ER is tomorrow~~~~

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x__[[Friday, January 30, 2009.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEN QI! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HENRIETTA! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HERMAN! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE MING! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEL! :)

I did not know that I have soo many friends whose birthday is today! And out of the 5 of them, 4 are from my primary school and 3 are from my class. OMG! So coincident!! Let me make a friend of the same birthday please!

Early morning got CE lecture. Ah sian! Haha! I was late, I took bus to school today anyways. Today drew drew lesson starts at 11am. Eeek! Haha! I saw maggie on the way too! And obviously, I was late and late for like 10 minutes =x

The stupid 154 that I got up is super slow. It is moving like tortoise. And the best of all is the moment I get up the bus, my mp3 went flat and yes, I don't have source of entertainment. Eeek! Super sickening!

We had our stupid dtle intermediate test. Eeeek!!!!!! Ok, on Thursday night, I went to sleep damn early. I really mean early like 10+ pm. Haha! That is super early as compared to my usual 2am sleep. I sleep sooo super early ok!

And to in order for me to study dtle, I woke up at 3+ am just to study. And because angie complain that my alarm clock cause her to wake up again and again, being unable to sleep well, I went to sleep on the sofa. How pathetic!

Then I studied and studied and yes! Damn emo cause' there is soo much to memories. Finally I finish it and yes! Whoooo!!!

Ok, in school, the test is a little screwed up. I did some questions wrongly and yes, terribly wrong. Ahhh! I am soo sad!

Lesson dragged to 5pm today. And after 5pm, I was doing and discussing something with irene about bme. And whoo, discuss until 6+ pm.

I went to meet up with npy after that. I must say it had been quite long since we met and yup, we met up and went down town to get dinner and some of his stuff. Then we realise the road is blocked due to chingay! Shucks! So we walked from SMU to suntec city. Eeek!

We had burger king for dinner. Haha! Going all the way down to suntec for burger king. Hmm! LOL! Well, it had been quite some time since I had burger king. Whoo! Ok, after the meal, we went to get some things and then took train home.

My dear dear cousin, kenneth came down to stay over today. At night, kenneth and drew drew were busy dota-ing. I wanted to see but I am super duper uper tired. At 10+ pm, I already K.O. Haha! I miss my bed =)

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x__[[Saturday, January 31, 2009.

Early morning 9+ am, I woke up and then started watching television. Haha! Watching those kids show in the morning. Then in the afternoon, supposed to do work but was staring at the computer to wish something happen eh? Hahaha!!

In the afternoon, was also playing with kenneth. Haha! I think I spent most of my time in front of the computer but talking to kenneth. LOL!

At night, we had fried rice and mummy went to get haagen daz for us. And of course, we had strawberry ice cream! She went to get those one tub kind from ntuc. Haha! Kenneth, drew drew and I shared one tub! Yummy + yummy!

I went to sleep at 11 plus pm and it is counted early again! Whooooooo~

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x__[[Sunday, February 01, 2009.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE!

Today is the 7th day of the lunar month. Whoo! It means it is everyone's birthday! Whoo! I stayed home today again! My niece and nephew came and of course, playing with them =)

I guess mummy is too irritated to see me at home every single day! Haha! She had been bugging me to go out since the first night of lunar new year. She says that I am staying home too much and dying at home. Haha!!

At night, I was busy rushing out the report for fr. raj and talking about university admission. Yes, university admission is open NOW! And yes, it is the talk of the week now. Ok, NOW!

Everyone is talking about university thing and yes, it is killing me. I was so sure of going mathematical science or psychology but things start to go wrong yesterday. I was looking at the enrolment thing and realise, we can make 5 choices. And yes, I suddenly got so damn lost.

Since young, my life is quite well planned. The route is simple, go into teaching field and then gain experience and go into lecturing field. It is always planned and goes as I thought. I have never thought of what-if.

Seriously, what if I cannot get into mathematical science? My main goal is mathematical science instead of psychology. Yes! And what if I cannot get in?! Suddenly I found many people who are interested in that course and the main problem is their gpa is better!

That is damn irritating! I suddenly freak out and worry what if I cannot get in? What if things were to go wrong and I did not get in? What other course am I going to do? I have never thought of all these. OMG!

I guess I need to do more consideration!

Something damn creppy happened. I was talking to irene on the phone at 11 plus pm. While talking on the phone, then I feel that there is something on my hair. So I used another hand and brush my hair.

Then I felt something ticklish on my wrist. I thought it was my hair so I did not think much and just move my palm from the back of the head to the front to see what is the ticklish thing.

I saw somthing damn big and brownish black. It is CRAWLING from my wrist to my palm. And the body is about 5cm long. I ponder for a while and then realise that it is a stupid damn cockroach! OMG!

I shouted through the phone *sorry irene*. And my daddy and mummy jumped up and came to help me catch the cockroach. The damn stupid cockroach crawl on my laptop too! Eeeek! So damn goodness disgusting!

The picture below illustrate the traces of the cockroach. The dot dot dot means the place where the cockroach fly to another place. Damn freaky ok! Pardon the pathetic picture. I am no art student =x



End up I went to bed at 3 plus am. Yawn!!

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x__[[Monday, February 02, 2009.

Early morning, I was late for dtle lab. Whoo! Late again. I realise I am always late this semester. OMG! Poor attendance. Haha! After dtle lab, I was waiting for time to pass and meet raj regarding the examiner review (er) tomorrow. Sian!

While waiting, I went to help bff with his filming for his IS. Haha! I was supposed to act as weishen's fiancce. Their story plot is about two poeple, one is acted by bff and the other by weishen.

Weishen have good boss, acted by qin feng, at work. And this good boss leads to good production and promotion and of course, success in love too. And for bff, he have super bad boss, acted by chin chai, who always push the blame to bff. Then he did not have good work done and always OT. And of course, his girlfriend, acted by bf, got fed up and break up with him.

Haha! So funny! They are quite funny and we kept laughing and laughing. I really thing chin chai is a damn good actor! And of course, bf did a super good job in ditching and throwing temper at bff. Haha!

At about 4pm, irene and I went to 2H to psycho them to get bme shirt and seriously, I am damn bloody pek cek with them. Ok! I lost my cool and I admit it. I am damn irritated by their suck up attitude. Oh please, I am talking nicely to them and they are just so damn bloody suck up.

And one of them is so damn attitude. Seriously, they say "I get already" is just to tell me to let them go. So what they say they are getting when they are opposing me one minute and next second when they see someone leave, they say "I write already". They think I am an idiot or stupid is it? Sorry, I think they are the idiots and stupid!

And got this person have damn super sucky suck up attitude. Don't think that you are some cute and petite size, you are wonder ok! I am not a guy and you seriously don't look cute at all to me. Since you are year 1, my impression of you is just some super rough person. That is not very good already. And now, my impression of you is just more bloody worst! Seriously, when I see you, I just say hi to the people around and totally ignore you.

Since you people do not want to get it then forget it. Stop coming here and tell me whatever crap and that applies to the person mention above especially. The person mentioned just pissed me off so damn much and I would have given you one tight slap if I can. You know, I don't see you so damn attitude to some people. And know what, you are nothing but a fake shell!

