Ok, I am sooo super lazy to update my blog. I am so tired! Ok, not very tired but more of the nua-ing too much that I just want to continue to nua. Haha! My juniors are in school having VPP everyday and I am nua-ing at home. And at the same time, I am still complaining. Shucks!

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x__[[Sunday, March 29, 2009.

I am still soo hooked to restaurant city. Actually I just so want to level up and high~ Haha! I am going to level up soon =)

In the morning, I woke up and start nua-ing. I watch one of the very nice kid's show which ended yesterday. OMG! SO touching! I cried while watching it. So super touching. It is the last episode already. Ah~ Yang guang yang guang xie xie nie~ Haha! Sound so like calling guangyang –.-

At 12pm, drew drew and I left house and went to meet anna and the kids. We are going to the airport to pick yong hui up. He is coming back from malaysia (i think) today. Aiya, he gone overseas for work and come back today. LOL!

We were late when we reach the airport. Hmm! We went for lunch after meeting him. We went to had lunch at swensens. Drew drew had Mega Burger! It is really MEGA!! Haha! It seems nice =) Yong Hui had Aglio Olio pasta. The name sounds so cute! Haha! Anna had all Hearty Breakfast set. Hmmm~ The sausage seems taste. And for me, I had Grilled Fish Sambal. The fish is nice. =)

We had ice cream after meal. Kaitlyn shared a topless 5 with yong hui, drew drew and I got hazel daze (all time favourite) and sister got her favourite coit tower. Yay~ I so love to eat hazel daze. =)

We left the airport and headed home. Yawn! I am so sleepy. I was already 3 plus pm when we reach home. I stayed home for awhile, nua and rot. Then after about 30 minutes, npy called and I waited for mummy since she is leaving house too. We left house together and headed to the interchange.

I am so tempted to go and take up english lessons. I want to brush up my english. Hmm! I will see about it. Well, If I can find something to take up then ok~ Else I will do the reading way~ LOL! Suddenly I feel so hardworking. LOL!

I took train down to city hall to meet up with npy. Hmm, so coincidental, the moment my train reaches city hall, his train reaches too. Ah, this is called fated! LOL! Joking. We met and went to suntec city again. We are looking for a key chain because he broke his. We walked around and found nothing.

Then we have no idea where to go so we decided to take bus around again. Die, that became our pastime. We took bus to changi airport and loop back. When we got up bus 36, I saw yiquan! I tried waving bye to him when we get down but he did not see =x

We went to millenium walk and from there, we went to suntec city for dinner. We went to the food court and I don’t feel like eating at all. So we went to this cafe thingy which I forgotten its name. I had kaya butter toast while npy got mee rubus. That is his favourite cafe I guess~

After meal, we went to take bus home. I went home alone. Ah~ I was listening to the mp3. Hmm~ So many people came up the bus. So packed!

I was so worn out when I reach home. I on my RC and started loading again! See, I am so hooked to it! I so want to upgrade my food but I need ingredients! The stupid thing is that there isn’t any market! We can only trade our food if we want the ingredients! Damn~

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x__[[Monday, March 30, 2009.

I stayed home the whole of today nua-ing and RC-ing. Damn! I am level-ing so damn super slowly! I want to level up fast and fast! Ahhh!

I was editing photos, keeping them and packing them. I have so many unsorted photos. I met up with wanrong to pass her the photos we took during camp, dinner and enrolment! I passed her some games too. Haha! We started chit chatting too!

I want to level up in RC!!! Ahhhh~ I am currently level 13 13 and 13!!!

Randomly, yi long came and talk to me yesterday! He told me that there is a primary school gathering. And it is on this saturday! Why is every thing on saturday?! Suddenly my saturday is soo packed!

Sister’s birthday is on saturday and daddy’s on sunday. We will be going out for a meal together on either saturday or sunday. And on saturday, I am going out with someone. Ah! I made the date with someone earlier. Now how! I have totally no idea =(

Waiting for ntu letter =(

It is getting from bad to worst.
Is it my fault for flaring up?

I think about it, feel so troubled.
In the end, so what I say?
Does it really matter?
It totally do not seem so isn't it?
So is it just me who wants to clap.

I waited and waited.
From 2pm to 5.30pm.
I initiated it.
Same old sentence.
From 5.30pm to 10.30pm.
Totally not meant for me.
I think if not for what happen, I will have waited till tomorrow.
From 10.30pm to 12mn.
Still nothing at all.
I initiated again!
This time, 10 minutes.
Fine! 10 minutes never come.
I think 10 hours is more suitable.

I am so bored! From the moment I wake up until now, I am sitting, nua-ing, watching television, playing computer game, chatting online. OMG! I am so bored! I decided to load the photos taken during camp =) After 2 days of sending, finally the photos are sent to me! The file is SUPER big! Haha!

We are the girls from the Girls’ Brigade =) This is what happen when I have a camera with timer, a table and people!! Haha!!

 

Bowling is fun! =)

 

These are the things made with angel clay. It is a kind of clay (duh!) Look at the national flag, it is done by ME ME ME!!! Super cool right! It is damn small! I had HARD time doing!

 

These are the girl’s creation! Isn’t it so nice and sweet?~ The one in the middle is the overall winner for the competition =)

OMG! I need some honey to sweeten up my boring life.
Ok, the unsweet seduction is super unsweet now.
Ah!!! I need something to spice up!

Give me something and I’d give you back.

I realise, ever since young, I had been thought something which I so did not realise.

"The seaweed is always greener in somebody else's lake"

People are always not satisfy with what they are given. They always feel that what they had is never the best. However, the moment they lose it, they realise how great that things were.

This is something which I told joseph the other day. This is something which is so common in relationship.

Before the guy get the girl, they will feel that the girl is good for them, they want her. And when they got her, they feel that other girls are better. They will always keep a lookout for other better girls. And when they lose the current girl they got, they will feel that they are the best. Isn't that always the case?

Oh well~ I don't want to be a seaweed. Haha! May be npy found a greener seaweed at some other lake hur! Haha~ Under the sea~

Ok finally, I change my blog template! Whee! It had been ages since I change it and yes! I like this template soo much that I spent long time editing it to the way I want. I so dislike xml! It is soo hard for me to edit the code. I sucks when it comes to xml. Well, at least I know what I should do with the html if I want something in my blog.

Yesterday, I went out with joseph! =) We finally went out together. We are supposed to meet at 12.30pm at toa payoh interchange and in the end, both of us were late! Haha! So we played the game of fate~ So coincidentally, we were on the same bus.

Due to the fact that I have concession, we took bus down to orchard. On the way there, joseph’s contact lenses actually drop out! Oooh! It was too dry. After we got down the bus, we went to hereen and look for a washroom. Hereen is super not toilet friendly! They don’t have much sign to show us where the toilet is.

While in the toilet, I decided to call back the person who miss called me the day before. And it was swatch! OMG! I was just complaining to joseph about my $139 watch being sent for repair for 1 month plus when I only got it for 1 month plus!! OMG!

We went for buffet lunch at suki sushi. We ate a lot! I am sooo full! I want to lose weight and yet I am still eating and eating, eating and eating! Ahh~ We eat sooo full that we just so want to nua~ So we decided to go kbox and sing and nua!

So naturally, at 2 plus pm, we went to kbox and started singing till 6 plus pm. We sang tons of song and yes! We even sing yi nan wang’s song! Whee! Haha! Li si wa gin xin zui ai eh lang!

