Good morning everyone! Ok, I know that it is going to be afternoon soon. Relax, I woke up long ago and finish bathing already. Hehe! I have yet to eat my breakfast or lunch yet. I am not hungry. Shucks!
I am on diet? No, I am not on diet. Yet I am slimming down. Amazing. The other day, I was so bored that I read my blog archives at work. I read about a part where I say that I am going to go on diet. Wow! That was when I was with Daryl. I aim to slim down.
In the end, I did not slim down at all. And yet I grew fatter and fatter. Well, I'm not sure why either. Then when I start working at Robinsons, in order to save money (not that you don't know that eating at orchard is costly) I started bring donuts to work and eat.
The amount of money I spent was just on a cup of hot tea. The hot tea is meant to heat up the donut with the steam and to warm myself up. Robinson is extremely cold. I have to warm myself during break too. In order to keep myself occupied for one whole hour alone, I had to eat slowly and drink slowly to occupy the space.
In the end, I got thinner and thinner. Whee! Slim down! Even so, I still feel fat. =X I want to go exercise. I love swimming but I'm scared of getting dark. I want to go gym but I cannot survive long and there are a lot of people. I want to go running but I can't run. I want to play basketball but I'm scared of ball.
Shucks! No choice. All I can do is rot at home. Whee!
Today, I am staying home for the whole day. Yong Hui is back to Singapore. Early in the morning, sister and jie fu brought Kaiden to see doctor. He is sick. My niece went along too. So the morning is rather bored.
Later, mummy is going Jessica aunt's hair salon to cut and colour her hair. The other time I went Jessica aunt's hair salon, that was the year after O level, in Jan. I told her to cut one inch and in the end, she chop off about 5 to 6 inch. At that time, my hair was longer than the current length I have. She chop off until nearly shoulder length.
She cut my fringe so short that when I walk, it will all stand up. Well, as it is side fringe, the length is the shortest at my parting area. And the length is only about 1 inch. Idiot! I swear that I'll never go there again.
I am going to chop off my hair. Well, I thinking if I should chop off my hair. I am thinking! If I were to chop off, I think I'd not meet any of my friends for long. That time, Jessica aunt cut my hair until nearly shoulder length, it took me more than 2 weeks to take it. Imagine now, I want to chop it up to my shoulder length or even shorter.
Don't ask me what I want to chop it off. Well, usually people will say when they out of love, they will want to cut their hair short, new hair style, new start. LOL! Treat it that way. I will not stop you people from doing so. Anne is out of love. LOL!
Finally, after so long, there is picture in my blog. LOL! And after so long, I finally get to write my post in paragraph. At least it looks neater in a way. Anyway, I read my cousin's post. LOL! I realise that I had been reading her and she had been reading mine recently. And due to my problem, she had been posting so much.
This is what she wrote in her post.
I was just talking to my cousin just now. And she was really depressed. But part of her is trying to look on the bright side of life. Its actually a good sign. But deep inside.. she wants to be with the guy.
I'm glad that she has found someone who has a way with her. When she told me about him, i was more than happy to know she has found someone she can depend on. However, because of one mistake she made, the guy is now having second thoughts?
Although i know this guy is not a bad guy, but i am very tempted to scold him. I want him to stop treating anne so coldly and be a man, face the problem. if not, it will keep my cousin waiting.. and its not a good feeling. When i asked him, "do you still love anne?" he said yes, but he was scared. Although i don't see why will he be scared, or even start having second thoughts, i just hope he would try his best to resolve the matter.
My cousin has always been a strong girl. Seeing her like that, really makes me feel very uncomfortable, and angry. Not angry with her, but angry with the guy. I don't know why. perhaps i have my limits when i see a girl suffering for a guy.
Tmr is the day they meet to talk about their problem. Although i am very disappointted with that guy, i really hope he would give the relationship another shot..
Someone told me, to have mutual feelings for each other is something very special, and must be treasured to the very end, cause not everyone can experience that. Or even, its not every time we share mutual feelings with another person.
From then on, i really treasure those feelings, and i also don't want my cousin to miss out on this heavenly emotion.
She said love can do wonders. That i agree. I just hope now, the guy will really think through and hope his decision will be the right one..
anne! jia you!
Wow! Like what she said, deep inside me, I want to be with him. Even so, I know that it will most probably be negative. I had been rather depress and yet, I am trying to stay happy too. Joseph should know it very well, not many guys can actually take me in hand. Finally, there is this guy who can take me in hand.
