Sleeping late is not good for complexion. People tell me that! And guess what, 2 stupid BIG pimple appeared on my forehead! Damn~

On friday, I woke up in the morning and decided to cancel my driving lesson. I am so tired. I decided to go and get a haircut and do my things! I went to mac to get brunch for drew drew and myself. The most sickening thing was, I wanted to get the cup but they say, only for lunch. I went to get the breakfast set for nothing. Er xin!

In the afternoon, I went for a haircut. I made an appointment at 4pm but it is so packed that by the time meron attend to me, it is already 4.45pm. And I am supposed to meet joseph at 5pm. In the end, I decided to meet him at 5.45pm.

We went to pepper lunch for dinner. Hmm, pepper lunch again! LOL!

As usual, had chicken pepper rice. I only eat chicken pepper rice. Haha! And for joseph, he had chicken pepper too! =)

And we ordered meal. Both of us ordered root beer. COPY CAT! Haha!

After meal at ang mo kio, we have no idea where to go so we decided to go down to suntec city to shop. We took train down to city hall and walk to suntec city. Expensive! We went window shopping. We went to carrefour to walk walk and then went to some place to chill~

We went to gelare for ice cream =) 

We shared a waffle. The ice cream we had was wild strawberry which is damn nice with the chocolate and lemon sorbet which is super odd with waffle. I love the strawberry and waffle together. OMG de nice! We each order a cup of drink too. Joseph had passion fruit smoothie while I drank mango fizz. NICE! I love the mango fizz! 

While sharing waffle ice cream with joseph, I saw npy and his godsister. Yes, we said hi and he continue his shopping with his godsister while I continue sharing ice cream waffle with joseph. We are just like normal friends.

Then we took train back and both of us are dead! We are so tired! =(

On saturday, in the morning, I went out to look for some top. I went down to douby ghaut. OMG! I got down the wrong bus stop and have to walk a long way. I went to have my lunch at macdonal and get the cup =) After meal, I went to walk around douby ghaut.

Then I went to marina square again and start shopping. In the end, I got nothing. I took bus back to toa payoh and in the end, I got earrings from there. 3 for $10. I am a cheapo kid. I realise I have many earrings and the best of all, I only wear those same few. Maybe I should save up those $10. Eeek!

I came home and went to sleep. By the time I wake up is already dinner time. I had dinner and then watch television programme. Then I went to sleep again. PIG!

On sunday, I stayed home. The two kids came up and played with them. They left in the afternoon. I started to play rc. Rc is getting bored! Omg~ I have nothing to do for my rc. Boring~

In the afternoon, I accompanied my mother down to grandma house. It is mother’s day and my aunts are some what celebrating at grandma place. We went there and food! I ate popiah. It is my FIRST time wrapping popiah myself. And yes, I put too much ingredients and the skin actually tear =(

The second time, I wrap for kenneth. It is nice and beautiful and fat. But it is filled with lettuce. Kenneth keep complaining there is so much cai cai. He should be glad that I wrap one for him ok.

The few of us were chatting. I mean the cousin group. Lol. As usual, juan juan was transferring her skills. And of course, I got some saying too. I have to change my dressing. Ah shucks! Maybe I should really do something about my polo tees. Right wai?~

Juan juan say I gain weight =( Ok, I really don’t care about my weight. She say that I should start taking care or I will regret next time. Er xin! Suddenly, I am getting a little worried. Then the cousins were saying that they go gym-ing. So many people are starting to gym. They are so rich, they go california gym. I am poor =(

Yes, I need to do something and I have no idea what to do yet. I’d just wait and see.

I NEED TO RC!

Damn! They are not letting me rc at all. The stupid stupid stupid server keeps saying error. Damn! I am going to drop out of rc one day! And that very day, I am going to sell away all my ingredients for money, realllllll money. Haha! I am such a bad person.

Today’s afternoon, I cooked lunch again. I cooked noodles + tuna for drew drew and myself. Then I feel like drinking soup and I decided to cook cambell soup! Yummy~ It is sooo creamy~ I love the soup so much. Then I received a sms. In the sms, I was asked what time is my driving lesson. Hmm! Happily I replied “today is thursday, I don’t have driving =)”

I don’t know why, I decided to go and check my timetable. And I realise, I have driving lessons! OMG! I am halfway enjoying my creamy cambell soup! My lesson is 3.20pm and by the time I realise, it is already 2.20pm. Damn! I supposed to leave house by now! I had to rush to wash up and change and run out of the house.

The weather is forever so hot when I am rushing. Grr! I went to get myself a bottle of cold drink to cool myself down. Luckily, I am not late for lesson. I have about 3 minutes for myself to cool down and get prepared for lesson =)

I did not get mr koh nor jahir again. Sadded! Ok, today’s instructor isn’t that bad too. At least he is nice. Haha! He don’t shoot me for some I don’t know what reason. =x As usual, the instructor have to keep asking me to pick up my speed faster and faster. OMG! I hate stepping on the accelerator.

As usual, had the same few old mistakes. I always forget to do things. Damn! I can’t afford to forget =( After the lesson, the instructor said “Now you are at stage 3 and at stage 3, you need to be more confident and professional. Stage 3 is not like stage 2, still can make mistake. So be more confident ok =)” And as usual, I said “Haha! I am scared to drive very fast. Scared accident la~”

And then he laugh and said his next comment, “Ok, I feel that your problem is you are not very focus. You check MANY things. You know what you have to do but you keep forgetting.” OMG! I check too many things. I think those are not needed. And before I go, he said “girl, you are too young to be forgetful ok! bye~” I am too young to be forgetful -.-

After driving, I came home and yes, melted! At night, I helped mama to cook grass jelly. I am learning how to cook. One day, I will be able to cook 3 dishes and 1 soup. Haha! I think too much. I am contented with being able to cook something very simple.

I need to get a haircut before graduation. My hair is like crap. I want to go down meron there but she don’t work on monday and tuesday. Sadded! And on saturday and sunday, it is like packed! So yes, maybe I have to go down and cut tomorrow. I am lazy!

Should I go driving tomorrow? I went driving on monday, wednesday and thursday already. Should I go tomorrow?~ Super lazy!

Bloggie, you have been NEGLECTED! I am slacking at home for the past few days! No life kid~ My sister is complaining that my blog is photo-less. I have to update my blog with some photos =) I promise that this post have photos!

x__[[Saturday, May 02, 2009]].

