What is University?

I HATE UNIVERSITY LIFE. Screw university. Screw modules. Screw tutorials. Screw lectures. Everything is so not going well. I hate hate hate hate school life. It is just the end of week 3 and I am doing tutorials until tears roll down. I don’t understand why I am feeling so stress up?
I don’t understand a single shit that is written on the tutorial paper. I don’t understand a single crap. My tutorial sheet is empty. I don’t understand a single rubbish in the lecture notes. I don’t understand a single word the lecturers are delivering. Everything is question mark.
What is the point of giving me a set of notes that I don’t understand when I attempted to read through? What is the point of giving me a set of notes when all the lecturers do is to read through? What is the point of giving me a set of notes when the lecturer teaches us as if we are ALL jc students? What is the point of giving me a set of notes when their explanation is like crap?
Now, tell me, am I in the right place? Am I doing the right thing? Am I putting enough effort? Am I brainless?
If I am at the right place, doing the right thing, putting enough effort and not brainless, please tell me why is everything seem so foreign to me? I never feel such a feeling before. Neither in primary school, secondary school nor polytechnic.
Maybe I should start paying 101% of what the jc students are paying. Or maybe, I am the wrong place..
I think I understand why the eee guy committed suicide.