In the past, whenever I wanted things to be my way, I will just throw temper and yes, my boyfriend will give in to me, regardless is good or bad. However, this time, this guy have a way with me. Whenever I want something, if it is a good choice, regardless how I throw temper, he will never give in to me. And yet, he will find a way to make to listen to him.
Like she said, due to a mistake I made, he is having second thoughts. Well, my cousin is a more agitated girl. When she sees someone treating girls the bad way, she will want to scold him so badly. Well, I don't. Ha!
As I said, to my cousins, I am forever the Strong, Powerful Career Woman kind of girl. I know what it is like to see your relative gets so dejected. I mean, to me, my cousin is forever confident and all. Once, she was crying so sadly and she felt so not confident of herself, I really feel very uncomfortable and worried. I don't why either. Maybe it is because she always portrat herself as a girl with a lot of self confident. Something hard had crash onto her and the confident tarnished. Well, I'm glad that she pick up again!
I totally agree the sentence, "to have mutual feelings for each other is something very special, and must be treasured to the very end, cause not everyone can experience that. Or even, its not every time we share mutual feelings with another person."
I mean, not everyone can experience it. I tried a couple of times to have the mutual feeling for a person and seriously, trying is no use. Everyone always say, treasure the relationship with the other person to the end because it is fate that bring them together. Some people meet and go. So yes, it is very special. Treasure it people! Don't regret!!
From this, I've learnt to treasure things when I have it. Don't regret it when you lose it. Once lost, it is hard to get it back too. That is what human should do, we should learn as time goes by. There are many things to learn, it may take a whole life time and yet, you cannot finish learning.
Experience and use what you learnt. It will be worthwhile.
I may be naive, to me, love can do a lot of things. Yes, love can help overcome many things. Example, because of love, Grace had learnt to be strong and because of love, she look forward to a brand new day.
Don't you see that love is amazing? Because of love, you can accept someone the way he is even though he is not the ideal boyfriend? Because of love, regardless how the two of you quarrel, there is always a point where the two of you will turn back and smile to each other? Because of love, you look forward to everyday?
Yes, I know that love is not everything. However, if you believe in love, you will find that the world is colourful and filled with light. If you believe in love, you know that there are forever a way out of everything.
I believe in love. I did not doubt his love for me. For at least, I look forward to everyday with him before. I know that it is all worth it. I believe that we were once in love. Like what is said in Leap Years, "It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."
So actually, I'm very happy already.
Oh yes, I was surfing the net and came accross XiaXue's blog. Well, she is damn famous and well known. Then, I remembered the part where Stella was saying about her advertisment on her blog. She said that hers is reaching $50 soon. Well, nuffnang can only send the cheque after it reaches $50. So yes, she say that hers is reaching soon.
So we suggested to her how she can boost the income. Just being emo on her pm or CAPS and scolding vulgarities, if people were to ask, ask them to read her blog. Else, act as if her boyfriend and her had a tiff, and lastly, we suggest to just scold Xia Xue. Then all her 30,000 readers will visit her blog and spam her.
LOL! We were just joking! I don't wish my blog get spam because of suggesting to scold Xia Xue. I don't wish to be scolded by 30,000 people. Sob sob!!
LOL! I just sign up for Nuffnang. LOL! Well, I mean I want to earn extra cash. So I hope that I can earn more. =D I want to put up more advertisments. Like that, I can earn extra cash. I mean, all I have to do is wait for other people to visit my blog or click on the advertisements. Hope I can earn more!!
Whee~~
Home alone.
Kaiden is sick and got flame in his lungs. So he had to stay home longer. Sister says that they are coming up at about 5+ pm. Mummy went to make her hair. Brother went out. Daddy went work. I am home alone. Nothing to do at all.
I want to go Kbox and scream shout sing! LOL! My cousin asked her beloved Jia Xin if she can bring me to clubbing and the answer is yes. She did not ask but she MAKE him say yes. LOL! Poor Jia Xin. Kenneth should go too. We'd have tons of fun. So sad Kah Yern still got a long way before she can enter a club. LOL!
Mummy don't really let me go clubbing though. =X Anna says that Yong Hui always go clubbing, I can ask him to bring me go. Hehehe! So many people can bring me go. Muahaha!