After singing, we walk down to plaza singapura. I have to go and collect my watch. The guy said that they change a new ‘face’ for the watch. Ah! The best of all is he gave me another box =x Now I have 2 box and 2 star box~

I really think npy spend $139 to get everything new. Firstly, when npy first bought the $139, he notice some black spots on the strip and went to change. They change him a new strip. Then now, I went to service my watch dale, they change a new ‘face’. This watch is sooo new~ Haha!

After going to swatch, we went to walk around. Joseph saw his friend and due to some reason, we were stalking his friend before they said hi to one another.

So much for stalking his friend. We went to secret recipe. I so wanted to eat cheesecake! So we went to had cheese cake~ Whee! We sat there, started chit chatting and had cheesecake! The drink I ordered this time is super not nice! I had banana yogurt and it sucks!

We were chatting about npy and me. Hmm! There are so much to chat about it and yes! I must agree that there are many things which he sees and I agree. Oh well, I think we’d see as time goes by. May be one day, I will really become nothing. Haha! We’d see =)

We decided to go home after the cake and drink session. We took bus home! I am so tired! Yawn!!! I came home just in time to watch the channel 8 show! Haha! It is getting more and more exciting! =)

Today, I was doing my blog for the WHOLE morning! I had edited so many things that sandi keep nagging at me. It took me days to do up the blog and it only took her 1 hour plus to do up hers. Haha! Look at the difference! Yes! I better use this template for a period of time. Else my effort is so going down to the drain.

In the afternoon, I left house and went for driving. Today, it is the fierce fierce instructor again! =x He is fierce! He took me on wednesday and I was so damn nervous that I keep doing things wrongly. Eeek! Then today, he chatted more. Ok, for some reason, he remembers me =)

My gear shifting is much better today =) He thought that I secretly went to learn at home. Muahaha! I am improving! I should learn to be more relax and less nervous! =) May be I will learn better! Whee! Happy! There is improvements today. Tralalala~

After driving, I went to walk around toa payoh central and then headed home! Ok, I am playing restaurant city on facebook now! I am soo hooked! Ok, not very! It is sooo slow! They just earn $2 each time and they are super slow in action! Ah! Kill them all~

Ok, tomorrow will be another day at home! Sleepy~

It is wednesday! Yawn! I am so bored at home. I need income =( I think I can hardly wake up anyways. Today morning, I had to wake up early to chase for their signature. We are writing a card for drew drew! =)

Then I started studying again! Yawn! I am so sleepy! I went for driving in the afternoon. Today, it is my first time going on road! =) My gear shifting isn't very smooth. For some reason, my arm keep knocking onto the chair. Hmm! I am sitting too front already =x

It rained when I am driving halfway. Ah! What a weather. The aircon was damn cold =x After driving, I waited for time to pass. At around 6.30pm, I left SSDC and headed back to toa payoh. Ah! By the time I reach toa payoh, it is already 7 plus. I had to buy drink for drew drew.

I came home, eat dinner and celebrated drew drew's birthday! We had cake! =) I gave him 2 kinder joy~ Ahh~ Isn't it so sweet of me? HAHAHA!

At night, I was facebook -hopping. Hmm! I uploaded photos and deleted someone from my facebook. Ahhh~ 1 person lesser in my facebook friends list.

Tomorrow, I am going out with joseph =) Whee!

it doesn't matter what i say.
you don't read either.
our way of expressing is really different.

GB + BB! I don't remember what are the BB coys~ Haha! =)

The parade~ Whoooooo~

We are the girls~ =)

FOOOOOODDDD!

The colour party~ Haha! We are practicing slow march in the hall.

Wanrong, charlene and me~ We are soo bored while waiting for them to change out. So non-stop timer and photo taking =)

We are going HOME~~~

I suspect ms yao is soo in love with me. She takes so many photo of me =x Shy la~

Unglam hur?! Luckily I am super glam~ =) See, I have times where I am super shu nu =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DREW DREW!

Today is my dear drew drew's 21st birthday!
In another 1 year 5 months, it will be mine.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DREW DREW!

Whee! today is dear drew drew birthday and I have driving =(
Mummy bought a cake and we will BLOW CANDLE tomorrow!!!
Yay! Got can candle to blow already =)





am i that unreasonable?
may be our way of expressing is different.
hai~

Ok, I am blogging using this program which sandi introduce. Haha! It is called window live writer. It does not want to load my blog template because it is not in xml format. Idiot! Ah! If my blog is in xml format, then the template will be reflected in the program. Unfortunately, my blog isn’t in that format. I edited the html myself so yes! I so want to master xml! Haha!

Yesterday, I went out for driving. In the morning, I was nua-ing and nua-ing! Whoo! That is life! Haha! In the afternoon, I left house at around 2.30pm. Yawn! I am so sleepy~ I took bus from home down to SSDC. I was late again! Haha!

I went for driving and yes! I have to keep braking the car thanks to the congested circuit. There are many people taking traffice police test. I saw someone taking his tp test and he actually mount kerb when coming out from vertical parking. That is an immediate failure =x

I find my progress damn lousy today! I spent 2 hours learning how to turn. For some reason, when doing sharp turn, I fail to get back in lane. My instructor says that I seem to be damn scared to turn the wheels. HAHAHA!

My leg is damn tired! I have to keep clutch in because there are sooo many cars! And for some reason, I keep forgetting to change my gear when moving off. I was driving in 2nd gear and when I brake, I forget to change back to 1st gear. Then my car stall. So pathetic =(

My instructor says that I don't dare to step on the accelerator. That is of course! I scared later the car moves too fast! Haha! So everytime I just step so gently that my instructor keep asking me step some more -.- Later my car bang then he know!

After lesson, I took bus down to amk hub. Eeek! I don't like going amk. But bo bian~ Yes, I went down to amk hub and started shopping while waiting for npy to come. I was soo bored! I was walking here and there. I always find that there is nothing for me to shop in amk hub!

I went to meet up with npy then continue shopping while waiting for dinner time. Fly~~ We went to pepper lunch for dinner. Why is it called pepper lunch? Is it meant for lunch only? Haha! There is this meal and there is salad. The salad is NICE! I like! Can we go pepper lunch for salad again? LOL!

After dinner, we walked around for awhile. At around 8.00pm, we went to take bus home. Ok, I was surprised and happy. Haha! We took 88 back to toa payoh and then accompanied npy for bus 157 and then headed home. Super embarassing! Haha! We were talking and did not realise that the bus is here.

Then I went to take 235 home. By the time I reach home, it is already 8.40pm. Yawn! I start to nua, watch television and talk on the phone. Whee! At around 11 plus pm, I went off to bed. Whee!

Today morning, I woke up thanks to the rain! The rain was damn heavy and drew drew and angie were sleeping like pig! Angie is sleeping just by the window and don't care about the rain -.- And drew drew slept from 8 plus pm yesterday and did not wake up to close. I had to wake up and close =(

In the afternoon, I was busy studying. Hmm! I was editing my blog too. I want to change blog template! Whee! However, the templates were in xml format! Idiot! I don't know how to edit xml. And there are so many titles~ I don't write title hur!

Ok, I am having driving tomorrow~ Ah sian! I don't know why, I find it so sian to go down to SSDC. It takes me 1 hour to reach there ok! Ah~ Sian to the max =X

Mummy is going to get popiah for me =) Whee! I like popiah~ Shucks! I should stop eating soo much~ At this rate, my weight will go up up up and not down down down =( I need it to go down down down!! Ahh~

Suddenly, there is this thing between someone and me. I have totally no idea why. It was so damn sudden! Is it because of me or is it because wanted something new? What if it is because of me? I have totally no idea why!!! Ok, am I starting to think a lot again? Hmm~

after all that happened, you did not change at all.
you are still making people do things the way you like and you want.
how disappointing.

