Damn pissed off.
But what can I do?
What can I say?
I can only say “nvm, forget it”
What more?
NOTHING!
I said it so many million billion times.
In the end, it is still the same.
So what I am damn mad about it?
So what I am damn pissed off about it?
So what I am damn unhappy about it?
I only can diam diam!
I only can ren ren ren!
DAMN!
Everything seems not right.
I don’t know what is not right too.
I just feel not right.
Word is wrong.
Promise is wrong.
Mentality is wrong.
Decision is wrong.
Time is wrong.
Position is wrong.
Path is wrong.
Mood is wrong.
Feeling is wrong.
Tap is wrong.
Everything is wrong.
However, I have no idea how to correct it.
I am so useless right?
I am learning a skill called ‘forgetting’.
When I learn that, things will be better.
I will forget whatever happened.
I will forget whatever is said.
I will forget whatever is promised.
I will forget whatever I thought of.
I will forget whatever that went wrong.
I will forget whatever happened.
I will forget whatever statues and go back to zero.
I will forget whatever unhappiness with them.
I will forget whatever feelings stirred.
So, if one day I were to forget you, don’t blame me. I have no choice.
I am sleepy! My feet hurts =(
Today, I went for work. Don’t ask me anything about work. I totally forgotten already. I even forget what is my company name. I am so blur! I totally forgotten everything. OMG! I went to work and did some beta testing. We are supposed to finish in 2 and half hours but in the end, we finish in less than 1 hour =x So fast!
We had lunch and then started writing some exam papers and then do another set of questions. I am so tired! I am so sleepy! I killed so much brain cells. Yawn! Tomorrow, I am going work again. And today, I work from 10am to 5.30pm! So long~
After work, I walk pass BHG, hoping to see some fellow but sadly, he is not there. Hmm! Lucky him. Then I took train home. I am so tired that I actually took the wrong side. Dumb!
I reach toa payoh and on my way back, there is this guy called anthony~ He is from prudential (again). Firstly, he was telling me “I can guess your name with 10 tries. Do you believe me?” I shook my head. Then he started prompting. In the end, he can’t guess my name. And he told me to guess his name -.-
Then he did some survey and we start chatting and chatting. Then for some reason, we kept laughing and laughing. I don’t know why. Then he brought me to his manager and started some presentation. Hmm, I wanted to help anthony earn commission. Every time he present to someone, he will earn commission and I told him I will help him =)
His manager is so funny too. He kept saying I am over-teen! It is because I am 20! Stupid~ As usual, I kept smiling and when anthony is presenting, we kept laughing! Haha! Anthony is a nice guy. He is working at ERA as housing agent too! He is from NUS and currently year 1, coming 2. Hmm! That is all I know. I think I am so dumb because I kept laughing~
Then I went to get cotton candy! I need something sweet to sweeten my life. Ok, joking. I walk back home. My feet hurts!!! The nails is too long and poke onto the toe beside it and now, blister!! =( Painful~
Another day of work tomorrow. And tomorrow, I have driving =x I need to rush down from work place to ssdc. Hai~
I was thinking and thinking and realise, there are so many things I need to learn. I wonder when will I pass? I wonder many things! OMG! I wonder when I will master it =( There are so many things which is un-learn~ Hai~
Uncertainty~
I wanted to blog! I so wanted to blog but but but I forgotten what I wanted to blog! =(
I was walking around after driving today. And I saw something from watsons! OMG! It is the Herbal Essences Long Term Relationship! OMG! Something which I had been eying for quite some time. Long term relationship~ The bottle is so damn nice! RED!
See, isn’t it just so nice? The red is soo nice~ =x I am so tempted to get it! Ah! Ok, I am always tempted to get things which are red.
Oh yes! Something damn funny happened today.
I was on my way home from ssdc. I am waiting for the train at yio chu kang mrt station. I am listening to my mp3 and leaning on the wall, in front of door 6. There is this guy who just came up from the escalator, rushing. Then he stood in front of door 5. And suddenly, he walk towards me, gave me a smile and open his mouth. I took off my ear piece to hear what he has to say. And guess what he said?
He asked, “eh, is my hair messy?” I was stunned! I was like “huh? Oh, your hair is not messy =)” I kept giggling. OMG! The train came, so coincidental, he is sitting in front of me. He smiled to me and of course, I smiled back. And then he still point to his hair and give the question mark look. LOL! I kept signaling “ok~”
When he got down the train, he still call me out and say “Hey! Thank you ah!” So funny! Will you go and ask someone you don’t know whether your hair is messy? It is damn funny can! I kept giggling. I wonder why he so thick skin? LOL!
Today’s driving is fun. Ok, jahir took me again and we kept laughing in the car. I kept forgetting things and he keep saying me. And he say that I have a bad habit of not signaling. So er xin can! I got signal but did not have time to signal~ LOL! Long story~ But yes, he kept shooting me!
And he say I got a lot of ‘sound effect’ when I drive. When I do something wrong or my turning too wide, I will go “ahhh!”. And when I do something correct or turn very nicely, I will be damn happy and go “yay~”. He say I don’t look 20 at all! And he says that I sound like a kid! Er xin!
I am starting to like driving because I have nice instructors like jahir and mr koh! =)
I am going to work tomorrow. Don’t ask me what I am working as. I have no idea at all. Qian-er asked me to go and work. LOL! Just for 2 days~ Well, it kills time. I think I have to cancel wednesday’s driving already=( Oh well, I wish I can faster pass driving. I am so sick and tired of going down to ssdc on such melting weather!!!
For work reason, I have to reach bugis by 10am! OMG! That is so early! That means I have to wake up at around 8.30am! Oh my gosh! For the past few days, I don’t have school, don’t have any thing on, I wake up at 10.30am or even 11.30am. Tomorrow, alarm clock! =( I am so sleepy~
Yooohooo! It is monday again! Damn, I am missing the monday blues thingy! I always had that when I am schooling. You know, the sunday have to sleep early because monday have school and you can’t seem to sleep so end up, monday is like crap.
The weather is like heater once again. I just wish that aircon bill is cheaper so God can on the aircon and no need worry about the electricity bill. Like that, the weather will be nicer and cooler =) I think, everyone is helping the economy by having our aircon on at night -.- You know, having to on aircon is so expensive? The electricity bill is like POOF!
Yesterday afternoon, drew drew and I went for lunch with yong hui and anna. We went to crystal jade for lunch. After lunch, we went to courts to shop. There is some megasales you know! The digital camera is quite cheap! The colours are nice too. Haha! Tempted =x
We were looking at phones and I feel like changing phone =( I miss my flip phone. Oh well, my phone is only 7 months and 21 days old. I still need to wait till it is 22 months old. That is so long~ I need to wait till 2010! So long!!!
Oh! There are many blenders! I want a blender. I want a blender so I can blend juice to drink! It is good for health ok!
Today, got driving again. I wonder besides driving, what more am I doing? Oh yes! I am going to take back piano again. Hmm~ And I have to help sister teach kaitlyn how to play the piano –.- She better listen to me!
Off to bathe~~~~~ Poof!
Boohoo! I think I ate something wrong. My tummy kept aching and I already visited the toilet 4 times today! Ah! Stupid tummy. =/
Yesterday afternoon, I went down to ssdc for driving again. So sickening. My instructor is nice. He is called patrick. He is super funny! Once again, my instructor have to keep asking me to pick up speed -.- So irritating. I am already driving at 50km/h and yet, he ask me drive faster. I so don’t understand why! He taught me the exterior of the car and I asked many many questions!
I even pump oil! Ok, before pumping, I wasted the oil because when he ask me to hold the pump oil thing, I press it by accident and oil spurge out. And after pumping the oil, he say “cannot waste oil, so before taking out, must tilt downwards.” And I was like “oh! So I wasted oil just now?” He just kept quiet, smile smile and keep the pump =x So bad~
After driving, I went back home. I went to get my lunch which is one mc chicken burger and a bag of barley water. I wanted to get water chestnut but I only got $1.40. I am short of 10 cents so I decided to get barley. Sadded! I am so broke!
I came home, bathe and went out again. I went to meet up with junlong, maggie and irene. While on my way to meet them, drew drew called me. Drew drew told me something. Ok, I am quite contented. I met up with them and then went to meet up with the rest. They are late, very late~ LOL!
We went to ckp’s condo for bbq. The seniors were chatting with the lecturers. Ok, overall, it is quite boring. I think most of the time, we are standing somewhere and slack. Hmm! As usual, we were talking about university and there are quite a number of them got into ntu bio-eng. Ah! So many!
After bbq, ren kai, kenneth, harry, junlong, maggie, irene and I went down to mac for food. We were talking about driving. Haha! As usual, junlong always disturb irene and tell her the fake things. Kenneth is taking his ftt this coming tuesday! Good luck! Kenneth is from ssdc too! I wonder why I did not see him at all. Else can go together.
