Oh well oh well. It is school and more school everyday! OMG! I am soo tired! Yawn! I want to sleep and nua soo much like what it had happened during holiday. I miss holiday! Yawn!!
Stupid MSN. Keep telling me message cannot send out. Idiotic freak!!
x__[[Wednesday, January 07, 2009.
There is IS today and yes, video watching for wisp. And for csc, the lecturer actually told us that there is not a need to come today. And for the subsequent week, no more csc. OMG! I love him man! LOL!
Then I was discussing with limin and bernice about our assignment and yes! Finally end of discussion and coincidentally, I saw bff and clique leaving. In the end, bff came and fetch me home. Thanks!
x__[[Thursday, January 08, 2009.
In the morning, there is open house duty with bff and chek wye. I think we spent 3/4 of our time there chatting and chatting. Haha! We had cotton candy too! OMG! My favourite! Yummy!~ Fattening and yet, love it! Haha! I better watch my waist.
I saw a group of guangyang students! I was trying to talk and psycho them to bme. And when I asked which secondary they are from, they said gy! OMG! I was like excited because from same secondary school. And they were saying that their maths teacher is ling-seet. OMG! One of my favourite teacher! And of course, grace chang. Love them!! They are all maths teacher. Haha!! See, I am soo inspired to be maths teacher.
After duty, we went to techno fair to look around and slack. Then we went for bi lecture. After lecture, we had practical. We lost our way to practical. While looking around, we were near the venue already. Then I suddenly turn around and ask these 3 guys where is block 44 level 2 room 6A. They were so stunned and answered me "some where around here". Duh! I know that too. LOL!
Yawn! I am super sleepy. It had been ages since I stood soo long. Suddenly reminds me of the day working as promoter. My poor leg~
After practical, I went home and doze off again! Yawn!!
x__[[Friday, January 09, 2009.
Early morning, thanks to bff, he fetch me to school for ce practical. Yawn. So sleepy again. Haha! I am forever sleepy. We went to new canteen for lunch again. And during dtle lesson, I think I am like 80% sleeping. Haha! Finally school ended and yes, I went to hand in my finance form at the finance office but they asked me to attach the recipts.
I find it soo troublesome! Ahh! I want my money back!! Nearly $400 ok! I want my money =( Ahhh!
When I reach home, I doze off. I am supposed to look for npy at bukit batok. However, when I wake up, it is already 1am. Yawn! I am super tired! I chatted with uncle and then at 3 plus am, I went to sleep.
x__[[Saturday, January 10, 2009.
By the time I wake up, it is already 10++ am. Then I watch television and played with xiao pang and ah san. At 1 plus pm, I left house to meet npy. We went down to bishan for lunch and shopping.
We went walking around and in the end, we did not get a single thing at bishan. How sad! LOL! Then we took bus down to marina square. We took 56 from bishan interchange to marina square terminal =/
We went shopping at john little and then went to walk around marina square and suntec city. In the end, I got myself a pair of shoes. My shoes are spoilt (again). My favourite white two tone shoes is spoilt again. That time is the front sole drop out, now is the back. How sian!
The shoes is sooo plain. I wanted to get the pearly white pair to replace my white two tone shoes. However, I realise that I do not have any black or dark colour shoes. So in the end, I got a dark grey one -.- Haha!
Then we decide to go down to chinatown to walk. LOL! And amazingly, I remember that we can go chinatown from douby ghaut thanks to going there with irene and clique. Haha! So we took bus down to douby ghaut and then change bus.
I saw a bus which look so familiar and I anyhow tell npy that it can go chinatown. LOL! So we got up the bus and yes, the moment I move to the back of the bus, I saw someone so damn familiar, samuel.
I saw him with a girl but she is totally not yong ren look alike. Hmm, that time the girl I saw on his display picture before I delete him (nearly 11 months ago), she is totally yong ren look alike and quite sweet. However, the girl I saw yesterday totally don't look like yong ren. No discrimination but she has china accent.
While traveling, suddenly, I saw someone familiar. It is samuel's group of friends. It is quite awkward I guess. Then npy and I move to the back of the bus to sit down. Haha! And we travel again and again down to chinatown.
