My Life, My Blog

"They have no rights, They have no say. And they long to be free one day"

Don't this sentence rings any bell?
Now that is delicated to me.
I have no rights.
I have no say.
And I long to be free one day.
I hate dangling in the middle.

Anyway,
I am seriously going home soon.
Ha!

I was thinking about that problem again.
This time,
I am deadly sure,
99.9999999999999% it will not change.
Why?
No message,
No calls,
No notes.
Seriously,
Machiam quiet.
Think only I am fan.
People are also not fan.
I fan so much for what?
Peope don't make an effort,
I make so much effort to think for what?
My cousin hopes that things turn out well,
I hope so too.
But people are not giving me the chance to act as a natural person.
Now is machiam like,
"Give me some time to think first."
Just that this got time span.
Machiam asking me to wait.

It reminds me of someone else.
Ask me to wait indirectly.
And what am I waiting for?
Nothing?!
When the time is up,
What will happen?
Not sure!
Will anything miracle happen?
I don't wish miracle happen.
But it might happen this case.
Well,
That is the situation.

This time,
In this situation,
Ask me to wait indirectly.
Wait for what?
Wait to re shuffle feelings and thoughts.
When the time is up,
What will happen?
Negative feedback.
Will miracle happen?
I wish got miracle.
But most probably don't have.

Shucks!
Why the one I wanted miracle don't happen?
The one I don't want will happen?
Idiot!~

I really have a very bad feeling.
A very bad one.
I feel so like stabbing my heart so it will stop feeling.
**Stab stab stab**
I'm heartless now.
It stop bleeding already.

Though I have thought through already,
I still wish to have Selective Memory Loss,
Or Lacunar Amnesia.
At least I won't be thinking about it now.
Well,
If I get into an accident,
Then,
Things will get clearer right?!
So means,
If I get into an accident,
Things will be settled!

Yes,
That is it!
If I get into an accident,
If concern,
Good news.
If no feeling,
Bad news.
Simple.
Perfectly simple task.
It is so easy to get into an accident!~
LOL!

Grace,
can you hit my head?!
And I hit yours for you?
So we both can forget about what happen.
I am looking for a scientist.
So he can cut off the hippocampus and amygdala.
So I will loss the memory of that event.
So I loss everything of what is happening between you and me.
They say,
We need to block the chemical reaction.
Now there.
What chemical reaction is it?
How to block it?
I seriously need to block it.
Or should I actually block the other person's?
I just make that person think of the event,
Then block it.
Then~
ZAPP!!
Whatever happen is gone.
Whatever that the person is worrying is gone.
Then,
Happily ever after!
Wooosh!
I want to do so! =D
So bad!

Go off comp already.
Bye~