We chatted until 11 plus pm and all of us headed home. We took 151 and then went home~ I forgotten to tap my card =( I am so tired that I decided to take 235 home. It took me less than half an hour to reach home. The bus is super fast!
When I reach home, I am damn tired. I went to bathe and went to bed! I am worn out!
This morning, as usual, the kids came and I am busy rc-ing. Haha! Now rc can build toilet. How cool is that? But the stupid thing is, they don’t know what is call flushing of toilet. You have to employ a cleaner when the toilet bowl is flooded. Very stupid right? I am so lazy to refurnish my restaurant. Haha!
And I think, many people are too hooked to rc. They are leveling so fast. I remember that time, I did not play for about 10 days, when I log in, wa! They level until so high already. I have to buck up! They are so fast! I have to start rc again! And sandi is so fast that she is level 27! Same level as me! OMG! Fast! We are only 50,000 points apart. OMG! Faster anne!
In the afternoon, I was reading the papers. And they were saying about last time, people want nice kitchen, then bedroom or something like that. And now, the craze is walk-in wardrobe! OMG! I wanted a walk-in wardrobe since long time ago! I was reading and yes, their wardrobe is so nice! Nowadays, the house is so small and yet, people are investing in giving up space for a walk-in wardrobe.
I always wanted to have a walk-in wardrobe in my house next time. Else, I want a build-in wardrobe, big build-in wardrobe. I also want a full glass mirror. Ya, it is all saying only. I want but will I do it next time? Dumb dumb! I wish it is like rc, happy happy redecorate the house, don need to worry about money~ How nice~~
Ok, day dreaming. I was reading through about environmental engineering and mathematical science. Hmm. Suddenly, I don’t know if I did the right choice by putting environmental as my second choice. I was looking at what they study. There are so many BI related things! There are so many properties to memorise, properties on ceramic, steel, concrete, wood, timber, plastic. OMG! I think I will die!
In year 1, I have to learn life science, physics, chemistry, material science, mathematics and computation. It is like studying every single course! Then you still have things like environmental chemistry, environmental processes and environmental microbiology. I wonder what are those! Worst of all, you still need to study wastewater engineering and solid waste management -.- Stupid! Learn how to dispose waste! Haha!
I still think, I am better at mathematics! At least, it skips all the engineering things. However, people are telling me mathematical science is not good. The career prospect is not good! OMG! I don’t know how now~ I wanted to get into either of it but how, it seems dark!
When I told daddy I want to go ntu and never will I go nus, he say “find one day I bring you go bai bai.” I don’t know why -.- He say he want to bring me to go and pray. I was telling mummy about going ntu regardless which choice I get and we start discussing about traveling, accommodation and all. Hmm. Seems like I am going to travel slowly!
Drew drew got his ns letter and he got posted into police academy. And then we started saying, ntu is located at jurong west, and according to sister, police academy is at chua chu kang and angie’s camp is over there too. And they were saying we can drive there together -.- Crazy!
I went to get a nap in the afternoon since rc is down. My life is only rc, home, sleep, driving, eat. I wonder what more are there for me? LOL! I can’t wait for ftt to come! I am so scared that I will fail my ftt! Oh shucks!
I am online shopping with sister and yes, I want to clear my wardrobe. And of course, dump my worn-for-3-years polo tee. That marks the end of my poly life! I remember, I have 6 polo tee and I wear them for my 5 days of school and 1 is for emergency purpose. LOL! Super no life! =x Jeans + polo everyday!
It doesn’t matter after all~
Dear bloggie,
I am feeling so confused. I have no idea what is going on. I have no idea if that is the right one. I have no idea what I can do. I have no idea whatever is happening too. I only know, I have to live up to my promise. It is so hard to live up to promises. I am so tired of keeping my promises again and again.
Why is it that the moment it start, everything change? It drop drastically and it is an overnight. So many things said but it is not shown. Ask me, do I doubt it? I doubt it totally. How can I trust it when it wasn’t shown at all? How can I trust it when it is totally opposite from what it is said? Tell, me, what can I trust?
I thought it was normal. In the end, I was doing a little more than others. Ok, I understand. I though “ok, I will not next time, I promise.” And I finally understand, it is not a little more, it is actually irritating and disturbing. I saw it and understand why it just can’t wait to be ended. I am not jus plain irritating but it is SUPER irritating. I will never ever do it again. I will do it way lesser, best if it is zero. I promise.
Regardless what happen, I try to accept, I try to tolerate, I try to understand. Yes, I am trying. However, this accepting, tolerating, understanding is getting too far too much. When I fail to accept, tolerate and understand, it became my fault, it became stress.
I don’t want to be a 24/7 strong person. I am not and I don’t want to be one. I am just an ordinary female who have up and down. That is the minimum said. In the end, it is not met again. I don’t understand why I am still trying to accept, tolerate and understand when it is only me doing it.
I am writing a report every single minute. Whenever I read through, I realise I am reporting every single day and minute. Bloggie, you must be so bored to let me type my report everyday. I am reporting every single detail, time, venue on you. You must be dying. There is nothing interesting to read either. Right bloggie?
Ok, bloggie, I know you are tired! I am giving you time on your own. I am giving you the time to rest and do your own things. See, isn’t me such a nice owner? I will come back when I am needed. LOL!
Sign off,
Anne
Hmm! Early afternoon, I got driving. The sun is like BIG! =( What a big sun! The weather is like burning! I want my concession!!! =( I don’t want to walk under the big sun! I want to take bus all the way~~~ I want my concession back!!!
Later I got driving. Drive drive drive. I am so sian of going down to ssdc! Suddenly I thought of some problem and yes! I have to think of a way to settle it too. So stupid one! Why is ssdc so packed? I need to pre-book so many lessons. So sickening! What a waste of money.
Tonight, got bme farewell party! I am going to see my friends again. Though I am super duper uper lazy to travel, I still have to go. Well, I said that I am going. And yes, my dear vp actually left a note on facebook for everyone! OMG! I am so touched! I don’t see myself or irene doing that. Right irene?! LOL!
I was talking to my cousin the other day. It suddenly came to my mind, why are people so fake? Why do people wear a mask? I want to wear a mask too. I want a mask that is forever smiling. I don’t want to show people that I am unhappy or angry. I don’t know why, I don’t like to reveal the ‘unhappy’ side. What I don’t like most is people asking me “are you ok?” when I am obviously not ok. Sounds stupid right?!
Sometimes, I’d rather suffer alone at night then pulling a long face and talk to other people. Now I understand, why sometimes, people just want to be alone. Sometimes, I wish to be alone too. Sometimes, I just want to do some reflection. I can’t believe that I actually do reflection! LOL!
Well, there are some things which people want to hide and they hide it very well. For example, by chance, I got to know that one of my close friend actually don’t like another friend of hers. However, they are still quite close together. My close friend actually tolerate that friend of hers and fake a front every time. However, the fact is, my close friend dislike her SO much! I was totally dumb folded when she told me about it.
Why do people want a mask? Is being themselves and revealing their actual feeling very difficult? It is so hard? I find it so hard myself. I find it so hard to reveal my true feeling, my unhappiness and anger. I always want to put a “I am ok” front. I don’t want people to worry for me. I want a big big mask~
Yesterday night, I was chatting with my cousin. I can’t stand it any more. Suddenly, I find jiaxin such a jerk. Not very sudden. He is such a loser. I think he is so self-centered and his pride is so damn high. He is such an idiot. That day, my cousin’s god sister told her about what jiaxin spread at his work place the other time when they broke up.
She lives in a Terrace house with 2 maids and 2 dogs.
She demanded a guess watch as a present.
She demanded more time for her when he is working for her mother.
She cheated on him with her colleague.
OMG! I think he is so pro. Having to be cousin with her for coming 20 years, I never know that she have 2 dogs! Yes, she USED to live in a terrace house but that was before they are together. She asked for a guess watch? Hmm! My cousin is richer than him. Why would my cousin demand that? And besides, my cousin finds guess a cheap brand -.-
I don’t understand why he need to be such an idiot. Is pride really that important? Why is it that when the girl he woo rejected him, he comes back to my cousin again? And why did he force himself onto her? I don’t understand at all.
Why can’t he have a clean break up? Why did he make my cousin the ‘full time’? When he want to woo the girl, he fails, he will go back to my cousin. When he manage to get the girl, however the girl reject some of his request, he goes back to my cousin.
He keep claiming that my cousin did not consider his feeling. Why not ask himself, did he consider my cousin’s feeling when he spread things about her? Did he consider about my cousin when he tries to tarnish her reputation? Did he consider about my cousin when he finds her back because he fails to woo another girl? Did he consider about my cousin when he force himself onto her? Did he consider about my cousin when he scolded her self centered, selfish, slut, bitch?
