APRIL IS CURSED!
I slept too much and ate too little today! Haha! Yesterday, I slept too little and today, I slept too much.
Today morning, I woke up at 8 plus am. And then I went back to sleep until 9 plus am. That is early. So I came out to watch television, on my computer. I can’t access to RC again and I decide to give up after 1 try. Haha!
I start nua-ing and watching television instead until about 12pm, I got so bored and decided to go and rest. My phone kept ringing. People are trying to meet me. Haha! I got so nua on bed that I decided to stop replying and sleep.
At 1 plus pm, drew drew wake me up. He is feeling super unwell and giddy. So I had to serve him. Oh shucks! I went back to sleep after drew drew went to the living room. At 2 plus pm, drew drew called me using his handphone. Hmm! I had to serve him again. Haha!
And I went back to sleep after serving him. At 3 plus pm, angie came home and I got woken up by her. Grr! And I went back to sleep. At 4 plus pm, mummy called me regarding some matter. Oh shucks! I decided to wake up and go and watch television.
For the whole day, I only ate dinner! Die die die! For this holiday, I think I am eating lesser and lesser meals! And the worst thing is, I am eating half the amount I usually eat for dinner. I don’t feel hungry, the moment I see the food, I find myself very full and no appetite. I wonder what is wrong. I need to eat more. My hair is dropping more and more each day. One day, I will become bald! I don’t want that to happen!!! =(
I was so bored and decided to read my blog archives. Suddenly, I miss “the daily scoop”. It had been quite some time since drew drew actually drove me to sunset way for ice cream! I remember the last time I went was with drew drew, anna, yh and kaitlyn. Kaitlyn tied a meatball hair style because she want to be like sailormoon! Haha! I want to go there for ice cream again!
I was talking to kah wai. Haha! Whee! As usual, we are talking about relationship stuff. Relationship seems to be the talk of the week for me and her. Well, there are quite a number of things happening. There are some which I just do not want to say. I guess, I am not ready to say it yet.
We started talking about my history. I was telling her that last time, samuel used to reject me not because he don’t have feelings for me, but it is because he is too scared of me. I decided to ask my cousin “am I that scary?” And her direct answer is “Yes!”. So embarrassing! OMG!
You know, somewhat, history is repeating itself. I don’t know why. I just have a feeling that history will repeat and I am getting worried and paranoid. Maybe, history just repeats. I don’t wish to have the same script happening. Maybe I am just so scary. Well, maybe all the guys I met are not like the guy I previously mention, “he loves her so much that he gives her unlimited amount of chances.”
Oh well~ It is something that I don’t have the capability to play with. I don’t want to find something light. I want to find something heavy. So heavy that it will be there and regardless how big the wind is, it won’t go away and stay with me. Regardless how I kick it away, it will be there. There used to be a guy who will be there but things just ended like that. I guess I should be thankful that I used to have such a history. Will that part of history repeat? I need the same script, different cast!
My friend change her blog song, 一个人生活. And this song, brings back so much memories. I remember I was so into this song. I remember that time, I was so emo over some problem and I actually started spamming this song on my laptop. And drew drew was asking me about the emo-ness! Haha!
我想我可以习惯一个人生活；我想我可以假装不曾爱过；
I suddenly find april so cursed! Last year, during april, many people met with relationship problem. And this year april, it is repeating! Many are meeting relationships problem. Hmm! April is so cursed! Maybe next time, during the month of april, I should learn to distant from my partner. Haha!