. I know what it is like to see your relative gets so dejected. I mean, to me, my cousin is forever confident and all. Once, she was crying so sadly and she felt so not confident of herself, I really feel very uncomfortable and worried. I don't why either. Maybe it is because she always portrat herself as a girl with a lot of self confident. Something hard had crash onto her and the confident tarnished. Well, I'm glad that she pick up again!
I totally agree the sentence, "to have mutual feelings for each other is something very special, and must be treasured to the very end, cause not everyone can experience that. Or even, its not every time we share mutual feelings with another person."
I mean, not everyone can experience it. I tried a couple of times to have the mutual feeling for a person and seriously, trying is no use. Everyone always say, treasure the relationship with the other person to the end because it is fate that bring them together. Some people meet and go. So yes, it is very special. Treasure it people! Don't regret!!
From this, I've learnt to treasure things when I have it. Don't regret it when you lose it. Once lost, it is hard to get it back too. That is what human should do, we should learn as time goes by. There are many things to learn, it may take a whole life time and yet, you cannot finish learning.
Experience and use what you learnt. It will be worthwhile.
I may be naive, to me, love can do a lot of things. Yes, love can help overcome many things. Example, because of love, Grace had learnt to be strong and because of love, she look forward to a brand new day.
Don't you see that love is amazing? Because of love, you can accept someone the way he is even though he is not the ideal boyfriend? Because of love, regardless how the two of you quarrel, there is always a point where the two of you will turn back and smile to each other? Because of love, you look forward to everyday?
Yes, I know that love is not everything. However, if you believe in love, you will find that the world is colourful and filled with light. If you believe in love, you know that there are forever a way out of everything.
I believe in love. I did not doubt his love for me. For at least, I look forward to everyday with him before. I know that it is all worth it. I believe that we were once in love. Like what is said in Leap Years, "It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."
So actually, I'm very happy already.
Oh yes, I was surfing the net and came accross XiaXue's blog. Well, she is damn famous and well known. Then, I remembered the part where Stella was saying about her advertisment on her blog. She said that hers is reaching $50 soon. Well, nuffnang can only send the cheque after it reaches $50. So yes, she say that hers is reaching soon.
So we suggested to her how she can boost the income. Just being emo on her pm or CAPS and scolding vulgarities, if people were to ask, ask them to read her blog. Else, act as if her boyfriend and her had a tiff, and lastly, we suggest to just scold Xia Xue. Then all her 30,000 readers will visit her blog and spam her.
LOL! We were just joking! I don't wish my blog get spam because of suggesting to scold Xia Xue. I don't wish to be scolded by 30,000 people. Sob sob!!
LOL! I just sign up for Nuffnang. LOL! Well, I mean I want to earn extra cash. So I hope that I can earn more. =D I want to put up more advertisments. Like that, I can earn extra cash. I mean, all I have to do is wait for other people to visit my blog or click on the advertisements. Hope I can earn more!!
Whee~~
Home alone.
Kaiden is sick and got flame in his lungs. So he had to stay home longer. Sister says that they are coming up at about 5+ pm. Mummy went to make her hair. Brother went out. Daddy went work. I am home alone. Nothing to do at all.
I want to go Kbox and scream shout sing! LOL! My cousin asked her beloved Jia Xin if she can bring me to clubbing and the answer is yes. She did not ask but she MAKE him say yes. LOL! Poor Jia Xin. Kenneth should go too. We'd have tons of fun. So sad Kah Yern still got a long way before she can enter a club. LOL!
Mummy don't really let me go clubbing though. =X Anna says that Yong Hui always go clubbing, I can ask him to bring me go. Hehehe! So many people can bring me go. Muahaha!