Yesterday was a torture. Ah! What a bad day for me. Lucky, yesterday was gone. Yesterday night, something quite emo happened. Once again, history repeated =x Ah~ When is history going to stop? I need to kill history. Haha!

Yesterday night, I was talking to someone. We chatted and planned and in the end, I cried so much. Ah~ I told someone that may be we should just do it. Ok, I so don't want to do it but that is someone's decision. I shall respect it.

So what I do not want to do it but still, I am good at respecting other people's decision. I think that is the minimum I can do. Since there seems to be no other way out, ok then, I shall accept it and face it. One day, the tears will go dry too.

My sleep was quitevery disturbed by dreams! I made about 6 dreams and 5 of them are all on someone. How disturbing! I woke up 6 times due to dreaming and suddenly wake up to face the reality. All the 6 dreams were nice. However, some things isn't that nice in reality. Face the fact.

For some reason, I called that someone in the morning and wanted to say something so much. In the end, that someone did not hear what I said. Should I say I am lucky or not? Then someone said that she will call me back. Once again, if it is not because I called, I guess someone won't initiate to call.

I tried convincing myself that some things are just over, no point thinking about it. I also tried to convince myself that since I already made that promise yesterday, I should keep with it and not called. Some point in time, I find myself useless.

In the end, I doze off and wake up, doze off and wake up again and again. Finally at 10 plus am, someone called me. In the end, there is a chance in plan. This change is something I wanted but I know, it will never be the same anymore.

Once again, I prompted someone. If not because I prompted, would someone say? Why is it that someone always tell me "I actually wanted"? If someone actually wanted, then why didn't someone do it? Why is it that the other party must initiate it then someone would come telling that person "actually I wanted to.."?

After the call was put down, my phone went dead. It went dead all the way. I did not want to touch anymore. I was waiting for it to come alive. However, waiting for it is like waiting for a rain in a drought, useless and disappointing.

I really start to wonder, is this change good? Or is it not? I had been waiting for this change but what is stopping things from happening? I really do not know anymore. All I know is that aching does not stop, tears do not dry up, tap is not tighten.

I wonder, is it because someone can't bare to execute the plan, or someone don't wish to do it? I wish it is the second one but when I asked, someone says that she can't seem execute it. Why must someone hurt the other party? Why must someone change her plan because she herself cannot do it? Isn't that selfish thoughts?

She used to tell me about how much she want to see herself with the other party in future. And yesterday, she told me about how her future will be "mine, his or ours". Suddenly I see her so uncertain about her relationship. I felt super uneasy for her. I suddenly feel the heart ache she is experiencing.

Maybe I am not someone, I do not know what she is thinking. I do not know what kind of feeling she has for the other party. I am so confused by what someone is doing.

Someone, what do you want? Is he still what you wanted? Or you just do not want yourself to get hurt?

once i was something. then i became everything. now i m nothing.

Ok, had enrolment today and things are so screwed up. Or should I say, my part is so damn screwed up.

Yesterday night, I went to polish and pin up all my badges. I don't really have many badges to pin anyways. I went off to bed at 1am. I can hardly sleepy. I was tossing and turning. Well, my mood is kinda pathetic too. I am nervous + emo. So yes~ Once again, history repeats. crying to sleep

Today morning, I woke up at 5am to bathe and wear uniform. I know that is damn early but you know, I take long time to wear my uniform and tie up my hair. I left house at around 6.15am to meet wanrong at my house bus stop.

We got up the bus and went to the mrt station to meet up with liting, lenice, esther and priscillia. In the end, we all come in pairs. Haha! While in the train, we were chatting and chatting until we reach douby ghaut. Yawn! So tired =x

We went up to ms yp's office to put our bags and then went down to church to prepare. The colour parties had dry run. Things seems to be going fine. So at about 8.10am, we went down to the hall to practice slow march in.

The service started and we had to slow march in. When I am going to pass the flag to rev lilian ang, I turn wrongly and it was damn damn damn obvious. OMG! How can I forget? How can I, how can I, how can I? I so wanted to cry out during the service =(

After the service, I went to take the flag back and we went up to the plaza for parade. Ok I am damn nervous. Ah! This is when things screwed up so badly~ When the colours are marching out, for some I-don't-know-what-reason, the wind blew and the whole flag covered my whole head. I cannot see at all!

I was trying to take the flag off my head that I forgotten to turn when I am supposed to. I was so focus on the flag that I forgotten the timing and command. By the time I realise I had to turn, I was late and it was on the wrong leg. I screwed things up so badly!!

And when given command to stand at ease, I had to put the flag down on the floor. However, I cannot take it down! The flag just won't get off my head. So I had to manually take it off. It takes time for me to get the flag off my head. And the best of all, that means I will not be in the same timing as the boys.

Ok, I thought it was over. When the commander give us command to stand at attention, the flag wave and cover my head AGAIN! And once again, my timing became off. How pathetic. Why is the flag so not in favour of me?

Throughout the event, I just so want to fall out immediately. I just can't wait for the event to end. I was hoping that things would end so fast. I don't want to burst into tears during parade. I was wishing things end~

During the parade, I am standing in front of the parade commander and I so don't want to look straight at his face. It looks so odd. He is looking at me and I had to look at him. And I don't know what kind of look to give him so I decided to just look at his buttons. So wu nai!

After falling everyone out, ah ha! Tears start rolling down and down. I find myself so pathetic. This is the don't-know-how-many-times I am being flag barrier and this is the first time I had such problem. I find myself damn pathetic as a flag barrier and I so do not want to be a flag barrier again.

I had to hide behind the flag to cry. I so don't want the girls to know it. I went to the post sec and started hugging the flag and cry. I tried my best not to let anyone see but I think it is damn obvious.

Then we had photo taking session. Hmm! The stupid photographer totally ignore my presence. I was holding the flag and waiting for the photographer to tell me what to do. In the end, I was standing there and all the photographer focus on was the two BB colours. Ah~

I am damn short! Or not. Haha! The guys were tall so even when I stand on the chair, they are still blocking my view. So the photographer ask the guys to pass me another chair and stack it up -.-

But the contigent commander for the secondary boys, who is also karyin's 'twin', is very sweet. When I have to go up the chair, the guy was helping me hold the flag and chair. Then after taking the photo, he immediately come and hold the chair so I can come down.

Then the photographer says that he want to take another photo, the guy hold on to my chair for me to stand back up on the chair. Then again, he came and help me hold the chair and keep the chair when needed to put back. How sweet and nice of him =) I am so touched.

We had refreshments and I was nua-ing there. We were joking and joking. Matthew is really a funny guy! Karyin wanted to take photo with her twin and with the help of matthew, they manage to take a photo together. Haha! We are like 'watching show'. Haha!

After refreshments, we fall out and then went to help ms yp to get the things back into the room. The post sec and officers went to ms yp's room to our stuff. Charlene, wanrong and I started to take photos~ We sat on the chair and on timer and started non-stop taking~ Whee!

We started off with wanrong and I standing, charlene sitting. Then it became wanrong and I half squat and charlene continue sitting. Afterwhich, it became wanrong and charlene half squad while I sit. Finally, we decide to take the chair away and the 3 of us sat on the floor. Haha!