Slacking is my everyday job. Today, the two kids come. In the afternoon, I was sleeping =x That is my past time. Haha! What more can I do at home? Oh yes! I was studying too. Shh! Focus!

x__[[Sunday, May 03, 2009]].

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAI! =) **hug and kisses**

As usual, stayed home and played with the kids. Once again, studying~ Went to bed and zzz!

x__[[Monday, May 04, 2009]].

In the morning, drew drew fetch me down to ssdc. I was late and I totally forgotten there is something called “temperature taking”. So that made me even later. Haha! After which, drew drew fetch me back home. We got subway for lunch =)

In the afternoon, I went to nap and went down to ssdc again. Yawn! I am sleepy! Today, I got mr koh! Nice =) He is damn funny! For some reason, he kept asking me do some stupid things. Actually, it is not very stupid but he just made me do u-turn again and again. So I am going in circles -.-

I went home, dinner and sleep! I am so tired!

x__[[Tuesday, May 05, 2009]].

In the morning, I cooked lunch for drew drew. See, I am such a nice sister =) I went out with drew drew and I went to school to get my graduation attire. I wanted to ask for additional invitation card but sadly, there isn’t anymore. I went to look for labcoat for lilian. No more size either.

I went to get my attire. Hmm, the aunty say that it is too big for me. I need to get one size smaller but there isn’t anymore xxs. So in the end, I got xs. I think it should be ok for me. She ask me to go down on wednesday itself and change before going for graduation. I am thinking should I just skip the trouble?

After collection, I went to the library. I played with the computer and after which, I went to the back gate and took bus down to jurong. And from jurong east, I took bus back to toa payoh. I went back home and then went down to bugis to meet up with bff and jp.

Ok, now the picture will do the talking! See, I told you there will be pictures =)

We went to fish and co for dinner.

We had our soup of the day, clam chowder. The soup is nice and thick! Yummy!!! It is the first time I drink clam chowder and it is damn nice =)

Next was the caesar salad with smoked salmon. I like the salad~ Jp was asking bff (cause he ordered this to share) “why are you like tortoise, like to eat vegetables?” LOL! But seriously, it is nice. I like the qualms. I don’t eat salmon so yes, I only ate the lettuce and yummy, love the dressing.

Bff ordered seafood platter for one.

Jp and I shared a seafood platter for two =) The prawn is very fresh! Hmm, I personally love the fries. It is nice! I think it is the pepper. I think the calamari is very chewy too! Well, at least it is not so chewy that I can’t bite it. Haha!

Not forgetting our drinks. Bff and I ordered kola tonic while jp ordered passion fruit. The kola tonic is really nice! Starting, I though there will be some very-strong-smelly tonic smell. In the end, there isn’t any! Love the fizzy-ness! =) I suddenly miss the fizzy drink from pizza hut =x

Just before we go, they gave us some endearmint. It is my first time eating. It is not really minty after all. Haha!

After we left fish and co, we left bugis. We were ‘looking’ for the car. Oh well, they don’t remember where they parked the car. As usual, we had to try to figure our way there. Always~ So bff drove us down to dempsey road for dessert.

We went to the ben and jerry’s located at dempsey road. Look, there is a cute moo-moo car outside! The moo moo car is so cute! I thought people can sit inside. In the end, we can’t. Cheated!

We shared a mix n match. The serviette is cute. It is like rough paper. LOL! We were given 3 choices of ice cream.

Bff chose cherry garcia. It is my first time eating. Ok, I don’t really like the cherry taste. Or should I say, I never really like eating cherry.

Jp chose the chocolate macadamia. Macadamia is a nut? I don’t really know too. Haha!

And for myself, I ordered strawberry kiwi sorbet. I love to eat sorbet ice cream. Bff finds it too sour but I don’t know why, I just love eating it. Another reason for ordering this is because, it is one of the two strawberry flavoured ice cream. The other one is strawberry cheesecake and I don’t like the taste of it. Bleah!

And we headed home! Whee~ I came home, watch television, bathe and waited for hair to dry~ I am tired! My feet is breaking. I walked too much!

x__[[Wednesday, May 06, 2009]].

As usual, went for driving in the afternoon. I am worn out! Today’s driving is like shit! It just sucks! I hate it so much! Today, I did not manage to get jahir nor mr koh =(

I don’t like today’s instructor. He is damn sarcastic. Every time I forget something, example, blind spot, he will say “don’t worry, I checked your blind spot for you already.” damn sickening! Everything was fine until the stupid 3 point turn. I kept doing it wrongly. The reason is simple, my seat belt is blocking my view to the window at the back. And because of that, I can’t see the kerb at all! Irritated! He kept asking me to drive faster and faster. Stupid guy! I don’t like him!!! =x

Ok, I don’t want to get him for my next lesson. I DON’T WANT! I went home and as usual, slacked! I went to cristofori to enquire something. Then the person asked me how long have I stop learning piano and I said 5 years. She was shocked! What is so shocking about that? LOL!

I bought dinner for drew drew and headed home~ Whee! I am so tired! Lazy! I came online and started to RC. And because I find my blog neglected, I decided to blog. Then I remembered my sister complaining that my blog is picture-less, I decided to find some pictures online. I spent 1 hour to find the pictures. I need NICE pictures. Haha!

**Please note that above pictures are taken from various sources.**

HAPPY LABOUR DAY! Did you get yourself a day off today? If it is labour day, I think everyone should be enjoying and not just those white collar people. What about those working in those shops? So poor thing =(

On wednesday, I went to work again. Early morning, I am super lazy to wake up =x I pulled myself out of the bed and then went to bathe and proceed to work. Hmm! Once again, slacking at work. I think I killed my brain cells. I helped set 3 different papers. OMG! My cells are dying.

Then I went for lunch at the food court. Hmm! Slacked and went back to work. At 2.30pm, I left for driving. Tired! I am super tired! I am dozing off in the train! I went driving and once again, it is jahir. He kept saying me again. He say that my head, non-stop action when I am talking. So er xin!

After driving, I went to queue up to book something. I totally forgotten that I am meeting someone. After booking my things, rush down to bishan to get something from someone. And I took bus home. I am super tired! I reach home and eat and went to sleep. My feet hurts! I don’t know why.

On thursday, I stayed home the whole morning. In the afternoon, I went for driving. Today, I did not get koh or jahir =( Ok, this instructor is not bad too! Though we did not talk much, he really patient with me. At least I don’t feel that stress. Nothing crap happened.

