Scary Night

I am posting at such late hour. I wish I am sleeping like most people. However, I can’t sleep at all. I tried my best to close my eyes, count the sheep, psycho myself to sleep. I just failed drastically. In the past, I can doze off effortlessly. Now, I can’t do it at all.
Everyone in the house is asleep already. I feel like sleeping with the lights on but (1) I don’t have a bed side lamp (2) my sis has a bed side lamp but if I were to on it, it will disturb her sleep (3) I can’t on my main room light because it will disturb my sis. So tell me, what to do?
I tried calling and asking people to talk to me till I sleep but in the end, failed! Instead of talking to me till I sleep, they are more sleepy and dozing off. I can’t be so bad so I decided to let them go and sleep while I continue my fear.
Seriously, after one incident, I am even more afraid of dark, don’t dare to sleep alone, don’t dare to close my eyes. I feel so timid. I feel like an idiot. It had been so long since that thing happened and I still don’t dare. When will it go away? I have been waking up at night ever since that incident. I hate it!
I was trying and trying so hard to sleep that I had the urge to call L. Well, in the past, L always have a way to entertain me till I sleep. However, it is rather impossible to call L now. If it is possible, I really will go and call L for help.
Another person I wanted to call was S. Though L is a better person in entertaining me, S sleeps late in the night so calling S might be a good choice. I am not sure why either, I don’t know how to tell S that I don’t dare to sleep. Right~ I think S and I will end up in a rather **don’t know what to do** situation.
One of the person I called was N. I don’t know what the problem is but the volume is always so soft that I can’t hear. I had to keep telling N to speak louder. And I think N seems rather tired so in the end, I lie to N and say I am ok when I am totally not. If I am ok, I would have doze off.
So in the end, I end up here blogging and complaining about it. I wonder how can I go and sleep in such manner? I really want to go and sleep because I have to wake up early in the morning. Can I just on the living room light? Will I get scolded from daddy for on-ing the light?
Please get me sleeping pill!!! =( **I am serious about getting sleeping pill**