Failed!
Its ok, Anne is strong. She will walk out of it soon. She is very strong. Well, she expected it anyway. I mean, from the start, she already know that it is negative. She tried her best already, so all she can do is now, walk out of it.
Well, Anne still misses him. It ok, she will be ok. She will be fine. She know this outcome, she will face it. Well, she did something she regreted, so face it. Once done is already done. She cannot blame anyone for it except herself. All she can do now is to not repeat the mistakes.
Anne, be strong ok? I know you can do it. You can live on your own. You will be very strong. If you really thinks that it is hard, you have friends around you. They will stand by you. Well, if you cannot let him go, it is not your fault at all. It is Mr. Cupid doing all the naughty things. So don't be sad ok?
Anne, you already done your best. At least you did not cry just now. You are terrific already. You are doing very well. I am so proud of you. You manage to surpress your feelings. You are good. Anne, you need not worry about it ok? Take it as a time for you to rest.
I know that you are sad inside, its ok. The world does not stop revolving for you. You must move on. Cry as much as you want. Once you finish crying, move on. You have the right to cry. Yes, everyone is asking you to relax and not cry. However, I know that it is hard for you to surpress inside. Cry everything out.
Don't make yourself busy. Yes, it will stop you from thinking at that moment, when you stop, you will still think of it. So yes, don't stop yourself from thinking. However, remember, thinking does not help in anything. The more you force yourself to stop thinking, the more you will think.
Anne, I'm so proud that at that point, you can still teach him how to woo a girl, how to treat a girl. You are doing fine.
If he is meant to be yours, he will be with you. If he really wants to be with you next time, he will be back. So look forward to that. If he is really not meant to be with you, regardless how you force, it will be the same. There will not be any changes at all. So don't grieve over it. If he is really not meant to be, might as well end it once and for all.
He don't want you, it is his lost. With your calibre, you can surely find someone better. (That two sentence is so erm.. so proud! eek!)
Now, take a rest, charge up and when go into university, be prepared to zap the guys. LOL! Make them go gaga over you. There is surely someone out there who is going to take care of you for life.
Just now, you were brave. You already said what you wanted. He is old enough to take care of himself already. You don't be worried ok. As for you, please take care of yourself.
If you need me, just tell me and then, I'd always be there.
Well, those are the words which I know everyone will tell me. Relax, I'm ok. I'd take care of myself. I know all of you are interested in what actually happen just now. I shall say it.
I went mac and then, met him. He came down from work and he had to go back to work. So he used his break time to come down to meet me. I am very touched with that. Thanks. We started talking, the talk did not drift far.
As usual, he said many "I don't know". Well, I expected it anyway. Then I did most of the talking. I told him about how I feel, I told him how to woo a girl, I told him how to treat a girl, how to give me up, how to forget me, how that we will be good friends. Occasionally, I almost broke into tears. I had to take many deep breathe so I can take back my tears.
Something for sure, I'm still loved by him. Even though it did not turn out well, I'm glad that I'm loved before. Well, he said that he is so scared that upon thinking, he is already so scared and stress up. I have nothing to say. I cause it.
Sorry I did not have the strength to eliminate the fear. It is all up to him. He himself knows that. I really hope that miracle can happen. Even so, face it.
Then I accompany him to the MRT station and then, I know it is disgraceful thing to do, I asked for a "goodbye forever" hug. LOL! I miss him so much. Upon hugging, I miss him even more. Tears roll down more unexpectedly.
Well, the time goes on. Good luck!
I'm not sure if you read this, most probably not. Like I said, we'd be good friends like last time. Though we will not meet again in poly, I really hope that we can meet again. I wish that we can meet again as friends like last time. Friends forever.
I'd be strong, you need not worry. I'm sorry to disgrace myself just now. I said that I won't message you, won't msn you. However, I really hope you will do so. Well, I think by the time you eliminate the fear, I'm already forgotten by you. The best way to stop the stress and fear is to not have feelings for me anymore.
Sorry Limin, I let you down already. I said I'd try to give up, but I really don't wish to give up. Maybe one day, I'd be able to let him go. I mean you should understand what it is like. Now is roughly the same situation between you and your ex. You can't let him go yet. Still having feelings for him, still missing him. Maybe one day, the feeling will go away.
I will live strong! Relax everyone!! I'd jia you!!! Thanks for the extreme concern!!
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