While driving, something cute happen! I was turning right after the traffic light, at the junction. And then got one car in front of me stop by the side. My instructor and I thought some accident. After looking, we saw a turtle crawling from the right lane to center lane! So cute!!! So the car stopped for the turtle to crawl over. So cute!!!

Then we went over, the middle lane is ‘closed’. Until one yellow car from the left lane, stop and pick the turtle to some safe place. So cute!!!! My encounter with a turtle! =)

After driving, I went out. I took bus down to amk hub. I am so worn out! I walk around amk hub. Hmm! Went for dinner at pepper lunch. I had salad. I am full!!! After eating dinner, went to walk around some place to look for some bottle. I saw many shampoo and I was thinking, I want to change my shampoo!

I walk pass watson and the sales person say no more dettol and those sterilize thingy. OMG! I really think singaporean very ‘clean’. Hai! Now I understand last time, my chinese o level oral, the question is “are you more afraid of terrorist or illness like SARS”. Last time, I said illness, now I still think illness. Singaporean are too clean! Can’t stand it!

Today, I am staying home to play with the kids! Fun =) Kaitlyn got herself a examination piano for 3k. It is a second-hand-36-years-but-look-like-first-hand piano. So nice and so cool!!! I miss playing the piano =(  Hai~

Damn pissed off.
But what can I do?
What can I say?
I can only say “nvm, forget it”
What more?

NOTHING!

I said it so many million billion times.
In the end, it is still the same.
So what I am damn mad about it?
So what I am damn pissed off about it?
So what I am damn unhappy about it?
I only can diam diam!
I only can ren ren ren!

DAMN!

Everything seems not right.
I don’t know what is not right too.
I just feel not right.

Word is wrong.
Promise is wrong.
Mentality is wrong.
Decision is wrong.
Time is wrong.
Position is wrong.
Path is wrong.
Mood is wrong.
Feeling is wrong.
Tap is wrong.

Everything is wrong.
However, I have no idea how to correct it.
I am so useless right?

I am learning a skill called ‘forgetting’.
When I learn that, things will be better.

I will forget whatever happened.
I will forget whatever is said.
I will forget whatever is promised.
I will forget whatever I thought of.
I will forget whatever that went wrong.
I will forget whatever happened.
I will forget whatever statues and go back to zero.
I will forget whatever unhappiness with them.
I will forget whatever feelings stirred.

So, if one day I were to forget you, don’t blame me. I have no choice.

I am sleepy! My feet hurts =(

Today, I went for work. Don’t ask me anything about work. I totally forgotten already. I even forget what is my company name. I am so blur! I totally forgotten everything. OMG! I went to work and did some beta testing. We are supposed to finish in 2 and half hours but in the end, we finish in less than 1 hour =x So fast!

We had lunch and then started writing some exam papers and then do another set of questions. I am so tired! I am so sleepy! I killed so much brain cells. Yawn! Tomorrow, I am going work again. And today, I work from 10am to 5.30pm! So long~

After work, I walk pass BHG, hoping to see some fellow but sadly, he is not there. Hmm! Lucky him. Then I took train home. I am so tired that I actually took the wrong side. Dumb!

I reach toa payoh and on my way back, there is this guy called anthony~ He is from prudential (again). Firstly, he was telling me “I can guess your name with 10 tries. Do you believe me?” I shook my head. Then he started prompting. In the end, he can’t guess my name. And he told me to guess his name -.-

Then he did some survey and we start chatting and chatting. Then for some reason, we kept laughing and laughing. I don’t know why. Then he brought me to his manager and started some presentation. Hmm, I wanted to help anthony earn commission. Every time he present to someone, he will earn commission and I told him I will help him =)

His manager is so funny too. He kept saying I am over-teen! It is because I am 20! Stupid~ As usual, I kept smiling and when anthony is presenting, we kept laughing! Haha! Anthony is a nice guy. He is working at ERA as housing agent too! He is from NUS and currently year 1, coming 2. Hmm! That is all I know. I think I am so dumb because I kept laughing~

Then I went to get cotton candy! I need something sweet to sweeten my life. Ok, joking. I walk back home. My feet hurts!!! The nails is too long and poke onto the toe beside it and now, blister!! =( Painful~

Another day of work tomorrow. And tomorrow, I have driving =x I need to rush down from work place to ssdc. Hai~

I was thinking and thinking and realise, there are so many things I need to learn. I wonder when will I pass? I wonder many things! OMG! I wonder when I will master it =( There are so many things which is un-learn~ Hai~

Uncertainty~

I wanted to blog! I so wanted to blog but but but I forgotten what I wanted to blog! =(

I was walking around after driving today. And I saw something from watsons! OMG! It is the Herbal Essences Long Term Relationship! OMG! Something which I had been eying for quite some time. Long term relationship~ The bottle is so damn nice! RED!

See, isn’t it just so nice? The red is soo nice~ =x I am so tempted to get it! Ah! Ok, I am always tempted to get things which are red.

Oh yes! Something damn funny happened today.

I was on my way home from ssdc. I am waiting for the train at yio chu kang mrt station. I am listening to my mp3 and leaning on the wall, in front of door 6. There is this guy who just came up from the escalator, rushing. Then he stood in front of door 5. And suddenly, he walk towards me, gave me a smile and open his mouth. I took off my ear piece to hear what he has to say. And guess what he said?

He asked, “eh, is my hair messy?” I was stunned! I was like “huh? Oh, your hair is not messy =)” I kept giggling. OMG! The train came, so coincidental, he is sitting in front of me. He smiled to me and of course, I smiled back. And then he still point to his hair and give the question mark look. LOL! I kept signaling “ok~”

When he got down the train, he still call me out and say “Hey! Thank you ah!” So funny! Will you go and ask someone you don’t know whether your hair is messy? It is damn funny can! I kept giggling. I wonder why he so thick skin? LOL!

Today’s driving is fun. Ok, jahir took me again and we kept laughing in the car. I kept forgetting things and he keep saying me. And he say that I have a bad habit of not signaling. So er xin can! I got signal but did not have time to signal~ LOL! Long story~ But yes, he kept shooting me!

And he say I got a lot of ‘sound effect’ when I drive. When I do something wrong or my turning too wide, I will go “ahhh!”. And when I do something correct or turn very nicely, I will be damn happy and go “yay~”. He say I don’t look 20 at all! And he says that I sound like a kid! Er xin!