Ok, enough of scolding the suck up attitude person. It is just polluting my blog and wasting my time. All in all, don't think that you are in H class and you are damn clever. I am also in H class and I don't see the damn bloody attitude of I-am-always-right.

1 sentence. 3 words. 8 alphabets.

After visiting the stupid idiot 2H class, irene accompanied me down to npsu to get my cheque. Whoo! I am $242.40 richer now! OMG! I am damn happy seh! Haha! $242.20 richer! Ok, I WAS previously $402.40 poorer and now, I am just $242.40 richer. So there is another $160. Ok, I am going to claim my $160 back. =)

Then I went back to project room to do my ece webpage. Sickening! I am super tired! Ahh! I wanted to edit via source code but seems to be a waste of time so just forget it! Haha!

Then bff sent me home again! I am super tired!! I want to sleep soo much!!!!

Know what, on wednesday, I have to go back to school just for caem quiz. Idiot and stupid! AHHH! I don't wanna quiz!!

Tomorrow is ER and I wish they don't shoot me =x

Ok, somethings just can't get off my mind and seriously, I need a place to pour before absorbing my stupid damn dtle.

I really do not know what and how. I really have no idea what to do. Some things just continue running in my mind, some words just continue flashing across. And it really spoils my mood when it run or flash across my mind.

Can I just erase it or cut that part of the film away? It is a fact and truth. It is soo super duper uper true. So is there a point in erasing it away or cutting it off? If I were to do that, isn't it equavalent to lying to myself? I really have no idea what to do.

Everything that is said and done had happened. And seriously, I just can't forget it. It is forever in my mind running and running. Ok, at least not forever but for now, it just kept running and running, flashing and flashing.

I know that I am not very happy. Ok, not feeling very well within. I want to scream shout scratch. And yet, I can't and have to smile and joke around in class as usual. This is to save more questioning. However, when I am alone, all things start tumbling down.

Who will understand and who will know? Even if I tell them, they will just keep asking "are you ok?" I don't need such pity. I don't need people to start consoling me and tell me all those things. If I am ok, I won't be pouring things out here.

Sometimes, I just don't understand. Why is it that it is so hard for me to talk about it? So what I were to mention and say it out? It will still be the same isn't it? What will happen and what will change? Nothing at all. All the things will remain. So I rather keep quiet.

I just find it damn hard to tell myself to act as if nothing happened because, I am really not feeling fine within. Well, at least I know that when in school, I can laugh and joke so much that it made me forget whatever that happened.

Now, it just seem like regardless what I do, it will never change. It will just drop and drop. I don't know why. Everything I do seems to not prevent reaction but act as catalyze to speed up reaction. I just don't want to do anything seriously. Can I just avoid?

I don't want to do anything or think anything. The feeling just sucks so much. It really just sucks. I don't want to be a figure behind the mask. I don't need to be but I guess, I only can choose to be one. Back to where it first came. Figure behind the mask.

I wonder when one realise I am long gone? So I guess, by the time one realise this, I am already long gone. All that is left is a figure hiding behind the mask. How would I look and how do I look? I guess no one knows anymore.

Hidden behind the painted face.

Chop chop post! Have to study for dtle later! Eeek!

Happy happy 4th day of lunar new year!

Went to school today. Hardly many people went. Many still on holiday! And I really think I shouldn't have gone school. Eeek!

Morning for CE, I was late and gwee did not teach much as there is only 1 hour of lesson. And after that was MIIT lecture. Copying lesson again. Super sian one! We ended lesson early. I went back to bme centre to discuss some bme things with irene.

After much discussion, decided not to go for BI lecture. Ckp came in and was talking to me. Haha! He then randomly said "tonight got dtle test ah!" I was super duper shocked ok! Haha! There are some confusion and all of us thought that dtle test is on friday! Ahh! Haha! All of us blur together.

Then we printed some tutorial and the printer spoil! Irene and I were busy repairing the machine. Haha! After that we decided to give up and ya, go home. Bff sent me home. While on the way out to the school gate, I received a sms saying there is BI lab. Eeek! We thought there isn't because msn did not say anything.

In the end, bff u-turn back and then the few of them got up the car and started discussing whether to go or not. Ok, in the end, we left and decided to just send representative. Ahh! When I reach home, I actually zzz! Haha!

Woke up at 4++ pm and then start opening dtle book and tried studying! Ahh! God, give me some power!

Ckp said tomorrow's paper alot of definition and explanation needed. What the hack! I seriously sucks at memorising and yes! I am soo screwed up this semester! Ahh! Faint faint faint!!! Pray hard ah!!!

Power!

Ok, cailin sent me an email and it is DAMN true! OMG!

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if you were born in the 80's in Singapore (Ok, that is us)

• You grew up watching He-man, MASK, Transformers, Silver Hawk and Mickey Mouse, Ninja turtles, Carebears, Robocop, My Little Pony and Smurfs.


• You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary school during recess time. You would squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug.


• You hated or loved the school nurse. (ok, I hate nurse)


• You know what SBC stands for.


• You paid 40 cents for cartons of Chocolate or Strawberry milk every week in class.


• Everyone's wallet used to be the velcro type. (yes mine!)


• It was cool to have pagers in primary school.


• SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion were red. The big red bell gave a loud BEEP! when pressed.


• There were still bus tickets and bus conductors would come up to check them.


• Envelopes were given to us to donate to Sharity Elephant every Children's Day.


• You've probably read Young Generation magazine.You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable. (vinny is my favourite comic!!)


• You know what PETS are and the hidden animals in all the text pages. You hated penmanship.


• Writing lines and caning hands were common, esp if you failed chinese spelling. (caning was actually allowed. no shit)


• You were there when they first introduced the MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery.


• Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50. (omg yes! damn cheap!)


• Gals were fascinated by Strawberry Short Cake and Barbie Dolls. (ok, I am not!)


• You learn to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street.


• You bought tidbits called beebee (20 cents per pack, 10 cents in MGS), and mamee (30 cents), that had a different sticker in it every time.


• You carried a lunch box to school but either threw away the food or brought it back home again.


• You watched TV2 (also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you.


• Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven were probably the thickest story books you thought you would ever read. (totally man!)


• KFC used to be a high class restaurant that served food in plates and had metal forks and knives. (I dont remember this, anyone?)


• The most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THE MOST EXTREME WAS 'chicken pie'...you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien translation.


• Catching and pepsi-cola was the IN thing, and twist was the magic word.


• Your English workbooks were made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.


• You came to school 15 mins before the bell every morning just so you could copy someone's homework.


• CDIS was your best friend. (what is this?!)


• The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellized characters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you math. (omg! I rmb the stupid lag comp!!)


• Waterbottles were slung around your neck and a must everywhere you went.


• Boys loved to play soccer with small stones or tennis balls in the basketball court.


• Girls played five stones and boys played with marbles.


• Science was fun with the Balsam and the Angsana being the most important plants of our lives, guppies and swordtail being the most important fishes. (I rmb angsana!)


• Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, immortalized in our minds from school textbooks.


