The first entry after I change my blog skin. I am feeling so troubled. After something that one of my friend told me, I suddenly feel so troubled and hurt. I really wonder, why do unpleasant things happen when you treat someone so much as friend?

Why would people foment disunity and dissension, also known as 挑拨离间 in Chinese? I trusted that person so much and confine in that person and end up? What did I get? All I get in return is having him/her to foment disunity and dissension between another friend and me. That is so much for trusting that person.

I am really curious what did that person really tells my friend. And come to think, if is not for that person, I would not have to go through so much trouble the other time. If not for that person, I would not lose a friend for nothing. So as to say, it all started with that person.

I really wonder if that person’s conscious hit him/her. I treated that person as close pals and tell him/her every problem I face. I am so happy to know a friend like him/her for he/she will always be there for me. End up what I get to know is it is all a lie. I think that person also did not expect me to know this problem.

Yes, since this problem had already arisen, I should not dwell on it anymore. I know that since I already get to see the real side of that person, I should do the necessary prevention against him/her. I really wonder if that person’s conscious hit him/her. Doesn’t that person feel guilty?

What I am totally amazed is that how can that person foment disunity and dissension between my friend and me and yet, try to be the middle person and solve our dispute. The nice outer of that person actually have the most evil inner I ever see. I would get to see more of that person’s most evil inner showing in days to come.

All that of the person is totally fake and untrue. Would I still even help and stand by that person? I do not think it is ever possible again. If that person actually wants to foment disunity, then why continue to make the friendship look so valuable and true? That person is such a hypocrite. The real side of that person would soon surface.

That is such a sad post for this new blog skin. For now, I would act as if I know nothing about that hypocrite. I know that I myself am being one by acting nice to that person and act as if I trusted that person. However, if that is how the person wants to continue to act, let me take this chance to brush up my acting skills.

Would that person turn over a new leaf? Would that person come and admit the fact that he/she caused the problem between me and other friend? Would that person even tell the truth? You would never know. However, from my knowing of that person, he/she will never have such courage to do such a thing.

That person is a total failure! Never in my life I would even try to clear my doubt on that person like I did that time!

Lets keep it short and sweet and simple. 2 days ago, I went out with my dear and Joseph. We went to orchard and play. We went to eat at suki sushi. After which, we went back home for we are all worn out.

Yesterday, I went to do something I hate most. I went to take injection with my dear. I hate it. It is so painful! Then, I went down to Lavender with my dear. We went there to have our passport photos updated. When I finish and take my passport, I suddenly feel that I look so like Xue Zhen.

In the evening, I went to eat at Carl’s Junior with Joseph and my dear. After which, we went down to Douby Ghaut to meet Chin Swee and Siang Long. It is kind of the fun. After that, we went down to Toa Payoh and stayed at MacDonald for awhile. Then, we went back home.

Today, my niece is coming down. I am trying to get the new phone which my dad just got. It is Sony Ericson K750i. I know that it is quite old. However, I quite like it. my hand still hurts after yesterday’s injection. I had a hard time sleeping yesterday. Since yesterday, my arm had been hurting.

Arh! I hate the injection. Painful! Besides, the next thing is that I feel so off about going Vietnam. Suddenly felt so sian about going it. I am so tired! I do not know! Arhg!!!

The pictures are uploaded. Please view from the bottom to top. =)

Pictures taken at Carl's Junior!

The holder to put salt and pepper. So nice and cute!

Shake it! It is for the customer like us =) to take tissue, where I took it effortlessly!

Guess what it says? "Never stick a Texas Toothpick in your eyes." LOL!

The pretty view of Carl's Junior. It has free flow drinks. It would be better if there is free flow fries! =)

Pictures Taken yesterday, 23th feb!

My dear and I at Tan Tock Seng Hospital. We were waiting for our turn for injection. I hate it~!

Down at the Novena MRT station. Took it with the help of the reflections.

This aren't any death photo. It is taken for the sake of our passport. Spent long time waiting at Lavender, ICA building, just to renew the photo.

Neoprint taken on 22nd Feb.

Look so milky. Love it.

Pinkie rosie. So girlie.

The cross behind is so big! So church feeling.

Anyhow do one.

Pictures of my pretty rose.