I am starting to like driving because I have nice instructors like jahir and mr koh! =)

I am going to work tomorrow. Don’t ask me what I am working as. I have no idea at all. Qian-er asked me to go and work. LOL! Just for 2 days~ Well, it kills time. I think I have to cancel wednesday’s driving already=( Oh well, I wish I can faster pass driving. I am so sick and tired of going down to ssdc on such melting weather!!!

For work reason, I have to reach bugis by 10am! OMG! That is so early! That means I have to wake up at around 8.30am! Oh my gosh! For the past few days, I don’t have school, don’t have any thing on, I wake up at 10.30am or even 11.30am. Tomorrow, alarm clock! =( I am so sleepy~

Yooohooo! It is monday again! Damn, I am missing the monday blues thingy! I always had that when I am schooling. You know, the sunday have to sleep early because monday have school and you can’t seem to sleep so end up, monday is like crap.

The weather is like heater once again. I just wish that aircon bill is cheaper so God can on the aircon and no need worry about the electricity bill. Like that, the weather will be nicer and cooler =) I think, everyone is helping the economy by having our aircon on at night -.- You know, having to on aircon is so expensive? The electricity bill is like POOF!

Yesterday afternoon, drew drew and I went for lunch with yong hui and anna. We went to crystal jade for lunch. After lunch, we went to courts to shop. There is some megasales you know! The digital camera is quite cheap! The colours are nice too. Haha! Tempted =x

We were looking at phones and I feel like changing phone =( I miss my flip phone. Oh well, my phone is only 7 months and 21 days old. I still need to wait till it is 22 months old. That is so long~ I need to wait till 2010! So long!!!

Oh! There are many blenders! I want a blender. I want a blender so I can blend juice to drink! It is good for health ok!

Today, got driving again. I wonder besides driving, what more am I doing? Oh yes! I am going to take back piano again. Hmm~ And I have to help sister teach kaitlyn how to play the piano –.- She better listen to me!

Off to bathe~~~~~ Poof!

Boohoo! I think I ate something wrong. My tummy kept aching and I already visited the toilet 4 times today! Ah! Stupid tummy. =/

Yesterday afternoon, I went down to ssdc for driving again. So sickening. My instructor is nice. He is called patrick. He is super funny! Once again, my instructor have to keep asking me to pick up speed -.- So irritating. I am already driving at 50km/h and yet, he ask me drive faster. I so don’t understand why! He taught me the exterior of the car and I asked many many questions!

I even pump oil! Ok, before pumping, I wasted the oil because when he ask me to hold the pump oil thing, I press it by accident and oil spurge out. And after pumping the oil, he say “cannot waste oil, so before taking out, must tilt downwards.” And I was like “oh! So I wasted oil just now?” He just kept quiet, smile smile and keep the pump =x So bad~

After driving, I went back home. I went to get my lunch which is one mc chicken burger and a bag of barley water. I wanted to get water chestnut but I only got $1.40. I am short of 10 cents so I decided to get barley. Sadded! I am so broke!

I came home, bathe and went out again. I went to meet up with junlong, maggie and irene. While on my way to meet them, drew drew called me. Drew drew told me something. Ok, I am quite contented. I met up with them and then went to meet up with the rest. They are late, very late~ LOL!

We went to ckp’s condo for bbq. The seniors were chatting with the lecturers. Ok, overall, it is quite boring. I think most of the time, we are standing somewhere and slack. Hmm! As usual, we were talking about university and there are quite a number of them got into ntu bio-eng. Ah! So many!

After bbq, ren kai, kenneth, harry, junlong, maggie, irene and I went down to mac for food. We were talking about driving. Haha! As usual, junlong always disturb irene and tell her the fake things. Kenneth is taking his ftt this coming tuesday! Good luck! Kenneth is from ssdc too! I wonder why I did not see him at all. Else can go together.

We chatted until 11 plus pm and all of us headed home. We took 151 and then went home~ I forgotten to tap my card =( I am so tired that I decided to take 235 home. It took me less than half an hour to reach home. The bus is super fast!

When I reach home, I am damn tired. I went to bathe and went to bed! I am worn out!

This morning, as usual, the kids came and I am busy rc-ing. Haha! Now rc can build toilet. How cool is that? But the stupid thing is, they don’t know what is call flushing of toilet. You have to employ a cleaner when the toilet bowl is flooded. Very stupid right? I am so lazy to refurnish my restaurant. Haha!

And I think, many people are too hooked to rc. They are leveling so fast. I remember that time, I did not play for about 10 days, when I log in, wa! They level until so high already. I have to buck up! They are so fast! I have to start rc again! And sandi is so fast that she is level 27! Same level as me! OMG! Fast! We are only 50,000 points apart. OMG! Faster anne!

In the afternoon, I was reading the papers. And they were saying about last time, people want nice kitchen, then bedroom or something like that. And now, the craze is walk-in wardrobe! OMG! I wanted a walk-in wardrobe since long time ago! I was reading and yes, their wardrobe is so nice! Nowadays, the house is so small and yet, people are investing in giving up space for a walk-in wardrobe.

I always wanted to have a walk-in wardrobe in my house next time. Else, I want a build-in wardrobe, big build-in wardrobe. I also want a full glass mirror. Ya, it is all saying only. I want but will I do it next time? Dumb dumb! I wish it is like rc, happy happy redecorate the house, don need to worry about money~ How nice~~

Ok, day dreaming. I was reading through about environmental engineering and mathematical science. Hmm. Suddenly, I don’t know if I did the right choice by putting environmental as my second choice. I was looking at what they study. There are so many BI related things! There are so many properties to memorise, properties on ceramic, steel, concrete, wood, timber, plastic. OMG! I think I will die!

In year 1, I have to learn life science, physics, chemistry, material science, mathematics and computation. It is like studying every single course! Then you still have things like environmental chemistry, environmental processes and environmental microbiology. I wonder what are those! Worst of all, you still need to study wastewater engineering and solid waste management -.- Stupid! Learn how to dispose waste! Haha!

I still think, I am better at mathematics! At least, it skips all the engineering things. However, people are telling me mathematical science is not good. The career prospect is not good! OMG! I don’t know how now~ I wanted to get into either of it but how, it seems dark!

When I told daddy I want to go ntu and never will I go nus, he say “find one day I bring you go bai bai.” I don’t know why -.- He say he want to bring me to go and pray. I was telling mummy about going ntu regardless which choice I get and we start discussing about traveling, accommodation and all. Hmm. Seems like I am going to travel slowly!