• We conducted experiments of our own to get badges for being a Young Zoologist/Botanist etc. (it is always godma doing it for me =x)


• Every Children's day and National day you either got pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or useless plastic files with 'Happy National Day 1994'. (I always throw it away)


• You wore BM2000, BATA, or Pallas shoes. (mine is bata)


• Your form teacher taught you Maths, Science and English.


• You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained, and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes.


• There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday. (I hated them)


• Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $2 or more for pocket money everyday.


• You saw Wee Kim Wee's face in the school hall.


• Boys liked catching fighting spiders, earthworms or tadpoles.


• Collecting and battling erasers was a pastime for boys.


• Class monitors and prefects loved to say, "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!" You got booked for muddy shoes in class.


• There were at least 40 people in one class.


• You brought every single book to school, even though there was a timetable.


• There was a pro-yo/bumblebee, digimon craze at some point in time. (I have one bumblebee yoyo)

Home-d today! I want to go out and play but have to stay home and do work. Eeek! So super bored! Yawn!

Yesterday night, anna, jonathan, ah san and xiao pang came up for dinner. Then drew drew came home for dinner too. We had steamboat again. Whoo! And we were talking and chatting about aunty evon. Haha! Ok, confidential!

Before that, we were watching a movie on channel 5 - Wendy Wu: Homecoming Warrior. It is a diney channel movie. Haha! It is quite nice and of course, exciting. Ummmm! Haha! We were sooo engross in the show that the soup in the steamboat is boil and over flow. Haha! And it flow onto the floor and of course, all of us got scolding -.-

Then in the night, I was chatting online. Haha! Super duper not in the form of doing work =( Anne needs to be a little more hardworking. Haha! I realise that after attachment, I tend to do things slowly, own time own target, don't really care about dateline, got feel then do work. Eeek! I wasn't like that last time.

I was talking to jo and uncle about npy. Not really talk about him but ya, something related. Well, I find that it is a little hard to explain to them. So after about 3 sentences, I decided to just shut that topic and jump to another one.

Oh well, I find that there is not a point to talk about it either. Seriously, I do not know how to bring the point across too. Ahh! People don't understand cause' I don't understand it myself too. Haha! Oh well, I guess the only person who will understand is wai.

Brrrrrrooooo~ When can I start doing work?~ Haha!

Oh crap! I am soooo super duper uper bored! I am home alone now! I am serious about home alone. Haha!

Drew drew is not at home. He went out to bai nian with his friends. Mummy went out too. I have no idea where she went but yes, she went out. Daddy went out to work. See, daddy is so hard working and he won't be home for dinner tonight anyways.

Mummy is chasing me out of the house! Ok, not really chasing but yes, verbally asking me to go out. She kept asking "why are you at home? Why you did not go friend's place and bai nian? Why did not go out with friend? Why stay home for the whole of today?" And then she started her story about last time, she always go people house bai nian as a class.

Oh well, mummy doesn't really understand. Or should I say, my friends are not those kind of will go out and bai nian together. Yup! I know it is fun going around to bai nian together but sorry, my class does not does that. Suddenly, I feel like having class gathering like year 1.

Then mummy mention about her, under the company of daddy, with her group of friends going around to bai nian. And she also mention about going to the he-pang together with daddy. I did not know that mummy and daddy so romantic in the past. Haha! They always go dating and gai gai together.

Wa seh! And she after saying that, she asked me why I did not go out. So indirectly asking me why did not go out with npy seh! So end up, I just smile smile and continue watching television. Sadly, npy and I don't really go on date. Yes! We seldom go dating anyways. I realise my family had been asking me about npy and going out with him. Hmm!

Anna asked before (not once), why I am always home on the weekends? She say that last time, she and jonathan always go dating on the weekends. And I will always say "aiya, he busy ma." Haha! Then she will start asking me about how come he so busy. LOL!

Drew drew asked me before too. Occasionally, in the car, he will ask me why I am home or why I am not going out? Or sometimes, he will ask me why he don't see me going out. Oh crap! Another same answer "aiya, he very busy one ma." Seriously, I think this is the answer to all questions about him.

As it is lunar new year period, people had been asking me "why you never go npy place and bai nian?" Ahh! Same few questions and seriously, I find it damn hard to explain. But yes, it is not up to me seriously. Such things depends on him isn't it? Oh well! Complicated family background also. Haha!

Oh well! I am just bored! Haha! I am super happy, no school for me tomorrow. I can stay home and slack whole day! Whoo whoo whooo~ I shall go and see if there is movie to watch. Haha! Tralalala~

Forgotten.

Ah! Once again, it is forgotten.
No sincerity at all.
Forget it.
Not interested already.
Don't know, don't care.
What the hack.
Twice in a row.

Ha! Don't want to talk too much about it.
Cause' it is just forgotten.
So what reminding?
What past is past.
What forgotten is forgotten.
Say already only make one-self unhappy.
Might as well don't talk.
Save my breathe.

Acting ignorant to everything is best at times.

HAPPY NIU YEAR!!

Once again, it is 'working' day to collect money. Eek! This year, not much chances to collect money. Firstly, don't think there are any place that I am visiting. Secondly, you know, the economy. Thirdly, stupid damn school! Haha!

Early morning, I was busy nua-ing on my bed! Haha! Then have to bathe and prepare to leave house. Yawn! I was in drew drew's room busy playing and disturbing. Then I started zhi lian-ing. Haha! Drew drew got pulled in too.

Daddy drove us to granny house to bian nian. As usual, waited for sister and jiefu family to come and then start sitting there and ya! Sit there. LOL! Ah boy kor kor bought tons of sweets back from chinatown. He said that he went there yesterday night and is like, $10 for one BIG pack. OMG!

Then we went to grandma place to bai nian. As usual, when we reach there, there is something SUPER sounding. My aunts will start SHOUTING 'happy new year'. It is always the case. Then we have to acknowledge like EVERYONE. My maternal side is quite big. So yes, slowly acknowledge all my aunts, uncles, cousins.

We had our lunch there and yup, the food is not nice except the curry. Well, my aunts always make good food! Yummy! Then we sat at the dining table and started chatting non-stop. I was talking to my aunt about university. Kah wai is going university too and yes, they were asking me about it.

At the dinning table, we were discussing about my brother and army life. Haha! Oh well! Drew drew is going army soon and yes, damn soon! Haha!

Then I went to play with the kids. I am soo busy entertaining the kids and yes, suddenly I find myself soo old! Nicole was telling me she is 6 years old this year and ryan is 4. And then she ask me how old is kaitlyn and kaiden. After telling her, she ask "jie jie, so how old are you?" Idiot! Why ask me my age. Haha!

My aunts and older cousins started gambling at this time and yes, I was there seeing. Quite slack this year. And left grandma place at 4 plus pm. When I reach home, I doze off and yes, I woke up at around 8 plus pm. Sadly! My dinner was damn pathetic. Just a takeaway container of vegetable. Idiot!!

Ahh! Now everyone in the house is sleeping and yes, SLEEPING! And I am damn awake. Ah sian! Haha! I don't know what to do. Sian!