Ms yp brought us for ice cream treat! Whee! We had swensons ice cream. Whee! Wanrong, lenice, ms yao and I shared an earthquake! Whee! I kept disturbing ms yao~ Haha! Well, I don't know how to pronounce her name~ I only remember how to spell so I keep calling her "grace e-u-o-d-i-a-s yao" Haha!

Ms yao's christian name got 4 syllabus, grace-e-uo-dias. Then the funny thing is, we ended off with a YAO! Haha! She totally sian~ HAHA!

I kept disturbing ms yao. Starting I asked her, "sandi's friend, how do I call u? grace, euodias or ms yao?" Then she told me to call her grace euodias or ms yao~ Ok, since then, I kept calling her ms yao! She said she wanted to drink water and ask me to ask karyin to take. So I shouted to karyin "karyin, ms yao yao drink water~" Haha!!

Afterwhich, I kept asking ms yao, "ms yao, 你要不要xxx?" Haha!!! For some reason, I kept disturbing ms yao~ Wheee!!! She better not kill me =x

We went back home after the ice cream. Yawn! Super duper tiring =x I reach home and zzz all the way till nearly 7pm! Tired!!!!

Is there still a need to talk?

The longer the wait, the more hopeless it sees.

How disappointing.
Why is it always like that?
Previously was like that, now too.
What is the difference?

As I waited, the smaller the hope.
From that very moment, I should have given up hope.
Why did they give me hope and yet not give me?
I so wanted things to go my way.
But what is my way?

I know that the more people asked, the more negative things get.
And obviously, the more hopeless you will see.
So what is the point of having anymore hope?
I should see it isn't it?
We know it very well, some things are just so gone.

Confuse or sure?
I don't know anymore.

No more waiting.
Cause' it will be dead.

Devastated!
Wishing and hoping but yes!

Does not really matter anymore.

Relax! I am not emo! =)

People use to tell me "Absence makes the heart grow fonder". Well, television program always show this particular sentence. However, does it let the heart grow fonder or does it give room to wander? Heart always wander when given room to.

People use to tell me "You will start to realise their importance after losing them". Why is it so ironic that we have to lose to realise? Why people don't realise it before losing? Why people don't appreciate it? Is it because we are given therefore we tend to take for granted?

People use to tell me "Treasure when you still have it". Well, some people do not even have it. And if you don't treasure it, the moment you lose it, it might be forever. However, how many treasure when they have it? And how many regret when lost?

People use to tell me "When you love someone, you want them to always be happy". How touching and romantic is that if someone really does everything just to make you happy. I guess it is very hard to give them 24/7 happiness. So, are you happy when we are together?

People use to tell me "If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; If they don't they never were". If they really come back to you, I guess you two are really meant to be. What if everyone have the same mentality? Neither will ever pop the question.

People use to tell me "Don't lose someone you love over pride". Is pride that important? How important is it? Why do people always want 'face' and rather be strong headed? But when they realise things are getting out of hand, is there time for them to turn back?

People use to tell me "I can't imagine living my life without you". Isn't it amazing how people says that and the very next day, they are still living their life without the other? And isn't it amazing that they did not realise they live their past few years without them too?

People use to tell me "Be yourself; everyone else is already taken". Since everyone is taken, why do people still want to imitate them? Why do people still care so much about others? Why do people still compare? Why is it so hard to be themselves?

People use to tell me "Beautiful things are never eternal". Yes, the shorter the event, the more memorable and beautiful the thing is. If you are given the thing too often, then you will get sick and tired of it. Gradually, it will never be beautiful again.

One of my friend just got out of love. I guess many people kept telling her to move on and be strong. "Moving on is simple, it is what you leave behind that makes it so difficult". I guess it is always easy to say I want to move on but we can't leave the things behind.

And of course, people will keep telling her that she will meet someone better, giving up was easy, just don't think about it. "Everyone says it is easy, but in reality, getting over you isn't easy at all". It is never easy to get over someone. It take tons of strength and perservance to do so.

A relationship ending is like a death almost. You need to grieve for it, reminice over the good times, grieve for the times you had planned that might not happen anymore.

People use to tell me all these. However, how many did I actually listen and execute?

日等夜等，终于等到了。但发现等了也是白等~

You can IGNORE this post!

I blog so much. Something so emo. In the end, stupid blogger die on me. How pathetic.

I don't know should I be happy or sad. However, all I know is that I am happy for some reason and yes, it cannot be shared. Well, maybe this is an exchange. Give me something and take away something.

Best you never had~

Yesterday is a bad + good day! Haha! Yesterday afternoon, I left house and headed down to SSDC for trial theory test. Ah shucks! I failed my trial theory test. I got 44/50. I have totally NO idea how and what to do. So yes, failed~

After theory test, I took 1 hour plus to reach douby ghaut from ang mo kio. So far! Ah! I was late and I had to rush down to church for enrolment day rehearsal. When I reach, esther, priscillia and I started training our slow march which is going to be done in the hall. OMG! I lost my balance a couple of times. Haha!

Then we headed up to the plaza and waited for the BB boys to come up. The colour party started training on our own and yes, quite pathetic =x I almost drop my flag when doing my drill. Haha! The flag is heavy one~ OMG! I am so damn weak =x

Suddenly, I feel damn no confident that I can do it well tomorrow for enrolment =( I feel so scared and worried. Ok, I am getting emo over it. I am damn scared I drop the flag or whatsoever. I need to gain some confident in myself hur?

Then we went to ms yp's room to help her with the gift wrapping. I took something from there! Haha! That thing is damn cute and nice =) And I manage to take the red one =x Hehe! After wrapping the gift, we went down to The Central for dinner.

We went to this japanese restaurant for dinner. The food is nice and yummy! We ate a lot of BLACK PIG! Haha! We chatted and start joking hur! Haha! Fun =)

Then we headed home~ Tired! By the time I reach home, it is already 10pm. I bathe and waited for my hair to dry and sleep! I think I played too much. Haha!

And today is a long long day for me~ Whee! Tomorrow will be another day~ Haha!

Yummy FOOODDDD! Haha!

Shabu shabu~~~ Wheeeeeee!

Nice nice dessert! Isnt it soo nice?! OMG OMG OMG!

Ting-er, ah rong and me!

See the three of us grinding the seseme. Damn fun! Haha!

Peekaboo~~~

This is ah rong's candid! Haha! She is soo cute~

Our psychic power! We bend the spoon! OMG!

I was sleeping just now. And when I wake up, the thought of "love is like a dream" came to my mind. Haha! That is super random hur! And then I started thinking and thinking. And I find it soo true~

When two people started out being together, it is like you falling asleep and starts dreaming.

When they are happy together, sweet dreams every single seconds. It is so sweet that no one wants to wake up.

When they are quarreling, nightmare starts! Sometimes, nightmare gets so scary that either of you just want to wake up.

When they go on separate ways, you are awake. Then you will start missing the sweet dreams had together. Wishing that you had never wake up.

When they decide to merge their path again, the cycle continues.

Oh, this is such a love and dream thingy!

So are you asleep or awake? Having sweet dreams or nightmare?
I am awake and wishing I am not.

The moment you said "ok".
The moment you explained why.
The moment you agree to it.
The moment the phone is put down.

I know things are going to be very different.

I went to bed at 12mn last night. And this morning, I am semi awake at 5.30am already. I kept checking my phone to see if I have any sms. I can't help but feeling damn nervous. I am so scared I will fail DTLE or AEM. Ahh!