Taken it on the 19th of Feb. It grew to 10.2cm wide! It is so big!

Nice little rosie.

It grew to 8.4 cm wide. It is taken on the day of Chinese New Year.

The pinkie rosie and purplie rosie.

My Accessories. The necklace cost $6.50 and the earring only cost $1! Aren't it nice?!?!

A bird eye's view from my grandma's place. The few common colour are red, black and white.

I am going Vietnam soon. And to tell you the truth, I am not looking forward to it at all. Yes, it is going to be a great fun and I am going to spend great time with my friends. However, whenever I think of going away from home for two weeks, tears would fill my eyes.

I do not understand why I love to cry so much. I also do not understand why the tap leaks as and when it likes. I should be happy about having fun with my friends but I do not. Firstly are the groupings. I would be placed with a bunch of LSCT people. Yes, the fact is that I am the person who so called called them over.

I do not want to join them. But did my bunch of friends know that? They just practically did not include me at all. So I have no choice but to join the LSCT people. What can I say? Hope that we can work well together. The next thing is sleeping with my friends might not be possible at all. I do not even know if they had included me in whatever they do.

Sometimes I really wonder where I stand. I do not know why but I feel that yes, they called me over to join them on the Vietnam trip. Yes, I called my boyfriend to go. But does that mean that I am outcast already? Maybe yes for them. I know that most of them are not happy that.

Besides the fact of being outcast, I am not happy because I am going to miss my mother and father and family. I scared. I am really scared. I do not know why. I hate the feeling. I hate it when I think of leaving my family for two weeks. Whenever I think of it, the unease feeling would arise and I would gradually cry.

I hate it when I have to send people off at the airport. Now, I am going to be sent off at the airport. I feel worst. Why does the tap keep flowing? I want it to stop. But I do not know how. I really do not know how. I do not wish to be far from my parents.

I am just like a small kid.
When would I grow up to be independent?

Happy New Year everyone. Today is the third day of Chinese New Year. Hope everyone had a great time. I am so bored at home. This is a special year. All my cousins brought their girl/boy friends over to my grandma place. Benjamin and his girlfriend (I forgotten her name), Kenneth and his girlfriend (Yan Ling), Kah Wai and her boyfriend (Mervin).

And of course, my brother confesses and brought his girlfriend over to my place. She is from GuangYang and I saw her before. Finally, he confesses that he had a girlfriend. Now that they are gone, I am all alone at home.

Chinese New Year is just like any other ordinary holiday for me. It is to stay at home and rot. The only difference is that many shops do not open for job and you get money if you visit people’s place. Those are the only differences between holiday and Chinese New Year.

I really wonder why they can get so much fun on Chinese New Year. On the first day, morning I went to my paternal side. I went there and just sit down and watch television. After which, I went to my maternal side. Practically, I just sit there on the bed and watch television. I am so bored.

I cannot believe that I am just sitting down and watch television for the whole Chinese New Year. On the second day, my brother went out, my sister came. So I just stayed home and watch television again. As for today, my brother brought his girlfriend over and of course, I stayed home and my sister came just for the toilet.

Chinese New Year equals to staying home. It is just like other holiday. I am so bored. Will some people just relieve me from the boredom?

Hai. Internal conflict again. What is it over? It is over the new house that we are moving in. This had always been the problem between the family members. I am moving to the new house soon. I am going to sleep with my second sister. The room is pathetically small and I have to squeeze with her.

Yes, I am not that glad with the planning too. However, do I have a say? Do I have a chance to say anything? My brother is going to have his own room. My sister always plans her room, wanting this and that. My brother wants a television and all in his room. Oh please, the room is so small and who ever asked me what I want too?

The room is so small that it can only put 2 beds and 2 closets. And now, my sister wants to put a television, her stuff, closet, bed and so many rubbish in the room. If that is the case, I think I can only put a bed for me, me and me.

All I ask for in my room is a simple bed and a table for me to study. However, my mother asks me to put the small table which is currently in my room. The table is so small that when I put my laptop and the mouse, it is just nice. I still have to use a paper externally to put my mouse. Hello! Who asked me what I want too?

I really wonder what the problem is. Everyone wants a room to themselves. I do not wish to have a room to myself but all I wish is to have something which is suitable for me too. I do not look forward for a television, a hi-fi set or what. All I wish for is a table and bed. That simple. Why is it so hard for everyone??