I had been seeing Diney on ice princess wishes advertisement on television lately. The song quite nice. Feel like watching but yes, I need to grow up. I was telling bff and he kept saying me childish. Stupid guy! LOL!

Oh well, I want to watch movie. I got soo many movies that I want to watch. Haha! I shall find one fine day and then go and watch. Whoo! Ok, first, I must save lots of money for movie. Stupid cny is on a monday! Else I can watch it like soon! =X

Zhi Lian! This is for being prepared too early! Haha!

See, drew drew got pulled in too! Whoo! My scandal boyfriend =) Love him!

Xiao pang! OMG de cute! It is really in the family genes! Haha!

See, this is my DINNER! Damn pathetic right. Some more there is ONLY vegetable. There is NOT even rice! Just pure vegetable. MY dinner ok! =(

Ok, Gong xi gong xi!! Happy lunar new year!!! Whoooo!!!

Accompanied joseph down to bishan today. He wanted to get a red top. So I be nice and accompanied him down to bishan.

Besides that, I stayed home and nua + eat reunion dinner. Steam boat again as usual! Haha!

Whoo!! Tomorrow going bai nian!

Gong xi gong xi!!

HUAT AH!

Week 15: One by one, SHOT DOWN! Happy and Sad~

Happy happy new year!

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x__[[Monday, January 19, 2009.

Yes, it is final review today!

In the morning, I was super duper uper late for lesson. DTLE lab starts at 8am and I reach school at around 9am. It is all thanks to the super late night sleep for the past few days! I had been rushing my fyp report and powerpoint. Yawn!

Drew drew supposed to fetch me to school. In the end, I woke up late and he left home without me. Eek! Then I tried to catch a cab but I failed to do so. I was at the bus stop downstairs, then waiting for cab. And there are two cab. One lady just ran out and took the first cab.

I flag for the second cab but he ignored and stop far in front where there is a guy wearing Navy uniform. Stupid idiot uncles. I am someone wanting to take a cab too ok! And they just ignore me! Then I waited for the cab and it got taken by another NS guy. Damn!

And in the end, I took bus down to school. And my mood was damn stupid bad. And at this time, I saw wisdom and yes, what a bad timing. I just want to be alone. Eek!

I took 985 and saw npy at the bus stop waiting for me. Then we walk to school together. Then I smuggle into class and sadly, got caught by chee. Eeek!

Afterwhich, I went back to project room and started chionging my project related things. Sian to the max! I have to rush report and powerpoint presentation. There are many things which I am seriously not sure and have to ask raj. Eeek!

And during review, it is a little crap. I am damn nervous and yes! DAMN! Ok, at least not much shooting from the panel. They are very nice to me. Haha! And after review, we were all chatting and crapping. Then I got named the por-teacher person. Idiot! Haha!!

Then I went to take bus home and slept on the bus. When I wake up, I have no idea where I was. LOL! After that as usual, took bus home and sleep!

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x__[[Tuesday, January 20, 2009.

In the morning, I woke up late again. And when bff message me telling me that he reach already, I just woke up. In the end, both of us did not go for aem. He went home to sleep since I am not going. Haha!

And he came and fetch me for miit lecture. In the end, miit ended in 1 hour. Yawn! Total sian-ness. A whole group of us headed back to project room and I started doing my csc report. Eeek! I can never seem to finish it.

I went for lunch with yongjian and fishy. While on the way back to project room, saw npy and his friend. Then I went back and do my report.

Bff says that he wanted to support xavier so we skipped aem tutorial. Half way through the presentation, bff decided to leave and asked me too. Haha! So we left and then on the way, we saw raj and started complaining about how foo shoot xavier until don't know what.

After that, bff sent me home. And when I reach home, I fall asleep again. When I woke up, I started doing my csc report until 3+ am in the morning. Yawn!

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x__[[Wednesday, January 21, 2009.

Today morning, drew drew fetch me to school and yes! Traffic jam all the way. Eeek!

During wisp, we had presentation and hai! Presentation is not good! A little screwed up for this presentation. After presentation, we went back to our project room and I started printing my csc report.

Then I headed to class for the stupid interview. Ok, it is a little screwed up though. I do not know why but everything seems screwed up. Ahh! The interview lasted for about 5 minutes and then I went to pass the papers to bff and headed down to sengkang.

I took bus down to hougang interchange again. OMG! I slept throughout the journey. When I reach hougang, I change bus to get to sengkang. Yawn! Damn sleepy. I am supposed to meet the buyer at 4pm but I reach sengkang at around 2.35pm. So I went to walk around and have my lunch!

Tick tock! Finally the person reached and then I headed off home. Yawn! I took 163 all the way and yes, doze off on the bus again! zzzzz This time, it was worst. I actually occupied two seat. Haha!

I went to get belt before heading home. This time, I went to bed to sleep again! Yawn! And this time, I woke up early so I will sleep earlier. Haha! And yes, I was busy chatting and trying to blog. Haha! Suddenly I feel so empty and nothing to do. Everything seems over.

Finally I get to sleep early! Yay! It had been ages since I sleep early~ =)

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x__[[Thursday, January 22, 2009.

ECE Project Exhibition!

As the title states! ECE project exhibition! Early morning, I cannot sleep and kept waking up. So in the end, I woke up at 5am instead of 7am. I think I am too nervous (like for wat?!). Haha! I changed and all and then waited for bff to come and fetch me to school.

Today, he have to fetch me, weishen and rebecca. So once again, touring around. Then we went to kap to get mac for breakfast and headed school.

The whole bme centre is filled with waiter and waitress. Haha! Black and white totally! Ok, everyone is in the room slacking and chatting

I got the chop!! Haha! People kept asking for chop chop chop! Then I started taking photo with people and whoo! Everyone seems so busy taking photo with one another. Haha! Zhi high la! Then we also chatted and joke around! Whoo~

And during lunch, it was some long table with many people around eating together. Machiam big family eating together. And of course, we started crapping and all. The food was the lunchbox provided and it is NOT nice. Haha! Quite a lot of leftovers.

Whoo! Then the juniors came and we started joking and joking. I have totally no interest in explaining my project =x I just ask them read on their own. Haha! As usual, room is forever noisy with all the playing and joking. And of course, chek wye is the spotlight! He is forever crapping. Haha!!

Then something happened between ece and bme. Ok, I think this has made the bme have lousier impression on ece. It is a misunderstanding which can be easily solved but sadly, it turned out quite complicated.

The ece guy is playing the remote controller toy with a camera attached and then it went into room 2. Ok, some commotion and then I decided to go room 4 (the ece were at) to clarify things. Who knows, the whole bunch of guys were behind too. Then the ece guy was super unfriendly and kept shouting at me. Ok, I stood in front.

I was super nice to want to talk things nicely but sadly, he is not. I even knocked on the door ok! Imagine knocking on my own project room door. Eeeek! And due to some I-don't-know reason, the guys got more agitated and a fight almost broke out. Whoo! Luckily there isn't.

You know, I am talking and smiling at the ece guy and yet, he continue scolding and scolding and scolding and shouting. OMG! I feel soooo pathetic. He just don't let me talk. When david wanted to interfere, the ece guy just talk talk talk. Even poor david don't have a chance to talk. We should have sent junlong to talk. He is best at rapping. LOL!