Drew drew got his ns letter and he got posted into police academy. And then we started saying, ntu is located at jurong west, and according to sister, police academy is at chua chu kang and angie’s camp is over there too. And they were saying we can drive there together -.- Crazy!

I went to get a nap in the afternoon since rc is down. My life is only rc, home, sleep, driving, eat. I wonder what more are there for me? LOL! I can’t wait for ftt to come! I am so scared that I will fail my ftt! Oh shucks!

I am online shopping with sister and yes, I want to clear my wardrobe. And of course, dump my worn-for-3-years polo tee. That marks the end of my poly life! I remember, I have 6 polo tee and I wear them for my 5 days of school and 1 is for emergency purpose. LOL! Super no life! =x Jeans + polo everyday!

It doesn’t matter after all~

Dear bloggie,

I am feeling so confused. I have no idea what is going on. I have no idea if that is the right one. I have no idea what I can do. I have no idea whatever is happening too. I only know, I have to live up to my promise. It is so hard to live up to promises. I am so tired of keeping my promises again and again.

Why is it that the moment it start, everything change? It drop drastically and it is an overnight. So many things said but it is not shown. Ask me, do I doubt it? I doubt it totally. How can I trust it when it wasn’t shown at all? How can I trust it when it is totally opposite from what it is said? Tell, me, what can I trust?

I thought it was normal. In the end, I was doing a little more than others. Ok, I understand. I though “ok, I will not next time, I promise.” And I finally understand, it is not a little more, it is actually irritating and disturbing. I saw it and understand why it just can’t wait to be ended. I am not jus plain irritating but it is SUPER irritating. I will never ever do it again. I will do it way lesser, best if it is zero. I promise.

Regardless what happen, I try to accept, I try to tolerate, I try to understand. Yes, I am trying. However, this accepting, tolerating, understanding is getting too far too much. When I fail to accept, tolerate and understand, it became my fault, it became stress.

I don’t want to be a 24/7 strong person. I am not and I don’t want to be one. I am just an ordinary female who have up and down. That is the minimum said. In the end, it is not met again. I don’t understand why I am still trying to accept, tolerate and understand when it is only me doing it.

I am writing a report every single minute. Whenever I read through, I realise I am reporting every single day and minute. Bloggie, you must be so bored to let me type my report everyday. I am reporting every single detail, time, venue on you. You must be dying. There is nothing interesting to read either. Right bloggie?

Ok, bloggie, I know you are tired! I am giving you time on your own. I am giving you the time to rest and do your own things. See, isn’t me such a nice owner? I will come back when I am needed. LOL!

Sign off,
Anne

Hmm! Early afternoon, I got driving. The sun is like BIG! =( What a big sun! The weather is like burning! I want my concession!!! =( I don’t want to walk under the big sun! I want to take bus all the way~~~ I want my concession back!!!

Later I got driving. Drive drive drive. I am so sian of going down to ssdc! Suddenly I thought of some problem and yes! I have to think of a way to settle it too. So stupid one! Why is ssdc so packed? I need to pre-book so many lessons. So sickening! What a waste of money.

Tonight, got bme farewell party! I am going to see my friends again. Though I am super duper uper lazy to travel, I still have to go. Well, I said that I am going. And yes, my dear vp actually left a note on facebook for everyone! OMG! I am so touched! I don’t see myself or irene doing that. Right irene?! LOL!

I was talking to my cousin the other day. It suddenly came to my mind, why are people so fake? Why do people wear a mask? I want to wear a mask too. I want a mask that is forever smiling. I don’t want to show people that I am unhappy or angry. I don’t know why, I don’t like to reveal the ‘unhappy’ side. What I don’t like most is people asking me “are you ok?” when I am obviously not ok. Sounds stupid right?!

Sometimes, I’d rather suffer alone at night then pulling a long face and talk to other people. Now I understand, why sometimes, people just want to be alone. Sometimes, I wish to be alone too. Sometimes, I just want to do some reflection. I can’t believe that I actually do reflection! LOL!

Well, there are some things which people want to hide and they hide it very well. For example, by chance, I got to know that one of my close friend actually don’t like another friend of hers. However, they are still quite close together. My close friend actually tolerate that friend of hers and fake a front every time. However, the fact is, my close friend dislike her SO much! I was totally dumb folded when she told me about it.

Why do people want a mask? Is being themselves and revealing their actual feeling very difficult? It is so hard? I find it so hard myself. I find it so hard to reveal my true feeling, my unhappiness and anger. I always want to put a “I am ok” front. I don’t want people to worry for me. I want a big big mask~

Yesterday night, I was chatting with my cousin. I can’t stand it any more. Suddenly, I find jiaxin such a jerk. Not very sudden. He is such a loser. I think he is so self-centered and his pride is so damn high. He is such an idiot. That day, my cousin’s god sister told her about what jiaxin spread at his work place the other time when they broke up.

She lives in a Terrace house with 2 maids and 2 dogs.
She demanded a guess watch as a present.
She demanded more time for her when he is working for her mother.
She cheated on him with her colleague.

OMG! I think he is so pro. Having to be cousin with her for coming 20 years, I never know that she have 2 dogs! Yes, she USED to live in a terrace house but that was before they are together. She asked for a guess watch? Hmm! My cousin is richer than him. Why would my cousin demand that? And besides, my cousin finds guess a cheap brand -.-

I don’t understand why he need to be such an idiot. Is pride really that important? Why is it that when the girl he woo rejected him, he comes back to my cousin again? And why did he force himself onto her? I don’t understand at all.

Why can’t he have a clean break up? Why did he make my cousin the ‘full time’? When he want to woo the girl, he fails, he will go back to my cousin. When he manage to get the girl, however the girl reject some of his request, he goes back to my cousin.

He keep claiming that my cousin did not consider his feeling. Why not ask himself, did he consider my cousin’s feeling when he spread things about her? Did he consider about my cousin when he tries to tarnish her reputation? Did he consider about my cousin when he finds her back because he fails to woo another girl? Did he consider about my cousin when he force himself onto her? Did he consider about my cousin when he scolded her self centered, selfish, slut, bitch?

Why must he do all this when the other party rejects him? No, to be exact, he only did that to my cousin when she rejected him. Why? It is because, he will look for my cousin when he fails another girl. And he ASSUME that my cousin will go back to him regardless what happen. What a jerk.