I kept dozing off and waking up. I hardly slept ok! I am super duper tired! And yet I am scared =x

At 8 plus am, I receive an sms from NP. Here comes my result =( I am so damn scared hur! Actually, I am quite scared I will get D for any module. I did not get a D before =x Scary!!!

In the end, I got C+ for BI and DTLE! Thank God!!! And for CE, I got B. And for the rest, I got A =) I am soo happy! Though I know that my gpa is going to fall below 3.5, still, I am quite happy! =)

Ok, AEM is not reflected in the sms. I have to wake up and check school website. Amazingly, I got D for AEM3 and A+ for AEM4 =)) OMG! See, after 2 weeks of non-stop mathematics from 9-5, I got A+ =) Wheeee!

Tralala-tralala~~~

My gpa is only 3.44 this semester =( I wanted higher but sadly, I did not get it. My accumulative gpa is only 3.60. How pathetic is that? I wonder which university is going to take me? Ahhh~~~

I want letter from university! =( Why aren't they sending me letter? I feel that universities are so damn stupid! They only send letter to inform them about taking them in. And those who did not receive the letter means they are not taken in. How dumb! This would means those not taken in need to wait for next year to enrol for private. Idiot!

I so want to get into mathematical science or environmental engineering =x NTU! Please soo accept me!!! =( I need answer from NTU! Please please pretty please! Give me some answer!! =(

I so don't have any mood!
I so don't have any appetite to eat.
I so don't have any idea what is wrong.

I so want to lose weight!

Now everyone is asking me what I want to lose weight.
Isn't it damn obvious?
It is because two reasons.

(1) I gain weight.
(2) I am FAT!

Is that reason enough to explain why?

I just want to lose weight overnight.
I just want to hide myself under the blankie.
So no one can see that flabby fats.
Ah! I need to rampage my wardrobe.

Please tell me what can I do to cut that fats away.
Tell me please =(

Yes, I was so super reluctant to leave house in the afternoon. In the end, I dragged myself out of the house. I don't really have a choice hur? I grabbed my shirt and left the house. I was emo-ing throughout the journey. I went to take bus 153 down to GBC. This time, it is the right one.

The 153 was super duper aircon-less! I am sweating soo much! My shirt is soaked! Luckily, I am wearing black. Else it will be damn obvious. I was emo-ing all the way. Haha! That is the best I do. I finally reach GBC and got my pocket crest.

I took 136 down to yio chu kang and change bus. I wanted to take 260 something but for some reason, I decided to take cab. Hmm! In the end, when I reach SSDC, I realise that lesson starts at 3.20pm instead of 3.50pm. I told everyone 3.20pm =x

I went for my first practical lesson. Yes, I spent 1 hour turning round and round the circuit -.- For the whole lesson, I only stalled my car ONCE! I am serious. I only stall the car ONCE ONCE ONCE! And that once, is because I was reversing and suddenly a car appear out of no where. Then I so scared that I bang onto it that I stop immediately. Haha!

Well, the instructor says that I am soo pro =) He don't believe that it is my first time driving. Haha! Whee! Clever kid hur! I am talented. Ok, enough of self praise. I better don't stall the car the next lesson. Else it will be super embarassing.

After lesson, I waited for bff to come and then went to great world for dinner. We had dinner at crystal jade and then we got nothing to do so we decided to watch a movie. We went to watch street fighter: legend of chun li. OMG!

We really just picked a movie randomly because of the time. Ok! It is damn random. We went into the cinema and realise that there is less than 10 people watching the movie. The show is so damn boring! There is no climax at all! OMG! There is no chunli trademark hairstyle, no china attire. And that chunli is an angmo! OMG!

After the movie, we went to meet up with jiaping. We travel from tiong bahru market to tiong bahru plaza. We manage to find our way there. We started waiting for jiaping to come. I almost doze off ok! Hahaha!!

We travel down to serangoon garden to chill out. I drank strawberry + banana! It is damn nice. Haha! Both are my favourite fruits~ Hehe! We played monopoly while passing time. Whee! At around 12mn, we went back home.

See, I am home now~ Ok, I am still feeling emo. I don't deny that I still do not have mood eh. I have yet to sort out my thinking. Well, thanks to bff and jiaping, I laughed a lot today. Even so, I still want to hide in my blankie and think of a way out. And I shall do that tomorrow.

My feet is soo itchy! I so want to chop it off! =x Ok, tomorrow, I am going to stay home! I am so determined! Haha! And get myself prepared for the results release on friday. Pray hard that I don't bring forward any module. And please please please pass my aem =x And of course all other module.

Bff got offer from ntu, nus and smu already =x I am starting to get worried and emo! Why don't I have any? I want to hear something =x I am quite worried and scared that I cannot get in any =x Hai~ All blame to my poor results. Hai~

Oh well, it is all fated! =x

I so don't feel like going GBC.
I so don't feel like going SSDC.
I so don't feel like going out.
I so don't feel like going out of my house.
I so don't feel like going out of my room.
I so don't feel like going out of my bed.
I just to hide under my blankie! =(

Suddenly, my mood just got down the swing.
Suddenly, my mood is like 0.
Suddenly, I don't feel like talking to anyone.

Previously, it was all a lie.
How true is it?
Suddenly all that I believe is wrong.
Or should I say, my thoughts are wrong.

True enough.
It wasn't a lie.
It is just that it wasn't told.
Or should I say, not directly told.
Nothing about it was mentioned.
Just that it is mentioned now.

So all along, I thought I was right.
In the end, I wasn't.
I am so wrong.
Who to blame besides myself?

I want to lock up my phone.
I don't want to talk to anyone.
I don't want to talk about this.
So don't ask me what is wrong.
Because, I so don't want to talk about it.
Regardless who you are, I don't want to talk about it.
Sorry!

I need to sort my thinking.
It is just a simple sentence.
And why did I get all so worked up?
Why am I so stupid?
Why why why?
I should have known the obvious.
心知肚明

=(

I WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT!
And I am super determined!
I so want to lose weight!
I will do everything thing to lose weight!
YES!

I am so mood-less.
And it is all because one sentence from you.

In the afternoon, I slept! I am so tired eh! I want to sleep sooo much =x

I doze off at 12 plus pm and slept all the way to nearly 4pm. And at around 4.15pm, I left house and headed down to GBC to get my pocket crest. Happily I left house. OMG! The sun was sooo big big big! I am melting -.-

I walk to the interchange and took 153 down to serangoon. I was listening to music, messaging npy and watching mobile tv. Whee! Time was ticking and I am getting late. GBC closes at 5pm. And yes, at around 5pm, I am no where at GBC.

I was panicking and I message sandi about it. At around 5.15pm, I told npy that I am at alexandra road. Hmm! Npy was telling me that I am on the wrong bus. I am damn confident that I am on the right bus. After 2 messages from npy, I reach the interchange, bukit merah interchange.

Ok, I took the wrong side -.- Throughout the journey, I was trying to see the high high flyover which bff took to fetch irene home. I can't see it anywhere! I was soo lost =x When the bus reaches serene centre, I start to suspect that I am going to get lost. I decide to try my luck and tada! I am really lost -.-

I've been to GBC for more that 5 times and it is the very first time I am lost =( So no choice, I have to go down to GBC again tomorrow. Ah!

I took bus back to toa payoh to meet up with npy. I was late. I feel so damn bad! I really did not mean it. =( I did not know that I will take the wrong side which made me late. If I had took the right side, it only takes me 1 hour to go and come back from gbc.

