Just a Dream

I had a dream the other day. Amazingly, I dreamt of X.Well, to some, dream is dream, it never come true. I don’t know why, when I wake up, I wish it is true. I want to know why too. Why am I dreaming of X? Why are the dreams of X so nice?
Every time when X comes into the picture, things get so unclear. I thought X is already gone but no, I am wrong. Whenever X drop by, X will make me so blur, so unclear, so hopeful and so helpless. I don’t like those unclear, hopeful and helpless feeling. I know it is gone. I know it shouldn’t come back. I know it won’t come back either. Why am I still thinking of X?
It all happened to a sentence someone told me. Ever since then, I get a little hopeful that things goes the way someone said. Why? I should be contented and happy now. Why is it that X pops in out of no where? Can X be eliminated? The moment X comes in, I can’t control anymore.
Regardless is A, B, C, D, E or anyone, it doesn’t affect at all. Only X will cause such ‘wuha’. Why? What is so special about X? Why is X always making me so distracted? I tried my best to do whatever I can. Whenever things get nice and lovely, X will come to me in my dreams. Why?!
Why did I get myself into such trouble? Why I am so not self-controlled? Why is things going this way? I don’t like it at all. This is not the first time. In the past, whenever things get nice, X will come to me in different ways, chatting, on the street, dreams or anything! And now, X came to me again. I don’t like!!
How I wish wai is around. I desperately need an emergency KWAY gathering. I need some help! I need some counseling. I need some knot-untying.
If time were to go back to where it used to be long time ago, what will happen? Will things change if I know this will happen? Will I still be dreaming of X when things are nice? Will my story change? Will A, B, C, D, E or anything still happen? I really wonder….