He used to be (please note, it is USED TO BE) such a nice guy. He was so sweet and concern about my cousin. Why did he change so drastically that I hardly recognise him? Why must he be such a jerk and join the ‘jerk’ company? Why must he do all this to hurt someone?

People change faster than you though. The one you used to think that you know very well might just become a stranger overnight. I am getting more and more foreign to things around. People change, feelings change, character change, thinking change.

When will be my change? When will be the expiry date to my current path?

I AM BUYING AN UMBRELLA!
that is a nice blue!

I desperately need an umbrella! I need to get an umbrella which is light and not bulky. I don’t want to carry a heavy umbrella around. And the umbrella must be able to block sunlight. I don’t want to be burnt. The umbrella must be durable too. I don’t want to spend few bucks on something which is spoilt so easily. The umbrella must be plain looking and colour must be nice. It will be best if it is red =) I think that is it? So~ Where can I get a good umbrella? Intro me some places.

I guess everyone experienced the BIG gust of wind yesterday night at around 11.30pm. The wind was so big! It had uprooted so many trees! It had caused the trees to smash the cars. It had also made my house damn messy.

The BIG wind actually made all the windows in the house slammed. And best of all, it was SO big that it actually made one of the closed window open and unable to close back. OMG! That is so scary! Joseph then came and talk to me. He told me about the wind blowing the rubbish bin onto the road.

Just now, when I went to get lunch, I saw the debris everywhere. There are people cleaning up, picking up the tree branches. And of course, workers cleaning and sweeping the place up. The sun is SO big now and they are working so hard for us. OMG! I am touched.

I wonder what caused the wind. Hmm! I thought I can don’t on aircon but sadly, the wind is SO big that I have to close the window and on the aircon. Oh shucks! Drastic change of weather.

The world is coming to an end!! =(

Yesterday, I went driving again. My instructor kept asking me to follow the speed limit and ask me to pick up speed as fast as I can. Irritating! I hate driving so fast. And then it is also the first time, my car horn another car. Some more, 5 times! OMG! Haha! It is NOT my fault. It is other driver’s fault. Whee!

Tomorrow, there is bme farewell party. Hmm! I am quite lazy to go. I bet they will be talking about university and that is the LAST thing I want to talk about. That is not the topic I am going to anticipate. I prefer talking and discussing with people whom I am closer with.

I am going graduation day! I wanted to book the graduation attire but I have no idea which size to choose. According to height, I should choose XS but I scared too small. If I choose S, I am not tall enough. Haha! The height for XS is 1.55m to 1.60m. And for S is 1.60m to 1.65m. I am 1.58m without my heels. LOL!

I realise that my life is revolving around home, online shop, lunch, home, driving, home, online shop, sleep. And the cycles continue. I need to go out! There are places I feel like going but I don’t feel like going out because transportation is like damn ex! I miss concession. I want my concession back =(

I am buying and buying but not going out. So I actually bought clothes when I am not going out at all so end up, I leave it in my wardrobe. So one day, when I start clearing, I am going to throw all away again! I am so spendthrift =x

I am going to get a haircut! I am always cutting hair. One day, I am going to shave bald! =x Ok, I am just joking.

Yi Nan Wang~~

Yooohoooo~~~ I was camping in the fridge few days ago! You know, the weather is like OMG and for some reason, flying bugs are visiting. So I had to find a place, close the window, close the door, on the aircon and CAMP!

On sunday, in the afternoon, I went out for lunch. And the weather is like KILLER! Haha! I came home with bubble tea for drew drew, angie and kaitlyn. Hmm~ I coax kaitlyn to sleep and then nua in front of the television. As usual~ At night, mama prepared steamboat! =) Abalone~~~~

On monday, as usual, I am having driving. No more concession and that means, I have to walk to the interchange and then walk to ssdc from the mrt station =( The weather is OMG and I have to walk. I think I better go get an umbrella. I know it sounds aunty but no choice isn’t it?

Ok, finally, the speed increases. Haha! Jahir took me for driving today. Whoo! He told me that he and koh are good buddy! Both of them came to ssdc on the same day. I was like “are you serious?!” And he said that my full name, sounds like a male -.- Ok, does “wong heng gee” sounds like a guy?

On tuesday, I went out for lunch with drew drew. Aren’t we soo sweet? LOL! Ok, that sounds a little stupid. Then I started nua-ing at home again. Oh! The farewell party is planned. It is held on this friday and I am still thinking should I go or not. Hmm~

Suddenly, many are going for graduation. Oh well, maybe I should go too? I am not very sure. There are some reasons why I don’t feel like going. It is because of the seating arrangement. Oh shucks! It doesn’t matter anyways. Haha! I still got time to consider.

Today, having driving again! Oh shucks! I am super lazy =( Haha! Wheeeeee~ Killing time to go driving.

Back to RC~ =)

I AM MELTING!!

Whoo! It is saturday and the weather is like hot!

Yesterday morning, I went out for lunch. I went to popular to get some stuff! I got myself a pen with post-it at the back. OMG! It is so cool! Last time, it was highlighter and post-it. Now, it is pen and post-it. There is even marker with post-it. How I hope it is an ink pen, 0.4mm.

I was looking for things to get. Then I realise, my g-tec ink is yet to be finished. There is still about 1/3 of it left. What is so amazing is that, I had been using this g-tec since poly year 1. And I did not buy any refill at all. OMG! This pen is so durable =) I guess it is because, I only use pen during exam and common test.

After popular, went down to bishan for lunch. Hmm! Well, was supposed to have pepper lunch for lunch but in the end, I decided to get noodles. I hardly eat the noodles again. What a waste of money. Maybe next time, I shall just share. After meal, went to walk around for a while and headed home~

By the time I reach home, it is already 3 plus pm. Yawn! I decided to rest and nap for awhile. Then at 4 plus pm, anna came up to get some things. I left house at 5pm for driving. I was late, so I had to keep rushing and running. Luckily, I was on time for lesson. Phew!

I got koh as my instructor today again. Hmm! He keep asking me to change to 4th gear and I just die die don’t want to change. I never let my car speed go beyond 45km/h. I find it damn fast! I always maintain my car speed to be 40km/h. Ok, I know it is slow.

And the thing is, when my speed is 30-35km/h, I change from 2nd gear to 3rd gear. I will drive up to 40km/h and maintain there. He will ask me change to 4th gear. So after changing, it is still 40km/h. He keep saying me -.- I am very lazy to change gear.