We took bus down to novena for dinner. We went to the food court and I had fishball noodles. I want to learn to eat spicy food. Npy loves spicy food and I am so going to learn to eat. I feel so damn guilty that everytime, because of me, he will have to eat food that is not spicy. I feel damn damn guilty.

We sat outside velocity and chatted. I like being cuddle like that. Npy, you better remember ok! Ok, I was emo-ing all the way. When we reach toa payoh, after some arguement, I finally cannot take it and say everything out. Oh shucks! I am crying again. Haha! It had been quite some time.

I am so tired after crying! Npy sent me home and up the lift and then he headed home. I bathe and drop dead! Haha! =x

Night people!!

To a friend of mine:
It is the fact that you knew guy A first. It is also the fact that he is an ec. You told me you were interested in him. If not for him, I won't have know you. We first chatted and I remember that I prompted who you like or something like that. And you told me that you are interested in him. You tried asking him out but he rejected you. You wanted to know him better. I have no idea why but instead of him, it became another guy, guy B.

So where did guy A left to? So who is guy B to you? You told me how you felt towards guy A and guy B. You told me how everything flows. I believe and trusted you. However, I guess guy B will still feel a little scared isn't it? I mean it is a little like you are treating guy B as substitute. I know you don't mean it but after all that guy B had been through, I think he will be kinda worried and scared too. I guess he don't want history to repeat.

I know that you had been arguing with guy B over this matter. I heard your side of story, I heard guy B side of story. I know that you really loves guy B and vice versa. Give guy B some time. I believe he will trust you. He always trusted you. He had never doubted you. He just feel insecure because things came too fast.

After so long, I believe guy B had overcome some of the phobia he used to have. At least guy B trust you more than ever. I am not sure if you sense it, but that is what guy B tells me. Please give guy B more time. You are everything guy B wants. So don't give him up ok?

My dear friend, please don't give him up. Don't feel disappointed for what he had done because he had no intention. Guy B do not want to think and fill in the blanks too but he is just scared. I know that both of you feel the same way. So don't give each other up. Jia you ok! I know both of you can last long if things were to work out properly. The feeling is right.

Boohoo! I am having a busy busy schedule for this week. Haha!

Tuesday - Meeting npy at 5.45pm.
Wednesday - I got driving at 3.50pm.
Thursday -
Friday - TTT at 1.05pm and GB rehearsal at 3pm.
Saturday -
Sunday - GB Enrolment day. Meet wan rong and liting at 7.15am.

Ah! I have to go down to GBC but I have no idea when should I go down =x I have to go and get my pocket crest. Sandi forgotten to bring it for me the other day =( When should I go down?~ Hmm!

On friday, I am going down to wesley for enrolment day rehearsal. OMG! I am so super stress =x It had been sooo long since I hold on to GB flag =x Jia you anne! Haha!

And on sunday, I am going to wake up so super early! I am meeting wan rong and liting at 7.15am. That means I 6.50am need to leave house. And that means, I 5.50am need to wake up, bathe, prepare. It had been ages since I wear uniform. That means, I will take a LONG LONG time to prepare =x

Jia you anne =)

Whoo hoo! I am back from camp! I am super duper tired, which I have totally no idea why! Haha!!

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x__[[Friday, March 13, 2009.

Whee! I started packing my bag at night. And it is so damn terrible. I am squeezing my things into the bag. OMG! Haha! Squeezing and squeezing. So hard to squeeze things into it. Eeeek!

Finally I get to sleep at like 2 plus am. My clothes are washing in the washing machine now. Haha! I am so super pro. LOL!

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x__[[Saturday, March 14, 2009.

I woke up damn early today for camp. I am meeting wan rong at 7.15am at the bus stop. I have to wake up earlier because I have yet to finish packing. Haha! How great! I have to go and blow dry my clothes. Eeek!

I reach the bus stop at 7.15am. I was waiting for wanrong to come. I saw 2 buses left~ Wan rong was so late that at 7.30am, I called her and nobody pick up. And when the second 57 left, wanrong called and say that she is not meeting me already because she just wake up 0.0

So in the end, I just took cab down to gy. I am so going to be damn late if I am going to take bus down. So I took cab. When I reach gy, I saw the girls. Ok, I have totally no idea who they are. LOL!

I went into school and I find myself sooo odd! After talking and chatting with soo ying, wan rong came. Whee! Finally. We got up the bus and started living in our own world. When we reach the campsite, the whole group of whitley girls are already there. We are having combine camp with whitley.

The first thing we had is briefing and then followed by games. The girls are playing whacko. Haha! I am slacking over there. Whee! After ice breakers, they were sitting in groups and doing up some poster for their group. Then we had drill.

I took the gy sec 1 for drill. I find myself sooo fierce =x Haha! Halfway through, sandi took over. Wan rong and I join in the group and do drill too. I was the timer. To be frank, I am so bored! Well, the timing is always one check one. Haha! Nothing changes. So we did turning and turning, turning and turning for nearly 1 and half hour D:

We had lunch after drill! Lunchie lunchie lunchie. Their lunch is buffet style. We can take as much as we want. It is not like last time, we have lunchbox. The food is not bad. I only like the fishball. The vegetable and meat is not something I fancy.

After lunch, we were preparing to go down to nee soon camp for drill competition. The weather is damn damn hot! We were all melting =( And at nearly 5pm, the rain came pouring down and we had to walk a very very far way to go some indoor stadium. We were late!

By the time we reach the campsite, it is already 6.30pm. The girls are supposed to go and bathe. So coincidentally, the junior coy were bathing too. Wanrong and I were there being ushers. Haha! We had to usher the primary coy and secondary coy.

After bathe, we had celebration. The girls got bronze for drill competition. Congrats! We had pizza! Yummy! I tell you, we don't always get that. Or should I say, we have never got pizza for dinner.

We were playing games after which. We were given 12 straws, 1 balloon and masking tape. We are suppose to protect the egg from breaking after it is being wrapped using the items. My eggy broke =( The first egg broke when I am trying to stick the masking tape. And the second time, it was when I threw it. =(

After closing prayer and vesper, the girls were given ice cream for supper. Whee! I did not eat at all because, I am scared later I tummy ache at night =x

I slept with wanrong on the same bed. There is not enough bed for us so we had to share. I am so scared I kick her. Haha! I am quite tired =x

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x__[[Sunday, March 15, 2009.

It's sunday! Morning, we had to wake up for exercise. I did not exercise though. Haha! We went out to the park for a walk. After which, liting, wanrong and I started planning and practicing for devotion. Stress!!

We had breakfast and after which, we had devotion. It is the first time after 4 years I led devotion. I am so super stress! I am so scared I will do the wrong things =x Stress!

After devotion, we had drill again. I taught joey, ying ying and sylvia how to do marching. Haha! Whenever they can march properly and stop in line, I got so super happy. And they were asking me why am I so high -.- LOL!

Then we went for badgework. Wanrong, liting and I went to help out with the angel clay. OMG! It is damn smooth! Fun!!!

After lunch, we went to bathe and started doing the angel clay again. Whee! I tell you, it is damn fun! The 3 of us were playing a fool. Haha! Fun!!! =)

Then we had dinner and went out for special night. We went down to yishun safra for bowling! I started zhi pai with timer. Haha! Then slowly, more girls came and then the whole of 6th coy took a photo together =)

We went back for vesper and then wash up. LIGHTS OFF!

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x__[[Monday, March 16, 2009.