Why must he do all this when the other party rejects him? No, to be exact, he only did that to my cousin when she rejected him. Why? It is because, he will look for my cousin when he fails another girl. And he ASSUME that my cousin will go back to him regardless what happen. What a jerk.
He used to be (please note, it is USED TO BE) such a nice guy. He was so sweet and concern about my cousin. Why did he change so drastically that I hardly recognise him? Why must he be such a jerk and join the ‘jerk’ company? Why must he do all this to hurt someone?
People change faster than you though. The one you used to think that you know very well might just become a stranger overnight. I am getting more and more foreign to things around. People change, feelings change, character change, thinking change.
When will be my change? When will be the expiry date to my current path?
I AM BUYING AN UMBRELLA!
that is a nice blue!
I desperately need an umbrella! I need to get an umbrella which is light and not bulky. I don’t want to carry a heavy umbrella around. And the umbrella must be able to block sunlight. I don’t want to be burnt. The umbrella must be durable too. I don’t want to spend few bucks on something which is spoilt so easily. The umbrella must be plain looking and colour must be nice. It will be best if it is red =) I think that is it? So~ Where can I get a good umbrella? Intro me some places.
I guess everyone experienced the BIG gust of wind yesterday night at around 11.30pm. The wind was so big! It had uprooted so many trees! It had caused the trees to smash the cars. It had also made my house damn messy.
The BIG wind actually made all the windows in the house slammed. And best of all, it was SO big that it actually made one of the closed window open and unable to close back. OMG! That is so scary! Joseph then came and talk to me. He told me about the wind blowing the rubbish bin onto the road.
Just now, when I went to get lunch, I saw the debris everywhere. There are people cleaning up, picking up the tree branches. And of course, workers cleaning and sweeping the place up. The sun is SO big now and they are working so hard for us. OMG! I am touched.
I wonder what caused the wind. Hmm! I thought I can don’t on aircon but sadly, the wind is SO big that I have to close the window and on the aircon. Oh shucks! Drastic change of weather.
The world is coming to an end!! =(
Yesterday, I went driving again. My instructor kept asking me to follow the speed limit and ask me to pick up speed as fast as I can. Irritating! I hate driving so fast. And then it is also the first time, my car horn another car. Some more, 5 times! OMG! Haha! It is NOT my fault. It is other driver’s fault. Whee!
Tomorrow, there is bme farewell party. Hmm! I am quite lazy to go. I bet they will be talking about university and that is the LAST thing I want to talk about. That is not the topic I am going to anticipate. I prefer talking and discussing with people whom I am closer with.
I am going graduation day! I wanted to book the graduation attire but I have no idea which size to choose. According to height, I should choose XS but I scared too small. If I choose S, I am not tall enough. Haha! The height for XS is 1.55m to 1.60m. And for S is 1.60m to 1.65m. I am 1.58m without my heels. LOL!
I realise that my life is revolving around home, online shop, lunch, home, driving, home, online shop, sleep. And the cycles continue. I need to go out! There are places I feel like going but I don’t feel like going out because transportation is like damn ex! I miss concession. I want my concession back =(
I am buying and buying but not going out. So I actually bought clothes when I am not going out at all so end up, I leave it in my wardrobe. So one day, when I start clearing, I am going to throw all away again! I am so spendthrift =x
I am going to get a haircut! I am always cutting hair. One day, I am going to shave bald! =x Ok, I am just joking.
Yi Nan Wang~~
Yooohoooo~~~ I was camping in the fridge few days ago! You know, the weather is like OMG and for some reason, flying bugs are visiting. So I had to find a place, close the window, close the door, on the aircon and CAMP!
On sunday, in the afternoon, I went out for lunch. And the weather is like KILLER! Haha! I came home with bubble tea for drew drew, angie and kaitlyn. Hmm~ I coax kaitlyn to sleep and then nua in front of the television. As usual~ At night, mama prepared steamboat! =) Abalone~~~~
On monday, as usual, I am having driving. No more concession and that means, I have to walk to the interchange and then walk to ssdc from the mrt station =( The weather is OMG and I have to walk. I think I better go get an umbrella. I know it sounds aunty but no choice isn’t it?
Ok, finally, the speed increases. Haha! Jahir took me for driving today. Whoo! He told me that he and koh are good buddy! Both of them came to ssdc on the same day. I was like “are you serious?!” And he said that my full name, sounds like a male -.- Ok, does “wong heng gee” sounds like a guy?
On tuesday, I went out for lunch with drew drew. Aren’t we soo sweet? LOL! Ok, that sounds a little stupid. Then I started nua-ing at home again. Oh! The farewell party is planned. It is held on this friday and I am still thinking should I go or not. Hmm~
Suddenly, many are going for graduation. Oh well, maybe I should go too? I am not very sure. There are some reasons why I don’t feel like going. It is because of the seating arrangement. Oh shucks! It doesn’t matter anyways. Haha! I still got time to consider.
Today, having driving again! Oh shucks! I am super lazy =( Haha! Wheeeeee~ Killing time to go driving.
Back to RC~ =)
I AM MELTING!!
Whoo! It is saturday and the weather is like hot!
Yesterday morning, I went out for lunch. I went to popular to get some stuff! I got myself a pen with post-it at the back. OMG! It is so cool! Last time, it was highlighter and post-it. Now, it is pen and post-it. There is even marker with post-it. How I hope it is an ink pen, 0.4mm.
I was looking for things to get. Then I realise, my g-tec ink is yet to be finished. There is still about 1/3 of it left. What is so amazing is that, I had been using this g-tec since poly year 1. And I did not buy any refill at all. OMG! This pen is so durable =) I guess it is because, I only use pen during exam and common test.
After popular, went down to bishan for lunch. Hmm! Well, was supposed to have pepper lunch for lunch but in the end, I decided to get noodles. I hardly eat the noodles again. What a waste of money. Maybe next time, I shall just share. After meal, went to walk around for a while and headed home~
By the time I reach home, it is already 3 plus pm. Yawn! I decided to rest and nap for awhile. Then at 4 plus pm, anna came up to get some things. I left house at 5pm for driving. I was late, so I had to keep rushing and running. Luckily, I was on time for lesson. Phew!
I got koh as my instructor today again. Hmm! He keep asking me to change to 4th gear and I just die die don’t want to change. I never let my car speed go beyond 45km/h. I find it damn fast! I always maintain my car speed to be 40km/h. Ok, I know it is slow.
And the thing is, when my speed is 30-35km/h, I change from 2nd gear to 3rd gear. I will drive up to 40km/h and maintain there. He will ask me change to 4th gear. So after changing, it is still 40km/h. He keep saying me -.- I am very lazy to change gear.
For some reason, koh keeps saying “wa er xin!” He is copying me!!! Whenever got car overtake me, I will “wa er xin!” And yesterday, got 3 taxi overtake me at the traffic light, he said “wa! They very er xin right?” And he start laughing. Copycat! I realise I keep saying “er xin” lately. I wonder where did I learn that from. Haha! Even wanrong got the virus from me. I have no idea why too!
Oh oh~ I am so not going to get koh or jahir next week. They are working morning shift and next week, my lessons are in the evening again. Oh sad! I wish they work full on monday or wednesday! =)
I need to improve on my driving. It sucks! My progress is so super slow! I need to improve improve improve. I need to be more confident on the road! Yes! My braking and right turn is like rubbish! I need to improve, improve, improve!! Jia you! =)
After driving, I went to get drink for drew drew. I am damn hungry. So I got a burger! =) I went to get bubble tea from koi! OMG! $3.50 for the big cup. So damn expensive! But it is nice~~~~~ My favourite =) Suddenly, I miss bubble tea from cup-walker at sengkang. Maybe I should go down one day to get it.
By the time I reach home, eat my so-called dinner, it is already 10 plus pm. I am supposed to go grandma house to stay. In the end, I did not go because, it is late and mummy don’t let me go alone. It is dark there. Oh sadded!
Today morning, I played with the two kids and then in the afternoon, they left.
The weather is damn damn hot! I don’t understand why at all. I am melting. I wanted to go to my room for aircon. But I did not go because, angie is STUDYING and if I were to talk on the phone or make noise, she will complain I am disturbing her. I really wonder, is it our room or her room.
There is this once, I was talking on the phone at night. My mood was lousy so I called wai and talk. I was whispering ok! In the middle of the night, her phone rang and she woke up. After which, she was trying to sleep. She can’t fall back to sleep and went to smoke and came back. Ok, so it isn’t my fault! She went to complain to mummy that I disturb her sleep and all. Damn! She made me get scolding from daddy and mummy.
