Dedicated to Ms Chong!
Oh yes, I was reading kah wai’s blog and she is going scotland for further studies. I am going to be so lonely in singapore for 5 years! You know, 5 damn god years! I still thought I can look for her for help when I am stucked with my project. I still thought I can go her house and have fun with her.
Who am I going to look for when I am feeling lost and lonely and uneasy and unhappy and troubled and in need of help and I needed someone to talk to and someone to be there for me and whatever you can think of? Who am I going to find when I do something wrong and needed some advice? Who am I going to look for when I am feeling confused and needed someone to give me advice? Who am I going to find?
Where is KWAY gathering going to be held if you are gone? How to even hold a KWAY gathering when you are not here? What will happen to KWAY after 5 years? Who will be drifted? Will we still be together as a KWAY? How far will the 4 of us get? Will we still be that close 5 years later? Will we still go to your place and get high? Will we still go to your place and sing the titanic song? Will we still go to your place and cook supper? Will we still talk till 5 plus 6 am in the morning? Will we?
During events, you will not be there. I will be alone! Remember the two of us always hang around together, sit together, find each other? During chinese new year, we will sit there and nua together? During ah ma birthday, we will be mass taking photos. During gathering, we will try to ‘oppose’ our parents and talk sense into them?
When I needed some advice, you are not there to help. When I need help on fashion, though our fashion sense clashes, you will still try to help me. When I need help on some designing, you were there helping me. When I faces problem with my friends, you were there to listen to my complain. When I face problem with relationships, you were there to hear my crying and whining and complains.
Suddenly, I wonder what is going to happen without you for 5 years! I am not going to get my 21st birthday spent with the KWAY. Nor we are going to have KWAY gathering for 5 years. Telephone calls and messages decreases because of phone bill. No more possibility of couple dates for 5 years (that is if all of us got partner). No more gossiping. No more supper together. No more laughter in the kitchen.
What is going to happen when you are gone? What can I do when you are not there? Who am I going to confide in? Who is going to be there to slap me and wake me up from my dreams? 5 years is so long!! =(
Ok, the tap is loose and my eyes are wet =( I don’t like this kind of parting.