In the morning, we had exercise and break fast. Yummy yummy! Bread for breakfast again. Haha! I had butter + kaya. Nice nice =)

We had devotion and then badgework. I helped out with testing the girls their GBK. Ok, I tried my best to pass all of them. And after GBK, they went for a short drill and we had games. We had the chair game.

It is soo fun =) After lunch, we went for presentation and debrief. And then the whitley girls left and we started chatting and playing together. The bus came at 4pm. We went back. Ms yp fetch wan rong and I home =) Thanks soo much.

I am so tired that I zzz! And then drew drew wake me up for dinner. Yawn!!

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x__[[Tuesday, March 17, 2009.

In the morning, I woke up and started nua-ing =x Yawn! I am soo sleepy! Though throughout the camp, I am slacking the whole day, I am still so tired. Haha!

Hmm! I want to zzz! =x

I am totally free =)

Finally I am experiencing what my friends experienced it 2 weeks ago. Suddenly, it is the FREE! Haha!

I am quite confident that I can pass aem4. However, I am so unsure if I can pass aem3 =( I just soo wish that I can pass my aem3. Well, I mean I tahan so far, and if I really manage to pass aem4, it is damn wasted!

My class was planning a dinner at pizza hut after paper. Well, I have to get home to start packing my camp stuff. I feel so bad not joining them. I feel so bad not going with them. I feel so so super bad. Though we are NOT close in class at all, I still feel so bad. Ah! =(

I was checking my facebook and there is this "friends finder" thing. And they were showing someone I might know. The person's name is "Roy Soh". And suddenly something came to my mind, "Roy Soh Wei Kiat". HAHAHA!

Ok, this is a long story! Last time, when I was soo young, in primary school, I always visit my godma place, which is also kenneth's house. Roy is kenneth's neighbour and his play mate. I think he is same age as kenneth. Everytime he will come and sit outside kenneth's house door to play.

And for some reason, I played with him too. The funny thing is that ever since then, he started coming very often. And when he asked kenneth about me or something like that. When I walk pass roy's house, he will come to the door and talk to me -.- Hmm! And then the poo poo club started some "roy likes anne" thing. LOL! I have totally no idea why.

Roy's full name is roy soh wei kiat and we call him "roy so wicked"! Haha!!!!! So everytime when I walk out of kenneth's place and to the lift, we will walk pass roy's house and I will RUN away. Haha!

Ah! We are so damn naive when we are young. OMG can! Haha! And when people says that "xxx likes you", you will smile smile and avoid him. Ok, that happens to me. LOL! That is soo when I am young =x

Suddenly, I miss amos. This is another 'in-house' joke! Haha! Save the story next time =)

Off to pack my bag =)

Ah ha! I am so into yi nan wang song! OMG!
"Ahh ji ai li ji lang"
OMG de nice!
And the singer is cai xiao hu. Haha!

In a few more hours, I am free!
Free from exam, free from aem, free from school!
Today is my last day in np =(
Now I will say today is really my last day in np.
I think if not needed, I will not go down anymore.
Which I think the only time is visiting or graduation.
Ah so sad!
Or not. LOL!

I was youtube-ing on yi nan wang! Haha! OMG!
Brought back so many memories!
I watched the last episode which is 526.
And it is damn damn damn touching!
One of the scene, shows sheng tian die! OMG!
I am damn sad! So sad ok!
And after that showing jia jia die too =(
And then pei qi became good =)

I really feel that li zhu damn zai!
The moment she comes back, everything changes.
The company overcome crisis again.
Pei qi became good.
Tian zhu and shan ni's relation improve.
OMG! I really like lizhu damn much!
And best of all, lizhu and sheng tian damn loving!
Until so long and so old already, still so loving.
OMG! So touching =x

Ok, end of touching.
Touching some more, I fail aem already!
Back to studying!
I still have camp stuff to settle.
Eeek! =x
Jia you jia you!

"li si wa gin xin zui ai eh lang"

You can IGNORE this post!

I was talking to lilian and then suddenly remember, I got driving next wednesday! And I am going out with bff and jp after driving =x OMG! I totally forgotten about it. I was still so super looking forward to wednesday to meet npy =(

Monday - met npy to get trip stuff.
Tuesday - did not meet. Npy work OT.
Wednesday - he go bintan. 0630 reach np.
Thursday - he still at bintan.
Friday - 2215 come back.
Saturday - I go GB camp. 0745 reach gy.
Sunday - I still in camp.

Monday - 1700 come back.
Tuesday - he got tuition
Wednesday - I got driving at 3.50pm. Meeting bff and jp after which.
Thursday - he got tuition again.
Friday - TTT and GB rehearsal.
Saturday - Npy got something on. I just can't remember what is it.
Sunday - GB Enrolment day.

Monday - I got driving at 3.50pm.
Tuesday - he got tuition.
Wednesday - I got driving at 3.50pm.
Thursday - he got tuition.
Friday - I got driving at 3.50pm.
Saturday - his niece birthday party.

Ah! Ok, driving is 2 hours and we stay quite far apart so that explains why I can't meet him after driving. Hmm! Ah! I think I can't meet him for quite some time.

EMO!

Tomorrow is Friday! It is aem exam tomorrow evening. And he is coming back tomorrow night. I am packing my camp stuff tomorrow! He is coming back, I am going. Ah~

Today morning, went to school for aem! While waiting for bff to come, there is this china guy who suddenly approach me and talk to me. He asked me if I can help him call singtel because his phone is spoilt.

When he said that, I thought he wanted to borrow my phone. So I started pressing and then he say call using his phone. So I used his phone and call singtel. For some stupid reason, there is not a single operater who can speak chinese. What the hack! Why is there such service?

We went to school and yes, bored! Today is self studying in school again. How sick and tired. Ah~ I spent the whole day at school. Yawn! I am so sleepy!!!

In the evening, I went down nyp to meet wanrong, liting and charlene to discuss about the songs for devotion. Hmm! We are going to lead devotion during camp. So we had to discuss. I lost touch of the songs already! And today, this meeting had brought back many songs! Ah! Haha.

The discussion ended at nearly 8 pm. Yawn! Each of us proceed home to have our dinner! We specially meet for planning the song. Some more we met from 5pm to about 7 plus pm to discuss the songs. Well, it had been ages since we planned songs and yes, the worst of all is many songs, we were trying to ring some bell. Haha!

Ok, I am super tired! And it is 10pm already. Yawn! I am super sleepy! I have to study for aem. Phew! I am so scared that I fail aem3! I don't want to fail aem3! Well, I am quite sure that I can pass aem4 and the last thing I want is to fail aem3 =(

Sometimes, some things I really don't understand. I really do not understand at all. Why is it that it is A and yet, B is surfacing? I really do not understand at all. I just don't like the feeling and the way things are done. I feel so like switching off with regards to it but I just can't. Is there some ways that I can do things?

Something happened and yes, I find myself so fake. Ah! I hate myself! I find myself so fake. Is it just me or is it that everyone have something to hide? And yes, seems like the gap is getting bigger and bigger. So big that I can hardly balance on the board. =(

I just can't wait for 20th to arrive.

I skipped lesson again today! Haha! I feel so bad skipping lesson but I did inform dr. li. Haha! See, I am a good kid afterall.

In the morning, we had our quiz and I tell you, it is damn pathetic! OMG can! I think I am going to fail this quiz =( Luckily, for exam, this chapter is only about 40%. I still can pass. LOL! That is if I maintain the 60%! I need a minimum of 39 marks to pass. Haha!