I did not even make a single noise when she wakes up at 4 plus am and on television. Her television woke me up and I just keep quiet and try to continue to sleep. During my exam period, I on alarm to wake myself up. In the end, she went to complain to mummy that my alarm disturb her sleep. Ok fine! So during 2 weeks of exam, I have a bed and I CAN’T SLEEP ON MY BED! I had to sleep on the sofa.
And when she have work, sometimes, her alarm keep ringing and she forgotten to off it when she went to bathe. I did not even make a single noise ok! She keeps saying she want a room all by herself. She don’t have space to study and all. Oh please! She owns the whole room and all I have in there is a bed!
I have a room and I can’t occupy at all. She eats in the room, study in the room, always locking herself in the room. Better still, sometimes I want to go to bed and she locks herself in the room, not knowing what she is doing. Then I don’t dare to disturb her also, later she complain she don’t have privacy. Ok fine, I go and sleep on the sofa while waiting for her. Damn! That is so unfair!
She is always complaining and get me into trouble. All she wants is to get me out of the damn room! I have a room and yet, I can’t occupy the room. What kind of logic is this?
Ok, enough of that crap! Spoil my mood. For some reason, mummy is talking about me going to learn piano again. I don’t know about it. It seems wasted that my piano just stop there. In addition, I am already grade 5. So isn’t it just so wasted? Well, my problem is that I did not practice and my teacher always scold me. So I decided to quit =( Oh well, I’d think about it.
I am so melting. The weather is damn damn hot! =(
I feel like watching xiao qian, a chinese ghost story. I think many people heard of it before =) It is a cartoon animated ghost love story. Not really ghost but the main character, xiao qian, is a ghost. That is all. I like the story though =)
MELTING!!!!
I HATE WAITING!
Especially on such damn bloody idiot hot weather!
Why is people keep making me wait wait wait. Not first time already! I HATE WAITING! See that, READ that! Worst are those who wait and don’t give me a reply!
I aren’t some patient kid! FREAK!
Whoo~ I am having driving AGAIN today =( I am super lazy to go down to SSDC. Oh shucks! Lazy pig!
Yesterday, I nua at home the whole day! And in the evening, I went down to SSDC for driving lesson. I saw someone I don’t really want to see though. Haha! I got the fierce fierce instructor again. He isn’t that fierce after all!
Throughout my driving, I only got 2 main instructor who had been taking me, koh and jahir. Jahir is the fierce fierce instructor. He was a policeman and now, he became an instructor in SSDC. And for koh, I like him! My favourite instructor. He was previously from BBDC and he transfer to SSDC.
Yesterday, jahir was asking me “do you ask koh a lot of questions?” I was like “I don’t know. I think quite a number. Why? I ask you a lot of questions ah?” And he say “A little! You keep asking me why why why. Sometimes, you asked something and then you answer it yourself. Like those problematic kid.” OMG! I am a problematic kid -.-
After driving, I took bus home. Yawn! I went to buy egg tart for drew drew! My favourite! I did not want to eat. So I did not get any for myself. And for the WHOLE of yesterday, my breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper is 1/4 pack of chicken rice. OMG! I am dying!!!
Today morning, I woke up quite early. I woke up at 6 plus am. I have no idea why! I think angie’s television on too loud and woke me up.
Yesterday, drew drew took out his SSDC booklet. And we looked at the dates. My enrol date is 2009 and his, 2006! Look at the difference! And he kept laughing at me. Damn! I was looking through drew drew’s booklet. He had a total of 36 lessons. And the best of all is, he actually spent about 12 lessons on test route! OMG! He is so zai!
Suddenly, I am so worried! I don’t know if I can pass my practical! OMG! I think for now, I better worry for my FTT. Damn! I need to wait till may to take my ftt! =( I better start practicing.
My concession is ending!!!! =(
APRIL IS CURSED!
I slept too much and ate too little today! Haha! Yesterday, I slept too little and today, I slept too much.
Today morning, I woke up at 8 plus am. And then I went back to sleep until 9 plus am. That is early. So I came out to watch television, on my computer. I can’t access to RC again and I decide to give up after 1 try. Haha!
I start nua-ing and watching television instead until about 12pm, I got so bored and decided to go and rest. My phone kept ringing. People are trying to meet me. Haha! I got so nua on bed that I decided to stop replying and sleep.
At 1 plus pm, drew drew wake me up. He is feeling super unwell and giddy. So I had to serve him. Oh shucks! I went back to sleep after drew drew went to the living room. At 2 plus pm, drew drew called me using his handphone. Hmm! I had to serve him again. Haha!
And I went back to sleep after serving him. At 3 plus pm, angie came home and I got woken up by her. Grr! And I went back to sleep. At 4 plus pm, mummy called me regarding some matter. Oh shucks! I decided to wake up and go and watch television.
For the whole day, I only ate dinner! Die die die! For this holiday, I think I am eating lesser and lesser meals! And the worst thing is, I am eating half the amount I usually eat for dinner. I don’t feel hungry, the moment I see the food, I find myself very full and no appetite. I wonder what is wrong. I need to eat more. My hair is dropping more and more each day. One day, I will become bald! I don’t want that to happen!!! =(
I was so bored and decided to read my blog archives. Suddenly, I miss “the daily scoop”. It had been quite some time since drew drew actually drove me to sunset way for ice cream! I remember the last time I went was with drew drew, anna, yh and kaitlyn. Kaitlyn tied a meatball hair style because she want to be like sailormoon! Haha! I want to go there for ice cream again!
I was talking to kah wai. Haha! Whee! As usual, we are talking about relationship stuff. Relationship seems to be the talk of the week for me and her. Well, there are quite a number of things happening. There are some which I just do not want to say. I guess, I am not ready to say it yet.
We started talking about my history. I was telling her that last time, samuel used to reject me not because he don’t have feelings for me, but it is because he is too scared of me. I decided to ask my cousin “am I that scary?” And her direct answer is “Yes!”. So embarrassing! OMG!
You know, somewhat, history is repeating itself. I don’t know why. I just have a feeling that history will repeat and I am getting worried and paranoid. Maybe, history just repeats. I don’t wish to have the same script happening. Maybe I am just so scary. Well, maybe all the guys I met are not like the guy I previously mention, “he loves her so much that he gives her unlimited amount of chances.”
Oh well~ It is something that I don’t have the capability to play with. I don’t want to find something light. I want to find something heavy. So heavy that it will be there and regardless how big the wind is, it won’t go away and stay with me. Regardless how I kick it away, it will be there. There used to be a guy who will be there but things just ended like that. I guess I should be thankful that I used to have such a history. Will that part of history repeat? I need the same script, different cast!
My friend change her blog song, 一个人生活. And this song, brings back so much memories. I remember I was so into this song. I remember that time, I was so emo over some problem and I actually started spamming this song on my laptop. And drew drew was asking me about the emo-ness! Haha!
我想我可以习惯一个人生活；我想我可以假装不曾爱过；
I suddenly find april so cursed! Last year, during april, many people met with relationship problem. And this year april, it is repeating! Many are meeting relationships problem. Hmm! April is so cursed! Maybe next time, during the month of april, I should learn to distant from my partner. Haha!
Lately, I had heard a lot of relationship problems from other people. Those that I heard are mainly the unhappy side about their relationship. Well, how often people share about the good times they have with their partner? I admit that I only call on my cousins when I desperately need help. Haha!
I was watching television and I saw this line, “If you love someone, you will always give chance for the relationship to work out.” Seriously, how many of us actually give our partner a chance to make the relationship work out?
Usually, we will just run away from the problem. When you and your partner always quarrel, you will reach a point of very sian and decides to let go this relationship. And the reason is simple, it is because you have no idea what to do about this relationship. And also, you feel that there is no future to this relationship. Or even better, you feel one sided. Isn’t that always normal?
When come to relationship, I always look up to anna and yong hui’s relationship. They are like ‘ideal relationship’ to me. They have been together for about 7 years before marriage. That is so long! They tolerate each other, and give in to each other. Best of all, up to date, after married with 2 kids, they are still very loving. I always wish to have this kind of marriage. Haha!
There is this very close friend of mine. He always complain to me about he and his girlfriend quarreling again. His girlfriend would argue or stare at him and then, he can only keep quiet. Sometimes, from the way he tells me about how he and his girlfriend are heading, I just so want to tell him, “just give her up. you deserve better.”
However, I always fail to say that to him. Sometimes, I will just indirectly hint him about giving up. Then he will start telling me that she is actually very nice and all. He will look at her good points. What I am so amazed is that even though they quarrel like every night, break up is never the thought.
He always hope that the relationship will turn out better. He will give chance, so much chance that sometimes he feel so tired. But that does not stop him from loving her and giving her a chance to reciprocate. Though things does not get better, he isn’t giving her up. His love for her is something which made me feel that he is so strong and powerful.