And in the end, the ece guy was sent to the tso room to talk. I went in too on behalf of my 'client'. Haha! This time, there is an ece counselor who mr kou called to come and help. I think the counselor is useless too. I think he have no idea what is going on and just keep asking the guy say sorry say sorry. What the hack! He go and bang head can!

Finally the thing ended and yes, seriously the ece guy's attitude is damn bad! If not because I am in np and I want to graduate purely, I would have slap him left and right, up and down. He kept talk talk talk talk and don't let people talk talk talk talk. Idiot! Zip his mouth!

Ok! Haha! Afterwhich, we went back to room and started talking and talking. I then realise that just now, my life was at stake. If they really fight, I sure get it. I am standing in the middle of both group. Eeek! I totally did not realise.

Then I was told to take a video on my life in np. Eeek! What a fake video. Haha! Nervous of course but bo bian! They asked me about my life in np and my best and unforgetable moment. When irene they all saw that question, their first answer was the previous matter. Haha! After the video, they came into our room and ask us to take a video! BME HUAT AH!

Haha! For the first time, I find that bme have spirit too! That is something which many of us found out. When something happened, they surely will support. OMG! Seriously, thanks people!!
Then we started playing with xuezhen's project. They are passing current from one side to the other side. OMG! It is quite fun too. Everyone was soo high seh! Haha! Fun!

At around 4pm, we left and then headed home. Yawn! I am super sleepy! Super tiring ok! Imagine standing for 7 hours with heels. Eeeek! My feet hurts!

When I reach home, I started bugging people for photos! Whee! I was looking through the photos and video and then realise. Whoo! We are having soo much fun! Come to think of it, there are not many chance and I guess it is the one and the only time we have sooo much fun. Ok, quite emo because suddenly feel that we are going to leave np bme already. Sadded!

Bff was telling me off for the blur photos. Wa liew eh! I also not on purpose one. Hmph! I have to slowly use filter. Ahh! I have poor camera skills =( Who ask me have a lousy camera! Idiot =x

Ahh! Tomorrow another day and soon it is CHINESE NEW YEAR!! Whooooo~

That ece guy is known as mas selamat of np bme. After graduation, jolyn and I are going to find him and give him one tight slap. One from each side! Haha!

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x__[[Friday, January 23, 2009.

OMG! Super feel like saturday. I don't wish to get out of bed today! Yawn! I went to school and saw yangfang while on the way to bme centre. Haha! She says that she wanted to go and get contact lenses. OMG! Mummy won't allow anyways.

Then we went to bme room and started chatting and david came. Whoo! We started talking about yesterday's matter. Haha! It will be the talk of the week. Well, at least for now. Then ctl came into the room asking me about yesterday matter.

And all thanks to the fact that they are at bme centre, they are at advantage and we are bullies. Idiot ok! Ctl says that because we are majority, regardless what happen, we should not do anything. What the hack! What kind of logic is this!

Then ckp asked us about what happened and we explained things to him. OMG! He got super agitated and yes, he should be around when such things happen. Sure side bme. Haha!! He even went to ask mr kou who the stupid counselor was. Whoo!

We headed for ce lesson and I feel super nua and want to sleep. Yawn! I don't feel like studying at all. Haha! So in class, I was just drawing cheng qian's paper. Haha! Drew drew drew! Whooo! After that, I was discussing with irene about bme things. Whoo! Soo much to do =x

I stayed in class during lunch time and nua-ing. Ok, then someone came and started talking to me. Eeek! He made me angry and cry. All his fault. All thanks to one xxxxx which I did not mean it. He is sooo bad! I was so angry that I went to bme room and lock the door. In the end, that someone came in by climbing over the divider. Ok! Find it quite stupid of him also. Haha!

Then we started talking in the room until tow koon came telling me he want to use the room. Then I went back to project room. Ok, I lost my cool and yes, I shouldn't have. Well, I guess yesterday I did not flare up because most of the words are auto filtered! Haha!

After staying and chatting for awhile more, we went for dtle lesson. And during lesson, everyone kept joking about yesterday. Haha! They were joking about the arguement the guy and gary had.We were all laughing and laughing so hard! Then lesson started and halfway through, we started joking about that matter again. Haha!!

Bff sent me home. I am super hungry when I come home. Haha!!

Tomorrow is saturday and I need to get something done asap. Just hope the things I want can be done asap and nicely. I wonder if she is free to help too! Whooo!

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x__[[Saturday, January 24, 2009.

It is saturday! Whoo! Soon is chinese new year! OMG! Ok, my house is filled with decorations! Haha! I think this is one of the few time my house have chinese new year decoration!

Last night, I am supposed to take photos from people but sadly, I doze off at 5+pm. And when I wake up blurly in the middle of the night, I see the door area is dark so I thought it is those kind of 2+am where my brother goes to sleep already. So I continue sleeping.

This morning, I woke up at around 6.30am and guess what. I know why the door area is dark! My sister on aircon! No wonder. Haiyo!! My phone was in my bag so I have no idea what time it as. ZzZzZzZ I am not very tired but just sleep all the way. Haha!

OMG! Just now on television, 7am, got this quite ancient show - 同一屋檐下 My Love My Home. Actually not very ancient. It was shown in year 2003. Haha! 6 years ago. The theme song is quite nice. I wanted to get it but you know, last time the technology is not as advanced. Haha!

The characters in the show are called situ haiyang, situ haixing, situ haihan, situ hailan and blah blah! I don't know their names. Haha! Oh well, I remember that last time grace was so into this show also. And there is this part, the youngest daughter have a boyfriend. And the boyfriend look sooo like ivan. Haha! Then I got a little eh! Haha!


The song!

This time, I was telling uncle about it. Haha! And duh, as usual, a little high. Haha!

Something sad happened and yes, I hope that the person involved is ok. Though I messaged that person and he/she says that they are ok but yup, still wish he/she will be damn alright! I guess that person will be super busy this chinese new year.

I was going through the photos taken during project exhibition. And yes, it is quite sad! Suddenly thought of the times we spent in project room laughing and playing around. Ok, and of course, like many people from bme says, suddenly saw the bond between and yup! It is quite saddening.
Suddenly it all reminds me of my secondary school where we had so much fun on the last day of school with non-stop photo taking. And that photo taking thing was continued by the gathering held the following day. We were all so high that even when we reach home, at least 3/4 of us were online conferencing. Haha!

Well, beautiful things are never eternal. Things are beautiful because it is short and not eternal. When we have it too often, it is not seen as beautiful.

Just like fireworks. People thinks that fireworks are beautiful and look forward to it because it always just come and go after a period of time. When everything ended, we just wish that it can continue coming. However, we know that it will not always come. If we were to see fireworks every night, gradually, people will not appreciate the beauty and yet find it irritating and normal. It is the same for all situation.

So, I really miss the time spent together and the laughter we had as a course. And of course, when I came into K4, thinking that my cliques were gone, there are 101 unhappiness. However, all thanks to the people in the class, I find that K4 is nice afterall!