And my mother is also one of the kinds. I mean why can’t she think like what we will think instead of being hard back on the arguments? Every time my sister or brother argue that they want this or that in their room, she would say that last time she sleep in the same room with my ah gong, ah ma and all my aunties and uncles.

Oh please! Listen already also will feel pek cek. Besides, what world is it now? It is the 21st century and she always says this. She is obviously making the situation worst. She is always trying to void this topic. I mean how long can she void? This problem will be faced sooner or later. Can’t she understand and think.

Problematic house. Problematic family. Problematic things!! Now, my mother is so pissed off. I really wonder why this is always the case! Hate it! So much for a CNY eve!

Happy Chinese New Year EVE!! Tomorrow is a brand new year! I hereby wish everyone happy Chinese new year!

Yesterday, I went out and play with Joseph and my dear. I bought myself a new rose. It is purple in colour. And it is very big as compared to my pink one. My television is done. The uncle is so pro! The television is spoilt for so long and he still can manage to repair it. I shall not talk more and go my grandma house. Cya!

The uncle doing de-soldering.

He is doing soldering on the many messy component board.

Totally concentration on the soldering.

His ultra old multimeter.

The uncle using the multimeter to test if the circuit is connected.

His magical briefcase. The extreme long screw driver.

Yes, that is me in my new spectacles.

Yeah!

I took it yesterday night. It is not clear at all. I blocked the light by accident.

The pixes are not that fantastic! It is taken yesterday night. It is only 5.2 cm.

The pinky rose-y that I had. It is extracted from the rose that my dear gave.

Can you see the difference between the two rose? One is extremely big!

The side view is so nice!! Love it.

It is not camera zooming but in fact, it grew bigger over night. It is currently 6.5cm wide!

Little rose-y. It curls so nicely.

Another pic of my rose-y.

Today is Total Defence Day! Happy Total Defence Day everyone! I wish that everyone have a good and happy total defence day!

What had I been doing for this total defence day? Today, I went down to Kah Wai's place in the evening to pass her the clothes. My dear accompanied me over there. Thank you dear for spending 1 hour plus with me on the bus. I left the place at 3.30pm and reached there at about 5.00pm.

Then, Kah Wai, Kah Yern and I started talking. It is quite of a laugh though. We started talking about how school celebrate total defence day. Kah Yern said that her school celebrated by having one of her friend to act as though she got food poisoning. Then, she started going to the toilet and after which, it is announced that there is a case of food poisoning in school.

After which, the girl got kidnapped. I feel that the person who kidnaps her is so stupid! If you kidnap her, you still have to provide a toilet in case she wants to vomit or go and attend some big business. Then, if you kidnap her, you still need to provide her with medication. That is so brainless of the kidnapper.

Then Yern said that one of the teacher fainted in the class and the class started whispering to each other and saying that the teacher fainted. If it is my secondary school class, they would have celebrated that the lesson ended! I think the teacher would wake up from the faint if that really were to happen!

We chatted a lot about total defence day too. Yern said that one of the years, they did on chemical leakage. All of them were locked up in the room and it is so hot. I though that they can on the fan so I stupidly said that on the fan. Dear and Yern said that cannot on fan! I am so kuku!

We also talk about other things too. Then Yern said that the baby inside the mother's womb can be pregnant too. All this happen when it is still a cell. I started being curious on how does it happen. So I repeated it by saying that the pregnant mother, having a twins, the male cell would combine with the female cell and thus, making the female cell to be pregnant.

However, Yern said that it is not the case. She said that it is the good cell would eat over the bad cell. So I summaries it again. It is that the mother would be having a twin. Suddenly, one of it becomes bad. The good one would eat up the bad one. This means that after 9 months, the mother would be giving birth to the good cell while the good cell would be giving birth to the bad cell! It is so funny!!

Then, my dear and I went home. We took the bus at 7.15pm. We thought that the ride would be quite fast. However, while on the bus, my dear and I doze off. When I woke up, it is 8.15pm and guess what? I am only at Kembangan!! That is so slow! My dear stayed awake to prevent me from falling. Thank you dear!