Well, I believe, one day, everyone will meet the one who can give you unlimited number of chance just to get things work. And I believe, your hard work will be appreciated. If one day, you meet someone you love, give them the chance and opportunity to love you. Don’t give things up easily because some people are hard to come by. Imagine few millions of people and he only lay his eyes on you, give his heart to you. So yes, appreciate it! =)
If you love someone, give them the chance to work things out =)
No comments needed =)
Damn! It is all because of me, I think you are in deep trouble now. If not for the request I used to make, you will not do it. And because of that, I think you are in serious trouble. I am super guilty. So sorry about it. I think, this made things worst. So much worst.
Suddenly, I feel that I had cause a lot of troubles for you. I find myself such a burden. Oh shucks! I hate it. I am utterly sorry about it. Sorry for all the problems and troubles. So sorry about it.
Aren’t pinning much hopes. There are some things which I know regardless how long it is, it will never change already. I don’t know but yes, that is the feeling I get. I think, changes is always needed at times. Oh well, since things already happened, there is nothing I can do. I can only accept and wait.
Ok, or may be not wait. I don’t know what I am feeling now. It is super messy inside. Ah! Does it even matter how I feel? I don’t think it matters already. Maybe if I had kept quiet, things will not be that terrible. Maybe if I had kept quiet, I don’t think there will be this messy feeling. Maybe if I had kept quiet, you won’t be so troubled now. Maybe if I had kept quiet, I can skip the waiting. Maybe if I had kept quiet, things will just go the way as said.
So what now? I did not keep quiet, so things will not go the way as ‘maybe’. Me and my big mouth. Next time, I think I should have just shut the stupid mouth of mine. Ah~ That is if there is next time.
Ahh~ How how how!!! I am so lost now! My mind is in a mess and I can’t concentrate at all! I don’t want to get into an accident today =(
HOW?!
I am having driving later! Yawn! I am super lazy to go driving lesson. It takes me 1 hour to travel from home to ssdc via bus =( And today, my lesson is 5.55pm. And that means, it will end at 7.55pm and I will reach home at nearly 9pm. I don’t have dinner! =(
I am so tired! Yesterday night, I was talking to kah wai. We chatted until 4.30am. And I went off to sleep at around 5.30am. Yawn! Best of all, I woke up at 7 plus am. See, I am so power! I kept forcing myself to go back to sleep. I woke up every single hour. And at 11 am, I can’t get to sleep anymore.
I was watching television and I saw this particular place in Bali which is damn nice! It is a wedding church. Wedding church by the sea~ OMG! So nice! And the exteriors are mirror. Whooo~
*Pictures taken from Conrad Hotel Bali*
See! Isn’t it just sooo nice? This is the chapel at conrad hotel bali. Omg! The whole place is so nice. Flowers, sea, trees, everything is just there.
I think I better go and get some sleep before I go for driving. My eyes are super dry and painful. Haha! I think I should sleep more and watch less drama.
Yesterday, I watched zettai kareshi, also known as absolute boyfriend. I read the comics and it is super nice and funny! So I decided to watch it. Who knows, one of the male lead is actually the male lead in mei-chan no shitsuji. That is so coincident! Ok, the drama is touching! When it reaches the ending, I cried so much! OMG! And yes, this drama has only 11 episode =x
There are some things which I did not tell people about it. I have no intention of telling yet. Oh well, I don’t need people to come and tell me things I know. I also do not want them to pity me. Why am I so pathetic? Isn’t it good to see people being concern about you? Why do I find that people just pity me? I don’t want that kind of pity.
Some times, things does not go the way we want to. And I think, everything is planned nicely. Oh well, horoscope isn’t accurate at all. They cheated on me =( I should go and read it up again. May be I can think up of something new. Haha! Who knows, may be they will drop some hint whether I will get my letter to university. =)
Oh well, oh well! I still wish and hope it will happen. I still hope I will receive it. I still want something to happen. I have rather high hopes. However, as days goes by, I know the chances is getting lower and lower. Or should I say, I wish will happen is 90%, I think will happen is 5%. Sooner or later, both will drop to 0%. And the day it drop to 0%, it will be the day I really give up on that thinking.
AH! Miracles, please happen. I need some miracles.
Communication is very important.
And I am lack of it.
Boohoo! Poly is starting next week. It has nothing to do with me though. My concession ends next week too. So stupid! That means my fare is all adult fare =( I am going to camp at home. That help in saving money. I am jobless, no extra income.
Today is the last week of holiday already! Oh oh oh~ I am waiting for university letter. Whee!
I am supposed to be busy and happy this week. Well, thanks to some reason, I am going to be quite free =) On tuesday, thursday and friday evening, I got driving. I did not go for driving for one week already! OMG! My progress is so super slow~ Wheee!!!!
Initially, there are many plans for this week. But overnight, it is all cancelled. It’s ok. I can stay home nua. I think the cancelation is good too. Well, at least can do things that I want to do. It doesn’t really matter too =)
I want to sleep! Torturing cum emo~
We are so planning a Guangzhou trip!
Kah wai just went home. Yesterday night, after her church service, she was super lazy to go home. So, she decided to come over to my place to sleep over. Haha! Whee! We chatted and used the computer until 2 plus am. The both of us slept on the sofa together. Oh shucks! My body is longer than the sofa ok! Haha! We went to bed at 4 plus am.
This morning, I woke up and RC =) Finally RC is doing something. FINALLY! We had breakfast and lunch. Kah wai skipped her kick boxing lesson and continue nua-ing at my house. Then I was telling her about some gathering which I don’t know if I should go. And from there, I told her the story between me and a used-to-be close group of friends.
I have never mention them in my blog. Neither did I mention what actually happen. All along, I feel that if I were to mention about it, things will get worst and the tension will get tighter. This problem had been in me for quite some time. Yes, you people know who you are.
Ever since we got promoted to the following year, I start to get drifted from a group of used-to-be close friends of mine – A, B, E, N, O, Z. Our path we different. We made different choices and now, we are walking different path. There were 3 paths. I am the only one who chose path C. E, A, N and Z chose path A.
For the first few weeks of our new path, the few of us were still quite close. I was telling E and N that I am going to be alone in path C and they actually tell me they will be there for me. We will be together, things will not change. I can catch up with the frequency very soon because there aren’t much changes.
Before I know, things start to change. I start to get drifted from those in path A and B. The lunch I used to had with a group of people from path A gone. We used to have lunch together. Last time, those from path A will message me when they are going for lunch. They will ask me to join them. Soon, they stop messaging me.
I did not ask much either. I just kept quiet. Until one day, by coincident, I was going lunch with J. And at the canteen, I actually saw them at the canteen too. J prompt me why they did not ask me for lunch and I was dumb folded. That is when I start to feel the change.
When my path meets with those in path A, things get so awkward. Before the path changes, we used to go lunch together. The moment the path changes and meet again, we stop going lunch together. Sometimes, after doing my things, I turn around, E, A and N are already gone.
I start meeting new people from my path. They are very funny, they never leave you out. They will pull you in. Yes, sometimes they do gossip but still, they are very nice people. And the best of all, they will never leave you alone. They will accompany you. Then I start to feel more relaxed in the new path.
In the new path, the people are very different. Practically most of them are of opposite gender. In my previous used-to-be close friends, they are all girls. And the moment I am in the new path, I mixed with people of opposite gender more. As the time we spent is more, I would talk to them more, discuss school work and others.
Make new friends but keep the old. I did try keeping the old. I will go over to E and N’s side to talk to them. E will totally ignore me. Many times when I talk to her, she will just ignore. She won’t even reply. She just totally switch off. She pushed me away.
Things start to get worst as time goes by. Then a new character appear, G. She got closer to E, A and N. They will discuss and talk behind my back. Sometimes, G even speak of things which is TOTALLY not true at all. And the best thing is, G even classify me as flirtatious. What hurt the most is, E and N kept quiet and agree to it. So after years of friendship, I thought they know me but sadly, not at all.
There is this trip they are planning to go together. They have totally no intention of asking me along at all. They asked me to go. I was so touched and at the same time, troubled. Those from path A planned a trip too. I intended to go. And when my used-to-be close friends tell me they are planning a trip too, I don’t feel like going at all.
What is the point of going when I know I will never enjoy it? What is the point of going when they actually planned together and leave me out? What is the point of going when I will earn myself more gossips by going? What is the point of going when I will just be alone all the way?
I was feeling guilty. They are my friends for years. If I were to go with just those from path A, it is super unfair. I don’t know what to do at all. Then things changed when I overheard them discussing. They wasn’t discussing about the trip. They were discussing about how I know they are going overseas? They were thinking and questioning people.
So yes, if not for the fact that they THINK I knows about their trip, they would have gone on their own. They would not have asked me along. They are asking me because they think I know and it LOOKS better when they ask me. So it will become MY fault that I am not joining them. So I decided to wait and see. I was waiting for them to prove me wrong. Prove that they asked me because they wanted to. In the end, I realise, NOT AT ALL! THEY HAVE TOTALLY NO INTENTION!