After the quiz, sister message me asking me to accompany her down to lavender to get her passport done. And so coincident, bff's friend ask him go kbox. So yes, we decided to skip lesson and we inform dr. li about it.

We went to makan place for our lunch. After lunch, while leaving np, we saw tons of student holding boxes! Haha! They are buying their laptop! OMG! I bought my laptop 4 years ago =( Suddenly I feel so old! Haha!

After lunch, we went down to SSDC. I wanted to book driving lessons. I booked a total of 25 lessons =( That means, $1920.15 gone! That is so super sad! I find myself so bad to hover the computer for so long.

Then bff fetch me home. Hmm! At ssdc, I felt super unwell! Period is giving me problem again =( When I got up bff's car, I was feeling crap! Ah! I did not talk much to bff too! I am super unwell! Haha!

And when I got down bff's car, I still feel super unwell and can't wait to get home. Who knows, when I walk from my house bus stop to home, I started feeling super giddy that I almost fainted! My vision was totally white! OMG! I am sweating, cold sweat! With the help of the pillars, I manage to survive to my house downstair's open space. I stayed there for quite a while before 'crawling' home.

When I thought I can continue walking, who knows at the lift lobby, I start feeling giddy and again! And finally, I manage to crawl home and lie on my sofa! And then I crawl into my room. When I can walk, I change out and crawl into daddy's room to rest. I am sweating like don't know what. My whole body was cold! I hate period!

I finally doze off! And when I wake up, things are getting better! I watch yi nan wang. OMG de exciting =)

I had dinner and told mummy I almost fainted on the streets~ And she was like "why are you like that?" How am I going to reply her? Haha!

Ok, later have to study for aem! Exam is on friday evening! I can't wait! OMG! I asked bff what day is it today. And when he told me wednesday, I got so high and say "yes yes yes! wednesday! 2 more days and I am soo free! yes! tahan another 2 more days!" LOL!

I can't wait for friday to come! End of aem and npy comes back =) I just so can't wait!

Friday I'm in love!!~

I so want to book my practical lesson. But it seems like I can't!

(1) They are all like FULLY booked!
(2) My student account do not have money!
(3) Mummy don't want to lend me her credit card to pay!
(4) I don't have time to go down to SS to settle!

Suddenly, how I wish I had booked 20 lessons previously =( The only few slots that are free for booking is like 20th April onwards. OMG! So far away! So now, I can only keep refreshing my browser like what my class people used to do.

I need money in the account!!!

Dragging one more day = free slots available are lesser. =(

Oh yes oh yes! I got back my common test paper today =x

I was so happy when I first saw it, 100/100! =D

Then I was flipping through and saw that I have one question wrong. So that means, ckc counted wrongly. =(

After calculating, I got 3 marks deducted! And this 3 marks is because for one of the part, instead of 1/2, I careless and write 2. So wrong! And 3 marks deducted like that!!! ='(

So instead of 100/100, now I only got 97/100! =[

But it is counted high already when I hardly studied for the paper. I am happy and contented with the results =)

I always do better during summer school period! I scored 90+ for my aem2 summer school common test when I only got 30 for aem2 common test during semester period. LOL! =p

My super no life days are spent just to score a 97/100 for common test and xx/100 for exam =S

I want my life back!!!

There is aem quiz tomorrow =(

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x__[[Monday, March 09, 2009.

Today is 09/03/09! What a day! For the past few days, especially the weekends, the weather is like OMG! The temperature is damn damn damn damn high! I melted! OMG!

And today! What a nice day to sleep! Super duper uper heavy rain for the WHOLE day! The weather is sooo super nice to sleep! OMG! I want to lie on my bed and zzz! Hai! Sadly, I have aem =( I cannot stay in bed and zzz!

In the morning, we were late! I did not see bff's message so I just waited and waited. And by the time I decide to check my phone, I am super late =x Then I went to meet bff and in the car, I realise that I forgotten to bring my wallet. So we had to go back =x

We went to class and started lesson. I was busy reading my book. Haha! I did not listen to dr. li at all. I feel so bad =x

At around 11am, I went for btt and of course, bff fetch me down. We were late. Haha! I was doing and doing, check my answers 3 times. And I went out of the room. I am like the 3 or 4th to leave the room. Eeek! Bff was like "huh! so fast! I only listen to about 4 songs." Haha! Whee!

Ok, I pass! =) I was so damn scared ok! I did those online trial thingy and I failed 7 out of 8 times. That is damn damn damn pathetic! Seriously, I thought I will fail, even npy and bff thinks that I will fail. Damn!

We went to have our lunch at the canteen. Well, we were there to support jiaping's mother's stall. Haha! The food is not bad. I really meant it! Well, at least it is nicer than some other places.

After which, we went back to school for aem lesson again =( Super no life ok! Lesson is boring. I am so sleepy. I want to sleep. I want to sleep. I want to sleep. The rain is making me more sleepy. Haha!

I am busy doing tutorial and bff is busy copying. So super unfair. He always copy my tutorial and in the end, his quiz got higher marks than me =( That is super unfair! I don't seem to score higher when I copy his tutorial.

After aem, I went to meet npy. While waiting for him, I went to get some things. We were at ntuc and we bought 2 kinder joy! Wheeeee!!! We went to have our dinner at burger king. We had kinder joy and it is damn nice =x ok, damn damn sweet! Haha!!

Then we went shopping! I saw this white pair of heels which I find it damn nice. Ok, plain white shoes, 2 inch high. Eeek! I like but I don't want to get it because (1) I seldom wear heels, (2) I find it too high, (3) the height difference is eh! Haha! That is the reason why~

We went shopping for his bintan trip stuff and my camping stuff. Hmm! It had been 3 years since I been to camp and yes, I am short of soo many things! In the past, at least I have empty bottles because I go swimming and camping. And now, haha! All is thrown away!

I bought this, that, this and that. LOL! At 7 plus pm, I headed home alone =)

Whee! At night, I was exchanging songs with npy. Hmm! I filtered my mp3 too. Initially, there are 510 songs and after filtering, there are 290 left. Haha! It is nearly half! =)

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x__[[Tuesday, March 10, 2009.

Another day of aem! The weather is melting me again. Ah~ I am so reluctant to wake up today morning. I want to sleep! zzz! Once again, super unattentive in class. Haha! I am busy thinking how to do the tutorials, as usual, and bff is copying. Haha!

In the afternoon, we went for lunch and saw uncle in the canteen. While walking to the coop for a drink, someone called us from behind! It was junlong and weiyang. Haha! We started chatting and chatting and then jiehao joined us.

After which, we saw mdm kana andlastly uncle. We chatted and chatted. Haha! We were crapping soo much! LOL! And of course, our topic was "student stabbing lecturer". Haha! Junlong was saying that ckp was saying "later we don't let axxxx get A, he go and stab us." LOL! That is soo super funny!!! LOL!

We went back for lesson =( Super duper no life ah!!!! I want to go home! We started doing tutorial at around 3pm and finally finish at around 4.15pm. And we only did 2 questions! Stupid pig! Why is the tutorial soo hard?!

I came home and started watching television! OMG! Yi nan wang is getting soo bored again! Now that they keep mentioning "if lizhu is around", that means, lizhu is coming back! Whee! I am so aunty! Haha!

Npy is going bintan tomorrow and back on friday night. I am going camp on saturday morning and back on monday evening. Npy is having tuition on tuesday so no choice, most probably we might be meeting on wednesday. That is if time allows~ LOL! So not going to see him for 8 days!

Ok, there is aem quiz tomorrow~ I have to get studying when I am super tired =x