There are SOOO many people. My feet is hurting from the walking. Thanks to my stupid shoes, I have to wear another pair. And for some reason, my feet always hurt when wearing the shoes. So my feet is like pain =x
When shopping at chinatown, the street where there are all the chinese new year things, we saw friends! Omg! I thought I am aunty enough. In the end, my friends are equally 'old'. Haha! We saw npy's friend and then I saw morven! I was looking around then suddenly someone snap his finger in front of me. Shock me ok! I was like thinking, who are you! Haha! Haven't recover from shock. =x
Then we got some food and continue walking. We did not get anything and did not walk much. All thanks to me and my hurting toe. Haha! And then we went to take cab home.
When I reach home, I bathe, wait for npy and then went to sleep.
x__[[Sunday, January 11, 2009.
It is sunday! I did not do much work at all! OMG! I am soo dead! =( Emo!
I spent the whole day playing with niece and nephew =) Whooooo~
I am watching channel 8 and they say what chen xi and yue nian meeting again. What the hack. What kind of additional thing is that. It is all crap ok! Totally crap and yes, CRAP! Omg. They make it sound like another ending. In the end, it is just an episode summarising everything and say "thank you audience". How crap is all these.
Today afternoon, I was listening/reading/thinking people's love relationship story. One wants to get her, one wants her back and the other is that she wants him back. Why is everything soo haywire? Why isn't things simple? And why is relationship always a torture and confusing? Life is confusing enough. Why is there such thing more complicating called love? Why can't it be as simple as what bff says "love then be together, why make things complicated?" Is it that he take things too simple or is it that we are thinking it too complex?
Party One
One of them want to get her but she rejected. He like her, she like him but she rejected him when he asked. When he ask her out, she always accept. And they are always contacting and sending sms. Why did she reject? Suddenly, I wonder, why did I reject ivan again and again last time? Whenever he ask me out, I will sure accept and I will always wait for his call and messages.
And when he ask me to be his girlfriend, I reject again and again. I like him and he like me. Why did I reject him anyways? I just find it odd when I think back. What I considered was about us being in different school and then different circle of friends and all. And it is all these small things that I considered which cause me to reject him again and again. If I had accepted him, maybe first ex problem won't happen and everything will change.
Party Two
For one of them, it is that he want her back but as a friend of hers, I will say that she should not go back. I find some people just like a jerk. He totally remind me of my first ex. When he fail to get the girl he like, he come back and look for me. And he start telling me how much he miss me and all the stupid crap. And the worst thing is that he tell me he want to get back with me. It is the same few typical drama lines.
At that point of time, I wonder why aren't he shameful? Yes, I don't deny that I find myself soft hearted and did intend to go back to him. What he say is so touching and suddenly, I do not know why, I feel awaken and find my tears dropping upon break up for nothing. He is just treating me as a spare tyre. I hate such guys and I find them a total brainless useless jerk. They are just a disgrace to guys. If can, I will give the guy one tight slap for taking my friend as a spare tyre. Just wish that he can wake up, learn and change.
Party Three
And for the other one, she still love him and they broke off for some reason. Now the guy is going mia and avoiding her. When she ask him if he still love her, he say it is complex. And now, she is so troubled. She ask him out, he say that he is busy today and tomorrow and all. She message him, he hardly reply. When she call him, he always have excuse to put down the phone. He is not contacting her at all. And all these reminds me of samuel. It is exact the same thing as what he did to me last time.
Suddenly, I feel sooo heartach and pain. I do not know why but it suddenly remind me of all the pain and torture I undergo last time. His unclear feelings made me cry every night. His unclear feeling made me lose myself. And now, she is undergoing such pain and torture. Those days were dark and yes, I admit that I am scared of having to undergo those days again. And I tell myself I do not want to undergo anymore. Now, my dear her is undergoing this dark days.
Imagine having tears to numb everything, ever single emotional song would trigger the emotion, walking around as if you are zombie. I hate such things and yes, I hate it soo much. At that point of time, I just kept myself super busy and not think of things. I kept myself busy and busy that I fall sick and hardly eat anything. However, when I am free, my mind don't stop. I just wish to stay with her now. I do not want to let her go through such stage because I know what it is like to undergo these. I do not want to see her suffer. I really feel like looking up that guy and ask him what is he really thinking?
Why isn't relationship simple?!