This is what the hurt me the most. I have no idea what went wrong but yes, things just went wrong. I told my cousin about it and she blogged about it too. She said something which I find it so right.
I told her, if i were her i would just forget about it. I mean seriously, if her clique really treasure her as a friend, they wun just leave her out like that. When they are really your friends, no matter what happen in the past, what misunderstanding, they will still come back to u and salvage the friendship. If all they can do is to talk behind her back and gossip about her, they are seriously being childish.
Yes! Someone told me that we should treasure every friendship we made because fate brought us together. I did my part in pulling things back together. It is E who wants to dissolve the friendship between me and her. Since she finds that there is no point in being back as friends, regardless how I try, she just won’t appreciate it.
Since she don’t appreciate it, I don’t feel the need to spend my time and effort in such person. She is becoming history and she will be history.
It’s ok! I don’t need that trip. I should thank them for letting me see their TRUE COLOUR. It saves me from the misery and dilemma. And best of all, it saves my money =)
And now, kah wai and I are planning to go GUANGZHOU together! And in june, my aunt is going shanghai. I am invited too =) Guangzhou trip is going to be so much fun than the short distant boring and no life trip with them!
KAH WAI, LET’S GO! =)
Oh shucks! I feel like watching mei-chan no shitsuji AGAIN! I feel like crying. No, don’t get me wrong.
I feel like watching the show to make myself cry. I sound so sick!
I am so tempted to watch! I want to watch the shuai bulter~ I want a bulter too! I don’t ask for much. I just want a shuai cum strong cum sweet cum protective A-rank bulter! Haha! I am not asking very much! =)
The drama has only pathetic 10 episodes! Ah shucks! So fast ended. I want more action of the super good looking and sweet attentive S-rank bulter.
Ok, stop the fa hua chi! I aren’t some rich kid~ Haha!
I got my graduation letter from NP. (like duh, from np) Haha! My graduation ceremony is held on 13th May, 4pm. And drew drew’s graduation ceremony is 12th May, 4pm. I am thinking should I go. I am allowed to invite 2 guest.
Well, I am not sure if I should go. I wonder are my friends going too. If they are going, I will be going too. That is IF! Haha! I like the graduation ‘ticket’. The thing is so damn nice! RED! Ok, I go gaga over things with NICE red~ =)
BME GRADUATES (my poly friends)
Tell me if you are going for graduation ceremony ok! If you are going, we find people and go all together! Tag me or msn me! I am VERY free!!! =) If can, we all go together and can take a group photos again like project exhibition!! =D
I AM DAMN SORRY OK!
Ok, I am back from grandma house =) Starting, I thought everything was ruined. Kenneth is not staying over, he is going club and all. No no, everything changed when he came over =) Yes my dear cousin did the right choice by staying with us because he is the one who initiated to SLEEP OVER!
Yesterday afternoon, I went out with npy. We went to watch the sniper and then went to the food court for dinner. After dinner, we walked around and then he accompanied me down to grandma house and we waited for my cousin to come.
Npy left and then I met up with wai. On our way to the lift, we saw 7th aunt and then we went to get newspaper with her. Soon after we went back to grandma house to rest. We waited for quite some time before kenneth come. When kenneth came, we were watching television and all.
At night, we were chatting and we got something new to talk. Kenneth must be thinking that he have such a sick cousin, which is me =) We chatted and chatted and at around 4am, kenneth went out and meet edmund. Then kah wai and I decided to start nua-ing and rotting.
When kenneth came back, we were still awake. Kah wai and I were talking about the future we want. Suddenly I find that the future I want is something so simple. I am more of the down-to-earth kind. I don’t mind being a housewife at home. I don’t need some WOW work. And of course, I want a happy family.
And for wai, she wants to be traveling always, she cannot stay in one country for too long. She wants freedom and some WOW work. Yes~ We are so different. Just like juan juan and anna. Same age but totally different wants and needs.
And we finally went to bed at 5.30 plus am. We woke up at around 11am and had our breakfast. Hmm~ Ok, time ticking by, we were looking at photos and at 1 plus 2pm, wai started doing female stuff while I waited for her. Then we left grandma house and headed to toa payoh interchange.
Ok, I took bus home. Emo-ed and yes. Reach home and on my RC. I have missed 1 day of RC already. So sad!
I did not know that you are impatient. Is it me or is it that you don’t seem to want to wait at all. Why did you keep calling while waiting? I waited for you before and did I keep calling you and bug you where you are? I will just wait quietly. Why is it that you keep calling and calling, keep asking me where I am? Do you even want to wait? Or is it because I said so, that is why you waited? I don’t need that.
You were so determined to wait just now. And yes, I admit I am happy. However, what is so disappointing is when I reach. You wasn’t there already. May be I am dumb or stupid or idiot. It is me who told you I don’t need you to wait. In the end, I wanted you to be there still. I don’t see why is it so troublesome for you to wait for me. Just by sitting there and wait, you made at least 5 calls bugging me where I am. If you don’t want to wait, or you are so busy, you can just go. From the very first message, you can just leave and go. Why must you keep bugging when you decided to wait on your own accord? Why must you tell me that you will wait, insisting that you will wait and then when I reach, you are not there at all? Why must it be like that? I have no idea what I want either. All I know is, I am very sad and I just want to be alone.
For you:
Sorry that I kept you waiting. If I know that you can’t wait, I won’t have made such request. Sorry. I will have just said it is ok. If I had know it, I would have insisted on my point. So sorry. I think I made a big mistake by telling you yesterday. So sorry. I promise there will not be a next time. I will not make you wait again. So super sorry about it. I did not know that asking you to do something and it ended up like this. So sorry. I did not know it will drag. Sorry about it. It must have wasted tons of your time.
HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY! =)
Yesterday, RC was down for the WHOLE day. It is the longest maintenance they ever had, till now. I was so bored and had nothing to do. So I went to sleep, watch television, blog hop and nua. What good life I have =)
I went to sleep at 1 plus pm and then wake up at around 4.30pm. I am still so bored! I was watching yi nan wang. Haha! After yi nan wang, I was nua-ing and wanted to do something. So I went to blog hop. I came across wanrong’s blog.
She was saying that she spent her time watching drama online. Then she mention this show called “mei-chan no shitsuji” which is also known as “mei-chan’s bulter”. I saw the picture she posted.
At first look, I though the middle girl at the first row was Da S. Haha! So I decided to go and check the show on dramawiki. It is some romance show. The story revolves around Mei, the girl in the middle of the first row. After her parents death, Rihito appears and call himself her bulter. And all of a sudden, her life is flipped, and discovers that she is actually the heiress to a fortune.
That show is quite funny. And of course, I cried practically every episode. I have no idea why I cried for every episode. But yes, it is nice =) This drama has only 10 episodes! Isn’t it so short? I also love japanese drama because they are short and sweet. Not like some drama, they are super laggy and draggy! Can’t stand it.
THANKS SO MUCH WANRONG to recommend some drama to kill time =)
Ok, I have to get going. I am going out later and I have yet to prepare! My RC is loding! Whee!
Bored + bored! I am staying at home rotting! OMG de bored! I have so many things to do but just so lazy to do. Haha! I am still waiting for something to happen =( When can that happen? When will it happen? I am so tired of waiting and waiting =(
I am so bored! Tomorrow is Good Friday. That means, it is a public holiday =) And it means free day! Haha! I am going over to grandma house to stay with my dear cousins. Whee! And I am going out tomorrow afternoon.
RC is down for maintenance. Oh so sad! No gaming for me today =( I am so bored! I wonder how is my employees~ They must be damn tired now. Haha! OMG! I so need RC now~ =x I am so bored! Why is it always on maintenance? Ah shucks!
Recently, there is a primary school gathering which I did not attend. And after the gathering, yi long created a group in facebook. Then they started uploading our primary school photos. OMG! It is some ancient photos taken 8 years ago. I look damn retard with the mushroom head!
The one and only formal photo. If you realise, all our hair are short! Stupid school do not allow girls to have long hair. And we are supposed to wear our nametag. Haha!
The one in stripe shirt is my form teacher, mdm lau. She is VERY fierce. She always scold us sickening toad. Haha! She taught us every subject except music, art and chinese. When we did badly for our test or homework, she will throw it OUT OF THE CLASSROOM! So scary!
The teacher in blue is my chinese teacher. I dislike her! She is damn bias! She will talk to the guys in a SUPER friendly tone and always scold the girls. I remember there is this once, we are supposed to do some chinese compo correction. When the guys hand up, she will not even check and let them off. When come to the girls, she will check through word for word. Even 1 small mistake like short of one stroke or stroke not long enough, she will not let us go home. So end up, practically the whole class girls stayed behind! So er xin!
