I Just Can't Do It

I don’t want to know it.
I don’t want to ask it.
I don’t want to ponder it.
I don’t want to see it.
I don’t want to feel it.
I don’t want to hear it.
I don’t want previous history to repeat!
But I can’t..
I want to just keep quiet.
I want to pretend I know nothing.
I want to forget everything.
I want to forgive everything.
I want to act ignorant.
I want to go away.
I want to get out of previous history!
But I can’t..
What is the point seriously?
What is the point of hoping?
What is the point of wishing?
What is the point of planning?
What is the point of wondering?
What is the point of everything?
All the hope, wish, wonder.
It has all gone down to drain.
How good is inference?
Reason – infer
Itinerary – infer
Waiting – infer
Thinking – infer
View – infer
Feel – infer
So all this is due to inference.
Then tell me, who can tell me the truth?
Who can stop the inferring?
Who can stop the sourcing?
Who can stop the thinking?
Who can stop the waiting?
Who can stop the feeling?
Who can stop everything?
What can I do? Nothing.
What can I say? Nothing.
What can I see? Nothing.
What can I question? Nothing.
What can I get? Nothing.
Simple terms, there is nothing to be done at all.
I’ve got enough of it.
I am tired of it.
I am sick of it.
I’m exhausted.
Protect yourself.
One need to learn to protect yourself. Create a barrier.
Don’t remove the barrier easily.
Step backwards.
Take a step back and look at things again from another angle. Use your brain.
Be lead by your brain sometimes.
Revenge is sweet.
Don’t get bullied and keep quiet.
Since things have turn out this way.
I shall make do with it.
Since things have turn out this way.
I shall accept it.
Since things have turn out this way.
I shall adapt.
Human nature – Adaptability.
I was taught to lie.
I was taught to act.
I was taught to run.
I was taught to hide.
I was taught to shut.
I’m taught to get out.
Lost in the pool of lies and facts.