I cannot sleep after waking up. After some time, the bus driver finally takes down the sign and went straight unless someone press the bell. The bus was so fast! And we reach Toa Payoh interchange at 8.50pm. I still thought of taking my spectacles today. I guess I can only take it tomorrow.

When I reach home, it is already 9.00pm. And here I am, blogging! Every year total defence day, I would be sick and staying at home. This total defence day, I am well! Maybe it is the school problem. In secondary school, I experience illness every total defence day. This is not a problem in primary school.

Total defence day in secondary school is also equals to eating green bean soup for recess. All the canteen vendors would be off work on total defence day. All that they would sell is green bean soup and this soup need to pay with the coupon given. And every one is only given one.

Tomorrow, the potato is coming back from chalet. He asked my dear and me to accompany him to go and eat Carl’s Jr. Chinese New Year is coming soon! Kah Wai is bringing her boyfriend over this New Year. Kenneth is bringing his girlfriend over too. And obviously, I am not going to bring mine over. This is because that he had to do some visiting on the first day.

I mean everyone needs to do visiting and why are their boy/girl friends so free? Then Kah Wai said that she is going visiting in the evening. They asked me to bring my boyfriend over. However I feel that it is so odd. Even if he come, he only can come at about 4 pm plus. That is kind of the odd for I have to go down and bring him up again! So much for a Chinese New Year!

Visiting, holiday! I want to go over Kah Wai’s place to stay over! I miss them so much! Getting my new spectacles tomorrow! That is confirm! YAY!

HAPPY TOTAL DEFENCE DAY EVERYONE!!

I am back from a date! Yes, I just went to a date with my dear. Actually we did not do really much today. In the morning, my dear went for piano lesson. After which, I went to his place and we stayed there for quite awhile. Then, we wanted to go and have our passport photos updated.

However, when we wanted to go, it is already 3 plus and according to his father, the place close at 4pm. Therefore, we decided not to go and go dating. We went down to J8 and saw many secondary school kids. Most of the kids were holding flowers. Hey! For all my years in secondary school, I have never ever received a flower before! That is so unfair!!

That is not the main point. My dear and I did not know what to do. Then, we saw the place for the kid to play the sand and poster thing. My dear and I started to do the sand stuff. That is my favourite! It had been so long since I last did this. Last time, I use to do it every time I see it. It is so nice!!

Then we went to KFC and eat. Both of us chit chatted and we saw many people waiting for sits. Therefore, we decided to go and went to take neoprint. We took a total of 2 times. Frankly speaking, it had been so long since I last take. And I am so unsure of these machines nowadays. I totally do not know how to make the design and all! It is getting complicated!!

After that, he sent me to Toa Payoh central and we go home ourselves. Now I am watching television. The channel 8 show. They said that shao ji (roasted chicken) in China is actually made of dead chicken! That is so disgusting! Oh no!! Never in my life would I want to eat roasted chicken again!

Then they also said that if you were to put an egg into vinegar for one week, the shell would drop out and leaving the membrane there. That is something which requires really much scientific reasons. I do not know why!!

I am so bored and tired! The channel 8, 9pm show is so lame! Oh please, I wonder who in the world would go and film such a show! I really wonder so much! Even though it is lame, it is quite funny! Now, they are asking around what is love. That is so funny! They give the answer so funny. One of it said that love is possession. What is his is mine, what is mine is mine. That is so funny!!!

Ok, I shall stop being stupid and lame and start working on what to do tomorrow. I am going to get my new spectacles tomorrow! I am so excited with my new spectacles!!

Good night everyone. I hope that all of you spent your Valentine's Day happily. By the way, my brother just came home and guess what, I saw him taking something home?!?!?! Wondering what is it! Hehehe!

The present my dear give me! The front view. As my camera is only 1.3 megapixies, the graphic is not wonderful and perfect!

The back view of the present! A pink colour rose! I feel that he is so stupid! Why did he give me a rose on Valentine's Day. Do you know that a rose on Valentine's Day is $10 and a rose on normal day is only $1?!?! There is one zero at the back!

My dear dear's creation. The cow! I chose this picture. It is quite nice. However, the colour turn out a little odd. From the camera view, the outline is grey colour. Actually it is not, it is some beige mixing green. That is all.