I have no idea where this random photo came about but yes, it is super random. Spot me!! Haha! I can hardly be seen. I remember that day I was in a super bad mood! And I cried before. Haha! I don’t remember why but yes, I only remember I cried so I did not stand with my bestie. Haha! We took this outside our school hall. Oh! I remember a group of us always sit outside the hall and wait for the bell to ring. And I always LOVE sitting outside there because of some reason. Haha!
Ok, that is super random! Haha! I think the guys have all grew TALLER and the girls are more mature. Haha!
Whee! I need RC!
After a long day of RC, it is undergoing maintenance again. They just had maintenance yesterday night and again today. Damn. Why are they always undergoing maintenance? Why can’t they maintenance it all at one go. They always maintenance without telling and it is damn irritating to get kicked out of server. Idiot!
Ok enough is enough. I was chatting online for the whole afternoon. Yes yes yes, what can I chat? That does not really matter though. I was talking to people~ I was listening to some relationship problem.
I wonder, why are there JERKS in this world. My cousin was telling me that she broke off with her boyfriend (again). The guy is a JERK! After they put down the phone the other day, which was 1st april, 12 plus midnight, he did not call at all. They talk things through and the idiot actually accuse my cousin of adultery. Damn idiot!
Worst of all, after 5 minutes of accusing, he started sweet talking her. Crazy isn’t it? And the next minute, he just say that he wants to go to bed. DAMN IDIOT! How can he go to bed when his girlfriend is over the phone sobbing so hard? He is just sweet talking her because he wants to go to bed and end the topic is it? BLOODY IDIOT!
And ever since then, my cousin told him to call when he knows what he want. And yes, he FINALLY called yesterday. Oh thanks, FINALLY! They talked and then when he asked my cousin whether she wants to get back together, she say she want the old him and not the new one. What I like most is his answer, “I don’t think I will change back.” He don’t even bother saying he try! So why did he still ask?
The most amazing thing that happened is that during this period of time, he fallen for another girl already. Damn. It is just short 6 days and he fall for another girl? DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT! He is damn er xin!!!! Why is there such a guy who can fall for another girl so easily?
He is always saying that he is busy working, as a promoter. He hardly talks to my cousin and always complaining about wanting to go and sleep. However, he can watch television until 3am and not talk to my cousin a little more.
Come to think, this JERK still come begging my cousin to patch up with him when he is in a relationship with another girl! And the reason for going into relationship with the other girl is because he want to piss my cousin off. That is not all, when he broke off with the girl SUDDENLY, he did not explain the reason at all. All he said was “I’m sorry. we are just not suitable~” **playing some sad music behind~ Showing HOW he don’t want to let her go but sorry~**
The girl was still pinning hope, messaging him, hoping he will come back and they will solve together. He just pretended nothing happen and continue with my cousin. He can be always messaging my cousin those flirty messages when he is with her, calling my cousin every night, telling my cousin how much he misses her. TWO TIMER! I always have problem with TWO or more TIMER.
I know his family is SUPER happy~ He is like barney!! Yes, the purple dinosaur. You know, the song goes, “We are happy family, with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you”. I also know that his family is the HAPPIEST in the world. Nobody’s family is as HAPPY and UNITED as his is.
Everyone knows, everyone sees. We don’t need to be reminded HOW UNHAPPY family we have. We aren’t some primary school kids who go around telling people “SEE, my daddy and mummy buy xxx for my birthday! Not like your daddy and mummy did not buy anything for you! My daddy and mummy is the BEST!” Oh I thought such things only happen when I am in primary school. I did not know that a guy who has already been through NS would tell someone “Unlike you, I have a happy family!”
I hate JERKS like him. In the first place, he is a TWO TIMER, it is already a BIG BIG BIG wrong. Two time and did not explain to the girl and then start lying to her about how not suitable they are. LIAR! He works works works and did not bother to find a little time for my cousin but find more time for the television. IDIOT! He come asking my cousin if she wants to be together and then start telling my cousin he fall for another girl already. So he intend to two time again? BASTARD! He goes around being sarcastic, telling people about how wonderful his family is and how un-wonderful other people’s family are. CHILDISH!
He is not only a JERK. He is a TWO TIMER cum LIAR cum BASTARD cum IDIOT cum CHILDISH JERK!
Oh hello JERK, welcome to the WORLD OF JERK!
Ok, I am a little worked up. Haha!
Nua-ing at home! Wheee!
On Sunday night, I went out for dinner with my family to celebrate daddy’s and anna’s birthday! We went to Long Beach King restaurant which is located in kallang. We had seafood! Yummy! After meal, we went home and sleep! Haha!
*pictures will do the talking =)
On Monday, which is yesterday, I went out for the whole day! In the morning, I went to pedicure and manicure with anna. It is the first time I visit pedi and mani. Haha! It is soo cool! All the tools they have and all. I painted my nails super light! Anna painted red, bright red. I don’t want those super obvious colour. I am scared it is too odd. Haha!
After which, we headed home. Then I went to change and left to meet up with bff. We head down to shaw to watch movie. We watched the shinjiku incident. It is ok, quite disgusting. Super violent! OMG! Then we went to far east plaza to meet up with jiaping. We went for dinner at some place.
We walked around orchard, went to forum toys r us to shop. Haha! Back to childhood! Then we went to borders to look for books and headed down to newton circle. I have no idea why they want to go there but yes, we went there to chill.
We were chatting and chatting and we saw many ang mo. Haha! I think they spend most of their time eyeing on ang mo and how good looking they are. We left and headed home at around 11pm.
I came home and wanted to RC but stupidly, it is maintenance. I decided to head to bed~ No rc for tonight~
And for today~ it had rained twice already!!! Ah shucks~ I am so sleepy! I am soo hooked into the show on channel 8, 2.30pm to 3.30pm, 白蛇传. It is damn nice! I hate that stupid monk in the show. Irritating! I feel like squeezing him dry. Haha! I totally forgotten the story line already! I so want to remember what the ending is! IDIOT!!
I was talking to my cousin. OMG! I suddenly despise him soo much. I hate him soo much. Irritating! ER XIN!
Ok, let the pictures talk =)
I am hardly updating my blog. Yawn! I am so super bored! I had been RC-ing lately! RC so much that I am so sian! Haha! I have to keep refreshing my computer because stupid RC needs to do refresh when new people are added. Irritating!
I feel so damn extra now. I realise that they are more focused on him. Well, it is so simple. Just because she invested on him so much more. She always ignore me when I ask her about things. When I talk to her, she also ignore. When he ask her, she will reply and give suggests and all. Just because he is into something which seems to have better future. It is always all on him. First choice is always him. I am so sick and extra.
Whatever she do, all she think of is him. She is always asking me to settle things for him. In the end, he don’t even give me back. What the hack. She always say I don’t save and all. Why not ask him to return me everything? For him, she will go and get. I ask her to get, she will scold me for being lazy.
He can don’t do anything, I can’t. I must do it. Every time it will be me who get the saying. And the thing it is not and NEVER him. Just because he is a little hardworking lately, I get more saying. She wants me to do this, do that. What about him? It now become all my fault.
Not only her. The other her, she focus on him also. Whatever there is, it will always him who get first offer. I know, I don’t go into that thing. So what? I am just not into that thing. So is it my fault? People love it but sadly, I am just so not interested in it. So that makes me an extra here! I hate hate hate hate it soo much!
Ok, cut the crap. Back to something else.
Yesterday, I went out. I went to meet up with npy in the afternoon. We took bus from toa payoh down to pasir ris. We went to pasir ris to have our lunch. We shared a bowl of porridge and zhu chang fen. Haha! Yummy! =) After which, we took bus down to downtown east.
We have free ticket to escape theme park. We went to escape theme park to play. One ticket is for 2 people. And we have 2 tickets. We totally forgotten that one ticket is for 2 people. So in the end, one ticket wasted.
There are 3 rides not working – twister, inverter and rainbow. Oh shucks! My favourite rainbow is gone! I don’t have rainbow to sit already =( So after the rides, we can go and collect free admission ticket because 3 machines are down. Yay~ But I don’t think I will go again. So we went to play other things.
We first went to queue up for daytona go-kart. We had to queue up for super long. How sian. We spent nearly 1 hour waiting. I was the first to go and the last to come back. Idiot! Stupid one ok! I let so many people over take. Grr! We went to get some drink before proceeding.
Then we went to queue up for pirate ship. Whoo~ We sat on the third row from behind. While queuing up, we saw npy’s friend. The weather is soo hot! I am melting. It is either I did not sit for a very long period already or it is because it had became higher. Suddenly, I find that it is soo scary! OMG!