As usual, I wish that we can have more fun like this (as a course). Well, project exhibition marks the end of our project days together. Ah! No more chionging and staying back in school rushing project together anymore. Ahh! I will miss those times! Emo~

I will miss them all!

Ok, as followed are the video taken on project exhibition! Have fun and enjoy! Haha!!


Presentation on Smart Vest by chekwye!


Passing the Current Part 1


Passing the Current Part 2


Passing the Current Part 3

ENJOY!

BME 2009 Graduate! Yay!!

The room 2 students! BME GRADUTE AH!

Random-ness!

Scandal at work! OMG! I love the pink. Anyways, don't ask me why andrew and jolyn. I just know there tons of background when the two of them take this photo together.

Jiaping and my bff! To make it fair, I put their photos together. Win-win situation!

Rebecca and my bff again! Haha!

Presenting the Finaly Year Students with their Project!

Room 2 Part 1

Room 2 Part 2

Room 3

Room 4 Part 1

Room 4 Part 2

Chee and Kanna! Whoo!

Ckp! The guys wants to take with him. Haha!

And of course, my supervisor, raj! Seem he have SOOO many project group! OMG!

People from room 2 =)

Room 3. Ohh! There are sooo little people!

And of course my project room, room 4 =D

People I want to thank soo much!

My dear project partner. Seriously, my project poster look damn nice in the picture (IN THE PICTURE!). Anyways, seriously, if not for him, I don't think I have the motivation to do my project. Well, in a way, it is because I don't want to pull his marks down, so I always try my best to do it well. Without you, I think I am damn lazy to do the program. Thanks partner!! =)

Dear dear vice president of bme society! Thanks sooo much for listening to all the problems I have and share the problems faced in the committee. I think without you, I sure will peng kui! Haha! Thanks thanks thanks!! And we haven't complete the shirt =x

Hmm hmm! Mr tan! My attachment partner. I remember him always accompanying me for lunch in DSO and his stupid random joke about my mother working as a COOK in NUS library. Stupid yet random joke. And of course, he always treat me sweets. Haha! I remember having to travel down to stella house alone. At that time, I was quite down and don't want to be alone. So in the end, he accompanied me through the ride. Thanks!!

Last but not least, CLEANER AUNTY! If not for her, I won't get to use clean clean toilet, though not as clean as DSO. Haha! And of course, all the clean clean floors and clean clean room! Thanks sooo much aunty!!

Qian-er and Jie!

Poeple says that we look alike! On the left is xuezhen and on the right is quynh! Haha! That is something new!

Chek wye and benson too bored is it?! Featuring 1-10!

Finally, it is over and over =)

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x__[[Thursday, January 15, 2009.

Well, early morning, had lesson again. How bored!

Had JAE duty again. This time is with the company of irene and weili. We were chatting, crapping and all. Then we also discuss about who having the 'engineering' look. LOL! And amazingly, I don't have. Haha!

After duty, we went for lunch and slowly drag our feets to bi lecture. End up, after 15 minutes, lesson ended and poof! All of us left. Haha!

I went down to hougang today! OMG! I took bus from np to hougang and then whoo! Went to get something. Throughout the journey, I was sleeping. ZzZzZz. When I reach hougang, I find my way through to the place and then took bus to hougang interchange.

When I reach hougang, I went around looking for bus to take to bugis to meet up with npy. I went to accompany him get clothes and then I headed home. Yawn!

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x__[[Friday, January 16, 2009.

Whoo! JAE duty again! Waste of my time. In the end, I go there for 15 minutes and then left the place and go back into class for DTLE. Whoo! After lesson, I went home and chiong my report! Sickening!!!

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x__[[Saturday, January 17, 2009.

Chionging my powerpoint slides for the whole day! I hardly sleep anyways. I am supposed to reach school before 12.30pm to meet raj. However, I am sooo into doing slides that I forgotten about it and whoo! Cab down to school.

In the end, I just spent 5 minutes meeting raj. How fast eh! Waste of my cab fare. Eeek! After which, I met up with npy and then headed down to clementi for lunch. Then we headed down to vivocity to shop. And then travel down to Bugis to walk around and lastly, headed down to marina square for dinner.

After dinner, we went to somewhere around esplanade and chatted. Nice chat =) The stars are nice eh! Saw many stars that night too. Whoo! Then npy accompanied me home.

On the way home, we were chatting about some things which yes, does cause a little emo-ness eh! Wa piang eh! Hai~ I am soo easily emo =x

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x__[[Sunday, January 18, 2009.

I spent the whole day doing my report and powerpoint slides. OMG! I am super tired! And of course, the company of my niece and nephew. LOL!

End up by the time I finish my report, it is already 5am in the morning! Yawn!!! Super tired =(

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x__[[Monday, January 19, 2009.

Early morning, I was late for lesson. And yes, happily, I went into class and chee was saying "young girl, why are you late?" Totally sian ok! I don't see him asking other people when they are late. Eek! =X Super embarassing.

In the afternoon, had our final review. It is still ok. Not much of the shooting. Yay! Finally I can go and rest my day! OMG! Finally ok! =) So happy!

After review, we were chatting and crapping all the way. And sadly, tomorrow, we still have to go school to pack our project room. Eeek! Stupid one. But seriously, room 4 is easy to pack. Nothin much to clear. Haha!!

I went to take bus home and saw angie on the bus. Then I came home and doze off. Drew drew woke me up to ask me go down for dinner. Yawn! I am sleepy. Yawn!

Just now I was trying to open a can of drink. And then by accident, the tab drop out and I can't open the can. So I took another one and try to open. And again, the tab drop out. In the end, I have to use the can opener to open. eeek! First time drinking like that.

I was doing my planning for the week and realise, I don't have much to do (for now). All that I have to do for now is the CSC report which I postpone due to FYP. And agar, I think that is it. Oh yes, and MIIT project too. Not only that, MIIT lab code. Haha! I better start doing it!! Tomorrow ok!

Good night =)

24 hours ago, I said fyp sucks.

24 later, my fyp finally ended.

and now, I still think fyp sucks!

You know, I would say.

FYP Sucks!

It really sucks!

Eek!

Price-less!

Say only. Don't need money.
See only. Don't need money.
Feel only. Don't need money.
Talk only. Don't need money.
Hear only. Don't need money.
Take only. Don't need money.
Want only. Don't need money.
Think only. Don't need money.

So there are things in the world which don't need money.

Scream, Shout, Scratch!

Today, raj says that he want to see my final report tomorrow. How sickening of that! Idiot ok! So I have to rush my final report now and my final presentation slides.

Tomorrow still got stupid boring JAE duty. Go and die la! I did not even enrol to do JAE tomorrow. Oh crap. Some more I am doing it alone. Emo some more! Sian sian! Nobody to talk to for the 2 hours.

I have to complete CE too. Eek! Then I have to complete my stupid GUI and then next week, present and exhibition. I doubt anyone will be interested in seeing my project anyways. Haha!