For some reason, koh keeps saying “wa er xin!” He is copying me!!! Whenever got car overtake me, I will “wa er xin!” And yesterday, got 3 taxi overtake me at the traffic light, he said “wa! They very er xin right?” And he start laughing. Copycat! I realise I keep saying “er xin” lately. I wonder where did I learn that from. Haha! Even wanrong got the virus from me. I have no idea why too!

Oh oh~ I am so not going to get koh or jahir next week. They are working morning shift and next week, my lessons are in the evening again. Oh sad! I wish they work full on monday or wednesday! =)

I need to improve on my driving. It sucks! My progress is so super slow! I need to improve improve improve. I need to be more confident on the road! Yes! My braking and right turn is like rubbish! I need to improve, improve, improve!! Jia you! =)

After driving, I went to get drink for drew drew. I am damn hungry. So I got a burger! =) I went to get bubble tea from koi! OMG! $3.50 for the big cup. So damn expensive! But it is nice~~~~~ My favourite =) Suddenly, I miss bubble tea from cup-walker at sengkang. Maybe I should go down one day to get it.

By the time I reach home, eat my so-called dinner, it is already 10 plus pm. I am supposed to go grandma house to stay. In the end, I did not go because, it is late and mummy don’t let me go alone. It is dark there. Oh sadded!

Today morning, I played with the two kids and then in the afternoon, they left.

The weather is damn damn hot! I don’t understand why at all. I am melting. I wanted to go to my room for aircon. But I did not go because, angie is STUDYING and if I were to talk on the phone or make noise, she will complain I am disturbing her. I really wonder, is it our room or her room.

There is this once, I was talking on the phone at night. My mood was lousy so I called wai and talk. I was whispering ok! In the middle of the night, her phone rang and she woke up. After which, she was trying to sleep. She can’t fall back to sleep and went to smoke and came back. Ok, so it isn’t my fault! She went to complain to mummy that I disturb her sleep and all. Damn! She made me get scolding from daddy and mummy.

I did not even make a single noise when she wakes up at 4 plus am and on television. Her television woke me up and I just keep quiet and try to continue to sleep. During my exam period, I on alarm to wake myself up. In the end, she went to complain to mummy that my alarm disturb her sleep. Ok fine! So during 2 weeks of exam, I have a bed and I CAN’T SLEEP ON MY BED! I had to sleep on the sofa.

And when she have work, sometimes, her alarm keep ringing and she forgotten to off it when she went to bathe. I did not even make a single noise ok! She keeps saying she want a room all by herself. She don’t have space to study and all. Oh please! She owns the whole room and all I have in there is a bed!

I have a room and I can’t occupy at all. She eats in the room, study in the room, always locking herself in the room. Better still, sometimes I want to go to bed and she locks herself in the room, not knowing what she is doing. Then I don’t dare to disturb her also, later she complain she don’t have privacy. Ok fine, I go and sleep on the sofa while waiting for her. Damn! That is so unfair!

She is always complaining and get me into trouble. All she wants is to get me out of the damn room! I have a room and yet, I can’t occupy the room. What kind of logic is this?

Ok, enough of that crap! Spoil my mood. For some reason, mummy is talking about me going to learn piano again. I don’t know about it. It seems wasted that my piano just stop there. In addition, I am already grade 5. So isn’t it just so wasted? Well, my problem is that I did not practice and my teacher always scold me. So I decided to quit =( Oh well, I’d think about it.

I am so melting. The weather is damn damn hot! =(

I feel like watching xiao qian, a chinese ghost story. I think many people heard of it before =) It is a cartoon animated ghost love story. Not really ghost but the main character, xiao qian, is a ghost. That is all. I like the story though =)

MELTING!!!!

I HATE WAITING!

Especially on such damn bloody idiot hot weather!

Why is people keep making me wait wait wait. Not first time already! I HATE WAITING! See that, READ that! Worst are those who wait and don’t give me a reply!

I aren’t some patient kid! FREAK!

Whoo~ I am having driving AGAIN today =( I am super lazy to go down to SSDC. Oh shucks! Lazy pig!

Yesterday, I nua at home the whole day! And in the evening, I went down to SSDC for driving lesson. I saw someone I don’t really want to see though. Haha! I got the fierce fierce instructor again. He isn’t that fierce after all!

Throughout my driving, I only got 2 main instructor who had been taking me, koh and jahir. Jahir is the fierce fierce instructor. He was a policeman and now, he became an instructor in SSDC. And for koh, I like him! My favourite instructor. He was previously from BBDC and he transfer to SSDC.

Yesterday, jahir was asking me “do you ask koh a lot of questions?” I was like “I don’t know. I think quite a number. Why? I ask you a lot of questions ah?” And he say “A little! You keep asking me why why why. Sometimes, you asked something and then you answer it yourself. Like those problematic kid.” OMG! I am a problematic kid -.-

After driving, I took bus home. Yawn! I went to buy egg tart for drew drew! My favourite! I did not want to eat. So I did not get any for myself. And for the WHOLE of yesterday, my breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper is 1/4 pack of chicken rice. OMG! I am dying!!!

Today morning, I woke up quite early. I woke up at 6 plus am. I have no idea why! I think angie’s television on too loud and woke me up.

Yesterday, drew drew took out his SSDC booklet. And we looked at the dates. My enrol date is 2009 and his, 2006! Look at the difference! And he kept laughing at me. Damn! I was looking through drew drew’s booklet. He had a total of 36 lessons. And the best of all is, he actually spent about 12 lessons on test route! OMG! He is so zai!

Suddenly, I am so worried! I don’t know if I can pass my practical! OMG! I think for now, I better worry for my FTT. Damn! I need to wait till may to take my ftt! =( I better start practicing.

My concession is ending!!!! =(

APRIL IS CURSED!

I slept too much and ate too little today! Haha! Yesterday, I slept too little and today, I slept too much.

Today morning, I woke up at 8 plus am. And then I went back to sleep until 9 plus am. That is early. So I came out to watch television, on my computer. I can’t access to RC again and I decide to give up after 1 try. Haha!

I start nua-ing and watching television instead until about 12pm, I got so bored and decided to go and rest. My phone kept ringing. People are trying to meet me. Haha! I got so nua on bed that I decided to stop replying and sleep.