After the pirate ship, we went to play the wet and wild. I am so not wet. Npy is drenched! Haha! Then we went for daytona beginner go-kart. Haha! I am the pessenger and npy is the driver. How irritating! There is this small boy, his daddy is the driver. Npy and I do not want to overtake them though we are like so damn near. The small boy is soo cute! There is two stupid brainless person, came and overtake us and then overtake the daddy. In the end, accident -.-
After daytona, we went for cho cho train. Haha! It is a place for kids! We are ‘oversize’ kids. Haha! Then we went for pirate ship again! I am so dying! We spent $1 playing some remote control boat. So no life! Haha! Then we left escape theme park. We went to get a drink at burger king and headed for dinner.
We went to E!hub for dinner. We went to bbq chicken for dinner. The food is nice. Haha! The overall environment is good too =) After meal, we went to this shop and headed home~ Yawn! We took bus down to jalan toa payoh.
I am so tired! Haha! I started RC as usual and then played with the computer. Haha!
Tonight, I am going dinner with family. OMG! My er jie jie is going too! It is sooo random!
Tomorrow, I am going out with bff. Haha!
I so want to go and get a haircut again!
Playfish is so damn screwed!
Ok, restaurant city is under playfish.
Just like maple is under asiasoft.
DAMN PLAYFISH!
Before the maintenance, the redecorating thingy is fine!
After maintenance, the redecorating thingy is like crap!
People spend money, decorate nicely and the thing lose connection.
SCREW PLAYFISH!
Else people get their house in total mess.
Or they get their items cloned!
Why is it so screwed?
STUPID PLAYFISH!
I went to email the support group.
They are a group of people who do not support AT ALL!
I told them about the bug which I think many people did.
And guess what is their reply?
”Note that by playing a game that is in Beta you acknowledge that problems are to be expected.”
They are sooo rude!
So they are saying we are looking for trouble ourselves?
We should not play beta games.
We should have anticipated the problems and bug.
If not for players like US, can they find problem?
We notify them about the bug, aren’t they suppose to go and solve it?
INEFFICIENT PLAYFISH!
Yesterday, they spent the whole evening till this morning to maintenance it.
When we told them about the problem, aren’t they suppose to go and look into it fast?
I must say, they are super duper uper INEFFICIENT!
What is this?!
Oh crap!
I was sooo looking forward for my restaurant rampage and spend money.
In the end, this playfish moderator crap is making me fed up.
They are soo rude.
Slap them if I can!
I am so not going to rampage my restaurant for now!!!
I SOO WANT A CHINCHILLA!
It is also known as 龙猫!
Did you read iweekly this week?
One of the page, they are talking about CHINCHILLA!!
OMG OMG OMG!! That is my FAVOURITE animal!
Many people do not know what is a chinchilla when I told them =(
I used to have a email, chinchilla_friend. Haha!
I want a chinchilla!
But I can’t!
1) Drew drew is sensitive to fur. So no fury things at home
2) Chinchilla is expensive.
3) They sleep in aircon.
See! I can’t have a chinchilla =(
I saw iweekly and they said about the different kind of chinchilla and their price!
The chinchilla I like is about $1200 =(
I saw this chinchilla which is quite nice and it is about $1300. OMG!
My favourite is the pink white chinchilla.
The other one I saw which was quite nice is the black velvet ebony carrier.
OMG! So nice!!! =)
I want a chinchilla!!
I am going to get one next time =X
This is the pink white chinchilla! Isn’t it so pure and look such like a sweetie?! I know it looks like a rabbit! Haha!
This is the black velvet ebony carrier chinchilla! OMG! Such a nice colour~
I LOVE CHINCHILLA!
I am soo bored! I woke up super early today for RC! Haha! Addicted! I waited till 11pm yesterday night and it is still MAINTENANCE -.- So sad! So I decided to go and sleep.
This morning, I woke up damn early and started RC =x See, hooked + addicted. LOL!
I am so sick and tired of waiting for them to level up. I realise chinswee level up damn super fast ok! I wonder how he do it. I try playing but is like overnight, his level FLY from level 18 to 21. I am like soo sian to see my RC forever stucked at level 14. Just one day, sandi’s level jump from level 12 to 14! And she is catching up with my level =(
IT IS TAKING AGES!!! =(
I need 46,000 Points to get to level 17 so I can employ 8 people! And that is the maximum number of employee. And now, I am only level 15, 33600 points =( That is like SOOO FAR AWAY! Ah! I need to get to level 16 first, 38000. I am still very far~ =(
I was soo bored that I decided to do a floor plan for my restaurant when I get to level 17 with 8 employee.
See, I am so bored! I am going to spend soo much money! Buy new tables and chairs, buy accessories, Paint the wall, change floor tiles colour. Whee! And this is going to be my new restaurant!
I am going to make my house black and white series! Haha! I agar calculated the total amount spend on tables and chairs. I need a total of 18 tables and 18 chairs. I am going to use black tables + white chairs. That means, I need about $7,200 for the black tables and $6,300 for white chairs.
Then I want to re-tile the floor. That means I need to get 12x12=144 tiles. Haha! And If I decorate using white and black tiles, in square format, I need 60 black tiles, 84 white tiles and that means, $1,272! Or I use one of the tile which is black and white. That means I need to spend $1,728 for that tiling.
And for divider, I am going to get a white divider which is $200 each or glass chromo type which is $700. I need about 8 divider which means, $1,600 or $5,600.
In total, I need about $7,200 + $6,300 + $1,272 + $1,600 = $16,372. I have yet to add the wall painting =x Haha! I am so going to be broke =(
FASTER LEVEL UP~~
Oh yes did I say?
STUPID RESTAURANT CITY IS MAINTENANCING!! (is there such a word?)
I came home at 4.20pm, they were having maintenance.
They says visit 30 minutes later.
At 5.30pm, I visited again~
At 6.00pm, I visited.
At 6.30pm, I visited.
From 6.30pm till now, I pressed refresh until my computer hang.
AND THEY ARE STILL HAVING MAINTENANCE!!!!! =(
Happy April Fool’s! =) I am not going to fool anyone! I am such an angel =D I am having driving during the late morning. Oh yes! Bff is coming back from his hong kong trip today. Haha! Hope he enjoyed the trip. And I hope he brought me souvenir.
Yesterday (Tuesday), I went out with fishball. Today, he had some stuff to settle. Ok, he need not take off to settle that stuff but he just want to. In the morning, I went to him.
I am supposed to meet him at 11.30am but in the end, I left house damn late. So in the end, I took cab down. The uncle is super nice and friendly. He asked me about my education, which poly year I am in, am I looking for part time now. I told him yes but I can’t find any. He was telling me “don’t worry, it is not because your qualification not good enough, it is because of the economy. Don’t be disheartened ok =)” OMG! So sweet of him.
I went to meet fishball and accompanied him. After which we headed down to douby ghaut for lunch. We went to swensens. They had this 1-for-1 lunch treat. We had main dish each. I had swensen’s combo. Yummy! The calamari rings don’t feel cooked. Haha! And fishball had breaded chicken meuniere. In addition, we ordered a cup of sweet as berries. OMG! That is damn nice =)
After meal, we went to the cathay to watch a Confession of a Shopaholic. While waiting for the movie to start, fishball and I were chatting. Then we went in to the cinema early to wait for the movie to start. The show is nice =) Well, at least it is funny. Ohh~ The world becomes beautiful when you shop. Haha!
Then we went back to plaza singapura to look for bags~ I saw this backpack from carrefour. I like the purple one~ However, it is $55 ok! OMG! I am thinking, do I need it? Haha!
We went to get food from subway and then went to istana park to eat. I saw joel while buying food! Haha! So coincident! Fishball and I chatted until 7 plus 8pm, we went to take bus home. Yawn! I am so tired! I have to study for my theory and I am so not!
I had durian for dinner. Yummy~ Daddy bought durian =)
Today, I went for driving in the morning. Yawn! I have driving at 10.30am today! That is so early! I left house at around 9.30am, thinking I will be late. In the end, I was early. The car allocation television was spoilt. So we were manually allocated to the cars.
I kept turning round and round the circuit today~ I went on road and whoo! I drove to somewhere. Haha! I realise that when I am turning left, I will check right blind spot and vice versa. Oh shucks! That is so screwed up. Haha!
I took shuttle bus to yck mrt station and I took train home. When I am on the shuttle bus waiting, I saw samuel. That is so coincident. I think he came for trial theory test. I came home and had lunch. I was studying for my theory and then drew drew fetch me to ssdc again! We got lost and I was 25 minutes late for test. Ahhh!
This time, I manage to pass my TTT. Finally! I got 49/50 =) So happy! I just wish I can do that well for my FTT. Pray!!!!
Daddy came home with a package. It is for me. Ah~ Happy for nothing =(
I so hate NTU! Why don’t they send me a letter FAST and chop chop?! I soo need a letter from them~ Can they send me asap please!!! =(