I am damn tired! I just want to scream, shout and scratch!! Ekkk~

I still want to eat cheesecake =x

Week 14: Tons of thing to do. Still manageable (I guess)

Yesterday, anne is a super stress girl! In school, I am busy doing csc and yes! Dying! I am super tired! In the morning, instead of listening in caem, I am busy doing lab report and csc.

And yes, I still got caem tutorial. And for today's tutorial, it is kinda screwed up. Well, at least some of the things he talk, I understand. Haha!

Project isn't getting any where. I am not progressing much too. Busy with other school work. Yawn! I am super tired!

At night, I am busy doing my csc that I actually go to bed at 3+ am. And then wake up at nearly 5am to continue doing. For the report, it says at least 10 pages but until now, there is 22 and counting. Haha! OMG!

Early morning, attended wisp. Once again, movie watching! The movie is quite sad. Emotional ok! =(

And for csc, supposed to have interview today but I think the lecturer forgotten and end up, I sat there and wait for like 1 hour and then headed home. I am super tired! Yawn!!

Sudden urge of wanting jellyheart cheesecake. Hmm! I think I too long never eat already, feel like eating it now. Ok, watch my waist. Haha!

On monday, o level result released. Well, congrats to those who did well. And for those who did not do up to expectation, don't be sad for it is a stepping stone in life. Work hard for later part of your life.

Anyways, catholic high got 12 students with at least 9 As. Oh. Congrats hur? And I realise, it is always those few school being the 'top' student. How irritating isn't it? I mean, in neighbourhood school, there are people who get straight As too. However, they are not known as 'top' student because the student have lesser subject as compared. It is not the student's fault, it is the school did not provide.

I just find all the interviewing of school crap. Oh well, they are always saying what friendly teachers, condusive study environment and all. It all depends on how hardworking the student is. And partially depend on the brain. Some of my friends are pure mugger and I don't see them doing very well. So it is just crap.

I don't understand why is there such crappy interview with all the schools. Top student, no big deal. Reason is because, who actually remember the top student~ All we remember is how much was the highest result and not the person. Ask yourself, do you remember who is the top student for the year you graduate?

Oh well, nothing to be exciting about. I mean, unless you are telling me that this 'top student' is the top student for PSLE and O level. Else there is really nothing exciting. Sometimes lady luck do make a differernce. All these 'top student' crap is just causing more stress to the generation. Which parents don't want their children to be top student? Studying so much and being top student does not mean they can do well in future. You may be the top student for 200x but when you come out to work, who cares about you being top student in 200x?

For the past 3 days, everything is on o level top student. I am not jealous or whatsoever but I just find that media is wasting time and money. Not only that, I bet the top student's tuition teacher is getting tons of call now. And I think the poor thing one is students. Poor children!!!

I pity the children!

Just now, I was surfing the net and found something damn nice! OMG!

It is damn adorable and cute!! Lovely!

Tomorrow will be another day! Yawn!

Stupid idiot!
Damn damn damn!
I am super tired but I have yet to finish csc.
Damn damn damn!

As usual, all alone!
What the hack is this?!
It just always happen.
ALWAYS!
Clock strikes and poof!
GONE with the wind.
Yes! Say until so damn nice!
End up, also the same.
Clock strikes and poof!
In the end, also alone.
Needed help, MIA again!
Since where there is even IA?!

Damn vex and pissed off with things!
Always no worry, no worry.
I think that is my biggest worry!
I should have protected from the start!
Damn bloody freaking idiotic!
Hate the feeling now.
Can't do anything right!

Sometimes I just wish that one day, it stop!
Sometimes I don't.
And for now, I wish it just stop this damn second.
Don't know what to say already!
Damn!

I hate school!
I hate report!
I hate rushing!
I hate this feeling!
I just hate everything!
Go away!
Now!!

I spent my whole day in school doing work work work! I am super tired!

Today morning, I went to school at 8am today though my lesson starts at 10am. I was there doing my gui =( And then at 10am, tat panda says that all we have to do is to sign our attendance. How crap! Waste of my time.

In project room today, we spent quite some time crapping non-stop. Haha! It is quite fun eh! I realise I am damn poor thing. Still, it is fun and funny.

Today suppose to be my review day and yes, supposingly, today is the last day for my stupid fyp. In the end, it is postponed thanks to jae. Shucks! I though it is over already and I am sooo wrong =( Emo!

For the whole of today, I am emo-ing + emo-ing. During lunch time, I called my cousin and yes, she is sobbing soo hard. I am emo-ing because of her and yes, I got so scared of things too. OMG! Suddenly, I realise that guy's thinking is so different from girls. Thanks to qian-er, fishy and uncle, I understand what they are thinking.

Now my cousin is totally undergoing whatever I have been through. All the complaining and regretful thoughts and she is asking me how did I let go last time. I totally understand how she feel and yes, I do not know how to console her. I just find all the consoling words are crap. Total crap.

I remember having to pick myself up from where I fall. I remember calling people and start sobbing like nobody's business. I remember tears falling down whenever I walk the path we walk before. I remember all the pain and how I had been so useless and a worry to others.

It took me nearly 1 month or less to pick myself up. I guess, I am too tired from all the crying and one day, I decided to change everything. Yes, I know that my cousin who is so much stronger than me will be able to make it through. She can do it =)

I went to change my fish water and yes, stupid irritating fish! I just change the water, one of them start poo poo. Waste of my time changing water. Grr! And amazingly, there is still 21 fry living till date! OMG! I am sooo proud!

Previously, I mention that there is 3 female and 3 male. After some time, I realise, one of the not fully grown fish is actually a male and not female -.- So that means 2 female and 4 male. And one of the female is forever pregnant and the other female is forever not growing up.

19 January is the due date again! =)

Anyways, I am looking at the calender. OMG! 6 more weeks and END of poly life. OMG! I am getting emo! I will miss the days at project day and pia-ing together =x I will miss the times where there is laughter and running around. And of course, I will miss the people there! =(

Oh well oh well. It is school and more school everyday! OMG! I am soo tired! Yawn! I want to sleep and nua soo much like what it had happened during holiday. I miss holiday! Yawn!!

Stupid MSN. Keep telling me message cannot send out. Idiotic freak!!

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x__[[Wednesday, January 07, 2009.

There is IS today and yes, video watching for wisp. And for csc, the lecturer actually told us that there is not a need to come today. And for the subsequent week, no more csc. OMG! I love him man! LOL!

Then I was discussing with limin and bernice about our assignment and yes! Finally end of discussion and coincidentally, I saw bff and clique leaving. In the end, bff came and fetch me home. Thanks!

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x__[[Thursday, January 08, 2009.

In the morning, there is open house duty with bff and chek wye. I think we spent 3/4 of our time there chatting and chatting. Haha! We had cotton candy too! OMG! My favourite! Yummy!~ Fattening and yet, love it! Haha! I better watch my waist.

I saw a group of guangyang students! I was trying to talk and psycho them to bme. And when I asked which secondary they are from, they said gy! OMG! I was like excited because from same secondary school. And they were saying that their maths teacher is ling-seet. OMG! One of my favourite teacher! And of course, grace chang. Love them!! They are all maths teacher. Haha!! See, I am soo inspired to be maths teacher.