At 1 plus pm, drew drew wake me up. He is feeling super unwell and giddy. So I had to serve him. Oh shucks! I went back to sleep after drew drew went to the living room. At 2 plus pm, drew drew called me using his handphone. Hmm! I had to serve him again. Haha!

And I went back to sleep after serving him. At 3 plus pm, angie came home and I got woken up by her. Grr! And I went back to sleep. At 4 plus pm, mummy called me regarding some matter. Oh shucks! I decided to wake up and go and watch television.

For the whole day, I only ate dinner! Die die die! For this holiday, I think I am eating lesser and lesser meals! And the worst thing is, I am eating half the amount I usually eat for dinner. I don’t feel hungry, the moment I see the food, I find myself very full and no appetite. I wonder what is wrong. I need to eat more. My hair is dropping more and more each day. One day, I will become bald! I don’t want that to happen!!! =(

I was so bored and decided to read my blog archives. Suddenly, I miss “the daily scoop”. It had been quite some time since drew drew actually drove me to sunset way for ice cream! I remember the last time I went was with drew drew, anna, yh and kaitlyn. Kaitlyn tied a meatball hair style because she want to be like sailormoon! Haha! I want to go there for ice cream again!

I was talking to kah wai. Haha! Whee! As usual, we are talking about relationship stuff. Relationship seems to be the talk of the week for me and her. Well, there are quite a number of things happening. There are some which I just do not want to say. I guess, I am not ready to say it yet.

We started talking about my history. I was telling her that last time, samuel used to reject me not because he don’t have feelings for me, but it is because he is too scared of me. I decided to ask my cousin “am I that scary?” And her direct answer is “Yes!”. So embarrassing! OMG!

You know, somewhat, history is repeating itself. I don’t know why. I just have a feeling that history will repeat and I am getting worried and paranoid. Maybe, history just repeats. I don’t wish to have the same script happening. Maybe I am just so scary. Well, maybe all the guys I met are not like the guy I previously mention, “he loves her so much that he gives her unlimited amount of chances.”

Oh well~ It is something that I don’t have the capability to play with. I don’t want to find something light. I want to find something heavy. So heavy that it will be there and regardless how big the wind is, it won’t go away and stay with me. Regardless how I kick it away, it will be there. There used to be a guy who will be there but things just ended like that. I guess I should be thankful that I used to have such a history. Will that part of history repeat? I need the same script, different cast!

My friend change her blog song, 一个人生活. And this song, brings back so much memories. I remember I was so into this song. I remember that time, I was so emo over some problem and I actually started spamming this song on my laptop. And drew drew was asking me about the emo-ness! Haha!

我想我可以习惯一个人生活；我想我可以假装不曾爱过；

I suddenly find april so cursed! Last year, during april, many people met with relationship problem. And this year april, it is repeating! Many are meeting relationships problem. Hmm! April is so cursed! Maybe next time, during the month of april, I should learn to distant from my partner. Haha!

Lately, I had heard a lot of relationship problems from other people. Those that I heard are mainly the unhappy side about their relationship. Well, how often people share about the good times they have with their partner? I admit that I only call on my cousins when I desperately need help. Haha!

I was watching television and I saw this line, “If you love someone, you will always give chance for the relationship to work out.” Seriously, how many of us actually give our partner a chance to make the relationship work out?

Usually, we will just run away from the problem. When you and your partner always quarrel, you will reach a point of very sian and decides to let go this relationship. And the reason is simple, it is because you have no idea what to do about this relationship. And also, you feel that there is no future to this relationship. Or even better, you feel one sided. Isn’t that always normal?

When come to relationship, I always look up to anna and yong hui’s relationship. They are like ‘ideal relationship’ to me. They have been together for about 7 years before marriage. That is so long! They tolerate each other, and give in to each other. Best of all, up to date, after married with 2 kids, they are still very loving. I always wish to have this kind of marriage. Haha!

There is this very close friend of mine. He always complain to me about he and his girlfriend quarreling again. His girlfriend would argue or stare at him and then, he can only keep quiet. Sometimes, from the way he tells me about how he and his girlfriend are heading, I just so want to tell him, “just give her up. you deserve better.”

However, I always fail to say that to him. Sometimes, I will just indirectly hint him about giving up. Then he will start telling me that she is actually very nice and all. He will look at her good points. What I am so amazed is that even though they quarrel like every night, break up is never the thought.

He always hope that the relationship will turn out better. He will give chance, so much chance that sometimes he feel so tired. But that does not stop him from loving her and giving her a chance to reciprocate. Though things does not get better, he isn’t giving her up. His love for her is something which made me feel that he is so strong and powerful.

Well, I believe, one day, everyone will meet the one who can give you unlimited number of chance just to get things work. And I believe, your hard work will be appreciated. If one day, you meet someone you love, give them the chance and opportunity to love you. Don’t give things up easily because some people are hard to come by. Imagine few millions of people and he only lay his eyes on you, give his heart to you. So yes, appreciate it! =)

If you love someone, give them the chance to work things out =)

No comments needed =)

Damn! It is all because of me, I think you are in deep trouble now. If not for the request I used to make, you will not do it. And because of that, I think you are in serious trouble. I am super guilty. So sorry about it. I think, this made things worst. So much worst.

Suddenly, I feel that I had cause a lot of troubles for you. I find myself such a burden. Oh shucks! I hate it. I am utterly sorry about it. Sorry for all the problems and troubles. So sorry about it.

Aren’t pinning much hopes. There are some things which I know regardless how long it is, it will never change already. I don’t know but yes, that is the feeling I get. I think, changes is always needed at times. Oh well, since things already happened, there is nothing I can do. I can only accept and wait.

Ok, or may be not wait. I don’t know what I am feeling now. It is super messy inside. Ah! Does it even matter how I feel? I don’t think it matters already. Maybe if I had kept quiet, things will not be that terrible. Maybe if I had kept quiet, I don’t think there will be this messy feeling. Maybe if I had kept quiet, you won’t be so troubled now. Maybe if I had kept quiet, I can skip the waiting. Maybe if I had kept quiet, things will just go the way as said.

So what now? I did not keep quiet, so things will not go the way as ‘maybe’. Me and my big mouth. Next time, I think I should have just shut the stupid mouth of mine. Ah~ That is if there is next time.

Ahh~ How how how!!! I am so lost now! My mind is in a mess and I can’t concentrate at all! I don’t want to get into an accident today =(

HOW?!