I AM DAMN SORRY OK!

Ok, I am back from grandma house =) Starting, I thought everything was ruined. Kenneth is not staying over, he is going club and all. No no, everything changed when he came over =) Yes my dear cousin did the right choice by staying with us because he is the one who initiated to SLEEP OVER!

Yesterday afternoon, I went out with npy. We went to watch the sniper and then went to the food court for dinner. After dinner, we walked around and then he accompanied me down to grandma house and we waited for my cousin to come.

Npy left and then I met up with wai. On our way to the lift, we saw 7th aunt and then we went to get newspaper with her. Soon after we went back to grandma house to rest. We waited for quite some time before kenneth come. When kenneth came, we were watching television and all.

At night, we were chatting and we got something new to talk. Kenneth must be thinking that he have such a sick cousin, which is me =) We chatted and chatted and at around 4am, kenneth went out and meet edmund. Then kah wai and I decided to start nua-ing and rotting.

When kenneth came back, we were still awake. Kah wai and I were talking about the future we want. Suddenly I find that the future I want is something so simple. I am more of the down-to-earth kind. I don’t mind being a housewife at home. I don’t need some WOW work. And of course, I want a happy family.

And for wai, she wants to be traveling always, she cannot stay in one country for too long. She wants freedom and some WOW work. Yes~ We are so different. Just like juan juan and anna. Same age but totally different wants and needs.

And we finally went to bed at 5.30 plus am. We woke up at around 11am and had our breakfast. Hmm~ Ok, time ticking by, we were looking at photos and at 1 plus 2pm, wai started doing female stuff while I waited for her. Then we left grandma house and headed to toa payoh interchange.

Ok, I took bus home. Emo-ed and yes. Reach home and on my RC. I have missed 1 day of RC already. So sad!

I did not know that you are impatient. Is it me or is it that you don’t seem to want to wait at all. Why did you keep calling while waiting? I waited for you before and did I keep calling you and bug you where you are? I will just wait quietly. Why is it that you keep calling and calling, keep asking me where I am? Do you even want to wait? Or is it because I said so, that is why you waited? I don’t need that.

You were so determined to wait just now. And yes, I admit I am happy. However, what is so disappointing is when I reach. You wasn’t there already. May be I am dumb or stupid or idiot. It is me who told you I don’t need you to wait. In the end, I wanted you to be there still. I don’t see why is it so troublesome for you to wait for me. Just by sitting there and wait, you made at least 5 calls bugging me where I am. If you don’t want to wait, or you are so busy, you can just go. From the very first message, you can just leave and go. Why must you keep bugging when you decided to wait on your own accord? Why must you tell me that you will wait, insisting that you will wait and then when I reach, you are not there at all? Why must it be like that? I have no idea what I want either. All I know is, I am very sad and I just want to be alone.

For you:
Sorry that I kept you waiting. If I know that you can’t wait, I won’t have made such request. Sorry. I will have just said it is ok. If I had know it, I would have insisted on my point. So sorry. I think I made a big mistake by telling you yesterday. So sorry. I promise there will not be a next time. I will not make you wait again. So super sorry about it. I did not know that asking you to do something and it ended up like this. So sorry. I did not know it will drag. Sorry about it. It must have wasted tons of your time.