After duty, we went to techno fair to look around and slack. Then we went for bi lecture. After lecture, we had practical. We lost our way to practical. While looking around, we were near the venue already. Then I suddenly turn around and ask these 3 guys where is block 44 level 2 room 6A. They were so stunned and answered me "some where around here". Duh! I know that too. LOL!

Yawn! I am super sleepy. It had been ages since I stood soo long. Suddenly reminds me of the day working as promoter. My poor leg~

After practical, I went home and doze off again! Yawn!!

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x__[[Friday, January 09, 2009.

Early morning, thanks to bff, he fetch me to school for ce practical. Yawn. So sleepy again. Haha! I am forever sleepy. We went to new canteen for lunch again. And during dtle lesson, I think I am like 80% sleeping. Haha! Finally school ended and yes, I went to hand in my finance form at the finance office but they asked me to attach the recipts.

I find it soo troublesome! Ahh! I want my money back!! Nearly $400 ok! I want my money =( Ahhh!

When I reach home, I doze off. I am supposed to look for npy at bukit batok. However, when I wake up, it is already 1am. Yawn! I am super tired! I chatted with uncle and then at 3 plus am, I went to sleep.

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x__[[Saturday, January 10, 2009.

By the time I wake up, it is already 10++ am. Then I watch television and played with xiao pang and ah san. At 1 plus pm, I left house to meet npy. We went down to bishan for lunch and shopping.

We went walking around and in the end, we did not get a single thing at bishan. How sad! LOL! Then we took bus down to marina square. We took 56 from bishan interchange to marina square terminal =/

We went shopping at john little and then went to walk around marina square and suntec city. In the end, I got myself a pair of shoes. My shoes are spoilt (again). My favourite white two tone shoes is spoilt again. That time is the front sole drop out, now is the back. How sian!

The shoes is sooo plain. I wanted to get the pearly white pair to replace my white two tone shoes. However, I realise that I do not have any black or dark colour shoes. So in the end, I got a dark grey one -.- Haha!

Then we decide to go down to chinatown to walk. LOL! And amazingly, I remember that we can go chinatown from douby ghaut thanks to going there with irene and clique. Haha! So we took bus down to douby ghaut and then change bus.

I saw a bus which look so familiar and I anyhow tell npy that it can go chinatown. LOL! So we got up the bus and yes, the moment I move to the back of the bus, I saw someone so damn familiar, samuel.

I saw him with a girl but she is totally not yong ren look alike. Hmm, that time the girl I saw on his display picture before I delete him (nearly 11 months ago), she is totally yong ren look alike and quite sweet. However, the girl I saw yesterday totally don't look like yong ren. No discrimination but she has china accent.

While traveling, suddenly, I saw someone familiar. It is samuel's group of friends. It is quite awkward I guess. Then npy and I move to the back of the bus to sit down. Haha! And we travel again and again down to chinatown.

There are SOOO many people. My feet is hurting from the walking. Thanks to my stupid shoes, I have to wear another pair. And for some reason, my feet always hurt when wearing the shoes. So my feet is like pain =x

When shopping at chinatown, the street where there are all the chinese new year things, we saw friends! Omg! I thought I am aunty enough. In the end, my friends are equally 'old'. Haha! We saw npy's friend and then I saw morven! I was looking around then suddenly someone snap his finger in front of me. Shock me ok! I was like thinking, who are you! Haha! Haven't recover from shock. =x

Then we got some food and continue walking. We did not get anything and did not walk much. All thanks to me and my hurting toe. Haha! And then we went to take cab home.

When I reach home, I bathe, wait for npy and then went to sleep.

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x__[[Sunday, January 11, 2009.

It is sunday! I did not do much work at all! OMG! I am soo dead! =( Emo!

I spent the whole day playing with niece and nephew =) Whooooo~

I am watching channel 8 and they say what chen xi and yue nian meeting again. What the hack. What kind of additional thing is that. It is all crap ok! Totally crap and yes, CRAP! Omg. They make it sound like another ending. In the end, it is just an episode summarising everything and say "thank you audience". How crap is all these.

Today afternoon, I was listening/reading/thinking people's love relationship story. One wants to get her, one wants her back and the other is that she wants him back. Why is everything soo haywire? Why isn't things simple? And why is relationship always a torture and confusing? Life is confusing enough. Why is there such thing more complicating called love? Why can't it be as simple as what bff says "love then be together, why make things complicated?" Is it that he take things too simple or is it that we are thinking it too complex?

Party One
One of them want to get her but she rejected. He like her, she like him but she rejected him when he asked. When he ask her out, she always accept. And they are always contacting and sending sms. Why did she reject? Suddenly, I wonder, why did I reject ivan again and again last time? Whenever he ask me out, I will sure accept and I will always wait for his call and messages.

And when he ask me to be his girlfriend, I reject again and again. I like him and he like me. Why did I reject him anyways? I just find it odd when I think back. What I considered was about us being in different school and then different circle of friends and all. And it is all these small things that I considered which cause me to reject him again and again. If I had accepted him, maybe first ex problem won't happen and everything will change.

Party Two
For one of them, it is that he want her back but as a friend of hers, I will say that she should not go back. I find some people just like a jerk. He totally remind me of my first ex. When he fail to get the girl he like, he come back and look for me. And he start telling me how much he miss me and all the stupid crap. And the worst thing is that he tell me he want to get back with me. It is the same few typical drama lines.

At that point of time, I wonder why aren't he shameful? Yes, I don't deny that I find myself soft hearted and did intend to go back to him. What he say is so touching and suddenly, I do not know why, I feel awaken and find my tears dropping upon break up for nothing. He is just treating me as a spare tyre. I hate such guys and I find them a total brainless useless jerk. They are just a disgrace to guys. If can, I will give the guy one tight slap for taking my friend as a spare tyre. Just wish that he can wake up, learn and change.

Party Three
And for the other one, she still love him and they broke off for some reason. Now the guy is going mia and avoiding her. When she ask him if he still love her, he say it is complex. And now, she is so troubled. She ask him out, he say that he is busy today and tomorrow and all. She message him, he hardly reply. When she call him, he always have excuse to put down the phone. He is not contacting her at all. And all these reminds me of samuel. It is exact the same thing as what he did to me last time.

Suddenly, I feel sooo heartach and pain. I do not know why but it suddenly remind me of all the pain and torture I undergo last time. His unclear feelings made me cry every night. His unclear feeling made me lose myself. And now, she is undergoing such pain and torture. Those days were dark and yes, I admit that I am scared of having to undergo those days again. And I tell myself I do not want to undergo anymore. Now, my dear her is undergoing this dark days.

Imagine having tears to numb everything, ever single emotional song would trigger the emotion, walking around as if you are zombie. I hate such things and yes, I hate it soo much. At that point of time, I just kept myself super busy and not think of things. I kept myself busy and busy that I fall sick and hardly eat anything. However, when I am free, my mind don't stop. I just wish to stay with her now. I do not want to let her go through such stage because I know what it is like to undergo these. I do not want to see her suffer. I really feel like looking up that guy and ask him what is he really thinking?

Why isn't relationship simple?!